Surfhunny's Countdown to Florida

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Hi

Today's food sounds great. I think yesterday it was the super noodles that upped your cals. You don't get much in the pack for the amount of cals . When off cd I used to live on porridge. Fills you up, low gi.... Great stuff.

 

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P.S what about sugar free jelly? Low cal and filling?

 

[Surfhunny]

I was mortified when I saw the cals in the supernoodles but had nothing else in, I need to do a big shop tonight. Today I'm much more organised, no more noodles!

 

[Surfhunny]

Today has been fine, not felt hungry at all, I did get a blazing headache mid afternoon, I put it down to not drinking enough because it was one of those I used to get on CD if I hadn't had enough water, so tomorrow more water!!!

This is how today went

Breakie
Special K 173 cals

Lunch
Homemade veggie soup 82 cals

Tea
Homemade chicken curry and rice leftovers 450 cals

Snacks
Special K mini breaks 99 cals
Mullerlight yoghurt 98 cals
Activia Fat Free yog raspberry 59 cals

Total
961 cals

Not bad and not hungry!! I need to break the eating out of boredom habit I've got into recently.....

Tomorrow I've got a Covent Garden Soup I found in Saimsburys, it's half the size of their normal cartons and only has 90 something cals, bought a few of them cos there's just the right amount there. Then for tea I've got a ww ready meal because I need something quick and easy this week as I'm on call all week and could be in for a few late ones.

Two days in and so far so good dare I say it?

 

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hi

sky 114 9pm.



paul, my hubby, likes the m&s count on us meals as they're just as good as the regular meals but lower in cals.

 

[Surfhunny]

Eeeee lovely Bob is about to be on my telly again!!! BL rules!!! Tissues at the ready, I cried like a baby last series.

Yeah I like them too and m&s do a little cottage pie which is only about 100 ish cals and is just the right size for lunch, it's very tastey! Might have a trip to M &S next shopping trip.

 

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they're 3 for 2 at the min too.

 

[Surfhunny]

Oooh trip to T-Park if I get finished on time tomorrow then!!

 

[Surfhunny]

Aaargh work is a nightmare at the moment, I'm on call all week and I hope it doesn't keep going like this. Last night I didn't get in until 8pm, tonight it was 7pm, but then called out again at 8.45 and I've only just got home at midnight not good!

So anyway food wise....

Breakie
Special K 173 cals

Lunch
Covent garden soup 99 cals
Mullerlight 98 cals

Tea
WW beef hotpot 230 (?) cals
Shape chocolate yoghurt 105 cals

Snacks
Special k bites 99 cals
5 quality street chocs 100 cals

Total
904 cals wouldve had the full 1000 if I hadn't had to go back to work.

 

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can't believe that they don't have staff at the hospital on shifts to take the post 8.15 'rush!'

 

[Surfhunny]

They do for general X-ray, but I'm specialised to vascular and Mr Parrys lot. It's too specialised work fir everyone to be trained in so the select few cover between 5pm and 9am on an "on call basis", it's pants but like last night we saved a life so it can be very worth it. Just doesn't seem that way sometimes.

Anyway today while wandering aimlessly round Asda trying to find low cal food that's easy to cook and isn't processed to death I started really thinking about what to do to lose weight. Not sure I have the time I need to really be organised enough to stick to 1000 cals, so I'm going to give SW another bash, I don't have to worry about finding how many cals are in the average potato and constantly having to keep adding cals up (maths is not my strong point). Instead I'm going to try to stick to green and red days no messing with this new system SW has now just keep it simple. From what I can remember SW is pretty low cal anyway.

I might as well give it a whirl and see how I get on. I think so long as I'm constantly thinking about what goes in my gob and making an effort to follow a lower cal diet of some kind the weight should start to come off slowly. Trouble is I'm impatient..... Which is why CD worked so well first time round. But mum insists that I givemy body a rest from VLCDs of any sort for a while so I'm listening because I think she's right.

Right I'm off to dig out my old SW books to swot up on what I'm doing! X

 

[*Shanny*]

Morning sal mummy knows best and it's true, good choice to give sw another bash.
Member to give it time and for your body to adjust to the change!
Hope h have a restful weekend x

 

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i agree also.... don't stress if you initially put on as your body has a mind of it's own it will need to get used to doing something different.

my mum's having op with mr P either today, tomorrow or tuesday. it depends on whether he gets any emergencies in. i'm hoping he doesn't as my mum know's mr p is on the ward today and she's already stressing. it just needs doing asap.

 

[Surfhunny]

I'm going to go on a bit here because I'm completely devastated!!! I've decided to be brave and go on the scales because I've come to the conclusion not knowing my weight is dangerous, and boy was I right!!! I have gained a colossal 1st 7lbs since the week before I went on holiday!!! I'm gutted!!

I'm scared that I'm never going to be able to live a normal life, I gain weight just looking at food it seems 21lbs in 2 months is bloody scarey stuff, wish I could lose it that fast!!!

I realised I'd had a big gain but not that much I'm terrified at how quickly and how easily it's gone on, I'm so scared that I'm not going to be able to shift it again, it seems like such a mammoth task!! I feel sick and disgusted with myself I feel like a complete failure because I promised myself I'd never get to this size again and here I am.

I can't stop crying, I know I shouldn't feel sorry for myself I've done it all on my own, no-one forced me, but I can't help feeling that if I hadn't listened to my mum when she said I needed to give CD a rest for a while I wouldn't have gained so much because although I wasn't losing much I wasnt gaining either, oh god what am I going to do??? I can't do CD again, not yet I can't stomach the shakes yet, I've just tried.

I don't feel like I can talk to my mum about it because she was the one who keeps telling me to give CD a rest, I don't blame her which is how it sounds she didn't force the food into my gob, but I don't think she supports me much, I think she's sick of my dieting problems, I feel so totally on my own with this I knew it was bad but not this bad devastated

PMT Friday was probably not the best time to decide to find out how much I weigh sorry for this long rant but I'm scared and lonely and so upset

 

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just remember with a gain around 7lbs can be water and will most likely 90% of it come off the first week of any diet. i had a stress night yesterday after not loosing this week and the stress of my mum and i had 2 glasses of wine, some bisc, smarties, crisps. it didn't make me feel better and i've put on 3lb overnight. diets are pants!

start slimming world as planned, stick with it for 3 months then re-evaluate. if you can't stomach the shakes then you can't really do cd. in a couple of months you might stomach the shakes again and go for it.

 

[Surfhunny]

I've had a big think over night and this morning!!!! I've made a decision about what I'm going to do about my ever increasing weight.

I feel that I have no choice because the scales are going to keep going in the wrong direction if I do nothing.

My decision is this.... I'm going to do 2 weeks of CD to try and give myself a good start and also to get back into the 14's again. I'm not making any promises to myself that I'll continue it after the two weeks, but I will do some form of structured diet because I clearly can't do it on my own.

Therefor I am on day 1 today. I've had 2 shakes so far, held my nose and swallowed for the first but the second was like an old friend!! I'm just going to see how it goes, I need to get out of the 15's because that's scary weight!! Ideally I'd like to get to 14st 7lbs before moving onto SW.

I haven't told my mum because it's just a temporary thing unless I can really get back into it.

So today, on day 1 my weight is 15st 3lbs (eeeeeek)!!! I guess it just goes to show the dangers of avoiding the scales and living in denial. Time to take action or I'll be back to where I started before I know it!!!!

 

[*Shanny*]

Im here sal and have read your post and it sounds very wise for you to restart again.! even if it is for a short period to get you back in the 14's.!

I admire you for taking this step instead of gaining more weight back on.! Honestly the lady AWAKEN ME posted on my diary this week and one thing she said was "take it hour by hour" and you know shes right.!

And thats what i have done 'hour by hour' and im winning Sal.

so try and do this you know once you are in ketosis you are feeling well better.!


so do u have 2 weeks supply to use or are you seeing your CDC soon??


since thursday i am not having my weekly meeting with my CDC anymore as ive told myself i am supporting myself.!


so she drops my tash off and goes no chat, weigh in, measurements.!

And im liking it this way,as you have to be one strong cookie on this diet.!


And guess what Sal "you are one strong cookie"
give it your best sal, and dont forget we are all
here for you hun.!!


how much water u had so far?? xxx

 

[Where's My Feet?]

Surfhunny I feel your pain. In a selfish was its really good to read your post as it sounds just like my story and I really think that there is something wrong with me! So, although it doesn't help you, I feel a bit more normal. Like you I seem to put weight on by just looking at stuff and I'm worried about the future if my weight keeps increasing. I've put a stone on since 21st November and I felt like a big fat heiffer then!

YOu really do have to be in the zone to do this thing don't you? And by that I mean any diet really, not just CD. Like you I need to see the big weight losses and sometimes I think that SW/WW leave me fixated by food. If I can stick to CD for a couple of weeks I know I will get to a place where I'm just not that bothered about food and I'm not thinking about it all the time. I don't always feel like that when doing SW/WW as I think about food a LOT then!

So - I am just taking it day by day. I am not thinking about tomorrow, my goal is to get through today. I know I'm only on day 2 but I have done CD before and been really successful.

I think your plan sounds like a great one. 2 weeks on CD will give you a great (re)start then you can decide how you want to continue.

But above all else remember that you have done SO, SO well so far anyway! Stick with it kidda.

 

[Surfhunny]

She is right, I'm taking it hour by hour and so far so good, I really can't stay this weight it's too horrible!! I've got about a months supply before I need to see my CDC again but my pride won't let me go back while I'm this weight!!

I'm also not sure whether to go back to my old CDC or go to my original CDC, she's a lot tougher than my usual one.... Not sure I guess I'll make that decision later on.

So far I've had almost 2 litres of water and the toilet is my new best friend. I'm not looking forward to the comments at work on Tuesday, but I'll just have to suck it up.

And thanks Shanny I know you're always here and I appreciate your help xx

 

[Surfhunny]

Thanks Wheres my feet? I know what you mean and it does help to know that someone else is the same as me, in how easy it is to gain weight, I felt like it was just me!! I think it's just a case of sticking with it, I've proved that I am ALWAYS going to have to watch what I eat and be on some form of diet (hopefully not CD tho).

It's a tough journey but the more mistakes I'm making the more I'm learning!!