Day17
I guess I'm into the swing of the diet now, I am not feeling hungry and its mainly just coping with the desire for different tastes and textures, and thinking about how long it will take to reach the target I have set myself. My doctor gave me an antibiotic spray for my ear, which is very weird, I've never had that before (he says the infection isn't in my middle ear?), I think I just have a bit of a cold really, which is annoying and makes you just want to stay in bed.
Anyway, I am still trying to figure out what I can do different to the last time I did LL, I dont want to get to target and then spend the next few years eating my way back up to being so obese again. I think the challenge of coming off TS for my Nephews wedding, enjoying the celebrations and then getting back on plan will be a really good thing for me. I think learning how to catch myself and managing binges might be a good thing. I need to know what naturally slim people do.... do they have a blow out and then have a few days of slimming? This is what I want to understand, I am sure they dont deprive themselves all the time....Instead of managing my weight over years, perhaps I should be managing it over weeks. The challenge though is I still have such a lot to shift.
On top of these conversations with myself I keep talking about how long it will take to get slim, what I am missing, and then not missing. The internal chatter is a real pain in the arse..... yak, yak, yak drives me insane!
So things are going well, I have been on the scales but the loss since WI is minimal and isnt helping with motivation (still it is only Wednesday) so I am going to try to resist going on everyday.
Hope everyone is having a good day
Sarah x