Oh dear. Slinking back in...
You have no idea how disgusted and disappointed in myself I am. I've totally ruined things for myself this weekend. Decided to have a drink when we went out on Saturday, which would have been fine. Except that instead of sticking to vodka and diet coke like I'd promised myself, I drank far too many Kopperberg, Rekordelig and alcopops. Probably could have just about gotten away with it had I left it at that. But no, greedy guts here had to go and get cheesy chips with mayo AND a pizza on the way home. I ate all of it as well - even had the two slices of leftover pizza for my breakfast yesterday morning. Followed by too many hifi bars, soreen lunchbox loaves, bags of crisps and creme eggs.
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It's safe to say I'm now dreading weigh in tomorrow. My home scales (which are only about half a lb out from groups) are showing a 3-4lb gain. Absolutely disgusting!!
Why have I done this to myself after 4 fantastic weeks and 4 great losses to match!? I really loathe myself right now and I feel like I could cry, I am that angry and frustrated with myself. What makes it even worse is that I have my aunties 50th birthday party this weekend and then it's Valentines the weekend after. Neither of which I am looking forward to now, because it's just another chance for me to mess up.
I could scream!!!
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Ok rant over and there's my line drawn. The one and only positive is that I am deciding to start afresh today. Normally I struggle to get back "on it" until I've been officially weighed and seen the damage. But I can't afford to mess things up for myself any more than I alreay have.
This is how today is looking...
Green
(S) = Speed (SS) = SuperSpeed
Breakfast:
- Dorset Cereals Simply Delicious Muesli (HExB) topped with a 0% Activia Strawberry Yogurt, Strawberries (SS), Blackberries (S), Blueberries (S) and Grapes
Lunch:
- Tesco Falafel and Butternut Squash Salad
Dinner:
- Baked Sweet Potato topped with Red Lentil Chilli (Red Lentils (S), Mushrooms (S), Peppers (S), Red Onion (S), Chopped Tomatoes (S) and Heinz 5 Beans (S/SS)) and Cheese
Other:
- Milk throughout the day in Coffee, etc. (HExA)
- Chocolate Orange HiFi (HExB)
Healthy Extra A: 250ml Semi Skimmed Milk & 40g Reduced Fat Cheddar
Healthy Extra B: 35g Dorset Cereals Simply Delicious Muesli & 1 x HiFi