Feeling so down and ashamed of myself today, boyfriend took me for a meal yesterday as he said hes proud of how far ive come so far with my weight loss and that i deserved a break, i finally agreed to go, didnt enjoy it at all as all i could think about was the scales and what it was doing to me!
To my disgust he has taken away my scales!!!! I feel like ive lost a part of me its driving me crazy, i think now its time to accept i have an OCD, i do it 4-5 time A DAY!! But all i want to do now is just see the damage ive caused!
I dont know what to do, i physically feel sickened and fat and i almost had a breakdown today looking at myself in the mirror, i hated what was looking back
Im so scared as i go to Spain on.saturday for 2 weeks, i dont want to ruin it for everyone obsessing about what i can and cant eat and having my 'fat' moments where i.cant stand my image!
Help is needed girlies i know i.can count on you all for moral support and advice!!
xxx