This time I will do it!!...

[flabtofit]

Absolutely disastrous day today. All I've eaten is things I shouldn't - crisps, shortbread, KFC...
Really bad binge :-(

I'm not even counting the syns and am preparing myself for a big gain on Thursday

I really need to get back into the swing of SW - any tips/ideas would be appreciated...

 

[flabtofit]

Probably TMI but just had a shower and a good look at myself in the mirror - if I breathe in my tummy is almost flat and I can actually feel my ribs. Even when I'm not breathing in I don't think it's all that bad - my little girl us only just 5 months.

I've also got a tattoo on my lower tummy which I haven't seen for a while as it was hidden under fat - it's now clearly back on display.

Admittedly I need to tone up my tummy and legs but it's nothing a bit of exercise can't fix, I just need to stop being lazy.

Sooo, why am I hitting 'self destruct' and bingeing? I've been doing it for over a week now. I'm not even fussed about junk food anymore and prefer fruit! Argh!!

Drawing a line under today and starting afresh tomorrow. I also need to get back exercising!

I WILL BEAT THIS!!

 

[Texty_F]

You know what ..... you dont need tips/ideas. You have just taken a long hard look at yourself and realised what you have actually achieved. Why would you want to risk losing that flat tummy and not see that tattoo permanently??? Your having a bad/stressful week, it will get better. The more you worry the more stessed you will become and the more you will eat. Try and have an hour to yourself every night to pamper yourself and have some you time. You deserve it.

I know you will beat that feeling and you will be back on form in no time. Meanwhile take one day at a time and keep ya chin up. I have confidence in you and so should you xx

 

[kel86]

Hi Hun as texty says you've realised what you have achieved, you've had two babies and have a flat tummy that is amazing myn looks like a big bowl of jelly lol. Just remember this and don't focus on the binges, you can do this & even if it is a gain you'll deal with it you already know how to.

I've binged to today after 8 days, but I'm not worry bout it this time there's no point it's no t going to change what I've eaten all I can do is try again 2morrow.

 

[flabtofit]

Thanks both. Your support keeps me going.

Texty - thank you for your faith in me. It really spurs me on to know that others also want to to succeed.

Kel, binge eating is like a disorder, it's hard to overcome but we have to keep trying.

I'm chalking today up as a 'blip', it's a lifelong journey so I guess I'm going to have a food. Back on the wagon taking it one day at a time again tomorrow.

 

[Texty_F]

Look at your stats and look at mine hun.

Were the same height, im now 12st 6 (WI tomorrow so that could change) your 12st 9, thats 3 behind me, we both want goal as 11st and I would love to be at goal for my hols in April ( same as your aim to goal) were pretty much neck and neck, and you have already done an amazing job by losing 2.5st. We can both do this. I know i wont lose 1st 6 in 8 weeks but im gonna do my damn best to lose as much as I can.

Lets take it one week at a time and not stress about bad days. We could be celebrating together

 

[flabtofit]

Ooh that's nice to know we're the same.

I can't see stats as I'm on my mobile and haven't updated for a while as my home internet is not working and there's no point fixing it yet as we're moving.

I was 12st 1lb at WI last week but now I'll put in this week so guess we will be the same. Nice to know that we'll be doing it together. We will get there xx

 

[Texty_F]

Ah there you go then lol your stats are out of date so theres even less of you ive got some catching up to do haha

 

[flabtofit]

It'll switch after WI - I'll have to catch you!

Nice to know we're on the same path x

 

[flabtofit]

Right, my reinvention takes place today!

Make-up for work all done properly instead of my usual slap it on and dash to work, hair freshly washed and straight, nice Motel dress, leggings, crop cardigan and pumps on.

Off to Boots later to get Nip and Fab Tummy Fix which is supposed to be great for 'mum tum' and to Clinique to get a 'chubby stick' lippie (not worn lippie/gloss since having kids!)

Oh, and I have an eye test later so new glasses as well.

Right, now all I have to do it stick to plan! Here goes!!! X

 

[kel86]

Lovely positive attitude Hun what's the tummy thing from boots?

 

[flabtofit]

It's called Nip and Fab Tummy Fix. It's about £20 but is supposed to tighten the appearance of your tummy and works really well after children.

I've read loads of positive reviews about it and a woman in the office with me has been using it. She had a baby about a year ago and had a wrinkly stomach, she's been using it twice a day and her tummy looks much smoother.

Thought it's worth a shot for £20.

I'll let you know if I find an improvement x

 

[flabtofit]

Long day!!

But, it's been a good day on plan which has really given me a boost

Today's food:
HExA = 175ml Whole milk
HExB = 20 Almonds

BREAKFAST:
Strawberries

LUNCH:
HExB, pineapple, banana

DINNER:
Batchelors Cheese and Broccoli Pasta n Sauce with added broccoli, cauliflower, carrots and mushrooms baked in the oven with a Babybel (3 syns) on top

SNACKS:
Banana

TOTAL SYNS = 3 SYNS

 

[Texty_F]

Hi chick - Loving the new positive attitude well done you. I only ever wear makeup when I go out ... which isnt often these days lol

 

[flabtofit]

I usually inly wear minimal make up to work but thought I'd try an all or nothing approach today to get me back into the mindset. x

 

[Texty_F]

I bet people complimented you too???

 

[Crafty Girl]

I usually inly wear minimal make up to work but thought I'd try an all or nothing approach today to get me back into the mindset. x

I got a surprise invite to the QVC Beauty Bash last month and that got me motivated to start wearing make up to work again - also had my hair cut short and decided to let the blonde grow out as my natural colour has turned to a lovely silver. Everyone at work has been asking what I have done as I look so much brighter and younger (I work with Mainly people younger than my children!) Anyway that also gave me the mindset to finally do something about my Weight which I have been playing about with for years - and it is all thanks to my best friend who asked me to the Beauty Bash.

 

[kel86]

I've always been the opposite when I was slim I wouldn't leave the house without putting make up on but since piling the pounds on I just got to a point where I thought why should I bother ill still look horrid. Just started taking more care over my appearance and it does make me feel better. I think if ya feel better about ya self your more likely to do well on plan. It's all about confidence

 

[flabtofit]

I hoped that it would make me feel more confident and it really did. It also helped me stick to plan in a strange way as I felt better about myself.

We all need confidence

 

[Spanx]

Hi there flabtofit - just read some of your diary, I think you are doing really well!

Although my son is now 12, I remember very well those first few years, when I had to battle with the guilt of working full-time, the broken nights making me feel like rubbish and the lack of confidence that came from putting on loads of weight. As a senior manager, I also had to deal with people at work no longer taking me seriously - it was almost as if once I'd had a baby, my career was over and I was seen to be just going through the motions at work - so untrue, but it really damaged my confidence.

So don't beat yourself up for getting stressed out and fighting the urge to turn to comfort food... just remember you are the one who is in control. I ended up adopting an 'I'll bloody well show you!' attitude, felt like I was putting on a suit of armour in the morning, so that anyone's comments or looks just deflected off the armour and didn't bother me one bit, while inside the armour I was reinventing myself as a slim, confident mum who was bloody good at her job!

It worked and I lost 3.5 stone. Put it all back on and more when I had health problems and my marriage broke up three and a half years ago - but I'm here again and not about to give up anytime soon! Godd luck x