Time to get serious!

[CrazyDiamond]

First day in ages that I haven't weighed myself! Im a good girl! Though loss for this week won't be fab anyhow since I will be coming off plan for a couple of meals, it's now confirmed my man is back Saturday morning until Sunday afternoon so will be enjoying that time with him!

Been a busy day working from home, really got caught up which was fab, less stress for the rest of the week!

 

[ludogx]

Thanks for the support

Its my birthday in 8 weeks so hoping to make a huge dent in my weight by then and i know will come off it for a week, have already got a dress that i would love to wear which is just a wee but too tight at the moment so the thought of that fitting is spurring me on too.
Just taking one day at a time, was finding it quite hard earlier on this evening, family brought in lots if packs if biscuits and crisps.... Cheers guys.
X

 

[CrazyDiamond]

So.... Most of the weekend off of Cambridge and the scales hate me for it!!! Yup, 4lbs, better bloody be water!

Had Cambridge products sat breakfast and lunch, then a couple of cookies and a curry with naan for dinner - didn't finish it!

No breakfast Sunday, salad, jacket potato, tiny bit of quiche and coronation chicken for lunch, jelly for dessert. A strawberry and banana mock tail. (Slimming world) chilli for dinner and a slice of apple cake. Oh and a kinder egg.

So no, didn't exactly watch what I was eating, but didn't go overboard with the portions and stopped when I was full. Was it worth it? No, not really, wish I could say the food I ate was fab but it was mostly average.

My other half was shocked, apparently I look really different from when I last saw him 4 weeks ago, I'm sure it's only been about half a stone though. I now feel so bad for eating and ruining a few days of my diet since he was so proud of me it was lovely. He's being hugely supportive.

So back on it today. Planned to work form home tomorrow when I'll have some lovely ketosis headaches. Being extra good, shakes and soup only then have been recording my water making sure I have enough, need to maximise my chance of a decent loss this week - dream on! I weigh tomorrow morning!

So plan for the work outing next week is to eat ss+ style - chicken or egg with green salad. Bit annoying when work are paying, but need to crack off this weight loss and get there in 2 months to get it done and over with!

Then back on the ship visiting on Sunday, think it'll be another ss+ day, can't turn down another free meal right? Nothing more than anything on the allowed list, can't measure portions but will just be sensible.

Right, back to my soup......

 

[ludogx]

dont worry about your weekend oof of it crazy diamond, you sound like your ready to get back onto it, and theres always times where you just CANT have a shake lol
iv got a christening on sunday and its a sit down pre booked meal after it so i dont really want to be rude and say i cant have it after they have already ordered it, will just have to not stuff ma gub and then get back onto SS+ on monday

 

[CrazyDiamond]

dont worry about your weekend oof of it crazy diamond, you sound like your ready to get back onto it, and theres always times where you just CANT have a shake lol
iv got a christening on sunday and its a sit down pre booked meal after it so i dont really want to be rude and say i cant have it after they have already ordered it, will just have to not stuff ma gub and then get back onto SS+ on monday

I suppose, but I know for certain from now on I will just SS+ in these situations. I just don't feel like the food was worth the set back, I am ridiculously disappointed with myself even though it was planned!

It's only 2 more months of my life, time will fly, and hopefully I will have a holiday just after I reach target, so its totally worth the pain!!

The biggest thing is that food has always been my work, my hobby and my social life, so cutting it out isn't the nicest thing in the world for me.

I might get lynched for saying this, but even the novelty of getting smaller has worn off now! Compliments have less impact when you get them so often, and it's unfortunate but I'm sure I won't be satisfied now until I am at target.

2 months, 2 months, 2 months, just need to remind myself of that.

Looks like we both have the same amount left to loose give or take a couple of lbs and the same target

 

[CrazyDiamond]

Oh, and another mini-rant (seeing as it's what I do recently!) SKIN!

Now I have only lost 3 stone on this diet, but noticing already my tummy skin is a bit...loose?

my stretch marks are all puckered and a bit shriveled looking, I imagine it is what it must look like after having a baby! Maybe my own fault, at the beginning of the diet i religiously used palmers firming butter, but after a few weeks that subsided.

but honestly, since it isn't a massive amount of weight I am loosing I didn't expect that to happen, OK, I know the stretch marks won't go away, but I kinda thought my belly would snap in and just have the marks. But no, if i lean over, it is the most disgusting thing i have ever seen, I think I am even more body conscious of my stomach now than when it was bigger!

bleuuugghhhh!

dread to think what another 2 stone will do to me....

 

[ludogx]

yeah wer quite similar just now as in weight and target goals
its a good way to think about it as "its only 2months" i think i need to try that and get that drilled into my head!!!
its 8 weeks until my birthday so even if i could just lose a stone (preferabily a stone and a half) by then i would be absolutly over the MOON.
"its only 8 weeks!!"

as for talking about skin etc, best thing for it is the big E word.... exercise.

a few years ago i lost 5 and a half stone doing scottish slimmers and during this time i was at gym classes near enough every day etc and it really helped as i had no lose bits anywhere and everythin was all nice n toned (though stetch marks stayed) haha iv not stopped going to the gym since i started last week and have been near enoguh everyday and have felt fine, no ill side effects that they talk about


best thing for stretch marks... coco butter??? doesnt get rid of them but they defo fade

x

 

[Rachael78]

Hey crazy diamond I have been following your diary since I started and your my thinspiration!! Our start weights were quite similar. Updates on your blog have really helped me on my low days(believe me there have been a few). I'm on day 22 and at last weigh in on day 18 was 16.5lbs lighter. It's a great diet but my god it feels like a long old slog at times. Your proof that how well this plan works. If its any consolation my tummy is like dough and if I can be really arsed at some point I might do some exercise on it (probably not though) Just look how far you've come

 

[CrazyDiamond]

yeah wer quite similar just now as in weight and target goals
its a good way to think about it as "its only 2months" i think i need to try that and get that drilled into my head!!!
its 8 weeks until my birthday so even if i could just lose a stone (preferabily a stone and a half) by then i would be absolutly over the MOON.
"its only 8 weeks!!"

as for talking about skin etc, best thing for it is the big E word.... exercise.

a few years ago i lost 5 and a half stone doing scottish slimmers and during this time i was at gym classes near enough every day etc and it really helped as i had no lose bits anywhere and everythin was all nice n toned (though stetch marks stayed) haha iv not stopped going to the gym since i started last week and have been near enoguh everyday and have felt fine, no ill side effects that they talk about


best thing for stretch marks... coco butter??? doesnt get rid of them but they defo fade

x

Ugh, exercise, bit of a swear word. by the time I get home for work I'm usually fit for nothing more than a shake, some tv and bed! I REALLY admire people who want to go to the gym, I just don't have it in me!

x

 

[CrazyDiamond]

Hey crazy diamond I have been following your diary since I started and your my thinspiration!! Our start weights were quite similar. Updates on your blog have really helped me on my low days(believe me there have been a few). I'm on day 22 and at last weigh in on day 18 was 16.5lbs lighter. It's a great diet but my god it feels like a long old slog at times. Your proof that how well this plan works. If its any consolation my tummy is like dough and if I can be really arsed at some point I might do some exercise on it (probably not though) Just look how far you've come

Awwww, thanks, than means a lot, I never in my life thought I would be called someones thinspiration, that is motivation in itself to keep at it!

Dough, yes, that probably sums it up, think it's time I got serious with the firming creams, since like you, I'd be lying if I said I'd do it with exercise!

 

[CrazyDiamond]

So... today was a shake only day, if i'm honest, I kinda like the empty, slightly sloshy feeling of having no solids in my tummy!

Not left my desk apart from water and toilet breaks today, some things are annoying me at work so am avoiding people to keep myself sane!

Think I've tempted a colleague into Cambridge inadvertently, she's leaving for a new job soon but was asking all about it today, since she thinks she might try it! Funny, you din't realise the impact you can have on others. I've noticed other colleagues taking a peak at my figure at times too, find it slightly freaky but if the shoe were on the other foot i'd be looking too!

Pleased to say the scales are now 2lbs lighter than they were 2 days ago, the water weight must be gone again, and the ketostix tell me i'm back in ketosis. So.... hopefully, I might be able to semi-catch up for the missed time - Surely I can do at least 2lbs more (maybe more) in the next 4 days, taking me a little over my average 4lbs loss? wishful thinking? who knows.

Good news though is that I officially have less than 2 stone to go, it might be 1st13 but its not 2!!! it's all about the positivity.

Will post a pic I took (in the loos, sorry) yesterday morning in a minute, ignore the random looking face but thinking the body is pretty ok.... realised after i got to work that that dress is WAY to nice to be worn in the office!

 

[CrazyDiamond]

Here I am....

 

[CrazyDiamond]

Oh and while I'm here this is me about 5st ago (lost just over 2 on SW before Cambridge)

 

[LMS]

Here I am....

<img src="http://www.minimins.com/attachment.php?attachmentid=86008"/>

Looking very slim hun. Keep going your doing fab

Lynne - week 24, 86.5lbs down 9lbs to go...

 

[Rachael78]

OMG, you don't even look like the same person!! AMAZING...

 

[CrazyDiamond]

Looking very slim hun. Keep going your doing fab

Lynne - week 24, 86.5lbs down 9lbs to go...

OMG, you don't even look like the same person!! AMAZING...

Thanks girls!

That second photo is probably the most unflattering photo ever taken of me, but to think I thought that black top was slimming? I dread to think what non-slimming tops looked like.

More and more I see why my ex went off me! Totally was for the best, and ancient history, but I do look forward to walking into his workplace in 2 stones time, even more so since I hear he got a bit chubby himself!

I'm totally a winner since I now have a lovely man (of 2 years) and an almost lovely body to boot

 

[CrazyDiamond]

HARD day is an under statement!


Felt like crap all day, really headachy, been popping paracetamol without any result, feeling yores as well for no reason, got to 4oclock and thought I would fall asleep at my desk, so gave in and had my dinner! Had a bar, felt a bit better but was very annoyed getting home almost 2 jours layer and not being able to have anything. and even worse, there was a massive pan of what looks like chilli sat on the stove, so desperately I wanted to scoop a big spoonful into my mouth!

I fed the dogs, got a bit of gravy on my finger, dog gravy, yet I wanted to lick it! (Don't worry, I didn't!)

Really wanted the fish everyone had for lunch - I don't even eat fish!!!

I hope this passes cos I'm not sure I can handle 2 months of feeling like this!

Did consider ss+ or step 2 but I'm determined to try and stick it out a little longer, don't want to slow things down. And still feeling mega guilty about last weekend off!

Will however be having ss+ meals this sun (man back and will be eating lunch on ship) and next Thursday (team day). Thursday I will be lunching at planet Hollywood, having what looks like a lovely salad but removing all of the nice stuff (booooooo!!!) hoping those two meals will satisfy my need?!

Still feel crap though, might just go to bed!

 

[CrazyDiamond]

Another day... Another headache.... Think my body is punishing me big style for going off plan!

Woke up dying for the toilet, head banging and mouth like the Sahara! Made sure I had a drink before bed to avoid it but I guess it all went through me a bit fast!

And before anyone asks, I have been monitoring my liquids the last few days and having enough.

Boooo, my body hates me and the plan. It better give me a reasonable figure on the scales next week as compensation!!!

Got a massage and facial today (voucher I got from mum at Christmas) so hopefully that will be a nice distraction for a couple of hours!

 

[CrazyDiamond]

Ok so have been hopping on the scales and doing s few calculations, currently weighing 11st 3.6lbs, worked out that by the time i weigh officially on Tuesday my losses should have caught up from the weekend off, assuming i loose at least 1 more lb in the next 3 days, it means i would have totaled 6lbs in 2 weeks bringing me near enough in line with a reasonable average of 3lbs a week, i can cope with that.

Just need to find that motivation and ditch the headache.

Making some cookies and curry later - present for the other half - some actual decent food, after seeing the slop he was attempting to eat last week i think he needs it! cookies i wont touch, curry i might dip finger in to test flavour but that's it, can't really go wrong with the cookies you see, but don't want to make the mistake of giving an Indian a dodgy tasting curry!

 

[CrazyDiamond]

revisiting goals....

Thought I'd take a minute to revisit, and maybe add my goals....

Mini goals:
- Lose 4 stone
- Lose 5 stone - only 1/2 lb until target then!
- Become a CWPC
- be a size 12 (not just fitting them with a bit of a mufifn top!)
- be a size 10
- get to target BEFORE my holiday mid-june (need to book hol as well, but minor detail)

Completed goals
- Wear the bras I was measured for last May again without them cutting in (ouch!) 15/01/2013
- Lose 1 stone 15/01/2013
- Fit into those size 14 trousers I bought last June that I was oh so close to fitting into then!25/01/2013
- complete 1 Month 100% SS ​13/01/2013
- Fit into the size 14 topshop trousers I've found that I last wore when 16 years old! 10/02/2013
- Lose 2 Stone 12/02/2013
- Fit those red jeans I bought last year (they still have tags on) - yup, they fit now, still not worn them!! probably too big now (d'oh!)
- Lose 3 stone - 2/04/2013

Also forgot to mention I have all the info and forms for my journey towards becoming a CWPC now, although we can't submit anything until I have worked through the steps, so still a few months to actually applying, but at least I have plenty of time to read and digest everything.

ok, time i stopped my rambling for today!