I am
ALIVE. Busy weekend and I just genuinely didn't have the time to post here.
I got through the weekend very well. Another social-occasion crossed off the list that I can truly say I enjoyed and at the same time didn't let it control me or my healthy eating.
Friday night was OH's Dad's retirement party. We ended up at a table just the four of us and a massive plate of party food for 10 people was plonked in front of us. There were all types of sandwhiches, chicken goujons, chips, garlic sauce, sweet chilli sauce etc. I have to say it was the first time in weeks I felt tempted to just have a little something. But I resisted. Not one morsel of food entered my mouth and I was very proud of myself. Before the party myself and Peter got Take-Away Wagamama. I got the chikcken Terriyake noodles and asked for it to be cooked in no oil because I am 'highly allergic'. They told me the noodles come pre-packed in a tiny bit of oil and I told them that was fine. They didn't add any more. The dish was basically noodles, all sorts of veg, a chicken fillet and about a tablespoon, if even, of Terryake sauce. The only thing was that it was SO bland. The oil must really add some ooph to it because it was so dry. However due to the lack of oil and sauce I was very confident that it was under the 8 syn mark and it filled the gap.
Saturday morning I decided I wanted to fork out the €13 for the hotel breakfast because I knew we were going to be shopping and there would be no healthy breakfast/lunch options in the shopping centre. I knew that with a buffet-style breakfast I could stay in control, fill up, and know exactly what I was eating. I ended up having 2 poached eggs (I asked the chef to make them for me and it was no problem), grilled tomatoes, grilled mushrooms, 1 slice of HexB bread toasted, tea and loooooads of fruit salad. I also nicked an apple, pear and some grapes for my handbag to munch on throughout the day. It was all so lovely. I will post a picture separately as they're saved in my phone.
For lunch we went to M&S and I had some Sushi, fruit salad and a bowl of tomato and basil soup from M&S Cafe. Does anyone know what syns would be in this? Its not a creamy soup at all. It was gorgeous! It came with bread which I didn't have and my coffee came with a biscuit which I also resisted.
Saturday night was the meal out with my MA class friends. We went to a lovely place on Grafton Street in Dublin (notoriously Christmassy shopping street in Dublin with lots of gorgeous lights etc). I knew I had about 10 syns or so to play with so this is what i had : a small starter portion of ceaser salad with the dressing on the side. It has chicken and bacon in it and it was GORGEOUS. I didn't eat the Croutons and I didn't use much dressing. It was less than half of a normal portion which I think SW say is about 10-12 syns in a restaurant so I estimate that it was about 5 syns. I then had a starter portion of pasta for my main course. As much as I was hungry I knew this was a better idea. It was spagetti in a pesto with roasted Aubergine and 'lemon oil'. I asked for it without the Lemon Oil and for no oil to be added at all. This was not a problem. What arrived was a smallish plate of spagetti with very little pesto, LOTS of yummy roasted Aubergine and lots of fresh rocket. It was lovely, but quite dry, again the oil must add that quality to a lot of foods. Everything was free apart from the rocket which would have had oil/parmeasan in it so again I would estimate about 5 syns. I really enjoyed the meal though.
Then I skipped on to the Christmas part at the theatre I used to work. I was nervous about this having not really seen anyone for like 3 months so my glass of wine (8 syns) helped soften the blow. I got there and we each got 4 drinks vouchers. I decided to have 1 wine and three vodka and diet 7up. While I do like the Martini, and it's great value at 2.5 syns, it just doesn't do it for me. I drank like 10 of them one night and didn't even feel remotely tipsy! I am not an alcoholic lol. But you know what I mean, it felt like I could have just been saving my syns and drinking the diet 7up. I think I would enjoy one glass of wine above 3/4 Martinis. About an hour in the food arrived and it was all from a fried chicken place. KILL ME NOW! haha. I spent the time sipping on my drink and chatting to a few of my ex-colleagues and before I knew it all the food was gone and I had experienced yet another social occassion where I resisted the fatty-food on offer. I have NEVER had this willpower before. After the theatre we went on to a club, and as I had had two glasses of wine and was pretty much all syn's out I decided to leave it at that in terms of drinking. I spent the next two hours dancing away and enjoying myself.
Sunday I woke up with a sore head, lol. I think it was tiredness more than anything. I went to a Lidl Outlet Store Sale with my mam and grabbed a Muller Lite Coconut yoghurt, a pear and an alpen light running out the door. It did the trick! When we got home my mam and I had a lovely brunch of boiled eggs, beans, free Slimmers Choice sausages, oven roasted vine tomatoes, HexB bread (1/2 as I had already had an alpen light) and it was absolutely gorgeous.
I didn't have a dinner then per-se but instead has about 1/4 of my sisters chicken and blackbean sauce and boiled rice from the chinese, some more fruit, and another Muller Light. I was definitely within my syns for the day and probably made up a few syns to cover the few I may have gone over on Saturday night.
So I was quite happy with myself after those two nights, albeit a bit apprehensive about the fact that I had wine both nights. I just really do love wine and I feel I enjoy a glass more than several Vodkas or Martinis. Problem is once you have one... I didn't go overboard though. I had about 3 on Friday which were unplanned so i would have used syns there that I didn't have technically, but I felt OK about it because I was so good on the food-front.
So that brings me up to yesterday - my University Graduation. I was very excited to be graduating from my MA. My mam and my OH came with me (as I only got two tickets and didn't want to bring one or the other of my Dad/Stepdad). It was such a lovely day. I had to work till 1pm though so it was all a bit of a rush and I was curling my hair in work (my boss wasn't here lol) while answering the phones. I just had some yoghurt and fruit for breakfast. The graduation went on from about 2-5pm in total. After the ceremony I felt sick with hunger. Like properly feeling weak type of stuff. Normally by 5pm I will have had a good breakfast and lunch but I had only had the fruit and yoghurt. I knew that there was going to be food served after the ceremony and of course I planned to have none but by the time it came around I knew I had no choice but to eat something. I felt awful. I decided to have the equivalent of a sandwhich so i had four little trianglular sandwhiches, two with chicken and pesto and red peppers and lettuce, and three were BLT. I also had two dry chicken skewers which definitely were not fried or greasy. I resisted all the cheesecake, biscuits, and fried things. I felt much better after the bit of food and I knew I hadn't 'ruined' things because I had no choice really. Its amazing how breaking your routine and not really eating till 5pm leaves you feeling brutal. I washed it down with a nice bottle of water and I felt 100 times better.
I couldn't stop thinking about the fact that i was going to weigh in three hours later though. I normally eat light on weigh-in days and I wouldn't have bread etc so it added more anxiety to my already nervous-i-won't-lose-again fears. So anyway, we got to weight in at like 8.02pm and the talk had already started so we would have to weight after the class. I spent the class feeling very anxious and just praying I would get food news. I hopped up on the scales after the class loudly saying 'please please please' as the consultant laughed at me and... the result?
DOWN TWO POUNDS!!!
Omg I was so bloody delighted. What a perfect loss. I was absolutely over the moon and completely chuffed. Means I have lost 7.5 pounds in the last 4 weeks and that is just about wonderful. I am soooo happy. This week I have no big events other than a dinner-date with my friend this evening which I will be synning so i don't need to save syns for the weekend or do anything out of the ordinary. I'll be shopping on Sunday and again will be eating out but I will be using that days syns for absolute definite! I am going in to this week feeling absolutely delighted with myself! Hooray!
We went for a mail last night, my OH and my mam and stepdad and I was quite indulgent, but come on it was m graduation. I had decided I was going to have what I fancied so i did. For starters I had hot and sour tomato soup with pork dumplings. Definitely not slimming friendly but SOOOOO good. For mains I had Nasi Goreng. It's an Indonesian rice dish with lots of veg, prawns, chicken and is served with a fried egg on top and some Chicken Satay Skewers on the side. I also had two glasses of wine and about two fork-fulls of this amazing Spanish Icecream that OH ordered - it was vanilla icecream with figs and raisins going through it, omg so amazing.
I could spend today worrying about making up for last nights meal and planning on saving a million syns a day but I have decided that it was a special occassion, like Christmas, where I made the conscious planned choice to indulge a bit and I enjoyed every single mouthful. I have been so so good and restrained and my willpower and motivation is at an all-time high so it certainly won't have a knock-on affect and lead me astray. I am 100% completely on plan and just had one evening of enjoying myself and not worrying about syns. It wasn't even all that bad. I still had lots of veg and protein and superfree foods. So I have decided to just draw a line under it and get straight back in to it today. It's exactly what I'll be doing for Christmas Day and Stephen's Day. I have a weigh in Christmas Eve and then I will enjoy those two days and get back on plan for the other 5 days before my next weigh in on New Years Eve. It actually works out quite nicely in terms of the dates being either side of eachother. A bit of room to enjoy myself but also a few days to make up for it. I just really want to maintain after Christmas. That would be amazing!
I am looking for peoples opinions on alcohol, do you guys syn it? I am considering easing up a bit on it because it is just impossibly high in terms of syns and for the sake of a few drinks and enjoyment I spend the week saving loads of syns that could be better used on food-things and all in all I'm not sure if it makes a huge difference. I probably go out and have a few drinks, on average once every 2/3 weeks but probably more like once a month usually. Twice maybe. I think those times I will just aim to save about 20 syns to give me a boost and just enjoy myself. That's kind of what I did this weekend. While I did save syns for the night out I had some un-planned wine and really enjoyed it. But I was so good with the food and I ended up with a 2 pound loss, which really probably could have been a 3 pound loss had I not eaten the sandwhich at the graduation.
All in all I am feeling very positive, happy, motivated and just completely determined. Nothing is going to stop me :character00201:
Some photos to follow! xx