Hey Twinkle, I'm only now catching up with diaries and just been reading yours. I'm so sorry you've had a tough time, my sister goes through it every year and although I cannot relate not being a mother, I see how much strength it takes to cope. My little niece has a place in all our lives, she is talked about and visited and laughs with us at family gatherings. And although it's so painful, it's also a little treasure in a way.
But look at you doing so well! You probably needed your time off, it's strange how going off plan can actually strengthen your resolve to get back on the horse and carry on with Exante. I'm really going to try and follow your lead Twinkle, you've been so amazing. So as you go along, from strength to strength, losing weight, you might see me in the distance following along when you turn around