Hey Mad... ok.....you've taken the biggest most scariest step is weighing. Well done. You have been avoiding the scales, and you've done it. I'm a big fan of biting the bullet just to know where you are so you can monitor any progress or gains. another positive is you are worried about your bingeing enough to do something about it, like going to the docs. You are facing up to things. Have u thought about going to a counsellor, therapist, psychologist....about it? I've never been to one before, but have been thinking lately about going to see one about an issue I have which is getting on top of me. The only thing that's stopping me is the money, but maybe your doctor can refer you. Right you can tut and roll your eyes as much as you like, BUT, you CAN reach you're target by your wedding!!!! It is easily possible Mad. I lost 47lb in 4 and a half months on Dukan the first time round. And I had one binge day/day off a month too. I know you've put a stone on. Same as me. But just think of what you can achieve in one month. Try not to think in 4 months time....in one month you could shift that easy. It's just your mind at the moment is not letting you believe it. pressure does very strange things to us with regards to bingeing, sabotageing ourselves, for reasons that I can't understand. But we all do it to ourselves. with my restart this time round, after 3 days I was back into the swing of it. So just take one day at a time. I want you to be so happy for your wedding. You will NOT be fat. That is just your binge mind talking. You will be the focused, happy achieving, dukan queen that I know. So let that Mad do the talking!!!! xxxxxxxxx