Wedding diet - want the dress and the bikini!

[emmaedes]

Sooo as you can see I've been all over the bloody place!! Am off work again today thank goodness!! Really needed this long weekend because its been so stressful there recently. Anyway I've been reading Paul McKenna I can make you thin! And it's really helping me!! So plan today is do absolutely nothing!!! Enjoy my last day off and finish the book ready to dive back into reality Tomo and time to shift this bulge!!!! Next 21 weeks together?! !

Xxxxxxxx

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[<3_my_cat_x]

Hunny :bighug:Next 21 weeks together for SURE. Oh sweetie you sound like you're really down atm. Don't beat yourself up - just remember that you're completely normal - I mean this whole website wouldn't exist if there weren't thousands and thousands of other people out there like us, struggling. You can do this hun - all we can do is try. We can we really can I'm completely with you on the stomach shrinking thing. I carried on eating too even tho I was seriously full! Please stop beating yourself up so much - it'll make it harder for u. You are NOT a fat cow. We both need to be more positive I think. Will reply on fb in a mo Hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[<3_my_cat_x]

Hey sweetie it's your weigh in today right? Updates please

Right onto day 2 for me. Yesterday was ok. I kind of feel like a fraud cos I feel positive this time, but then I've felt positive before and come off the diet so who's to say this time is different - I guess the major difference is this time I have like 21 weeks till my wedding day and I need to fit into a nice dress by then! I guess before I've always thought I have a bit of leeway but this time I really don't! Lost some of the water weight from past week or so this morning so I am feeling happier about that! Sitting eating my oatmeal. This weekend will be hard because weekends are the hardest for me - oh well, I just HAVE to keep visualising the end goal - and a brilliant end goal it is too x

 

[emmaedes]

Hello huni!

Sorry I've abandoned you today!! Got into work and from literally 9-5 think I got up from my desk three times .... Twice for loo and once to grab my lunch from the fridge! Was solid. Doing a presentation for our director. Was ok though I like doing presentations

Sorry to hear your having a bad day! Bloody carbs they are no good are they lol!!!

Well done for getting the quorn bits think to be fair you couldn't be doing much better!!!

Also really sorry but I didn't get to the PO today! I'm rubbish sorry!! Didn't get a chance to leave the office. Will send Tomo I promise!! Xxxxxxxxx

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[<3_my_cat_x]

Hello sweetie! How r u today? Updates pls? R u feeling better? I don't want u to feel down I think ur lovely!

Sounds like u had an ok day doing ur presentation u little geek glad u had a good day honestly don't worry about the parcel hunny just whenever u can

im feeling a bit better gone to bed lol looking forward to this week being over!

Another thing I'm sure I read somewhere a post by u saying about palmers cocoa butter??? Anyway u should get commission Hun cos since I read ur post I've been using the firming lotion like mad! Day and night! It's great so moisturising and smells amazing!

Night xx

 

[emmaedes]

Hello All OMG Mental day!!! seriously lol!!! Came in this morning to a presentation that needed doing and sending to our director before 3:30 and literally since i sat down at 9am i have had my head in it!! lol! didnt go out at lunch - luckily i prepared a sandwich and bought it in! so anyway its been a good day for me really!! feeling positive, read my Paul Mckenna book this morning and got engrossed in it....so much so i forgot to have brekkie and wasn't until i was driving to work that luckily i remembered i had some porridge with me so been a busy but good day today !!! im not going to record what i have eaten or count cals or weigh atm for at least 2 weeks now !! going to get home and get into my comfy clothes and read the rest of my book!! xxxx

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[emmaedes]

So I put some of Paul's methods into practice at dinner .... Eating consciously, leaving food to break the habit. Putting fork down in between each mouthful and get presto I left two fillets of chicken and 1/3 of my pasta!!! And I'm sooo lovely full!!! Amazing! I would have scoffed before!!! Settling down now to a lovely coffee and catch up tv! Xxxxxxx Sent from my iPhone using MiniMins

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[emmaedes]

Hello sweetie! How r u today? Updates pls? R u feeling better? I don't want u to feel down I think ur lovely!

Sounds like u had an ok day doing ur presentation u little geek glad u had a good day honestly don't worry about the parcel hunny just whenever u can

im feeling a bit better gone to bed lol looking forward to this week being over!

Another thing I'm sure I read somewhere a post by u saying about palmers cocoa butter??? Anyway u should get commission Hun cos since I read ur post I've been using the firming lotion like mad! Day and night! It's great so moisturising and smells amazing!

Night xx

Sorry i didnt reply to this message too!! got carried away copying and pasting!!! lol

im feeling loads better thank you! like 100 times better! this book is seriously amazing!!! im impressed!!!

haha i know i am a geek haha!!! love a presentation and a spreadsheet !!!!

how are you feeling today?!?!

yesssss cocoa butter!! palmers !! its amazing isnt it!!! i love it!!! and love the smell!!! i started using pure vitamin E oil too on the horrible stretch marks too!! so twice a day will be buttering up and oiling up! lol and doing a firm massage to the skin ! fingers crossed they go for hol!!!!!

xxxxx

 

[<3_my_cat_x]

Hello hun! So pleased ur feeling better That's great! Yep Im feeling ok today thanks! Dreading the weekend(s) cos I know that I find them the hardest as I want to join in and be sociable and drink and eat etc but then my wedding is more important than that so I just have to keep that in mind. I'm trying to find something awesome clothes-wise online that i want to wear - might have a quick look on asos. Gonna have a quick break from work now as been working solid - last night was working till 11 and then up at 7 and started again. If I buy something lovely I'll have something to aim for Although I don't know what size to aim for? :s I think when I was 10.5 stone before when i was a teenager I was a size 10-12 ish (more 12 probably) but I'm not sure. Maybe I wasn't?! What do you think - you're my size/height twin!!!

How are you feeling today?

LMAO loved the way you described oiling and buttering yourself up - made me think of us like turkeys getting ready to pop ourselves in the oven for a roast I love it too - I am SERIOUSLY addicted to it - it makes me happy, how sad is that LOL

With the cocoa butter and vit oil sounds like they will definitiely at least fade by hols hunny Have a great day and keep me updated xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[emmaedes]

Hello hun! So pleased ur feeling better That's great! Yep Im feeling ok today thanks! Dreading the weekend(s) cos I know that I find them the hardest as I want to join in and be sociable and drink and eat etc but then my wedding is more important than that so I just have to keep that in mind. I'm trying to find something awesome clothes-wise online that i want to wear - might have a quick look on asos. Gonna have a quick break from work now as been working solid - last night was working till 11 and then up at 7 and started again. If I buy something lovely I'll have something to aim for Although I don't know what size to aim for? :s I think when I was 10.5 stone before when i was a teenager I was a size 10-12 ish (more 12 probably) but I'm not sure. Maybe I wasn't?! What do you think - you're my size/height twin!!!

How are you feeling today?

LMAO loved the way you described oiling and buttering yourself up - made me think of us like turkeys getting ready to pop ourselves in the oven for a roast I love it too - I am SERIOUSLY addicted to it - it makes me happy, how sad is that LOL

With the cocoa butter and vit oil sounds like they will definitiely at least fade by hols hunny Have a great day and keep me updated xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Morning (Just!)

yay glad your feeling better!!! i know what you mean about weekends, thats what i found hardest when dieting! you feel left out dont you! and doesnt feel the same! maybe plan some yummy protein and veg dinners and will feel like your joining in and if you needed a drink stick to like vodka and diet coke or something?! low carb.....i hear Josie Gibsons new low cal treat is champers!!! fine by me! haha

o nooooo working till 11!!! my god you must be sooooooo tired!!! think its a well deserved break then! perfect way to shop too

right well with my size the last time i remember getting into a size ten pair of river island jeans (so i know they were def a 10 as their sizes if anything come up smaller.....and they werent those stretchy type jeans.....YES i STILL have this pair haha) was when i was 17! and to be honest i NEVER remember being below 11st....maybe i was though?!?! but im pretty sure i was like 11st and a half maybe or maybe just 11st.....i think i hold weight well in terms of size.....at 15st 2lbs i was still a 14 however it takes me a few stone to lose a dress size! so comfy 12 i'll be 12.7 - 13.7 i reckon and then a ten i reckon 11-11.7! so im aiming for size not weight now! Paul says not to weigh and to go buy clothes etc and even though its been only three days its killing me not to weigh because i feel so much better but i know the scales wouldnt have moved much so im not going to weigh until not this mon but next mon !

i've spotted a palmers cocoa butter scar serum...........i want i want i want!!! i had in my superdrugs online basket last night the serum, the firming cream and stretch mark massage cream....only £16! but i was too lazy to get out of bed to get my card haha and i want NOW not to wait 3-5 days for delivery!!! off to hunt in tesco at lunch hehe!!!

will copy and paste my posts over xxxxxxx

 

[emmaedes]

Hello All

Day going ok work wise.....slow though! boo

Anyway im really proud of myself....dont obviously want to speak too soon but my eating habits are changing already.... for lunch today i got some soup and had a third of the tub (about 200g)and i got a ciabatta roll to go with it and had it with extra light philli .... now normally i would scoff the soup .... scoff the roll without a thought but because im doing Paul's techniques of making sure you enjoy every mouthful and put knife and form down in between each mouthful so put my spoon down between each mouthful of soup....and took a bite of my roll....back down on the plate....enjoyed my mouthful....another bite and so on......half way through the roll was thinking ooo getting full....another two mouthfuls and i was like ok im done that was delish........threw the rest away! WHAT??! im ....me .... Emma throwing CARBS away?!?! because i feel satisfied....not stuffed like "normal" seriously its boosting my confidence hugely!! dont think i ever want to not have this book in my life!! i havent even started the audio yet!! i've got that excited feeling back! im excited about food again, im excited about me, im excited about weight loss but more so im excited to not be on a diet! honestly i feel so happy!!! Paul also does exercises to help you visualise you when your slim and at your idea weight.....it helps with confidence too and in a sense makes you start thinking as if your slim.....and that side has made me much less of a grump! i.e this morning when i was putting on my vitamin E oil and cocoa butter i did it and then just walked up to the mirror in my underwear and had a proper good look at the stretch marks.....now this is a girl who only last week....i was making sure i was over the otherside of the bedroom to get changed....out of sight of the mirror.....when i walked past the mirror i would never look....stretch marks....under clothes i could forget about them....out of clothes....well i just made sure i got back in clothes as quick as poss!! honestly this book is changing my life

i know i know i sound so wierd....like yer yer its been two days tell me this after two months bet you wont be thinking the same! but i just feel like im changing sort of mentally like with confidence and my own personal body issues etc etc

anyway i just wanted to ramble on! IM HAPPY!!!! xxxxxxxxxxx

 

[emmaedes]

Morning All

Had such a good day yesterday OH had his friend round for dinner before they went to training! And I got distracted when eating dinner with talking!!! Butttt instead of carrying on mindlessly eating I thought o god! And then after a few mouthfuls it was back to putting knife and fork down and didn't finish my plateful!!! Was nicely full even a yoghurt I ate slower lol!!!

Feeling great again today!! Work is still very stressful and very tense. Everyone's feeling it. But two of us spoke about it yesterday (me and my manager) and we just decided slap a fake smile on whatever .... Rise above it and get on! Then soon as its 5 walk out that door!!!

Made me think yesterday because I had left work in a foul mood and the road I drive home there was an accident there last week and a 20 something year old guy with a wife and two children died. So driving home in a foul mood I drove past his flowers and just thought tutt what am I doing!! That poor guy and his family !!! And I'm complaining about work!!!

So yer feeling fab still!! Didn't finish the book yesterday because I was lazy and watched tv. Did read a few chapters tho!! So gonna have another read this morning

Love meeeee xxxx

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[<3_my_cat_x]

Hey hunny you are doing so well Making real changes for life - go you And you are happy doing it! So jealous! I am quite miserable atm lol just need to get back into I guess. So couldn't be bothered tonight so just had a shake - might have a bath and bed soon as I have got a sore throat and think I'm getting ill

You are so right about the accident love We really are lucky when we think about it.

Plans made for the weekend that don't involve eating/drinking which is good - seeing best friend tomorrow eve for gym and film.

What u got planned this weekend hun?

XX

PS. OH had takeaway pizza tonight...I could have wept!

 

[emmaedes]

Hey hunny you are doing so well Making real changes for life - go you And you are happy doing it! So jealous! I am quite miserable atm lol just need to get back into I guess. So couldn't be bothered tonight so just had a shake - might have a bath and bed soon as I have got a sore throat and think I'm getting ill

You are so right about the accident love We really are lucky when we think about it.

Plans made for the weekend that don't involve eating/drinking which is good - seeing best friend tomorrow eve for gym and film.

What u got planned this weekend hun?

XX

PS. OH had takeaway pizza tonight...I could have wept!

Hello lovely

It's horrible when your miserable on a diet isn't it because it makes it seem like such hard work. I was miserable beyond belief on s&s and started to get annoyed at myself for being so miserable which didn't help!! Just I suppose focus on your wedding. After that day you can then switch to a more suitable plan that makes you happy and fits in with your life! Maybe try Paul! Ill be the test Bunny for it to see how much I lose!! Lol! But yes I know how hard s&s is not just physically but mentally!! Always here if you need a chat!!

That sounds like a good weekend at least you won't have any moments feeling really miserable or left out!! Gym and film sound like a good night to me!!!

Not too much planned this weekend, finish work early Tomo so going to tesco after to do food shopping .... Oh joy! Instead of cleaning apartment like I normally do. To be fair it's stated bloody clean since I cleaned on my day off last week lol!! Sat I'm going to see my friend and she's doing my nails and in the eve OH is out for friends bday so I'm literally going to spend the evening in bed watching desperate housewives and I can't wait!!!! Sunday not got much planned so chill out and maybe do a bit of hoovering etc - got my life is so exciting!!!!! Hahaha

Anyway hope you start feeling better about it al soon and hope the OH didn't get a wallop for the pizza .... Mine would have got one hahaha


Xxxxxxx

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[<3_my_cat_x]

Hello how u doing today? I am utterly miserable! I am sick with a flu bug thing and craving actual food and all friends n oh etc are going for meal and drinks! Fed up is not the word!!! woe is me! Sorry for whinging

how u doing today? Have a good wkend Hun xx

 

[emmaedes]

Hello how u doing today? I am utterly miserable! I am sick with a flu bug thing and craving actual food and all friends n oh etc are going for meal and drinks! Fed up is not the word!!! woe is me! Sorry for whinging

how u doing today? Have a good wkend Hun xx

Sorry Hun only just seen this Hun!!!! Aw I feel your pain!!!! I hope you feel better sooooonnnnn!!!! Bloody vlcd lol worth the trouble in the end!!!!

So how u doing weight wise? Have u weighed in yet?

I'm ok thanks Hun!! I'm in bed with a coffee and desperate housewives!!! same as I will be Tomo eve!! Hehe

Going to see my friend Tomo and she's going to do my nails! can't wait to see her! It's been nearly a year!!! Eating been good again today still sticking to Paul! Still haven't blooming listened to the audio!! Going to do it Tomo morn I think! Steve is going to get his hair cut then off shopping and I have about an hr after he leaves before I have to get up so perfect time!!

Anyway here if you need a gossip or to let off steam xxxxxx

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[<3_my_cat_x]

Thanks love I started to watch a film (Made of Honor) and then just gave up cos I couldn't be bothered and it also seemed a little rubbish!! Weighed in this morning (do pretty much every day!) - was 14st 2.75 - cannot wait to get into the 13s - hopefully itll be soon. I think that will give me a massive boost to see 13 on the scales. please be soon diet god please diet god be soon!!! Hows u doing? Ur doing so great sweetie - making changes for life. I'm gonna have to have athink about that when i finally get to goal.

How can you drink coffee so late?!!?! Id be up all night lol! Im laid on the sofa with the duvet and the cats watching 8/10 cats. Looking at clothes as I am desperate to buy someting that I really love that I can hang up and look at and aim to get into. But I cant find anything I like enough!!!

Ur weekend sounds lovely Ull have to take a pic of ur nails to show me. I never do anything with my nails maybe i should! have fun with your friend tomorrow (and paul) - btw absolutely loved in one of your previous posts where u just slipped in the name 'Paul' like he is ur best friend u said something like 'Paul says...' and at first I was like who the hell is Paul?! Then i realised

XX

 

[emmaedes]

Thanks love I started to watch a film (Made of Honor) and then just gave up cos I couldn't be bothered and it also seemed a little rubbish!! Weighed in this morning (do pretty much every day!) - was 14st 2.75 - cannot wait to get into the 13s - hopefully itll be soon. I think that will give me a massive boost to see 13 on the scales. please be soon diet god please diet god be soon!!! Hows u doing? Ur doing so great sweetie - making changes for life. I'm gonna have to have athink about that when i finally get to goal.

How can you drink coffee so late?!!?! Id be up all night lol! Im laid on the sofa with the duvet and the cats watching 8/10 cats. Looking at clothes as I am desperate to buy someting that I really love that I can hang up and look at and aim to get into. But I cant find anything I like enough!!!

Ur weekend sounds lovely Ull have to take a pic of ur nails to show me. I never do anything with my nails maybe i should! have fun with your friend tomorrow (and paul) - btw absolutely loved in one of your previous posts where u just slipped in the name 'Paul' like he is ur best friend u said something like 'Paul says...' and at first I was like who the hell is Paul?! Then i realised

XX

Oo never seen it!!! Ahhhh those 13's are def soooo close!!!!! They will be showing themselves on the scales soon enough def!! I think that will defo give you a good boost!!! Little mini goal to work towards

Yer I feel great. I'm really tempted to WI but not gonna for at least two weeks!! Defo!!

I know hahaha!! It's a tassimo latte caramel macchiato so it's actually more like warm milk with a splash of coffee hehe!!! Omg I want to so do the same!!! I have a £50 river island voucher and can't decide whether to buy something in size ten now to work towards like some nice jeans!!!!!! Love RI jeans!!! Or wait and buy when I'm a size ten ...... Think I might buy the jeans!!!! Also I'm going to Superdrug Tomo before my friends to get some more palmers stuff!! Scar serum .... Firming lotion and tummy rub for stretch marks!!!

Hahaha I thought that when I wrote that HAHAHAHAHAHAHA makes me feel like that sometimes when I'm like Paul says blah blah blah lol!!! If he makes me skinny he can bloody be my best friend hahahahaha

Xxxxxxxx

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[<3_my_cat_x]

Morning you! I feel like death still...this is definitely flu I have just got up - missed bootcamp (obviously!) and have only got up cos i have a job due at 5 today. Hopefully it won't take too long then I can go soak in the bath.

Weighed this morn and was 14st 1 but I reckon that was only cos I have zilch appetite atm and am not really eating due to this flu thing. Hopefully it won't go up too much by weigh-in on Monday when/if my appetite has come back. Desperate to see those 13s.

Your latte sounds awesome! Actually could probably be tempted by one of those atm!! In fact, I could actually be tempted by proper food but the way Im feeling now the thought of dry reconstituted food makes me gag. My mum and OH were like you're ill have a little of something like beans on toast or something just to make u feel a little better but I don't want to up my carb intake massively and then have to go through carb withdrawal again. Don't know if not really eating will make me recover more slowly? Ill try and have something tonight like an omelette and swede chips - that'll be nice I think. Hopefully?!

Def get the jeans - hang them up and look at them Theyll be such a good boost - I've looked everywhere online and there is nothing I especially love - maybe I'm getting old haha! Perhaps I am just not up to date with fashion! You should def get some RI jeans tho if u love them

Have a great day hun x

 

[emmaedes]

Morning you! I feel like death still...this is definitely flu I have just got up - missed bootcamp (obviously!) and have only got up cos i have a job due at 5 today. Hopefully it won't take too long then I can go soak in the bath.

Weighed this morn and was 14st 1 but I reckon that was only cos I have zilch appetite atm and am not really eating due to this flu thing. Hopefully it won't go up too much by weigh-in on Monday when/if my appetite has come back. Desperate to see those 13s.

Your latte sounds awesome! Actually could probably be tempted by one of those atm!! In fact, I could actually be tempted by proper food but the way Im feeling now the thought of dry reconstituted food makes me gag. My mum and OH were like you're ill have a little of something like beans on toast or something just to make u feel a little better but I don't want to up my carb intake massively and then have to go through carb withdrawal again. Don't know if not really eating will make me recover more slowly? Ill try and have something tonight like an omelette and swede chips - that'll be nice I think. Hopefully?!

Def get the jeans - hang them up and look at them Theyll be such a good boost - I've looked everywhere online and there is nothing I especially love - maybe I'm getting old haha! Perhaps I am just not up to date with fashion! You should def get some RI jeans tho if u love them

Have a great day hun x

Hey lovely

Sorry for late reply been a bit all over the place today!!! Home now .... Then dropping bf and his friend to Brighton later then pro collect them too.

Ahhh hope your work finished quick?!!!

Yer I see what u mean!! I think you might get better quicker with proper food. Maybe try Atkins approach?! Low carb ie omelettes or just. Protein and salad etc. will help you I think get some vitamins.

Yer def gonna get some jeans. I didn't get a chance to go into RI today so will get them through the week or next weekend I think.

Uh oh I took my palmers collection to a new level today.... Bought scar serum, body scrub, forming cream and a stretch mark massaging cream!!! Lol literally could have my own coco butter shop lol!!! Love it!!!

Xxxxxx

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