I could have had many wake up calls....I had lost weight and become fit (even doing a triathlon) then I met my now husband.....and then we met and we got comfortable, I stopped going to the gym because I wanted to spend the time with him and we ate a lot of take aways, drank lots and became lazy. The weight piled on. I was aware my hormones were out of kilter and this would be helped by losing weight. I didn't change my behaviour. I knew we wanted to do IVF and we could do it free if I lost weight, I still didn't change, there were a few half hearted attempts but nothing sustained.
We had a wedding and again I continued to gain. We had holidays and each holiday I had to buy new clothes in a bigger size. I had to buy a mans ski jacket because they didn't do a ladies big enough. The aching in my knees had returned and STILL I didn't chose to lose weight. I went abroad with a colleague and realised I was very close to asking for a seat belt extension....still no weight loss. I developed planta fasciitis in my feet (really painful), it's weight related. Walking was painful.
Then christmas......I went to my inlaws and was starting to watch what I ate, I'd already cut down alcohol. I went in their gym on Boxing Day and when I came out I could barely walk, the planta fasciitis was so bad and all of a sudden I realised that at 38 I was an old infirm woman, I was terrified of the pain I was going to be in in January on our skiing holiday (with again more new kit in a bigger size).
I joined SW 30th December, a Monday, followed it until Saturday when we went skiing. I made a decision to optimise as much as I could when on holiday but if I wanted something I would have it, and just ski another run. I came back 4lb lighter! When we returned we went to the clinic for the results of the IVF tests, they weren't good and my weight is a big concern (but one of a few) affecting our chances. This spurred me on for a few weeks and I cried that I had let everyone down because of my weight, but looking at this in a sober light, my weight is only one part of the puzzle.
We have now decided not to pursue the IVF route. We won't adopt (we are too old to get a young child), but we have a wonderful family, of former step children who we still have relationships with. We are happy and I am now focussing on losing weight for me, for my self esteem and to be pleased with photos once more. As a treat for my40th we are booked to go to whistler in Canada for two weeks skiing in January 2015. I want to be fit and trim for that trip....2 weeks of skiing will be hell if I'm not fit enough. So far I have lost a stone, if I continue at my rate of 1lb average a week I will lose another 3 stone before that trip. I have started running (nhs c25k programme). Best if all I am starting to feel better about myself and I am LOVING the food we are eating.
Good luck everyone x