Chartreuse
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Ravenous, furious, head hurts, knackered. Please let this end soon!
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Chartreuse
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And the hunger has subsided. Praise be! Now back to it, only showing a 2lb loss so far this week and I was really hoping for something more magnificent. I was hoping for 5. I get weighed Monday night so almost 4 days to get that extra 3lbs off. Come on...
Chartreuse
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I just got measured for my height for the first time I can remember, and all this time I thought I was 5'2.5" and really I'm over 5'3"! This means my BMI is different. It means that I'm no longer obese, just merely 'overweight'. This is a real brain melt!
Chartreuse
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I have two big goals in sight, in reach, close enough to touch... First, my 4 stone rosette, 2lbs away (already done on morning weigh-in at home, but evening water weight tipped me over). Second, I really want to get in to the elevens! That's officially 4lbs away. I so want to do both for next weigh in. I'm looking for a 4lb off week. Come on, I can do this!!
Chartreuse
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So, in 'eating week' my boobs were slightly plumped up and a touch less horrific. Today they are making me very sad indeed. Bye bye boobies. It has been tons of fun.
Chartreuse
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Woo. Into the elevens this morning! Hopefully that'll translate to being officially in the elevens on Monday night weigh in. I even wore my hair up today without having to be overly anxious about exposing the hamster cheeks and neck/jowls! Yay. Wonder how far I am off fitting into size 12 jeans. The 14s are getting looser 
Chartreuse
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I'm feeling super grumpy and emotional tonight. I had a voicemail from a guy I used to date. I was crazy about him. It's been months, I wish he would stop messing with my feelings. I'm so inarticulate and awkward communicating with him. I don't know what to do. It's making me want a nice comforting meal. His apparent lack of love for me was a huge part of my most recent weight gain. I want him to leave me alone. I think. I also want a hug. Sorry to moan into thin air here but better to write than scoff, eh?
LizzRob
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Hun I have one of these too! Chap called nick. 3 f-ing years on he still does this and it's ruined any self esteem or confidence I have! Please, I beg you, change your number and put a stop to this emotional abuse ASAP!!! Sending major hugs though xx
Chartreuse
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Thanks Lizz. Having a cry here. This has been 3 years, too. My self esteem is still low enough that I tolerate it.
Chartreuse
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I mean, it's been on and off 3 years. But last contact was ten days before I started CWP. How come I'm strong enough to do this challenging plan, and not to tell someone to sling his hook?!
LizzRob
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Because there is no logic when it comes to the heart. But you can take steps to keep him at bay. Nick is blocked now, my fb is in a different name, he's blocked on twitter/********* etc. ok he somehow manages to find a way occasionally and then I block that path too, but I do cut the ties!!! You have to! You're worth more xx
Chartreuse
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Thanks. I can't even talk to my mates because I feel ashamed at how little I've managed to let it go despite the obvious evidence that I'm not that important to him. Thanks for listening xxx
Chartreuse
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Thanks Lizz xx Going to do my extended beauty routine and get myself to bed...weigh in tomorrow and I want 4lbs. Not sure if I'll hit that but would love to as it's a sort of significant step for me to officially register in the 11s. Cheers again for the support x
LizzRob
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Good luck with weigh in and resist the pull of the ex! Focus on you and your weight loss journey now! Don't even tell him to F off if he messages! Just ignore ignore ignore xx
Chartreuse
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Thanks again for all your support, really means a lot xxx The good news is, 5lbs off this week! Whoop!!
Chartreuse
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Thanks, it's helping me to feel strong and invincible
Chartreuse
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This stupid thing with this stupid boy has really knocked me for six. I feel as miserable as I did when I was comfort eating earlier this year. This morning the scales say 11st 8, yet I feel fat and worthless. I always assumed the reason he wouldn't get more serious with me was because he was ashamed of how I looked, even though he clearly fancied me. He never said anything to suggest that, but it made for a sensible explanation in my mind.
LizzRob
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That's because using the weight as a reason detracted from the rejection you felt from him. I am the same hun.
I tried to find another reason for the rejection but reality was he just didn't feel what I felt, it's that simple. X
