I am losing weight for a number of reasons. 1 being my son. I dont want to be a mother who cant chase after her son if he runs off, or who cant play because she is tired after a couple of minutes. I want to be a fun mum who can just keep going and always know I have done all I can for my son to have a whole heap of fun each day. Also to give him a positive outlook I guess, as Ive never been very positive with how Im feeling about myself and I dont want him to be the same. I also dont want him to be ashamed of me when he starts school, or brings friends over.
2 being my husband. We met online, he came halfway across the world to be with me and I was comfortable-ish with myself. I was overweight but not to the extreme that I was 3 months ago. I was in a size 16 but not that big really, didnt look it (now that I look back at pics I see I wasnt so big at all). Looking back at photos of myself in those early days and I looked pretty, and happy. I want to be that woman again, and have a husband happy to walk down the street with me and be like hey you, this is my mrs aint she hot lol. :giggle:I also want him to complement me again as I dont get that very often anymore, I have to push and push to get one out of him. These days when I was how I look he nods, gee thanks that makes me feel good lol.
3rd is myself. I dont feel confident in myself at all, I dont like how I look and also how I look in clothes. I want to be able to wear nice things, pretty things and it look nice. Dont want anything fancy but just to be able to look in the mirror and say yep this is me, and damn girl you are looking good! It always sticks in my mind, one time when I was about 17/18 and a friend of my Dad's came over and he said my sister was beautiful (she was 13/14 at the time) and someone had to prompt him as I was sitting there too and he said oh and she has nice hair.. I wouldnt have cared much but I had had a hair dye disaster that week and had pink/orangey yellow hair! So yeah that has stuck with me. I know my sister is the prettiest of us, but Im not so bad myself, and I will one day receive a genuine compliment I hope. That all sounds a bit sad now putting it out there but there we go. Also after the pregnancy with my son Ive been left with an apron which I do not want! I need a smaller tummy so clothes fit better. Right now I think Im going to end up 1 size on top and another bigger size on bottom due to my tummy as nothing fits right so fits at the tummy but too baggy on the legs/bum!