If I'm completely honest its 95% vanity for me lol...I have ongoing health issues and going out is often difficult for me. I feel when I'm bigger than average that I am more noticeable - when I do go out I don't really want to be noticed, and I suppose part of me feels I will blend in better if I am, well, average weight xD
I did get down to target for my sister's wedding in 2013, and also found I actually feel more confident when I am at a weight I am happy with. Since last August though I've been completely off plan, up until 2 weeks ago when I realised that if I didn't stop the spiral of gaining then I would end up back at square one before too much longer! My original weight was 12st 2lbs, but I'd lost a bit before I joined minimins which is why that says 11-something xD And I honestly don't want to put myself back in that place of feeling so low about myself, hating mirrors etc - I don't think I will ever love mirrors, but not desperately avoiding them would be nice xD Its vain and shallow I know lol, but I just feel less stressed out by my 'issues' regarding what people might be thinking about me if I am a weight I feel alright with. I suppose I just want to feel better about myself, and unfortunately for me I have a shallow side which links feeling better to being thinner xD