Wilma's time to shine.. lets do this!

[misswilma14]

Day 27 - Saturday aka 2/24 day challenge!

Another good, 100% day Saturday. Stayed in bed most of the day trying to sleep to be ready for my night shift.. But just couldn't! Being on Cambridge doesn't really give me more energy as such, just makes me wake really early and stay pretty awake. A good think when I'm on days, not so good on nights. But all in all went well - I'm really looking forward to each of my products so much variety. I didn't expect them to taste this good! I know not to everyone's taste but I do really like a lot of the products. Tried one of my ketostix and wasn't in ketosis yet - but now I think it's because I have drank tea with sweetener both nights in work! Annoying because I didn't even think twice, but now know it's only the tablet sweetener not the powder one you can have. Lesson learnt though. Don't feel slimmer at all which is a bit of a worry but hopefully the weight will have shifted by Wednesday. I really want a good loss, as this is my last week with my CDC - Im moving back home for a while. Want to make her proud!
Anyway, will report back about today later on no more nights yay!

 

[misswilma14]

Day 28 aka 3/24 day challenge!

Day done! Had a very chilled day. Slept for a few hours this morning after finishing my night shift, then spent the rest of the day watching rubbish TV haha. I have no shame in that. Nice hot chocolate shake for breakfast, then a lemon bar for lunch (wow.. they are so nice!) and chicken and mushroom soup. Was still hungry later on, which is unusual, so had an SS+ day and had a tuna salad. Veryyyy nice! With my lemon bar and salad I feel like I've had a naughty day hehe. But stuck to it 100% and am very happy. Now that I'm back on day shifts I can get my sleeping pattern back and be able to weigh myself in the mornings. I do feel like I have lost a bit of weight since last week, but unsure how it looks on the scales. Really want a big number! At least that pesky 4lbs I lost then put on again - now that would be nice. Can't decide whether to weigh myself in the morning or wait for Wednesday's WI - decisions. I don't think ill be able to wait though haha. Don't actually feel like I'm in ketosis as I haven't got the horrid breath and do still feel a bit hungry. But will check with my ketostix in the morning. Fingers crossed!

Just settling in bed to watch a film - can't decide between the new disney one or a thriller. Probs the disney one, for something light hearted before bed. Got the day off tomorrow as it's bank holiday so going to catch up with all my cleaning, washing etc and have to nip into town for a few bits. Hopefully will be nice and sunny!

 

[Sophiesophs]

Well done! You're back on track! You did it! I'm sure you'll be in ketosis really soon! Hope you've had a lovely bank holiday x

 

[misswilma14]

Thanks Soph, feel much better about it now and am in totally the right mindset - no wanting to sabotage myself or waiting for another excuse for a meal out! Happy wilma hope your doing well, I'm sure you are will pop over to your thread soon x

 

[misswilma14]

Day 29 - and just noticed, its Day 5/24-day challenge.. have been selling myself short by one day!

Great day diet wise. Had the day off as it's bank holiday so made it worth it! Sorted a load of my stuff out ready to move back home soon, did my ironing and cleaned the kitchen in the flat. All in between countless episodes of The Biggest Loser I love that programme so so much! They have all the series online, Watch Series Online Free if anyone's interested. I'm currently watching the American version, season 14. I get so into the people on the show! Feel myself rooting for the good ones and *****ing about the ones I don't like - I don't even know them haha! Very motivational as well. I wish I could have Gillian Micheals as my trainer all the time, she's so brutal but I love her style. I have done her workout DVD 30 day shred before and it's great. She isn't as shouty hehe.

Had my strawberry shake for breakfast, apple porridge for dinner and then oriental chilli soup for tea. Added a load more chilli to the soup and it tastes so much nicer! Didn't really like it at first, but liking it so much more now. I love getting my products out of the box she gives me: seeing the products go down and down gives me inspiration, only a few more products until WI! Been having a real foodie day today - not craving food, but found myself looking at loads of naughty recipes online and.. I'll admit it.. looking at 'food porn' on twitter! It was making me salivate: caramel oreo cheesecake? half brownie-half cookies? chocolate dipped waffles? s'more cake?!? I was in heaven haha. Was weirdly satisfying.

Jumped on the scales this morning and it shows that I have lost that pesky 4lbs I put on last week - and a little more! Not going to get my hopes up as I know my scales will be different to hers, plus hers are much more accurate than mine. Just really happy it's going in the right direction, and all of this is paying off! Also, my weight showed me at 10st9lb.. the lowest I have EVER been from what I can remember! Last year I lost the most weight I had ever lost, and my lowest was 10st10lb. Then my birthday, christmas, easter, and lots of exams kicked in and I put the weight back on. Cue traveling Europe for 4 months and living off burgers, pretzels, cheese, bread and churros.. Highest weight in a long time! But so glad I found Cambridge. In a really good mindset at the minute, feel like it's finally 'clicked'. arty0049:
Even to the point where, I'm leaving work this week and want to get my office some nice chocolates/cake, as that's what everyone does when they leave. I really wanted to make them oreo truffles - the nicest chocolates EVER, super easy to make and they look really posh and nice. However, upon evaluating it, I have realised that the only real reason I want to make them is so that I can sneakily have a couple. I made them after all, it's my effort and money that's gone into them, I'd have to have one, right? So have made the bold decision just to buy a big box of chocolates or lots of cupcakes from ASDA to take in. I'll be able to resist temptation with them I think Also, I was going to ask if anyone wanted to go out for food and drinks the night before I leave to move home - but then I thought no, I'm not asking. The real reason I want to go is selfish, just because I want to use it as an excuse to eat a big off plan meal. So I'm not going to initiate it at all! If someone suggests it, I'll either say I have no money, or go somewhere I know I can get a plain chicken salad like Nandos. And only drink water. Got this in the bag!

Roll on tomorrow, where I will be a quarter of the way through my 24 day challenge! Boooooom

 

[misswilma14]

Day 30! And 6/24-day challenge.. quarter of the way through!

Can't believe it's day 30 already! How exciting. When I weigh in tomorrow it will be exactly a month since I started, so here's hoping I have a good loss. Been absolutely itching for it the past few days, as well as today. Woke up really bright and fresh, counting down the hours until WI. Then tonight came, and I was hungry. Actually hungry! Not craving anything particular, just hungry. And if I'm honest, it was nice to feel that. Usually when I think I'm hungry I just really fancy a particular thing, but tonight I knew it was real hunger because I could have eaten pretty much anything. I think that's the question I must ask myself when maintaining - would I be satisfied with a plate of vegetables? If yes, I am probably hungry. If not, it's probably just a craving.

Anyway, so I was hungry. I'd had all 3 products so shouldn't have had anything else really, but I'd drank loads of water and had a bit of a headache. Feel pretty drained this evening as well, but it might be due to it being my first day shift after a set of nights. So I had some boiled eggs. I know thats good, it's on SS+ plan and I stuck to just that so should be happy. But somehow it feels like I have done something wrong! I just really hope it doesn't affect the scales tomorrow. I think because I am hoping to pull a big number sooo much, and my scales say I'm 1/2 a pound away from it (as of this morning) I just feel than anything other than SS would stop me! However, I know that irrational and a few boiled eggs is perfectly fine. Just being a worrier!

Tomorrow after work and WI I have to nip to ASDA to get lots of cakes for the office, plus my boss a little present. Now ASDA is usually a big trigger for me, I just want to eat everything in sight. Their white chocolate and maple pancakes are a favourite of mine, and I really want to try some of these fudge covered pretzels I found a few weeks ago in the american section! Plus it will be harder as I'll have just weighed in.. Usually the night of WI would be my treat night. However, I must be strong! It's going to be hard enough saying no to the cakes I am taking into work Thursday, so am trying to prepare myself for the worst that day. So messing up tomorrow would only make it worst! Therefore, am just going to buy what I need and get out.

Need to keep remembering the feeling I get when I wake up and feel loads slimmer.. wish I could bottle it up for weak moments! I'll just have to keep checking my hipbones are starting to stick out hehe

 

[misswilma14]

Day 31 - aka Day 7/24-day challenge!

I'm so restless in work today - just want the day to be over so I can get to my WI! So been looking through my diary and found my mini-goals from a few weeks ago.. and am happy to say that I have ticked a few off!

Stick to plan for 1 week DONE
Stick to plan for 1 month DONE (as of today!)
Get to 11stone DONE! (as of today!)
Get to 10.7
Get to 10
Get to 9.7 - ultimate goal
Size 10 clothes

I'm really nearly there with 10.7 on my scales, but going to update later about tonight. I'm praying for 10.11 which will take me to my stone weight loss.. but that's 6lbs, very optimistic. I'd be happy with 4lbs off to get the weight back off that I put on last week, and anything else is a bonus. I also read in my diary that when I get to 10.7 I will get a new piercing.. but not really sure about that now, because I'm hoping to be there before my holiday and don't want it to get infected with the sand/pool etc. So might just have to treat myself to some extra nice bikinis!

My mum's lost 12lbs on plan so far by the way. Had a couple of blips along the way and is really rubbish at eating all 4 products she is supposed to per day - sometimes she will just have 2, which she now knows affects her weight loss negatively because of starvation mode/lack of nutrients. But we're getting there

I have been texting my friend about going for a leaving meal and drinks.. however we have come to a compromise! Cinema and a nice, homemade, healthy meal e.g. fajitas but I just won't have the wraps. Will feel like such a treat!

Anyway will update later with my WI results fingers crossed!

 

[Sophiesophs]

Oh good luck!!!! Xxxx

 

[misswilma14]

So weigh in... I GOT MY STONE!! So happy, I really didn't think I'd get it. Especially as I had a cheeky costa about two hours before WI. A work colleague bought me one and once it was there I felt too rude to say no, but knew the calories wouldn't affect my WI. That's a next-week-wilma problem But I was so chuffed, a 6lb loss!! So when I looked on her scale I was only 0.2 into the 6lbs i.e. 10st11.8 but she always goes off the stone and whole pound so it worked in my favour! Also lost some more inches, I've lost 5 inches from my waist in a month! Very happy lady.

That's the good news. The bad news is that I ended up going out for food and drinks with a friend tonight. I had all good intentions to have a nice chicken salad.. then got there and she persuaded me to have what I wanted. She didn't force a gun to my head but I was just too weak willed! Ended up having a huge meal, plus desert, plus loads and loads of drinks. Then, as I was already in the wrong frame of mind, devoured some sweets I'd had at home, untouched for ages. I wasn't even drunk because I'd eaten so much! But now feel awful for it, my stomach is all over the place and I feel like I need to throw up.

Why am I so up and down? I'm still really motivated, but just think the self-sabotage thing is there all the time, just waiting for me to fail. I know i'm over exaggerating a bit because it's only one meal and I'm a whole stone down, but knowing I can go back to this mindless binging scares me. I just didn't care. But I suppose the habits of a lifetime won't change overnight eh. My consultant suggested I move up to step 2 now because I'm at a healthy BMI, but after tonight I feel like I need to at least do a couple of days on SS just to get myself back into the zone with everything. I know for a fact that there will be lots of cake in work tomorrow (because I'm bringing it in! Baked some lovely little cupcakes - really miss baking) and I don't think I'll be able to resist. Plus a friend is cooking dinner for me. So going to try and stick to the shakes etc, I'll have a little cake or two, a healthy meal (think we are having chicken/peppers/brown rice) so having the day offish and then will be back on SS for the next 5 days until my WI. Will keep drinking loads of water and hope to lose 1-2lb next week. I'd be so happy with 2lbs, as that would get me into the 140's!

So tonight has been an up and down.. and I never want to experience the down again, I do feel so awful about it now. I just really need to work on focusing my control, and realising that if I want something off plan thats fine, as long as I accept the consequences and try and make healthy choices! But another learning curve! I've ordered the 'Beck Solution' book that I've heard about on here, apparently it teaches CBT surrounding eating habits. Some reviews say its nothing new, but others say its the holy grail which changed their habits for life! I'll let you know what it's like anyway.

 

[misswilma14]

Day 32, 15 days until holiday

So last night I had the blip, then today I had another blip. Cakes in work, then chocolate covered rice cakes (why is one never enough?), pizza and garlic bread for dinner, then a healthyish tea of chicken rice and veg, followed by a warm chocolate fudge pudding and a bottle of wine. My last day at work, had a nice time, now put a line under it. Happy to be starting on SS again tomorrow, and hoping it won't affect my WI too badly on Wednesday. A STS would be great. Hope everyone else is doing better than me! Taking the scenic route some might say eh!

 

[Sophiesophs]

Ha ha the scenic route! Oh it must be so hard going out with friends....that's something I've put on hold tbh as I can't face the 'oh go one have it' scenario because I know I'll cave in! You'd have to have willpower of iron not to give in I think so you're only human! Well done on your 6lb loss!! You should've let that spur you on! You can do this, I know you've blown it a couple of times but get straight back to it! No 'I've blown it now so I'll eat some more' syndrome...be strong!!!! Xxx

 

[misswilma14]

Sophie I love it when you comment, you always make me feel so much better! I was thinking loads last night (albeit in a half-drunken state hehe) about Cambridge, and the whole cheat thing. And have come to the conclusion that if I do have a cheat.. which is inevitable with my lifestyle, I'm never going to be one of these amazing 'i've-done'12-weeks-100%-SS' people. Well done if you are, but I'm just not. I could be.. but I'd rather have a few little blips and it take a little longer to reach goal. I mean, come on, I lost a stone in a month! Thats amazing! I could never have done that for any other diet, plus I have had nights eating loads of sh*t! So am really happy with my progress, but also really happy that Cambridge is part of my life now and I can use it to compensate for any inevitable nights out. That's what I'll be doing in maintenance, so am happy to do it now. Got such a positive outlook right now I genuinely love this diet!

 

[misswilma14]

Ohh, and I forgot to say how many inches I have lost. This week lost another 5 inches overall! 3 off my waist, one off my hips, 0.5 off my right arm and 0.5 off my left thigh! How strange haha, but a total of 13 inches overall since starting this!! And a massive 5 inches off my waist alone! Happy lady

 

[Sophiesophs]

Well done you! The inch loss is amazing! My consultant doesn't do that till the four week mark And I haven't got a tape measure to cheat. God we're only human! I've amazed myself that I've done 16 days 100% but am already planning a little 'break' lol, just one weekend .....I'd like to say I'd eat healthy but tbh I just want to taste chocolate, and cheese rolls and dominoes pizza! Oh and visit TGI Fridays on a date with hubs! The people that stick to this without blips are truely amazing but it's just not doable for everyone!

 

[misswilma14]

Day 34

Okay so I have been extremely motivated the last few days but life has just gotten in the way completely. But everything is done now, I have moved house, left my job and all the friends I had met there. I am now moved back home and have no distractions! Apart from my friends wanting to have a couple of glasses of wine tonight, but that will be easy to say no - I'll just drive. Also I am visiting friends next weekend but am pretty sure i'll be able to do SS without anyone noticing. A few of them already know I'm on cambridge anyway. So, after an eventful week or so I am definitely back on SS today. Have it all planned out!

Weighed myself this morning and have put on 3lbs since last Wednesday, so hoping a few days on SS will lose a bit and put me at a STS this week. Meeting my new consultant on Wednesday so hopefully we click. Have decided that if I'm at 10st 7lb on my scales before my holiday in two weeks, I'll be very happy. Going to start doing toning exercises today as well, which always make me feel slimmer. Here's to a good few weeks, taken day by day

 

[misswilma14]

Good day yesterday! It's very hard living at home and not having lots of cups of tea with milk, so I have started on SS+ so I can have the milk allowance. Had my 3 products and lots of water even declined wine when I was out! Was really proud of myself. Reading the Beck Solution book and it promises to teach you how to think like a thin person. I can relate to lots of what it is saying! Mostly talking about sabotaging thoughts e.g. 'oh its a celebration/birthday/night out I can't say no' or 'oh i feel rude declining someones's offer of wine/chocolate/cakes' or 'i've blown it today might as well eat what I want and start again tomorrow next week'. So hopefully it will work! You have to complete one task per day, starting tomorrow I think. Fingers crossed

 

[misswilma14]

Yesterday went really well. It was my brothers birthday and he got loads and loads of chocolate, plus a huge birthday cake. I had a tiny tiny nibble just to taste, but thats it. I didn't feel deprived or anything, and was really happy I didn't eat any of the party food either! Did some exercise yesterday as well, a little 10 min warm up on the treadmill and an abs toning exercise DVD. I don't want to do too much cardio as I know too much backfires on this diet, but as my holiday is so soon I want to tone up a bit. Today is going well too - I have made a huge batch of oatbran muffins for my dad who is trying to eat healthy. They are really clean and a good little mid-morning snack for him to keep his energy levels up. Will just have to make sure he doesn't eat them all at once! I have had the tiniest nibble of one just to see what they taste like, and they are a winner for him. Just hope it doesn't throw my mum. She is still on Cambridge and loves cakes. I'll just have to tell her that their is peanut butter in them! No more nibbles for me at all until Wednesday WI!

 

[misswilma14]

I can't stop nibbling today already I have had a little piece of cake, 3 of my healthy muffins (the shame.. they are healthy, but definitely NOT cambridge!), three chocolates and three pieces of malt loaf. I feel so bad for it. And I know it's because I have been bored! I need something to do in my life whilst I'm still on the job hunt! But just don't know what. Don't want to do more exercise as I think it would make me really tired/dizzy (I felt a bit light headed this morning), I could go for a walk but thats also boring, I feel like I'm wasting my time. I don't know. Something not to do with food though!

 

[misswilma14]

Okay so yesterday I couldn't stop eating all day. BUT on the bright side I did some exercise, and I did have all my products. Feeling more motivated today, just think I am bored with life at the minute. So I'm going to find lots of bits and bobs to do today - I need to wash the car, clean the house, and am going to go and see my grandparents who I rarely go and see. The only thing is I that they will definitely try and get me to eat something! But I'm pretty strong at theirs, I'll just have a tea. Determined to stick to SS 100% today, as it's my WI tomorrow. Sneaky WI on my scales this morning says I have put on 1lb since last week, but hoping that drowning myself in water today will shift a little bit. Plus I have been on my period this week so that might have made a difference! Wish me luckkkkk

 

[Sophiesophs]

Good luck!!!!!!!!