Hi everyone, I'm a newbie here and just wanted to find out what I'm doing so wrong as it's really getting me down. I've never really been a big eater but last Monday I was put on xenical as I have a fat infiltration showing on my liver, Doctor said its nothing really bad but if I got my weight down it would probably sort itself out. I have told him plenty of times I'm not a big eater yet for no reason whenever I lose weight which is extremely difficult I end up gaining it back through no reason whatsoever at about a pound a week. Before I had my son 5 years ago I was a size 8 and forever obsessed with counting calories as in my eyes, being 'fat' was the worse thing possible. Even though I carried on my over obsession with food I went from 8 and a half stone to 13 and a half. It sounds awful but I only decided to breastfeed as a I kept being told it helps to lose the llbs. Well it didn't, lol the lowest I ever got to was 10 stone 13 when my son was about 2 when I was doing weight watchers and was on reductil. Even then I really struggled each week with the weigh ins and resorted to laxatives the night before my weigh in just so I wouldn't feel humiliated that I was the only one who hadn't lost anything. Now 3 years later I'm the highest weight I have ever been at 14 stone 9 and im so repulsed by myself that I have let this happen. Being put on Xenical was a last chance for me, I had been on them for a short time before but didn't no to much about it and found the side effects to much to handle so I stopped taking them. Now because I knew what the side effects were like everyday I have been making sure I have no more than 15g of fat per meal. And I have had nothing, no side effects, not even one pound of weight loss. I was really down on Sunday and thought I would have the day off and have my normal Sunday roast and see if that kick started anything but still nothing! I feel so depressed today as I don't want to look like this anymore, I don't even recognize myself when I look in the mirror, I avoid meeting up with people I haven't seen for a while just so they don't have to see I have gained weight. Does anyone know what I could be doing wrong? No side effects normally means your doing everything right but I have now been on the tablets 8 days with not even a pound of weight loss :'(