lottie_2015
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Thank u both honeys 
my ex has signed up for a course ran by our local domestic abuse service, there's a waiting list & the course is 32 weeks long so it's a long process but at least he's willing to look at his behaviour. Theyre sending me a support worker aswell & on a course to build back my self esteem. feeling pretty fed up because he's an amazing person except for that part of him but is frustrating bcos even though he wants to & has tried for a long time to stop himself behaving the way he does, he actually can't it's something he needs to be shown & taught how to change. And me & baby lose out in the meantime, he's not working & living with his dad who pays for everything for him while I can't even afford to buy a box of Tampax & get 5 hours sleep a night while he's dossing around & sleeping til midday then watching TV for the rest of the day, comes to take baby out & have a nice play for 2 hours in the afternoon then drops him off when he's tired & cranky & ******* off to do what he wants for the evening. I know it will get easier as baby gets older, at the moment he has a dream feed at 11pm, once that's dropped I will be going to bed at 8pm the same time as him & i know I'll feel much better. And soon he'll be sitting & crawling & able to amuse himself a lot more. Today I finally hung up the last of my clothes from boxes so the house is finally completely unpacked. Hoping to hear from the gym soon as though I'm nearly back to size I really need to tone up again now & it would be good to do something just for me. Had a depressing thought today I've been cooking the sausages & burgers with crisp'n'dry - googled it today & it has like 114 calories per tablespoon! have only used the minimum to fry them in & it has zero carbs but still it would have soaked some of it up wouldn't it, really hope it won't have affected my losses! Sticking on shakes til weigh day now. Which is only 12 days away! x
my ex has signed up for a course ran by our local domestic abuse service, there's a waiting list & the course is 32 weeks long so it's a long process but at least he's willing to look at his behaviour. Theyre sending me a support worker aswell & on a course to build back my self esteem. feeling pretty fed up because he's an amazing person except for that part of him but is frustrating bcos even though he wants to & has tried for a long time to stop himself behaving the way he does, he actually can't it's something he needs to be shown & taught how to change. And me & baby lose out in the meantime, he's not working & living with his dad who pays for everything for him while I can't even afford to buy a box of Tampax & get 5 hours sleep a night while he's dossing around & sleeping til midday then watching TV for the rest of the day, comes to take baby out & have a nice play for 2 hours in the afternoon then drops him off when he's tired & cranky & ******* off to do what he wants for the evening. I know it will get easier as baby gets older, at the moment he has a dream feed at 11pm, once that's dropped I will be going to bed at 8pm the same time as him & i know I'll feel much better. And soon he'll be sitting & crawling & able to amuse himself a lot more. Today I finally hung up the last of my clothes from boxes so the house is finally completely unpacked. Hoping to hear from the gym soon as though I'm nearly back to size I really need to tone up again now & it would be good to do something just for me. Had a depressing thought today I've been cooking the sausages & burgers with crisp'n'dry - googled it today & it has like 114 calories per tablespoon! have only used the minimum to fry them in & it has zero carbs but still it would have soaked some of it up wouldn't it, really hope it won't have affected my losses! Sticking on shakes til weigh day now. Which is only 12 days away! x
