A Graceful Descent

[Michillinwoman]

Mifford . I am really proud of you. That last post was excellent and I could feel you got a lot out of your system. I actually feel the same way now,I dont care how long it takes,as long as I am seeing a minus each week ,its all good.

I can understand your frustration of not being diagnosed properly and always being told any problem you had was down to your weight. Why dont doctors listen to people? .

I think when you have been treated like that it really knocks your self esteem but I can see you are pulling yourself out of that and beginning to feel good about yourself which will in turn spur on your weight loss .. Its all good :girlpower:

 

[Mifford]

thanks Breda - I'm not sure whether I was getting a lot off my chest in that post or whether its there to act as a reminder in a couple of week's when I start getting frustrated that I'm not losing enough again hahahahaha I emailed my leader with similar as she had a more "subdued" meeting last night and to let her know that what she does has an impact that is more important than just what shows up on the scales and I'm guessing that further down the road when I need re-inspiring she's going to be pulling it out and reminding me of it

Funnily enough my self esteem hasn't been too bad throughout everything - all of the health stuff has been going on for over 20 years now :-o Obviously it does knock you and you start thinking maybe it is all in your head but once I discovered that I had Hashimotos and then found out that I have another auto-immune disease as yet undiagnosed, and only found by accident because the doctors sent off for the wrong blood test!, its given me the confidence to take control of things again and know that the one person who was right all along was me. I then started questioning why I spent so long leaving my health in the hands of people who aren't directly affected by it rather than taking control myself. I don't think the docs like it so much as I won't just be fobbed off any more - I know when I don't feel right and as I'm the one that has to live with it I will not stop pushing until they actually listen to me now. Times like last week when things hit me out of nowhere are harder and knowing I'm back on the treadmill of seeing different specialists again in an attempt to get to the bottom of it gets soul destroying sometimes but its just a case of pick myself up and start again if need be. This last year in particular I've come to the conclusion that I have two choices. In simple terms life isn't fair and on what I eat I should be skinny and losing more etc etc but that is what it is and its out of my control. What is in my control is how I react to that and I can either sit here feeling sorry for myself and moaning about the fact I shouldn't be overweight and I should be losing more and its not my fault etc etc or I can get up off my arse and actually do what I can about it because feeling sorry for myself isn't really going to help.

As I told my meeting last night starting Weight Watchers at this point is about a whole lot more than just losing weight for me. I have literally forgotten how to eat normally. I eat ridiculously healthily as it is and a lot of the time I am SO controlling over that or I just barely eat at all out of desperation but now that my meds are more settled than they have been (after 2 years of treatment we still can't get me balanced but at least now I'm un-balanced at the right end of the scale lol) I know that its time for me to get back to a more balanced lifestyle. Its taking a bit of getting my head round the fact that its ok for me to eat more and to have treats here and there if I want them but its slowly sinking into my brain and I'm making a lot of mental changes - I saw you talking about binges on your diary and I was the queen of those until recently. I would barely eat anything for weeks/months and then out of nowhere I would be hit by the most unbelievable cravings for things like haribos - except not just anything it had to be something specific like the coca cola bottles or fruit pastilles or wine gums or at one point mint choc chip ice cream in wholemeal wraps!?! It wasn't something I could ignore either and was like a compulsion to HAVE to eat this crap and I couldn't ignore it. I would binge for the day and then feel sick as all hell and wish I hadn't and then I would barely eat for the next however many weeks to try and undo the damage. The last 6 weeks I've had times when I've been hungry and wanted to eat the entire contents of my house (that totm basically) but I haven't had the cravings that I was getting before. In fact a friend had some haribos the other day and I actually didn't want them. But I'm also accepting that if it happens again then its ok for me to give in to it a little bit but as long as I keep it under some control. In fact by allowing myself to ease up on my diet slightly and have the odd treat such as a curly wurly my body isn't craving it so much as it was.

Anyway - I have now gone off at strange tangents and can't remember what I was going to add so I'll leave it there lol My food shopping isn't being delivered until tomorrow (I buy less impulse stuff if I order online) so I'm running low on stocks today but the plan is as follows:-

Breakfast
Tin of grapefruit segments
2 x boiled egg (woke up hungry)

Lunch
Tuna salad

Dinner
Lentil casserole
Rhubarb crumble

Oh and I haven't weighed myself yet today, my scales have been put in the cupboard (another addiction that needs dealing with) and I did 15 minutes on the cross trainer first thing (going to start at 15 mins a day every day even though I know I can do more as I don't want to build muscle so quick). And now I'm off to make a cuppa and get back to work where I am sat looking fabulous in my new Tommy Hilfiger denim skirt, new top and new little yellow bright and sunny cardigan (might have to switch this for a long sleeved one though as its damn cold today!)

Hope everyone else has a good day

 

[Mifford]

I started having a slight panic today that I don't have the cambridge shakes available .... and then I just ate scrambled egg and bacon medalions for lunch and decided that nope I'm SO much happier eating that than having a chocolate shake thingy with all of 150 calories in it. All allowed on my simply filling plan without me having to count any of it and it was soooooooooooooooooo yummy. I was even eating it thinking that surely I can't really be on a diet!

I don't know why but for some reason something has really clicked with me this week and I've had a total mental turn around. As far as I'm concerned I'm not actually dieting right now - what I'm doing is eating what will be my "normal" healthy diet at my goal weight and my body will slowly shrink down to that size. Does that make sense? It's kind of as if in my head I'm not dieting to get to a point and then stopping when I get there to then start a new lifelong plan - I'm on the lifelong plan already, I'm at the end point and my body just needs to catch up. I read an article in the WW magazine last night about positive visualisation and it kind of made sense - they were talking about promotions etc but it ocurred to me that my brain thinking I'm restricting what I'm eating to achieve something is a negative view of it whereas being in a frame of mind where I am already at that point and the rest of me is catching up feels like its a positive transition and I'm moving towards the new me rather than moving away from the old one. I'm not sure any of that will make sense to anyone or if I'm just talking absolute rubbish and need to step away from the drugs

Either way - I'm feeling much more positive and there's definitely been a mental switch.

I've even put my scales away. Cold turkey. No weighing other than every 7lbs to see how I'm doing on the body fat percentage side. Its kind of scary not knowing what my weight is as I go along for the week but at the same time I'm giving myself the freedom from obsessing with it all.

It does help that my sainsbury's delivery arrived this morning so I have nothing but healthy food in my house now. I have a plan for the week and no excuse not to stick to it - except the handle broke on the bag with the eggs in it as the guy handed it to me so I had to adjust todays lunch plan quick to have scrambled eggs lol

So today's menu ....

Breakfast
Oats so simple & teaspoon sugar (1pp)
Melon & mint smoothie

Snack
Weight Watchers caramel bar (2pp)

Lunch
Scrambled egg
Bacon medalions
2 x crumpets (trying them to see how my stomach reacts)
Smidgeon of low fat spread (1pp)
2 x satsumas

Dinner
Steamed trout
Stir fried vegetables
Butternut squash mash
Sugar free jelly & natural yogurt

So that's 4pp in total bringing me up to 7 for the week so far. I haven't done any exercise yet this morning but I will be taking a 15-20 minute walk down to the postbox and back this afternoon which will cover me.

 

[Michillinwoman]

Hi Miff , Great to see you are feeling so positive .I know exactly what you mean about feeling that this is not a diet but a new way of life . I feel exactly the same way . I have had what I would call a hungry day today and I have gone with the flow. I know I will use some of my weeklies today but so what? . As long as I stick with my healthy snacks (might eat more than usuail but) and not pig out on sweet stuff or takeaway food I think i am doing ok.

Well done on putting away the scales . Its less torture this way !!!!!!

Food looks lovely ,steamed trout Mmmm.

 

[marylou]

I started having a slight panic today that I don't have the cambridge shakes available .... and then I just ate scrambled egg and bacon medalions for lunch and decided that nope I'm SO much happier eating that than having a chocolate shake thingy with all of 150 calories in it. All allowed on my simply filling plan without me having to count any of it and it was soooooooooooooooooo yummy. I was even eating it thinking that surely I can't really be on a diet!

I don't know why but for some reason something has really clicked with me this week and I've had a total mental turn around. As far as I'm concerned I'm not actually dieting right now - what I'm doing is eating what will be my "normal" healthy diet at my goal weight and my body will slowly shrink down to that size. Does that make sense? It's kind of as if in my head I'm not dieting to get to a point and then stopping when I get there to then start a new lifelong plan - I'm on the lifelong plan already, I'm at the end point and my body just needs to catch up. I read an article in the WW magazine last night about positive visualisation and it kind of made sense - they were talking about promotions etc but it ocurred to me that my brain thinking I'm restricting what I'm eating to achieve something is a negative view of it whereas being in a frame of mind where I am already at that point and the rest of me is catching up feels like its a positive transition and I'm moving towards the new me rather than moving away from the old one. I'm not sure any of that will make sense to anyone or if I'm just talking absolute rubbish and need to step away from the drugs

Either way - I'm feeling much more positive and there's definitely been a mental switch.

I've even put my scales away. Cold turkey. No weighing other than every 7lbs to see how I'm doing on the body fat percentage side. Its kind of scary not knowing what my weight is as I go along for the week but at the same time I'm giving myself the freedom from obsessing with it all.

It does help that my sainsbury's delivery arrived this morning so I have nothing but healthy food in my house now. I have a plan for the week and no excuse not to stick to it - except the handle broke on the bag with the eggs in it as the guy handed it to me so I had to adjust todays lunch plan quick to have scrambled eggs lol

So today's menu ....

Breakfast
Oats so simple & teaspoon sugar (1pp)
Melon & mint smoothie

Snack
Weight Watchers caramel bar (2pp)

Lunch
Scrambled egg
Bacon medalions
2 x crumpets (trying them to see how my stomach reacts)
Smidgeon of low fat spread (1pp)
2 x satsumas

Dinner
Steamed trout
Stir fried vegetables
Butternut squash mash
Sugar free jelly & natural yogurt

So that's 4pp in total bringing me up to 7 for the week so far. I haven't done any exercise yet this morning but I will be taking a 15-20 minute walk down to the postbox and back this afternoon which will cover me.

hiya whats the simply filling plan you are on? is this to do with the shakes? you are doing really well with your food, well done. are oats so simple only 1pp!!! jeez louise that great!!!

 

[Mifford]

Hi Marylou - no the simply filling is an alternative to propoints where you just eat the green highlighted healthy and filling foods but don't count the points. You then still have your 49 weeklies that you use for anything outside of the healthy and filling list - the oat so simple are highlighted green as being healthy & filling and so is the skimmed milk so I don't count the points on that but the teaspoon of sugar is 1pp so I take that off of my weeklies. Hope that makes sense.

Breda I wouldn't worry about having a "hungry" day as long as you stay on track with it and don't go over your weeklies. We all have them and as part of the "diet" journey is listening to our bodies I guess if its telling you its hungry then as long as you keep on with healthy foods then its not doing any harm to give in to it every now and then.

I did have my walk yesterday and surprisingly actually went the long way round on the way back with the VERY steep hill at the end - it nearly killed me but I felt a lot more virtuous while I was lying on the sofa dying afterwards lol I was going to do the same again today but its turned really hot and I'm just not feeling it - I did spend 15 minutes finishing off oiling the decking finally though so that kind of makes up for it.

Oh and I spent time today finding out about roller skating lessons! If its the thought that counts then I've done loads of exercise researching that one! lol I used to have skates years ago and I know its a really fun way to get exercise in and seriously tones your legs up but its always annoyed me that although I can skate straight and just about stop etc I've never really learnt how to skate properly and on my "bucket list" of things to do before I hit 40 in October is to learn to skate properly. I've found somewhere about 45 minutes drive from here that do lessons on a Sunday morning (early unfortunately but oh well) and they are only £8 for an hour lesson and £5 to hire the skates and safety equipment if I need to. My goddaughter is interested in coming with me and I've text my sister-in-law to see if she wants me to take my nephews as well (its only £5 each for them and they have skates so definite bargain). I'm not worried about going on my own but it would be nice to have company for the first lesson if only to help read the map to find the place!! lol

Then this afternoon I discovered that an apple a day isn't always a good thing when I bit into it and my tooth disintigrated. Its one that was only filled a few months ago so I'm hoping I don't get charged again for it!! Its the second time that part of it has collapsed on me and this time its gone really short at the front. Its amazing since my thyroid got worse (or possibly since I've been on the meds) its the 3rd tooth to collapse on me when I only had 3 fillings in total in the 35 or so years up until then. Its got to be a bit more than a coincidence I think.

The bad news is the dentist can't see me until Monday afternoon but on the good news side other than starting to get a headache and feeling very odd its not mega painful (yet) and it will stop me eating a load of rubbish at the cinema on Sunday and keep me on track!

Right - today's food diary ...

Breakfast

Bacon sarnies with Be Good To Yourself bacon medallions and nimble bread (1pp for the smearing of low fat spread on the bread) - I know it doesn't seem very dieting having bacon sarnies for breakfast but I reeeeeaaaally wanted them and they tasted soooooooooooo good!

Snack
Banana oat smoothie with flax seed oil

Lunch

Trout and orange salad (I steamed a second piece of trout last night to have for lunch today)
Galia melon
Curly Wurly (3pp)

Snack

Apple and half a tooth (not sure how many PPs to put on the tooth)

Dinner

Chicken, jacket potato and corn on the cob
Sugar free jelly

 

[Mifford]

actually thinking about it I might need to reconsider the corn on the cob for dinner and switch that to stir fried vegetables - the corn might be a bit difficult to eat when I can't bite down on my right side and all the little bits are going to be getting into my broken tooth. Darn it - I was really looking forward to that

 

[Michillinwoman]

Ouuuuu poor you with your tooth. Isnt it rediculous that there arnt dentists that work weekends . I remember one time having B (Autistic )screaming with a pain in a tooth over easter weekend and having nowhere to go with her. I think eventually we took her through casualty. They usually have a dentist on call .

Skating .... WoW ...good on ya .. great exercise id say . Not for me though .I have a bad back and a fall could really cause damage. !!!!!

Its funny (talking about the hungry day) Today i have been so buzy I havnt eaten that much at all and I am not hungry !!!!!

 

[Mifford]

you gave your hunger to me! lol I can't stop eating this evening and I'm struggling to try and find something to fill the hole!

My dentist does actually work Saturdays its just they are fully booked - I think if I was in pain they would have fitted me in so if it is bad in the morning I'll call them again but if not I'll probably be ok until Monday. I'm more worried about more of it collapsing by then than anything.

Now I just need to find a way of chaining myself to the sofa to stop me going anywhere near the kitchen again ...

 

[Michillinwoman]

Hi Miff , Hope you are not having trouble with that tooth.weather kinda miserable here today . hope you are O.K..Breda

 

[Mifford]

hiya and thanks - luckily the tooth has made it through the weekend (touch wood). Hopefully it should be fixable by the dentist tomorrow.

Sorry not been on much this weekend - its been a busy one. My 3 seater sofa is getting near the end of its life and my goddaughter's sister in law has just moved house having found out she is pregnant and was in desperate need of furniture so I offered it to them so they can delay buying a new one for a little bit longer. They picked it up today so I've been getting my house organised and moving furniture round etc etc so its been pretty busy.

Also I went to see the new Harry Potter this evening - it was fantastic and I loved it

But the diet has gone a bit haywire. I can't for the life of me remember what I've eaten and I've not really tracked it brilliantly. I was STARVING yesterday and although I pretty much stuck to the healthy & filling I ate so much it was unbelievable. Today I missed breakfast and although I managed to stick to plan for lunch and had a light dinner before I went out that was true to plan but then had a bag of crisps and some chocolate at the cinema and no idea how many weeklies I used up.

All that would have been fine as I had spare but then my goddaugher contacted me to invite me round for dinner tomorrow night for her birthday. Her boyfriend's mum is cooking and is making moussaka - as I can't eat garlic she has offered to make me my own mini individual moussaka without garlic in it so I can't really then not eat it and I have no idea how many points will be in it in the sauce etc.

I'm going to be as careful as I can but weigh in is on Tuesday and I think I'll just be happy if I manage to STS as I can't see me losing this week now! But then sometimes you just have one of those weeks where you have to give in to your body and this was one of those weeks - if I don't get over that just over 1/2lb hump I need this week then it'll happen next week instead and there's no point in beating myself up over it. Its life basically - this is a life change not just a diet and that means that in the future there will be weeks when I can't be strict with it and then I just have to write those off and move forward so I'm learning that now

 

[Mifford]

I have no idea what is going on with me this week - since Friday the diet has just totally gone out of the window and my head hasn't been there at all. I'm not sure if its because I know I'm going to be off plan tonight anyway so I've just let it go or if I'm finding the new simply filling version too restrictive and the rebel in me is rejecting it. I'll see what happens tuesday at weigh in and decide whether I stick to simply filling or switch back to PP then. I have to switch back to PP the following week anyway as I have visitors for the weekend and it'll be a lot easier for me to work around PP than trying to stick to simply filling if we end up going out at all.

So today has gone as follows:-

Breakfast
Smoothie and cup of tea

Snack
Curly wurly

Lunch
Chickpea and tuna salad
Curly wurly

Dinner
Moussaka
Raspberry and blueberry brulee ... that doesn't sound like it's going to be low fat to me!!! I think I'll be trying to eat as little of it as possible without offending anyone.

Hope everyone else is having a better week - I'm writing this one off in my head and re-starting on Wednesday!

Hmmmm I'm having a sense of de ja vu though - I have a feeling I said the same thing about this time last week!! lol

 

[Mifford]

so I now have a tooth again - my dentist, bless her, covered it with white filling rather than amalgum so that it wasn't so obvious.

She also mentioned that that particular tooth keeps collapsing (no idea why) and as 3/4 of it is now filled she'd suggest that I start considering a crown. She took me through them before I left and then told me that the standard NHS one is gold and will set me back £210, a porcelain one would have to be done privately and would be £350 and the piece de resistance one that is all singing and all dancing would be £450!!! All I can say is that it was a novel way of getting me to open my mouth wider as my jaw hit the floor!!!! :-o

Its now been 1 3/4 hours and my top lip is just about back enough for me to be able to talk without sounding drunk but I just tried a cup of tea and I'm still having to take tiny sips on one side only or I dribble like a 90 year old lol I just hope its fully back and operating for my goddaughter's birthday meal at 7.30 or it will be a somewhat embarrassing way to be introduced to her boyfriend's parents!!! hahahahaha

Oh and an interesting fact I learnt today - the last couple of years I have felt kind of odd when I have an injection done at the dentist and it makes me go slightly dizzy when they first put it in - I've even had times when I have got them to do the work without an anaesthetic where I know its going to be quick and easy and then just dealt with the resulting headache afterwards. I was talking to the dentist about it and she told me its probably because I have to have different injections now because they can't give me the one with adrenaline in it. News to me so I asked why - apparently if you are on thyroid treatment they don't interact very well so they have to take you off adrenaline injections and put you on special ones. Don't you love the way the doctors and specialists fill you in on this information when they diagnose you so you can double check that your dentist isn't going to make you ill??? Luckily I have a fantastically good dentist who made the automatic switch over and she told me that all dentist should be aware of it and do the same but I wonder how many not so good ones out there either forget or don't ask for any medical changes every visit so it gets missed.

 

[Mifford]

last night was a fantastic time but I am now cringing thinking about how many points there must have been in the food lol

It was a greek style night so some of it wasn't too bad - for starters I had a couple of small cubes of feta cheese (tiny so not too bad), halloumi (hmmm getting worse), callimari in breadcrumbs (luckily didn't seem too oily and I only had a couple), big spoonful of tzatziki (that was the bit that I didn't worry about), carrot sticks (good), artichoke heart (good) and a slice of french bread (oops).

Then came dinner. Because I don't eat garlic I had my own individual moussaka made which would have made it rude not to just enjoy it lol I did have a fair amount of salad with it but it was basically minced lamb in rich sauce layered with courgette rather than aubergine (works really well!), potatoes and then the most gorgeous cheese sauce top which certainly didn't taste even remotely low fat. Unusually for me I ate half of it and then listened to my body telling me it was satisfied so at the risk of being rude I left the other half and explained that it was absolutely delicious (it seriously was) but that I was full up and was very proud of myself.

Dessert was blueberries and raspberries with a scoop of ice cream and I think it was clotted cream on it and a viennese biscuit. Now as much as I know I should have left the biscuit as I didn't need it I decided that by this stage it wasn't worth worrying about and a treat here and there isn't unhealthy. Its not like I do this regularly so I'm not going to worry about it. And my friend's dad kept trying to ply me with wine (I didn't give in as I was driving anyway) and then kept trying to feed me extra food as well - he had stolen the raspberries out of my bowl because I don't eat them (he and his son were fighting over getting them out of my bowl which was hilarious) and then insisted on me having his biscuit in return. I was very angelic and just passed it on to Drew sat next to me without being spotted lol Oh and the advantage of failing to mention that I don't eat raspberries and thereby having them in the bowl is that it filled it up more so there was less ice cream and cream and therefore that proved to be a good move too

So all in all I'm probably so far off the diet last night that I don't think its even within view but at the same time it could have been sooooo much worse and I was reasonably controlled

 

[Mifford]

1/2lb down this week which puts me, annoyingly, at bang on 15 stone. I did ask if I could start taking layers off and try again to see if we could get an extra ounce off especially seeing as how the scales had flickered and were clearly thinking about what to come up with lol

But it does put me at exactly one stone down from when I decided enough is enough because I had already lost 4.5lbs before I joined WW so I'm very happy

Back to tracking and recording properly tomorrow - I've had my couple of days off now so need to get back on track this week before my parents are here the following weekend at which point its likely to be 3 or 4 days where I try and stay on track as much as I can but at the same time if I'm going to Covent Garden with my mum I will be trying some of the macaroons from laduree!!! The difference is I may limit it to one or two rather than an entire box of 12

 

[Mifford]

back on track again today and I've even emailed the roller skating school to ask them to book me in on Sunday morning. I was waiting to see if any of my friends would actually make a decision and commit to coming with me and then decided sod them I fancy doing this and there's no reason under the sun why I can't do it on my own! I'm not looking forward to the leaving here at 8am on a Sunday morning and trying to find the place but I am looking forward to the hilarity of trying to stay stood up on a pair of inline skates - I failed spectacularly on the quads in my front room yesterday lol A friend had lent me a pair of bauers he had - they are actually slightly too small which didn't help but my living room is wood laminate and it goes SOOOO fast on it! I was marginally better in the kitchen but not particularly - I've emailed the instructor and told him I'm very much looking forward to the part of the lesson that says "learn how to stand up" and I'm hoping that it is very quickly followed by "learn how to stay that way" hahahahahaha

So being a Wednesday and the day after weigh in I was up early this morning (the cat did her jedi mind trick of waking me up by staring at me at just before 7am today) and did my 20 minutes on the cross trainer. I seem to start every week this way all fired up to exercise etc etc and then a few days in its usually gone out of the window fairly quickly. Hey even if its only once a week its once a week more than it was before

So today's menu ...

Breakfast
Fruit salad & low fat bio yoghurt

Snack
Weight Watchers chocolate orange bar (3pp)

Lunch
Calabrian pasta (wholewheat pasta, broccolli and toasted pine nuts) (2pp for the pine nuts)

Dinner

Stir fried turkey, jacket potato, corn on the cob
Melon

I have a really sweet tooth right now and I seem to be hungrier AFTER lunch than I was before (huh??) so I'm struggling to think about what else to have but I am determined that I WILL get into the 14s this week even if it kills me!!! lol

I also need to go get some shopping as I've run out of things like sugar free jelly and yoghurt and bananas for making smoothies etc. I am also out of curly wurlies but I'm going to see if I can survive this week without them! Ooooo that might be tough .....

 

[Mifford]

so I now know why I've been eating like crazy the last few days - except now I'm doubled up with stomach cramps feeling bleeeuuuuggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and totally knackered Early night tonight methinks.

In the meantime as from today I've switched back to pro points for this week - I'm craving my gluten free cereal sooooooooo badly and I fancy having some crispbreads again. I'll give that a couple of weeks and see how it goes and then maybe switch back to simply filling and just keep mixing it up on odd weeks to stop my body getting used to everything. I think I've probably got a slightly better handle on finding the balance now and having introduced some of the healthier carbs the last couple of weeks I should find it a bit easier to use my dailies now

 

[Mifford]

so today I'm back on pro points and trying not to go back to only eating the low point foods because I panic if the points value looks too high and just carrying on eating healthily and the points will work how they work.

Today's diet is as follows:-

Breakfast (6)

Gluten free cereal and skimmed milk (6)

Lunch (12)

Tin of heinz big soup (6)
3 crispbreads (2)
fresh fruit salad with flaked almonds (4)

Dinner (11)

1/2 small jar sweet & sour sauce (3)
Quorn chicken style pieces (2)
Olive oil (1)
M&S egg noodles (1)
Peanut butter smoothie with flax seed oil (4)
Any time

Glass of skimmed milk (3)

32/32

I'll also snack on some fruit if I need to this afternoon but I'm not overly hungry today so shouldn't really need to.

I've had to think about what to eat a bit more again today as eating what I want puts me at about 25 points only for the day but a nice big peanut butter smoothie solves that problem pretty quickly

 

[Mifford]

so I've been trying to get on here all evening to update but my internet has decided to give me a nervous breakdown - it took me four hours to get it up and running again!!!!

I decided to join my brother and nephews on a trip down to see the new football stadium at Brighton today before the first official opening game next weekend. Wow!! It's amazing and I'm SO excited about next weekend's game as I can imagine the atmosphere when the fans are all there - my parents are coming down and so is my other brother and we are taking my youngest nephew. Unfortunately the brother and boys I went with today are away so will miss out on it but the first ever game was last weekend (not the first team but still the first game) and he made it to that one so he beat the rest of us to it and is happy with that.

Anyway I was very proud of myself - he wanted to leave their house around about 12ish and I knew I wouldn't be back home until around 3ish so I actually took a salad in a tupperware box with me in order to stay on track - it was darnded tasty too

So today has gone as follows:-

Breakfast (9)

Cereal (double helping as was hungry) (6)
Skimmed milk (3)

Snack (0)

Pear

Lunch (5)

Pear and parma ham salad with mustard and olive oil dressing (from the WW cooking for two book and it was LUSH!)
Parma ham (4)
Olive oil (1)

Snack (7)

Smoothie ...
Skimmed milk (2)
Banana (0)
Muller light yoghurt (2)
Flax seed oil (1)
Teaspoon peanut butter (2)

Dinner (13)
Quinoa with 2 slices parma ham (to use up) and various vegetables cooked in knorr vegetable stock pot and a slice of WW bread (10)
2 meringue nests, blueberries and low fat natural probiotic yoghurt (3)

Evening snack (1)
Meringue nest - couldn't resist (1)

34/32 = 2 weeklies used

I didn't have my smoothie yesterday but made myself a chocolate milkshake using a spoonful of low fat ice cream which left me using 3 of my weeklies yesterday and I also used 3 of them on Wednesday so that's 8/49 I've used in total so far this week. Be interesting to see how many I use over the weekend as that's usually when I'm worse lol

 

[Mifford]

I did a sneaky mid-week weigh in this morning .... and so wish I hadn't!!!

I'm UP by 1.5lbs according to my scales :-o I have no idea how or why or what's going on. It could be because I've switched back to pro points, it could be the one meal last week that wasn't on track catching up, it could be a thyroid blip because it does just simply do that every now and then and I was absolutely exhausted last week so maybe its to blame. I literally have no idea but I seriously hope its gone again by Tuesday evening!!!!

I'm trying very hard not to over react this morning and just keep doing what I'm doing and see what happens. If I just keep plodding on with sticking to my points and it doesn't go then my guess is its my thyroid - I have another blood test in about 3 weeks and it could be that I need to adjust my meds again, we'll see.

In the meantime ... aaaaaaaaaaaagggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh