A quest for the old happy Em

Well not doing as well as I'd hoped this week. It was all going well till the weekend (though I did use my bike on the weekend). It was my boyfriend's birthday on Saturday so we had chips with ice cream and chocolate for afters (I had a pasta 'n' sauce for lunch but nothing else luckily). The yesterday I cycled to my parents trying to be all healthy, then set about knocking the old kitchen tiles off the wall to help Dad.....and because it's fun to smash things ;-) It was all going well till my finger caught on a stuck out sharp edge of tile as I hit the mallet down and it sliced a good few mm into my finger in a spiral from tip to base :-( Quick rinse under the tap and a good look told me it was a hospital job so Dad took me to the hospital's minor injuries unit and they steri-stripped it together. It's quite painful and my right hand is fairly useless as any movement pulls the wound - who knew I used 2 hands for so much! Having a bath with a glove on and holding my hand in the air was fun, tonight I have to try and wash my hair one handed! Try washing your left armpit with your left hand, or washing your face in the basin...not easy ;-) Just as well I car share with my brother these days so he can drive for a few days.

Anyway, the loss of blood, faint feeling and all round 'Im in pain, please baby me' thing meant my other half got us garlic bread to go with our tea plus chocolate for pud :) Naughty, but he said I only get the sympathy for one day then its back to normal ;-)

Not sure what lunch will be, i've only brought yoghurts as i can't use a knife and fork for beans on toast. I'm such an idiot. I even put the goggles on and said I should have gloves too but never went and got them. Every time I look at my finger I think 'you idiot'!! I won't be riding the bike for a while either which is annoying as i was getting into that.

I'll blame a heavy bandage for my weight gain this wednesday ;-)
 
I've never been a good healer unfortunately but I'm hoping it does heal fairly quickly as it's a bit of an inconvenience as much as it is painful. Still, at least I can laugh about it, could have been much worse if I'd hit the back of my hand or my wrist, eek. I'm hoping I get sympathy at home for a little longer :) But not chocolate related sympathy of course, just having him chop veg for me etc.
 
Well I lost a pound this week so although I'd have liked more over 2 weeks it's alright as I've not been 100%. This week I don't think I've got anything stopping me. I've friends round Friday but it's pasta bake I can syn, pudding is 2 individual shop bought cheesecake slices so I don't eat any! and garlic bread which I might have one piece of and syn. Other than that I want a good loss of another pound next week.
 
Thanks Jane. I'm hoping to make up a bit of ground this week to make up for the slow loss this last fortnight. Yesterday was just 3.5 syns so I was pleased with that. I missed my alpen bars and was at work starving....so tempted to go to the choccy machine but resisted.

Today I know someone is bringing in cakes, which I'm going to politely decline (hopefully). Tonight I'm all set to eat a yoghurt while my guests eat cheesecake :) I really want to get back in my nice clothes! As we're in the process of building a new built in wardbrobe it'd be nice if by March when I put my clothes back in it I could leave out a few of the 'fatter' items. I'm also going for a day shopping at the end of March before seeing starlight express so if I'm thinner by then I can treat myself to something for spring.
 
Half a pound off this week. It teetered on a pound but then jumped up. I'm pleased with that though being * week and all. I have caved in and eaten some chocolate at the cinema on Saturday and dounuts for someones birthday yesterday so any loss was a pleasant surprise. My worry approaching class last night that I'd gained is hopefully enough to remind me why I'm doing this and that every week I mess up is a week wasted.

The only thing I have this week is a meal at a friends house Saturday night which I don't have a clue about calorie wise or anything as I don't know what it'll be! We're planning on walking there though for a bit of exercise and I'm sure I'll be doing some body magic emptying my wardrobe and carting its contents downstairs and out to the conservatory for storage while we build the new one.

The finger is feeling a lot less painful although still tender in places. Not helped when my other half dropped a remote control on it last night! Hoping the steri strips can all come off this weekend, there's only 2 left anyway as they've slowly come off but they are the main two across the worst bit of the cut. Petrified it's going to pull apart when I take them off and bend my finger even though it's been 11 days so far. I'm such a baby!!
 
My finger is feeling much better, it's getting a bit of bend back in it now slowly. Think it's just a bit stiff from 2 weeks of not bending it. Lugging bits of wardrobe and stuff around on the weekend helped loosen it up as well as being good exercise. Goodness knows how many times I went up and down those stairs!

I've been strict and on plan all week except Saturday as expected. Saturday night was chicken enchiladas with home made wedges and a brownie/chocolate sponge thing for pud. I don't think it was too bad considering I didn't eat more than a bowl of poridge all day in preparation! Tomorrow is going off plan as well as it's my birthday so we're having a curry. No doubt there will be a donut or cookie at work as well as I'll have to take some in even if I am on a diet. I could take in fruit and make everyone suffer but seems a little pointless if I'm being naughty for tea anyway. Although I am planning on trying a dry chicken dish at the Indian, half a naan bread etc to be as good as I can as I really want a loss this week!!
 
Well so far a lovely morning, had a lie in, had a salad for lunch and now a cookie. I've worked out tonights meal to be 1200 calories at the most so today should come in under 1500 calories. That should be alright I think!?

I realised on my drive in to work it's the last year I'll be able to say I'm in my 'early 30's' so I'll have to make the most of that ;-)
 
Had a lovely birthday and now I have a chocolate orange sat at home to resist ;-) Curry was yum and I'm hoping tonights weigh in will be a good one. 1.5lb would be nice but I'm not sure if I'll manage that.

Last night thanks to yet another pharmacy/doctor mess up my metformin tablets weren't there so I had to nip round to my Nans and steal a few of hers to keep me going till they sort it out. How bad is that, borrowing medication off your 80 year old Nan!? I'm likely to put on a load of weight if I don't have them though so I needed them before the curry!
 
Thanks Jane :)

Last night went very well, lost 2lbs! I think almost half a pound was in the bank from last week as the scales flickered but I'm still super chuffed with that. I got offered a lift home as it was freezing cold and I'd walked to class but I declined and walked home. I promised myself that I'd walk every week to class regardless and if I can walk in the pouring rain like the other week I can walk in the cold. I quite like the alone time to be honest as I'm rarely by myself these days.

When I got home my other half started on my birthday chocolate orange. I'd eaten the chocs that came with the Indian bill as I'd accidently left them in my handbag, but I did syn them, but it meant I had to say no to the chocolate orange. I felt very pleased with myself that I could sit on the sofa next to him eating it and not want it. At 2.5 syns a segment it's going to have to be eaten a slice a day!
 
Just 6 syns yesterday in the end, 5 of which were from 2 chocolate orange segments. So not worth it! But as I still had syns to use I figured I might as well use them. I could have had a third piece really but it was sort of a mental thing to restrict myself to 2 and then feel proud I'd done it.

I'm still guilty of hopping on the scales but they were showing a tiny bit off this morning so that cheered up my morning....an it's Friday too. No reason to not be happy :)
 
Another weekend gone far too quickly! I was totally on plan though, even did SW friendly dinner and desert for a friend last night to stay on track. I do feel like I've lost nothing this week though, having a bit of a fat feeling like Wednesday's weigh in won't be good. Don't know why, I know I've stuck to it, so I should lose something. Just in a negative mood I guess, Monday blues.

I spent the weekend building the inside bits for my new built in wardrobe and doing a bit of painting. Next weekend I'll be putting everything back in it and hopefully having a bit of a cull of old clothes. My problem is I've got a lot of stuff from when I lost 3.5 stone, and I still have 1.5 stone to lose to get back there. I obviously need to keep it as hopefully I'll be back there by the summer but it means I have 'now' clothes and 'future' clothes all in the same wardrobe....not to mention stuff that's a tiny bit big that I daren't get rid of just incase! I guess most women have the same problem with their wardrobe :) I just don't really have the room to have such a variety of sizes!
 
Nice surprise last night, lost 1.5lbs. It hovered at 1lb then just tipped over to 1.5lb so I'll have to carry on being good this week to make it stick. I've lost 12lb since being back at class now so I'm getting close to my 1stone award. I've said I'll aim to do that over 2 weeks as 2lb in a week is a lot for me, especially on top of two good weeks I've just had. No plans to go out or anything this week though so fingers crossed I can be 100%.

Just found out I'm anaemic too so there's another issue to add to my growing medical issues. And to think years ago the doctor at Uni commented how small my medical records were and how healthy I must be!! It all went downhill from there ;-) I have to have another blood test and then they'll give me iron tablets I guess. Been like it for months though without them bothering to contact me. It was only because I was speaking to the doctor in a phone appointment to sort out my meds she just threw it out there casually. I just thought 'why didn't you contact me as soon as the specialist told you!?'. So that explains my hair loss starting up at a rapid rate, my tinitus getting louder and the fact I feel really tired again. I just thought it was my thyroid or my restricted diet making me tired and the hair was just my alopecia. Hopefully some iron tablets will perk me up and I can get back to the gym though.
 
Well done Emmylou:). Sorry to hear that you are anaemic but at least it explains the way you have been feeling. Hope that you have a good weekend.x
 
Last night at a friends house she had a hot cross bun loaf baking in the bread maker when we came in, then when it was done she offered us all a piece, all warm and freshly buttered...and I politely declined while they sat and ate it. Will power or what eh!? Plus I only ate 4.5 syns yesterday and only about 1000 calories so I was very pleased with myself.

I'd love to get within touching distance of my stone award next week. I've 2 pounds to go so I was planning on getting there over 2 weeks. My friend last night asked if I'd lost weight and I said only 12lb since new year, and she said 'that's nearly a stone, that's a lot!' and it made me realise that I have been knocking my losses a bit. I've been thinking it's not a lot as in my head all I'm doing is slowly clawing my way back to where I was before after losing 3.5 stone, till I get back there I've not *really* lost weight or something stupid like that! To me the weight loss doesn't show as I'm still fatter than I was a couple years back when I got to a size 16. I think well, people complimented me back then on my losses but now they probably won't say anything a second time as they just have me down as a yo yo dieter who'll just put it back on like a lot of people do. So to have a friend compliment me was a really nice surprise. I mean they know why I regained it so it's not quite the same with them but it's still nice. I think I worry far too much about what others think and it bothers me people probably think I just put it back on because I'm a lazy piggy who couldn't control herself around the biscuit tin. I know half the battle, or more, is in our heads so I do need to start recognising that my loss since new year is something to be proud of. Now I've got it moving in the right direction I'll get back to 12st 13lb soon enough and go beyond it this time :-D

I've been gaining weight uncontrolably for so long I don't think it's really registered that it's coming off now, quite consistantly, and I'm now in a situation like before where I can just keep going towards my target. It's a bit unreal in my head that I might actually be medicated correctly enough to carry on like this and it's only going to go back on if I overeat. It's now under my control which is a novelty I've not had for 2 years. I've no pill to come off of, or go back on, it's just me and my thyroid meds now with no interference from any other drugs like when I was on the Dianette, so with the help of the metformin controlling the PCOS I should do just fine :) Just need some iron tablets and I'll be a new woman ;-)
 
Its true EmmyLou and I know how hard it is not to be negative at times. I feel the same because I got to 14st 2lbs last time and feel a failure for putting on so much weight once again. Nevertheless I feel really positive about my new SW group and know that I need to look forwards and not at the past. We are heading in the right direction EmmyLou. :) x
 
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