hi guys. sorry i haven't been around in forever. here's a quick version of what's been going on.
thomas's fainting spells became rather serious and i couldn't get him to wake up again. two lots of ambulance visits to a and e and they admitted him for a week. of course then he stopped passing out. they stopped the meds he was on and he only passed out once since being discharged and that was over two months ago. of course after months of trying to get people to take this seriously we now can't get him to get signed back onto work so we have no money coming in and rather a lot going out... but that's another story, ha.
needless to say during all of this dieting went out of the window and i got up to 16st 8lbs again. great.
just over two weeks ago i had double jaw surgery. lots of swelled face, pain and discomfort but am out the other side of that now and i lost 11lbs due to an enforced diet of mainly fluids. i am still restricted to mush at the hardest but i find that quite difficult to eat still. the best i can do is rice in a sloppy sauce and i swallow the rice whole. no chewing. the mashed stuff just claggs up my mouth and is hard to swallow but i'm getting there.
the story doesn't end there though. oh no. they messed up my surgery and my top jaw isn't in the right place. so i have to go through the whole thing again. usually they would stick me at the top of the list and i would go straight back in but because my surgery involved a bone graft they would rather wait six weeks or so to get a blood supply going to it so that it doesn't crumble and involve them having to take bone from my hip to make another bone graft. so i'm restricted to mush for that long, then back to swollen head and fluids, ha. still. i lost 11lbs this time around so far so by the end of all this i'll probably be skinny. shame i've discovered i can eat choc mousse and trifle really or i'd be onto a winner
so that's my news. thomas can't look after izzy on his own as he still hasn't been cleared by the doc. and although nothing has happened, and i don't think anything will, and he really wants to take her out on his own i can't bring myself to let him. but how long do you wait? nothing has happened for probably about 10 weeks now i think. my mum had iz while i was in hospital and t's mum came over from denmark after that so that he wasn't on his own with her. but now we have to go through it all again we may not have the option. it's possible for anybody to faint at any time whilst in the care of a child. it's so hard to know what to do about it. what do you think?
i still have absolutely no energy. i thought i would be able to do more by now but attempted a ten minute walk today to get to see my surgeon and i was seeing stripes by the time i got there and was swaying all over the place. i asked why this was and it's because i need at least another two weeks to grow back all the red blood cells i lost. so it figures why i get out of breath from going up the stairs now. but it's so frustrating spending most of your time in bed. you'd think that it would be nice to have the break but not being able to go anywhere, and hearing iz go mad because she can't go out with thomas is horrid.
i have arranged for one of our friends to go out with both of them tomorrow and after that i think we'll just have to taxi it to the park and i will sit and let them do all the running around. thomas can't drive because of the fainting thing and even if i could usually i wouldn't be able to at the moment.
so there we are.
how are you all doing?
i am currently 15st 11.4lbs. i got down to 15st 10 before christmas but will that illusive lb vanish so i can get back to my lightest in ages? of course not, ha. i know that a lot of what i have lost is muscle and that once i can eat properly some of it will go back on. so i'm not taking the numbers that seriously, but it's always nice to find a bonus to such a situation
abz xx