I know this thread was started a while ago, but I have just read through it all and can relate so much. I've always had a problem with drugs and alcohol, would get clean for a while, then fall back. I've been clean of drugs for 4 years this September. Sadly, I replaced my drug addiction with even more alcohol and crap food. I only started sw 3 weeks ago and after a shaky first week going well over on syns thanks to alcohol I decided I would have to cut it out altogether, because just one ALWAYS leads to another and another and another.........i would drink at least 4 out of 7 nights, often more like 6 or 7 nights (usually only not drinking if we were skint and as soon as one of us got paid we'd be back on it) my partner has cut down with me not drinking, but I know cutting down is not an option for me - I drink to get drunk, so abstaining is the only way for me.
Anyway, if you read this I just wanted to congratulate you on your sobriety and I hope my willpower (I do have some, I've quit drugs and smoking!) lasts x