Alex's Diary - No big goals, just taking one day at a time!

[Alex_1978]

No point in trying to work men out, Alex, you just have to let them get on with it in their own confusing way

I think you're right there KB....still no word from him yet And while I still instinctively believe that he's not a game player, it's starting to annoy me that he can't just send a text or give me a quick ring!
I guess I'm just feeling a little vulnerable after Thursday night...even though I'm not sure if it's going to be a long-term thing, I don't want to feel used either.

I've been OK on the food front though - for lunch I had two vegetable grills and a WW baguette (with a little bit of butter), and tonight I've had a spag bol ready meal with extra veg, followed by a WW choc brownie desert. I also sneaked in a curly wurly earlier on

Back to the Xenical today as well, don't think I've actually taken it for about a week

 

[Alex_1978]

Still no contact from R, so it's not looking good I'm trying my very best NOT to text him, but I suspect I may get itchy thumbs towards end of the week if I haven't heard anything. Even if it's just to get the predicted 'thanks but no thanks reply'!! Is it better to know or not? Hmnnn...

Anyway, onto the food. I had a late start at work this morning, thanks to a dentist appointment at 10am, so I treated myself to breakfast in bed - very luxorious for a Monday morning!! I've eaten pretty well all day although I'm finding the lack of food in the house VERY difficult, and I'll be so relieved when my Tesco order arrives tomorrow.
This is how it's gone so far:

Porridge with raisins & a sprinkling of museli
WW bagel + 1 Ryvita with Philli extra light (not the best lunch ever but I was improvising!)
Granola bar
Pasta with chopped quorn sausages, peppers, onions, leeks, mushrooms in a 'light' tomato sauce (saved enough for tomorrow's lunch)
About 8 pickled onions
And I might have a sneaky WW desert later or maybe a Curly Wurly

 

[KittyBling]

Doesn't sound too bad at all. How many calories in a Curly Wurly? I am now addicted to Mini Milks thanks to you, I'd never heard of them till you came along!
And never mind that man, what's meant for you won't go past you.

KB x

 

[Alex_1978]

115 calories in a Curly Wurly....not bad for a chocolate fix, and because they're chewy you can get a good few minutes work out of them

Glad to be of service re the Mini Milks! Funny you should mention them now, I was just thinking about having one as I switched the computer on

 

[Alex_1978]

By the way, R texted as I was writing my last post. Nice chatty text, and he did apologise for not being in touch but he didn't exactly grovel.
I was just thinking it though when I was in the bath a while ago, and I kinda decided to let it go. With my ex, I fought and fought for something that was never right so I should learn from that. Like you say, if it's meant for me it won't go past me...

 

[KittyBling]

Excellent news! But as you say, chill out, let it take its own course and who knows? No point in forcing things...
Also excellent news about the Curly Wurly...

 

[KittyBling]

Good luck for weigh in tomorrow!

 

[Alex_1978]

Thank you! I was hoping to lose the weight I gained last week (which I miscalculated at 2.25 - it was actually a gain of 3.25 ) but I don't think I'll manage it.
I should be back under the 17st mark though as long as I haven't gained anything today!

Today's been a shitey one at work, but I've managed to stick on the straight and narrow pretty much:

Porridge with raisins and museli
Left over pasta/tomato/veg/quorn sausage thing from last night
Oatybar
Snack sized box of raisins
Mini Milk
2 Bernard Matthews breaded turkey steaks, with new potatoes, carotts, brocolli, cauli, swede, leeks, 2 mini yorkshire puds and gravy (this was a massive dinner, which probably wasn't a wise move in light of the weigh-in tomorrow)
And I'm bound to have a little treat later, but no more than 120 cals.

No news from R...despite the fact that I asked a question when I replied to his text last night But I'm staying chilled about it, honest!!

 

[Alex_1978]

arty0038: 4lbs off this week!! WOHOOOOOOOO!!

That means I've lost the 3.25lbs I gained last week, and another 0.75lbs on top!
I'm so happy with that, especially after my binge day last Friday

 

[KittyBling]

Well done, Alex, that's great. Hoping for something similar myself.

KB x

 

[purple_kathryn]

Well done!!

 

[Alex_1978]

Thank you!

I'm feeling pretty rubbish today to be honest...I have an horrendous headache that started a couple of days ago and just won't go away
I have a feeling it might be sinus related, since it feels like I have pressure in my head that gets worse if I bend forwards, stand up, cough or blow my nose. It was so bad that I had to come home from work today, but I couldn't ring the doctors as it's half day closing here on a Thursday.
I found some extra-strong prescription-only painkillers earlier that are still in date, so I took one of those about an hour ago, and it seems to have taken the edge of it, but I get a feeling that I'll be off to the doctors tomorrow
Sorry to moan, but I'm just sick of being ill at the moment. I'm never normally a sickly person, I hardly every get colds or tummy bugs, but for the past month (since I met R!) I've just been really under the weather. Nothing so bad that I have to stay in bed, but it's been one long run of coughs, sore throats, headaches and earaches :cry: And now this headache!!!

So that's enough moaning...onto the food.
This was yesterday:
Porridge
WW spicy bean soup with 1 slice chunky rye bread
2 jacket potatoes with extra light tuna mayo
Crust of loaf with a scaping of Lurpack Light

And I went out for a quiet drink with my friend (bad move really, because the headache just got worse when I drank) but I had a glass of red wine, 2 Leffe beers, and about 3 vodka, lime and sodas.

Today's been OK so far:
Porridge
WW leek & potato soup with chunky rye bread
Dorset Cereal bar
1 slice rye bread, toasted with Lurpack Light

Not sure what I'll have tonight because I really don't feel like getting up off the sofa, but I expect it'll probably be something like lasagne with a potato. Can't be bothered to do veg!

Hope everyone's having a good week x

 

[KittyBling]

Oh Alex, poor you, it's no fun being ill and even harder to stay on the straight and narrow food wise so well done. I can sympathise with the headache, it is something that I suffer with, Syndol being my drug of choice and available over the counter. Miracle drug as far as I'm concerned but does make me sleepy... Hope you're feeling better tomorrow.

KB x

 

[purple_kathryn]

awww I hate sinus headaches.

 

[Alex_1978]

Syndol being my drug of choice and available over the counter

Thanks KB, I might look out for them tomorrow if things are no better. I went to the chemist today on my way home and spoke to the Pharmacist. She just recommended a decongestant nasal spray, which I already had at home so I left empty handed.
I'm hoping for a better night's sleep tonight, otherwise work is looking unlikely for me tomorrow. Normally that wouldn't bother me too much, but I'm manning the office on my own at the moment so it's not a great time to be taking time off.

 

[KittyBling]

They'll manage, Alex! Your health is more important... Give the Syndol a go, but don't drive after for a while just in case... Hope you're feeling better, :vibes: (healing vibes for you)

KB x

 

[kae]

Helllo alex!

Sorry you seem to be a victim of my fat fingers! I keep unsubscribing to threads on my iphone! boooo! Sooo sorry hun!

sounds like R is really doing you head in hun! I hate men atm! grrr they really are from another planet! Anyways the less said bout the ogers the better!

Hope your head ache clears hun it sounds really painful! Begger work they can manage!

thanks for all your support hunny!

love katie
xxxx

 

[Alex_1978]

Sorry you seem to be a victim of my fat fingers! I keep unsubscribing to threads on my iphone! boooo! Sooo sorry hun!

That's OK Kae, welcome back

sounds like R is really doing you head in hun! I hate men atm! grrr they really are from another planet!

Yeah, it has really being doing my head in, but I've calmed down a bit now. I caved in and text him on Wednesday to ask what his thoughts were about meeting up again sometime.
He replied with a really nice text explaining how busy he is with work, but that he's not trying to mess me around. He does want to meet up again soon, but it might be a bit short notice because he doesn't know where he'll be from one day to the next.
It's not an ideal situation, but he sounds honest enough. I still think that if he REALLY wanted to find the time then he would, but at this stage in the game (2 'dates') I can't expect to be top of the priority list.
Having said that, if things ever do get off the ground properly, I'll definitely be expecting more than one date every two weeks!

Hope your head ache clears hun it sounds really painful! Begger work they can manage!

Thank you x It's been worse than any headache I've ever had! Imagine your worst ever hangover and times it by 10, and you've got my headache.
Maybe it's for the best that R has been too busy to meet up! I look a right state - manky old clothes, wild hair, miserable face!

 

[kae]

Hello hun

hows the head? Hope u r ok

loves ya

xxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[KittyBling]

Alex, hope the head is improving. Have a great weekend, pain permitting,

KB x