ladyfelsham
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Apart from me.
Apart from me.
Alpaca's stream of consciousness - IS BACK ON THE WAGON!
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Alpaca
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Still on the diet break... still not weighing... miss you all but it's crazy busy with the Terrible Twosome here it's been manic... and I've also been to Huntingdon...
Lisa... I have the same set of skills as you do!! lol
Susie... I'm very lazy! I just don't have the time to be what I really, truly am! lol
Brennie ... I was blubbing too!... thank goodness I was on my own! lol
Val ... I can't wait for some 'me' time! lol
Lisa... I have the same set of skills as you do!! lol
Susie... I'm very lazy! I just don't have the time to be what I really, truly am! lol
Brennie ... I was blubbing too!... thank goodness I was on my own! lol
Val ... I can't wait for some 'me' time! lol
ladyfelsham
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Afternoon hun - what are your plans for the weekend?
Alpaca
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It's taking me a while getting used to sharing my house again... Grrr.... Don't have the place to myself anymore -- feeling like a displaced person! Lol
I will be barricading myself into the bathroom later and then hibernating in bed... Who said the age of antisocial ism was dead! Lol
I will be barricading myself into the bathroom later and then hibernating in bed... Who said the age of antisocial ism was dead! Lol
ladyfelsham
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We lead such hectic lives, I just love shutting the door on the world sometimes - completely agree hun
Get yourself a good book and curl up in bed xxx
Get yourself a good book and curl up in bed xxx
oh dear, is it bad to say I don't even remember typing this????????????????????
Evening Di, have you had some me-time today? xxx
Alpaca
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Evening ... Having another review of my diet break...
I started last Sunday and having re - read the blurb on it I shall finish next Thursday... Which means I can eat what I fancy on my birthday and then start low carb again on Thursday... which is 11 days on the break... The research shows a break should be somewhere between 10 - 14 days!
I'm actually Looking forward to getting back to low carb... My relationship with food is too screwed up to cope with self regulation ...
And it's interesting how piggy I've been... Indiscrimate and irrational !
I think I will always have an unhealthy relationship with food ...
And about to get some me time in 10 mins - in the bath! Lol
I started last Sunday and having re - read the blurb on it I shall finish next Thursday... Which means I can eat what I fancy on my birthday and then start low carb again on Thursday... which is 11 days on the break... The research shows a break should be somewhere between 10 - 14 days!
I'm actually Looking forward to getting back to low carb... My relationship with food is too screwed up to cope with self regulation ...
And it's interesting how piggy I've been... Indiscrimate and irrational !
I think I will always have an unhealthy relationship with food ...
And about to get some me time in 10 mins - in the bath! Lol
Alpaca
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Morning... Face has broken out in spots - not had a spot in years so it must be the change in diet.
I REALLY want to end the diet break but I have to hold on til Thursday as I want it to have worked. I have enjoyed the different foods - am now eating WW yoghurts as well as Alpro simply plain and strawberries and have had some new potatoes. And, a tablespoon of maple syrup over my natural yoghurt - very yum
Its surprising how quickly 20% carbs can add up and I'm struggling to get the percentages right each day.
I just hope my appetite calms down once I get back into K... roll on Thursday! lol xx
I REALLY want to end the diet break but I have to hold on til Thursday as I want it to have worked. I have enjoyed the different foods - am now eating WW yoghurts as well as Alpro simply plain and strawberries and have had some new potatoes. And, a tablespoon of maple syrup over my natural yoghurt - very yum
Its surprising how quickly 20% carbs can add up and I'm struggling to get the percentages right each day.
I just hope my appetite calms down once I get back into K... roll on Thursday! lol xx
Alpaca
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Just shows how far I've got left to go ... I'm still a juvenile delinquent in eating terms! lol ... I know I've got this far but looking back, heaven only knows how I did it! lol Must be by sheer luck and definitely not judgment! lol
I'm also feeling grotty eating what I'm eating right now... it's nice when it goes in but very soon ends up making me feel out of sorts, and definitely not perky and energetic like I was when on low carb.
At the risk of repeating myself, you guys have been my LIFE SAVER!! Without you pulling me through the bad times I would have definitely jacked it all in months ago - as soon as it started to be harder to lose the weight.
And, I have learned so much about nutrition and the way the body works and stuff that has been invaluable.
OK... 3 more days of the diet break then I'm raring to go back to Atkins... xxx
I'm also feeling grotty eating what I'm eating right now... it's nice when it goes in but very soon ends up making me feel out of sorts, and definitely not perky and energetic like I was when on low carb.
At the risk of repeating myself, you guys have been my LIFE SAVER!! Without you pulling me through the bad times I would have definitely jacked it all in months ago - as soon as it started to be harder to lose the weight.
And, I have learned so much about nutrition and the way the body works and stuff that has been invaluable.
OK... 3 more days of the diet break then I'm raring to go back to Atkins... xxx
Dietkitty
Rebel without a calorie
True grit more like! Many would have given up but you haven't. You're ridden out the storms and will continue to do so. You're always so hard on yourself but I know that's a mindset thing. Maybe we should look into some form of hypnosis that allows the head to catch up
ladyfelsham
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I agree totally - since we had dinner at that Indian place, how many gazillion times have I fallen off the wagon?! While you have been 100% focused, missus!
I know that you really want to get to goal, and that's probably what your mind is focused on, but I do just wish you could give yourself a big pat on the back and celebrate what you've achieved so far, because it's amazing!
Love you xxxxx
I know that you really want to get to goal, and that's probably what your mind is focused on, but I do just wish you could give yourself a big pat on the back and celebrate what you've achieved so far, because it's amazing!
Love you xxxxx
Scrumbles
Dancing Queen
Ditto to the above. You are amazing, and one of these days, we will get you to acknowledge it!
It's been fascinating to see how you've reacted to this break. I read back my diary from when I did my break in May, and it could hardly be more different! My biggest issues were a bit of bloating, wind, and a small amount of indigestion; mentally, it took no toll on me whatsoever. In fact, I found it positively refreshing.
Your reaction to the break bears much more resemblance to my reaction to JUDDD: that was when I felt lost and liable to spiral out of control at any moment. On my diet break I simply felt like I'd swapped one set of rules that I'm comfortable with (Atkins) for another set of rules (Atkins plus a few nice extras) that I was also comfortable with, so I never had any sense of unease. We really are all so different, aren't we?
Probably best that you pull the plug on this on Thursday (get it over with!) and I'm very glad that you're looking forward to being back on Atkins - that's positive.
I went straight back into Induction for a couple of weeks to get back into ketosis and shrug off any carb-induced "hangover", and I think that's probably best to reap maximum benefit from this.
Got everything crossed for you! (not that I need to 'cos you're gonna rock it) xxx
It's been fascinating to see how you've reacted to this break. I read back my diary from when I did my break in May, and it could hardly be more different! My biggest issues were a bit of bloating, wind, and a small amount of indigestion; mentally, it took no toll on me whatsoever. In fact, I found it positively refreshing
.Your reaction to the break bears much more resemblance to my reaction to JUDDD: that was when I felt lost and liable to spiral out of control at any moment. On my diet break I simply felt like I'd swapped one set of rules that I'm comfortable with (Atkins) for another set of rules (Atkins plus a few nice extras) that I was also comfortable with, so I never had any sense of unease. We really are all so different, aren't we?
Probably best that you pull the plug on this on Thursday (get it over with!) and I'm very glad that you're looking forward to being back on Atkins - that's positive.
I went straight back into Induction for a couple of weeks to get back into ketosis and shrug off any carb-induced "hangover", and I think that's probably best to reap maximum benefit from this.
Got everything crossed for you! (not that I need to 'cos you're gonna rock it
) xxx
Alpaca
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I just can't help being cross with myself ... I was a size 32/34 last year and can't seem to celebrate my journey... I just feel like I shouldn't have allowed myself to get that size in the first place... I feel ashamed, so ashamed... And I know that I'm not recovered from my addiction to food which scares the hell out of me!
Atkins was/is pretty easy... Food I enjoyed and didn't crave too much the non legal food...
Anyway, enough wallowing... Roll on Thursday... And please god I start losing again... You guys rock! Xxx
Atkins was/is pretty easy... Food I enjoyed and didn't crave too much the non legal food...
Anyway, enough wallowing... Roll on Thursday... And please god I start losing again... You guys rock! Xxx
ladyfelsham
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Hun we all feel like that at times, that we shouldn't have got so big in the first place - but we did, so that's that. I have a terrible habit of looking back and wishing I'd done some things differently in my life, but there's just no point - beating myself up just makes me miserable - and what's the point of feeling like that!
The amazing thing is that you are doing something about it, something so positive, that you are entirely entitled to give yourself a big hug and celebrate it! You've dropped a gazillion dress sizes, your joints are so much better and you have loads more energy. Wahooooooooooooooooo!
And it sounds as if Atkins maintenance will be perfect for you - maybe re-read Katie's diary and see what she reintroduced, and when, and see how you get on?
Love you xxxxx
The amazing thing is that you are doing something about it, something so positive, that you are entirely entitled to give yourself a big hug and celebrate it! You've dropped a gazillion dress sizes, your joints are so much better and you have loads more energy. Wahooooooooooooooooo!
And it sounds as if Atkins maintenance will be perfect for you - maybe re-read Katie's diary and see what she reintroduced, and when, and see how you get on?
Love you xxxxx
coffeelover
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Your amazing Di and doing so well not stepping on the scales lol.
Susie's right, we all feel like that, why is food so powerful??? x
Susie's right, we all feel like that, why is food so powerful??? x
Alpaca
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Just counting down to being off the diet break... One more day then back to the safety of Atkins ... How messed up does that sound!! Lol
However, tomorrow will be heavy on the cocktails and carbs - seeing lots of friends for dinner at Las Iguanas on the South Bank so the damage will be huge !!
Clean and green from Thursday with one dodgy day next week to deal with as I'm meeting a friend and promised them that I'd have a naughty meal ! Lol
If I go straight back onto low carb it will be the first time EVER that I've started back on a diet straight away... I shall be so impressed with myself!
But I'm feeling so huge and stuffed and out of breath now that I really can't wait ... I haven't felt this out of condition and ill for months! Lol
I'm not going to post the foods I've started to eat - no point in depressing myself and taunting you! Just suffice to say that a rabid animal comes to mind! Xx
However, tomorrow will be heavy on the cocktails and carbs - seeing lots of friends for dinner at Las Iguanas on the South Bank so the damage will be huge !!
Clean and green from Thursday with one dodgy day next week to deal with as I'm meeting a friend and promised them that I'd have a naughty meal ! Lol
If I go straight back onto low carb it will be the first time EVER that I've started back on a diet straight away... I shall be so impressed with myself!
But I'm feeling so huge and stuffed and out of breath now that I really can't wait ... I haven't felt this out of condition and ill for months! Lol
I'm not going to post the foods I've started to eat - no point in depressing myself and taunting you! Just suffice to say that a rabid animal comes to mind! Xx
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