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[Emma1904]

omg emma, what a horrible time u have had. so sorry we had all kinda lost each other so werent of any support to u during all the tragedies u faced.
My mother in law has fibromyalgia so i have some experience of how bad that can be.
I really hope u and Michelle can work through this. u deserve happiness and in the past u have provided that for each other.
I am so so sorry about ur niece. what a horrible thing for anyone to have to face. My deepest sympathies go to all the people who will have felt the huge hole created by the loss of a baby.
I'm so glad u have turned a corner and are back to the fight, back to grab the bull by the horns with the rest of us. together we have the strength to bring that bull down (suddenly im feeling sorry for the bull )

Thank you so much, your support is needed and greatly appreciated! Just going to take it day by day at the moment and not be too hard on myself, how are you feeling? x

 

[catdog]

Emma hun, im so sorry to read what youve been through this year, i always like to live by everything happens for a reason but i can't for life of me imagine why anyone would be put through the loss of a child. Always here if you need to talk about anything. Emma you are due alot of goodness and i really hope that for you

So glad we are all back together girls, we can get each other through the ups and downs of this journey and what life throws at us and we will get to be where we want to be *hugs* xx

 

[cherylxx]

day by day is the best way to approach it for sure.
i was on cd for the first week and lost 10lbs.
my s&s stuff came today so im now having 1 tetra and 3 s&s products until i run out of tetras (have about 14 left).
I will be however, having a day off plan on sunday as it is my grandsons baptism and i want to celebrate with everyone else. there is no way i could even consider resisting that cake he is getting. lol
I also have my 40th birthday coming up on 23rd of this month and i plan on celebrating that in style too.
Other than that tho, im in this for the long haul and this time....... i am gonna beat this.

 

[cherylxx]

omg cheese and ham toasties in the house. they smell sooooo nice

 

[catdog]

day by day is the best way to approach it for sure.
i was on cd for the first week and lost 10lbs.
my s&s stuff came today so im now having 1 tetra and 3 s&s products until i run out of tetras (have about 14 left).
I will be however, having a day off plan on sunday as it is my grandsons baptism and i want to celebrate with everyone else. there is no way i could even consider resisting that cake he is getting. lol
I also have my 40th birthday coming up on 23rd of this month and i plan on celebrating that in style too.
Other than that tho, im in this for the long haul and this time....... i am gonna beat this.

The way im looking at it is life is for living and yes the weightloss will improve my living greatly, but im not going to let the dieting get in way of a good time either, ive wasted far too much time hiding myself away and not living due to my dieting and weight, its summer so no doubt be bbqs coming up etc and can stick to low carb etc with that and we have lots of family bdays coming up so im not gonna beat meself up for a night off, just enjoy it then get back on wagon- yes this diet gives you fast weightloss and thats great but im also in t is for long haul andto improve my thoughts on food so will be here for however long it takes, through maintenance and beyond. Im under no illusions, im never going to be completely fixed normal around food. its always gonna be a struggle for me to keep weight off and not to overeat once at goal so you guys are in for lifelong commitment with me unfortunately haha. Cheryl you enjoy the christening, youve spent enough on it haha and just be back here next day ready to get back on track, no worries xx

 

[catdog]

spag bol and shrooms from a packet so much better man

 

[Emma1904]

Again, thank you ladies, you really do make a massive difference xxxxx

I am fed up of feeling frumpy and crappy, this time last year I was three stone lighter and on my way to being in the 14's... I have clothes I can not wear and I don't like it...

So... come Sunday... pulling out the beautiful jet black jeans (that I adore and can not get into) again and hanging them on the wardrobe door... I will be wearing them again by Christmas.

I will also be doing the starting photos! eurgh nobody wants to see that but I need to and I will be taking my measurements and going from there... bring it on ladies and keep ourselves going!



xxx

 

[cherylxx]

The way im looking at it is life is for living and yes the weightloss will improve my living greatly, but im not going to let the dieting get in way of a good time either, ive wasted far too much time hiding myself away and not living due to my dieting and weight, its summer so no doubt be bbqs coming up etc and can stick to low carb etc with that and we have lots of family bdays coming up so im not gonna beat meself up for a night off, just enjoy it then get back on wagon- yes this diet gives you fast weightloss and thats great but im also in t is for long haul andto improve my thoughts on food so will be here for however long it takes, through maintenance and beyond. Im under no illusions, im never going to be completely fixed normal around food. its always gonna be a struggle for me to keep weight off and not to overeat once at goal so you guys are in for lifelong commitment with me unfortunately haha. Cheryl you enjoy the christening, youve spent enough on it haha and just be back here next day ready to get back on track, no worries xx

thanks hun. thats the plan with me too. as u know im something of a binger (MUCH) so i know that even when i get to goal (whenever that happens which is clearly a long way off for me) i will always be faced with those demons. they arent gonna die , i just have to learn how to beat the crap out of them before they get hold of me first.
ya know with this sundays christening i have caught myself saying to the family ' perhaps i should come off plan on friday and then enjoy saturday and sunday' but then i stopped and thought ' hold on a sec, why do i need a ' BOGOF' on a planned break?' crazy thoughts. so i plan to stick at this until sunday and take that ONE day off and get straight back on plan the following day.

 

[Emma1904]

Fearless/Catdog you are so right! (which one do i call you!!!? lol)

and Cheryl, best plan! I am doing that for my sisters wedding, having the Saturday as a planned break off and then sticking to a low carb Sunday lunch.

Life is here for living and that's what I am planning on doing with it.

xxx

 

[catdog]

yep im gonna do same when things come up chick, things like christenings you only get to experience once so enjoy them, if ye sat there only having packs at occasions like that you'll start feeling resentful of diet and just end up sabotaging anyway, thats how i became with cd, slim n save is like a fresh start for me and feeling very optimistic with it, i couldnt see light at end of tunnel no more with cd just thinking bout shakes only, i know the food packs aint exactly supersize portions lol but sns is so much more flexible its a god send for me. as you know im binge eater so will always be an issue for me as well, starting back going to OA this week, ive been away too long! xx

 

[catdog]

Fearless/Catdog you are so right! (which one do i call you!!!? lol)

and Cheryl, best plan! I am doing that for my sisters wedding, having the Saturday as a planned break off and then sticking to a low carb Sunday lunch.

Life is here for living and that's what I am planning on doing with it.

xxx

lol whichever one you like me dear xx

 

[cherylxx]

ya know what scares me?
every time i diet, regardless of what diet i do, calorie counting, sw, ww, cd, lt etc etc etc i always go on to gain not only the weight i lost but i always gain an extra half a stone on top.
i tend to get to a stage where i pretty much maintain and dont gain more weight but then once i do yet another diet stretch i go on to gain it back to my maintain point and then an extra half a stone. etc etc and so on and so forth.
this means that when i weighed 11 stone, if i hadnt bothered to diet i would , in theory still weigh 11 stone now.
this has GOT to stop. This is how people get to 35 stone and ask ' how did i do this to myself'
NO MORE. The light is on now, i can see it and im winning this time!!!!!

 

[Emma1904]

I've managed to keep a stone of what i lost on CD off and I haven't been trying or eating healthily at all, if anything i've been binging and its been gross, mountains and mountains of food and just rubbish, nothing good at all. My boy eats like a health nut and I just pig out after bed or when I'm on my own! HOWEVER... even after that and the fact that I haven't put it all back on gives me some hope that my food thoughts are changing... I am disgusted by my food consumption in the last couple of months... what on earth was it like before... I am a total over eater... no excuses... don't get me wrong, I'm never going to be skinny, I'm a curvy girl from a larger family but I can be healthy and comfortable in my own skin and that is the aim.

xxx

 

[catdog]

ya know what scares me?
every time i diet, regardless of what diet i do, calorie counting, sw, ww, cd, lt etc etc etc i always go on to gain not only the weight i lost but i always gain an extra half a stone on top.
i tend to get to a stage where i pretty much maintain and dont gain more weight but then once i do yet another diet stretch i go on to gain it back to my maintain point and then an extra half a stone. etc etc and so on and so forth.
this means that when i weighed 11 stone, if i hadnt bothered to diet i would , in theory still weigh 11 stone now.
this has GOT to stop. This is how people get to 35 stone and ask ' how did i do this to myself'
NO MORE. The light is on now, i can see it and im winning this time!!!!!

I know chick, i used to think how the hell can people get so big but as you know i put on five stone in a very short space of time, even just 2lb a week it piles on quick! its so easy to do, i wish ide have appreciated what i had at the time. I talk to god and say if you just make me slim now i'll be good, eat moderately and have the odd treat like normal people- but i think this is one ive got to do for meself unfortunately lol. xx

 

[Emma1904]

Fearless hun are you telling anyone your start weight? I was just curious as it wasn't on your profile thingy x

 

[catdog]

I've managed to keep a stone of what i lost on CD off and I haven't been trying or eating healthily at all, if anything i've been binging and its been gross, mountains and mountains of food and just rubbish, nothing good at all. My boy eats like a health nut and I just pig out after bed or when I'm on my own! HOWEVER... even after that and the fact that I haven't put it all back on gives me some hope that my food thoughts are changing... I am disgusted by my food consumption in the last couple of months... what on earth was it like before... I am a total over eater... no excuses... don't get me wrong, I'm never going to be skinny, I'm a curvy girl from a larger family but I can be healthy and comfortable in my own skin and that is the aim.

xxx

emma i got down to 9stone 10lb at xmas, youde have thought ide have been happy but not me *sigh* me head just wasnt there with me and ive put on nearly two stone since, bingeing away, ive kept attempting diet along way s if ide not done that god knows how much more ide be! i cant go back to my highest weight,if i do i'll give up, i couldnt do it all again- this time has got to be it. xx

 

[cherylxx]

i havent been comfortable in my own skin .... EVER.
I hate the way i look, always have and perhaps always will. who knows what slimness will bring for me.
I dont understand what Simon sees in me. I disgust myself on a massive scale and when not dieting i disgust myself even more by my eating antics.
I long to feel content in my body. just once i would love to put on new clothes , see myself in the mirror and say ' yeah, looking good'. just to feel good in my clothes. to walk down the street without the feeling everyone is staring, mocking me, whispering things im glad i cant hear.
Im tired of feeling like that.
Im approaching 40 and its now or never. i either get old, fat and unhappy or i can change now and get old and comfortable with who i am.
I dont want to be a 60 year old woman who sits around getting bigger, eating everything in sight and secretly wishing there was something she could do to go back to when she was 39 and could have changed things.

 

[Emma1904]

emma i got down to 9stone 10lb at xmas, youde have thought ide have been happy but not me *sigh* me head just wasnt there with me and ive put on nearly two stone since, bingeing away, ive kept attempting diet along way s if ide not done that god knows how much more ide be! i cant go back to my highest weight,if i do i'll give up, i couldnt do it all again- this time has got to be it. xx

At least we are in it together x

 

[catdog]

ooh yeah, sorry took it off cos i fell off sns wagon n piled weight back on was proper ashamed il update them in a mo xx

 

[Emma1904]

i havent been comfortable in my own skin .... EVER.
I hate the way i look, always have and perhaps always will. who knows what slimness will bring for me.
I dont understand what Simon sees in me. I disgust myself on a massive scale and when not dieting i disgust myself even more by my eating antics.
I long to feel content in my body. just once i would love to put on new clothes , see myself in the mirror and say ' yeah, looking good'. just to feel good in my clothes. to walk down the street without the feeling everyone is staring, mocking me, whispering things im glad i cant hear.
Im tired of feeling like that.
Im approaching 40 and its now or never. i either get old, fat and unhappy or i can change now and get old and comfortable with who i am.
I dont want to be a 60 year old woman who sits around getting bigger, eating everything in sight and secretly wishing there was something she could do to go back to when she was 39 and could have changed things.

Cheryl I understand, you look at yourself and are so full of self loathing that you can't see past it, it is how I feel which is why I am planning on asking my doctor if I can see the cognative behaviour time to talk team in our area once I have lost what I feel is a substantial amount of weight, I am hoping that they will help me look at my body and my outward appearance in a different way, I believe that only by changing the inside can I maintain the change on the outside. xxx