'BIG' .......Bring on the summer :D

[Hanz]

What would worrying you about being an ideal weight- be really honest, jsut keep writing and see what comes up.
Ok i have one for me. I am worried when I'm ideal weight I'll still be unattractive.
Yeah i think that. Even though in my heart I believe that weight has nothing to do with being attractive,adn I would not feel this about anyone else, I feel I'm single cos I'm fat and so what if I'm still unattractive when I'm thin- it means i'm just a very ugly person.

Kel, Im eactly the same. My biggest fear is that when I get to target I will still be unattractive and undesireable. For the majority of my teenage years till now at 23 I equated the fact I was alone down to my weight.. I always thought, oh they dont like me because Im fat and thats how I dealt with everything. Not just men.. any rejection or bad interaction with people I judged my appearence as a major factor. Sometimes I worry,what when I dont have my fat to blame anymore? Then it will be my fault..my personality which Ive always held so close as I considered it as all that I really had to go on in life because i didnt have 'the looks' will be at fault. Im so scared of getting there and facing up to the fact I had been lying to myself for my whole life, I think that when Im thin everything is going to be better and terrified its not. Jeez is it sad im tearing up a bit

Maybe its me being selfish, but I often feel I am the one picking up the pieces when things go wrong, no-one I know has had faith in me going back to college (especially as doing it at 28 and now 29) and he was the one person who I thought really supported me, and knew how much this weeks show meant and was going to come .... but didnt.
I have done alot of shows but this week was the most significant experience so far, and gutted my OH didnt share it with me. Leaving me now feeling like no-one is backing me
In regards to fears...Mine is just that Ill never get there and never be happy....but gonna keep bloody trying till I am ha ha

Sorry for the long one

xxxx

Hun, the show sounds amazing! You should be so proud of your achievements. It takes alot of guts to go back to college and take charge of making things happen for yourself. You will get there, and you will be happy because I can tell that your a strong person.. you keep us all going!
I shall be buying flumps at tescos tomorrow.. havent had them in so long, didnt realise they were so low!

My tattoo is across my lower back below my waist but above my knicker line. If it was on the front it would reach from hip bone to hip bone (if I could find them lol). I have always believed in a balance in the universe and so I have a ying yang symbol nestled in the middle of squirly bits. Its blue, red, pink and no black. I went to a parlour where they have all female artists and mostly female customers which was great (they specialize in feminine tats)..

Your tat sounds gorgeous, definately need pictures! Did it hurt much? Ive always wondered about having one.. lately Ithought maybe when I hit target..but then again im a total flake and change my mind on it every week!
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Ive had a pretty non descript day.. am in pain from football training,that teaches me to leave it so long since I last did sports!

 

[kellierocks]

Morning all, I'm, working today which i strangely do not mind. It does mean no goign out and as its rally weekend (loadsa men about!) , my mates think I'm mad! I don't care, I had 9 hours of great sleep so I am a happy little butterfly this morning!!
Hanz, isn;t amazing what goes on inside out own heads? If one of us said this the otehr would be don't be so silly, we would not allow someone else to think this. And yet we are so hard and cynical about ourselves? I guess its good to know this is going on inside so we know that if we do try to self sabotage, we can facve our fears and deal with them.

Nee, holy crap that is so unfair. They came back 6 months later??!! Asbolute bulls***. You know what? You are going to be one of those amazing people Oprah has on TV- Nee, you lost your house, you decided to go bback to college and do somehting you love, and now look at you, oscar winning sound on a motion picture, tell us how did you do it...... I'm telling ya!!! Its ppl who know how to rise after they fall that are successes, those that never fall, never learn, never risk never stretch themselves too far.

i have never, ever, ever heard of flumps- it sounds like a children's tv character! like what do they look like?? (i imagine brown fur with tusks, a cross between bear in the big blue house and a buffallo)
A scheduled day of exercise today and i intend to enjoy it. My body ached last night. enjoy the sunshine on and all

 

[Wasted Ink]

Lost 2lb this week! Finally getting there. I only have another 2lb to lose and then I’ll no longer be obese, merely “overweight.”

Hanz, I can sympathise totally. I've been overweight since puberty began and I always blame everything on my weight! And I always say, "when I'm slim I'll do this," - before it's always been a fantasy, because this is the first time I've truly tackled my weight problem. It IS scary. But try not to be too hard on yourself - doing what you're doing now is a huge achievement and I’m sure you’ll be just thrilled when you get there. Insecurities are a normal part of the journey for all of us, I think.

 

[x Nee x]

Lost 2lb this week! Finally getting there. I only have another 2lb to lose and then I’ll no longer be obese, merely “overweight.”

Haz, I can sympathise totally. I've been overweight since puberty began and I always blame everything on my weight! And I always say, "when I'm slim I'll do this," - before it's always been a fantasy, because this is the first time I've truly tackled my weight problem. It IS scary. But try not to be too hard on yourself - doing what you're doing now is a huge achievement and I’m sure you’ll be just thrilled when you get there. Insecurities are a normal part of the journey for all of us, I think.

Well done on the 2lbs Goodluck with the next 2lbs to get you out of the obese area YAY

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Kellie - Flumps are abit like marshmallows, there sweets, google flump and you may know what it is, although I love your idea of it being a cross with a bear hee hee
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Im doing ok, abit teary today and now doesnt look like the OH will be home today 'apparently' his mum needs some help so he is not back today afterall!! Not Happy!!

Just had some toast and am waiting for my tesco delivery. Just going to try and chill today and might do some costume design this afternoon to take my mind of things

Hope you all have a lovely weekend

xx

 

[judith55]

So have gone from a 3 bed townhouse with garage and gorgeous garden to a room in a shared flat whcih were getting evicted from, its almost laughable!!

So as you can imagine Im up to my eyes in debt, have no way of paying anything right now, but decided to use all the negativity of everything into starting a course to work in a field I had always wanted to since I can remember.

Being a student I kinda knew it would make things harder especially with what happened but seems to have just suddenly crept up!

Oh Nee, sorry to hear that life has been so tough. I can sympathise because I've spent most of my life in borderline poverty and always felt like I was walking a tightrope that if I fell off I'd never get back on. About 5 years ago my income improved, my outgoings went down and I finally felt comfortable financially. (But I obviously felt more comfortable being broke as I've now retired early and only work occasionally!!)It might not sound very reassuring but you will get there in the end. And for now you may as well be a student as you're not used to having the ££.

Jeez is it sad im tearing up a bit

Your tat sounds gorgeous, definately need pictures! Did it hurt much? Ive always wondered about having one.. lately Ithought maybe when I hit target..but then again im a total flake and change my mind on it every week!

Hanz we are all emotionally caught up in our weight and body image so there's no shame in feeling tearful about it.

Re: the tattoo. It did hurt (but not like a pain I'd had before so hard to describe) but only towards the end did I think I was going to have to ask for a break. But when we were laughing and chatting it was at a level I could almost ignore. I took a couple of paracetamol and a couple of ibuprofen beforehand which may have helped. After she had been working on a patch it seemed to numb up a bit and then when she moved to a new part I just said "ow" out loud a couple of times and pinched myself until it passed to a more bearable level. They also told me that if I tried to leave before it was finished they'd just sit on me anyway!!

Lost 2lb this week! Finally getting there. I only have another 2lb to lose and then I’ll no longer be obese, merely “overweight.”

Great stuff. I think you'll get to overweight before me now.

Im doing ok, abit teary today and now doesnt look like the OH will be home today 'apparently' his mum needs some help so he is not back today afterall!! Not Happy!!

Oh Nee, I'm thinking of you. Relationships can be such hard work sometimes but you'll come through it.

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I confess that last night ate too much and had a couple of beers (again). So the scales smacked me in the face today with a 3lb gain. Fml. I've been off the programme for most of the week so why am I surprised? Been at work for 12 hrs today and stuck to plan - 2 slimfast and a baked potato (and a small bar of choccie as a snack). Just going to try a last ditch effort for the next 7 days. Otherwise no point in packing those new jeans as they'll come back unworn. Hope you are having a lovely weekend you dietastic peeps. xxx

 

[kellierocks]

Judith, what does the l stand for in FML?
Judith you can do a lot in one week IF you put your mind to it- I completely believe in you.
Hanz- you recovered from football yet? when do you go back out there? Nee, any more word form OH? I wonder did he get cold feet, worried he didnt have aleg to stand on coming back to justify his actions? is it a good thing or bad thing he's giving you more time? Costume design?? what are you making? You are so interesting!!!
Wasted Ink- well done on the loss. Ah there is nothing more pleasant that weight loss, imagine being overweight- bliss!oh how i long to be no longer obese. Such an ugly word.

 

[x Nee x]

Oh Nee, sorry to hear that life has been so tough. I can sympathise because I've spent most of my life in borderline poverty and always felt like I was walking a tightrope that if I fell off I'd never get back on. About 5 years ago my income improved, my outgoings went down and I finally felt comfortable financially. (But I obviously felt more comfortable being broke as I've now retired early and only work occasionally!!)It might not sound very reassuring but you will get there in the end. And for now you may as well be a student as you're not used to having the ££.

Oh Nee, I'm thinking of you. Relationships can be such hard work sometimes but you'll come through it.

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I confess that last night ate too much and had a couple of beers (again). So the scales smacked me in the face today with a 3lb gain. Fml. I've been off the programme for most of the week so why am I surprised? Been at work for 12 hrs today and stuck to plan - 2 slimfast and a baked potato (and a small bar of choccie as a snack). Just going to try a last ditch effort for the next 7 days. Otherwise no point in packing those new jeans as they'll come back unworn. Hope you are having a lovely weekend you dietastic peeps. xxx

Thanks Judith it is reassuring and to be honest the reason I did just go for it with going back to college was that Im skint anyway so may aswell grab the chance

Not spoke to the OH much today, and havent been texting will see what happens when he gets home!! I know when he is here ill end up just letting it go but gonna try to be strong and have it out with him

Judith dont worry about yesterday, you have been doing so well, and I keep telling myself a treat once in a while doesnt have to be a bad thing, I dont think any of us could just cut it right out! So dont beat yourself up!

YOU will get in to those white jeans for Las vegas Misses...you just carry on xxx

Had a very chilled day, all be it with tears inbetween Had alot to eat tho today, had 2 slices of toast for BF, Lunch had 2 slices toast and 3 eggs!!! and 2 flumps, then tonight had salad with ham, and chicken flavoured noodles, and of course 2 flumps. Tonight I have had 6 cherrys and 2 more flumps....see a pattern here....flump, flump...flumpety flump

 

[judith55]

Kellie, Fml = f*ck my life. That and mbn (must be nice) when someone tells me how great their life is are two of my most used nerdspeak abbreviations. I wonder why that is??!!

Been out with the dog on a long (sweaty) walk and just all showered and fresh to go out and play poker. Madness on such a lovely day but a woman's gotta do what a woman's gotta do.

Nee, be strong when he comes home and try to let him know how you feel without him being able to marginalize it by declaring that you're "just having a go" for the sake of it. This is my TT's response to almost any comment I make on his behaviour. It's not possible I might have a valid point: I'm always "just having a go" at him.

My tattoo is sorer today than yesterday but ok. Nee what are your's like? Anyone else have any?

Oh yes, and God bless flumps. xx

 

[kellierocks]

Nee, your new photo is beautiful

Ok guys I have aproblem. For the past 5 days teh scales have been stuck at 12 7.8. Not moving. A little movement yesterday to 12 5 after my 11 mile run and after a very healthy food day, I am, again at 12 7.8. This Morning it jumped between 7, then 7.2 then 7.8 (u know how it flashes before the final weight is given). This is not fair!
I know I should not second guess the scales!!! I know I should only weigh once a week and not 3 times a day. BUT WHY AM I NOT LIGHTER!!!i was so happy yesterday when I thought i was 2 lbs down, It was on my mum 's scales but they were teh same as these new ones, i thought! ahhhh

 

[x Nee x]

Nee, any more word form OH? I wonder did he get cold feet, worried he didnt have aleg to stand on coming back to justify his actions? is it a good thing or bad thing he's giving you more time? Costume design?? what are you making? You are so interesting!!!
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The costumes are based on Pride and Prejudice the musical, fortunately I dont have to make them just design them PHEW!! But I have to use fabric samples etc

OH details below

Been out with the dog on a long (sweaty) walk and just all showered and fresh to go out and play poker. Madness on such a lovely day but a woman's gotta do what a woman's gotta do.

Nee, be strong when he comes home and try to let him know how you feel without him being able to marginalize it by declaring that you're "just having a go" for the sake of it. This is my TT's response to almost any comment I make on his behaviour. It's not possible I might have a valid point: I'm always "just having a go" at him.

My tattoo is sorer today than yesterday but ok. Nee what are your's like? Anyone else have any?

Oh yes, and God bless flumps. xx

The walk sounds good hun, how was poker? see below about the OH and for the tattoo, what are you using on it? I found Bepanthen like HEAVEN. Mine all healed pretty well, the one behind my ear was more awkward than anything as whenever I did my hair I would keep knocking it hence it has a couple of tiny bits missing, but Ill get those sorted one day but it is hardly noticeable. My foot one was the worst, it killed when having it done and was worse after my foot swelled double the size and was really hard to walk on, but in time it does calm down. For you it will be awkawrd cos of clothes contact so try and wear stuff that doesnt have to rub too much x

Nee, your new photo is beautiful

Ok guys I have aproblem. For the past 5 days teh scales have been stuck at 12 7.8. Not moving. A little movement yesterday to 12 5 after my 11 mile run and after a very healthy food day, I am, again at 12 7.8. This Morning it jumped between 7, then 7.2 then 7.8 (u know how it flashes before the final weight is given). This is not fair!
I know I should not second guess the scales!!! I know I should only weigh once a week and not 3 times a day. BUT WHY AM I NOT LIGHTER!!!i was so happy yesterday when I thought i was 2 lbs down, It was on my mum 's scales but they were teh same as these new ones, i thought! ahhhh

Thanks for the comment on the photo

Im the same this morning too hun, it think its that horrible cycle that we hit, I have been battling with the same pounds for weeks!!

Bare in mind hun you do big runs and are very active so when you havent lost or even gain, muscle could be building so you may have 'inch' loss rather than lbs??

Either way you are doing fab, so try not to let it put you off

xx

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STS for me today BUGGER!! Gonna just let it be another week, and not act like my life is over ha ha but am gutted, it all seems extremely hard to lose!!

Ok, OH, Came home yesterday and he did all the talking, was really appologetic, and we sorted out quite a few area's. it is all mainly down to stress and worry. Dont get me wrong Im not happy with it all but I do feel we cleared alot of issues, so will see how it goes

x

 

[Wasted Ink]

Actually I lost 3lb last week. No idea why I typed 2lb! I also did a "ten minute target toning" video at the weekend. It was one heck of a killer! Ten minutes of toning exercises on every major muscle group - including some weights for the arms. I can still feel it today, particularly in my abdomen. Very much recommended if you can cope with contorting your body into some weird positions. I'm going to do it again on Thursday.

Nee, your new photo is beautiful

Ok guys I have aproblem. For the past 5 days teh scales have been stuck at 12 7.8. Not moving. A little movement yesterday to 12 5 after my 11 mile run and after a very healthy food day, I am, again at 12 7.8. This Morning it jumped between 7, then 7.2 then 7.8 (u know how it flashes before the final weight is given). This is not fair!
I know I should not second guess the scales!!! I know I should only weigh once a week and not 3 times a day. BUT WHY AM I NOT LIGHTER!!!i was so happy yesterday when I thought i was 2 lbs down, It was on my mum 's scales but they were teh same as these new ones, i thought! ahhhh

You know, I had the same problem for a while. I weighed myself up to three times a day and got cross at myself if I put weight on during the day (duhhh!) In the end I realised it's just not worth it. So many things can cause fluctuations. You can have gone down 2lb in your mid-week weigh in and not have lost anything in your weekly weigh-in. Or vice-versa, you could have lost nothing mid-week but then have a huge drop by your weekly weigh in. It's just not worth the stress. Try and stick to weighing twice a week maximum.

Weigh yourself on the same scales, at the same time on a flat surface every week.

 

[Isis1981]

I agree! Weighing too often just causes stress in the long run.

 

[Karmacoma]

Hi folks!
Yup I was weighing myself a few times a week and I knew it was bad but I kept on doing it :/
Now I have a sneaky mid week weigh ... can't help it!!

So I've been swimming 5 mornings a week - Monday to Friday - before work for 3 weeks now and I absalutley love it. I do betweeen 50-64 lenthgs depending on the time.
It's definatley paid off, last week - 3 lbs and this week - 2 lbs
Yay!

 

[judith55]

Morning all. Nee, yes, nappy cream is da bomb, but still a bit sore. You're right - its hard to find clothes that don't rub. I love the sound of the one behind your ear: what is it? And poker was ok - reasonable finish but no cash. I'm trying some new things before Vegas and so have been playing more live and less online over last few weeks.

"My name is Judi and I'm addicted to weighing". I confess I still have to weigh too often but I have it down to once a day, most days (occ a second one slips in) but I can't do less at the mo. Good on all of you who've overcome this addiction

Been out with doglet but didn't walk very far as kept bumping into people I know. Dog could hardly stand tho as she was run off her legs. Lots of chores today and chauffeuring the Terrible Teenager around to deal with all his stuff. Happy Mondays everyone. xx

 

[Hanz]

STS for me today BUGGER!! Gonna just let it be another week, and not act like my life is over ha ha but am gutted, it all seems extremely hard to lose!!
Ok, OH, Came home yesterday and he did all the talking, was really appologetic, and we sorted out quite a few area's. it is all mainly down to stress and worry. Dont get me wrong Im not happy with it all but I do feel we cleared alot of issues, so will see how it goes
x

STS is still pretty good considering the weekend you've had hun, I know I would running to the chocolate! Im glad you and your OH sorted stuff out and I hope things will improve for the better

Actually I lost 3lb last week. No idea why I typed 2lb!

Even better! that toning thing sounds a bit scary!

Hi folks!
Yup I was weighing myself a few times a week and I knew it was bad but I kept on doing it :/
Now I have a sneaky mid week weigh ... can't help it!!
It's definatley paid off, last week - 3 lbs and this week - 2 lbs
Yay!

Congrats hun,you definately earned those pounds!


Even though I have scales I dont tend to weigh myself other than when I go to group.. I did slip a couple weeks ago and my scales were completely off..! Showed a gain when I had lost 4 lbs so not sure if I even trust them! I honestly dont know how my weigh in will go tomorrow, Ive had a pretty good week no huge slip ups and went to footie training (myuscles are finally back to normal..untilI go again on thurs!) so we shall see!

 

[kellierocks]

nee- delighted
judi- my names is kellie and i'm an addict too
karma- i love how much u love the swimmming
hanz= the muscles'll hurt less this week!
w. ink- even better= 3 is a real achievement!

i havent gotten wierd i am just exhausted. 6 hours sleep. a spin class. a 5 mile run. a 10 hour work day.......zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

 

[judith55]

Kellie, well done for managing to check in with us given your ma-hussive busyness. Excellent commitment to exercise but don't wear yourself out. xx

 

[kellierocks]

Oh it isn't exercise that is wearing me out- boxer boy came over on sunday night and again last night. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Fun!

WI Result (the official) 2 lbs off this morning!!!!!!! my body is definately playing games with me, but sure so long as it is off this morning who cares what it says yesterday (or the day before or before that!)
I'm happy!

 

[x Nee x]

Well done on the 2lba Kel xx and tee hee to your fun times

 

[judith55]

Oh it isn't exercise that is wearing me out- boxer boy came over on sunday night and again last night. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Fun!

WI Result (the official) 2 lbs off this morning!!!!!!! my body is definately playing games with me, but sure so long as it is off this morning who cares what it says yesterday (or the day before or before that!)
I'm happy!

You little minx you! Great news on the WI - 2 lbs is brill.

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WI day for me and I've lost just over half a pound which makes me...... OVERWEIGHT!!! :clap::clap::clap::clap::happy036::happy036:

I was soooo good over last few days and I now just have to hang on for these next 7 days - maybe try to lose another pound to have "in the bank" for when I am away.

Another sunny day but baking brownies with my TT for his girlfriend's birthday so will be stuck in hot kitchen for part of it. Then off out with dog :chores016: .

Have a lovely day Wemitts xxx