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jane
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what really gets my goat is that she tries to give the impression that cataloguing & detailing the perfect poo was her idea.There was a man called Dennis Burkett who spent a large part of his adult life travelling in Africa studying human poo. He described the perfect poo & was one of the early pioneers of re-introducing the 'high fibre diet' to western society.Well thanks for sharing your "poo" newsnow don't go getting all Gillian McKeith on us, you'll be printing out a chart next
Take care honey & have a good day
xxxx
Jennie, I totally agree with your comments on Ms McKeith.
Zoe: well how did she get on?
FatFairNForty(ish)
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I'm not even sure Ms McKeith is actually a qualified Dr.. at least not in human medicine.. but I don't know, so don't quote me! As for the perfect poo thing... well... yuk! lol
Zoe failed I'm afraid.. so not happy but judging from the noise eminating from the living room (she has her fella and some mates over) and the chinking of bottles of reef etc... I think she'll be ok! lol
jane
Opinionated
Really sorry . Is it harder than in our day?
Still as long as she enjoys her 'commiseration party'
FatFairNForty(ish)
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her fella showed up, the mates left around midnight and now the pair of them have gone to bed. I've just finished editing the nasty photos and got them ready to take tomorrow for the Dr to send off. Hate them. Made me feel awful looking at them.
Been in a very reflective mood tonight - these last couple of days haven't been very easy for me and I just feel totally drained. Can't settle, hence on here at ridiculous o'clock.
Hate when this happens.. :sigh:thankfully this is (hopefully!) a one-off crises that won't be repeated. I still have unresolved issues though and will be addressing them tomorrow probably as cannot continue to be so disturbed by it all.
Still, at least SSing is going ok and the scales are moving in the right direction.
Probably won't come back on for a while now as not happy about something and I need to spend some time quietly thinking about things.
Funny how life can throw a curveball at you when you least expect it and then it sucks the joy out of you - albeit (I hope) temporarily.
Right... enough of this emotional twaddle... need sleep... belly sounds like a herd of wildebeast are in pain so clearly time for a drink of water and Paul McKenna's dulcit's to waft over me yet again..
MadamDotty
Back again!
Good morning lovely, hope you're ok today and don't get too down over your crises.
Take care of yourself Jennie, really looking forward to seeing you next week, big hug well and truly lined up for you
lotsa love
xxxxxx
Take care of yourself Jennie, really looking forward to seeing you next week, big hug well and truly lined up for you
lotsa love
xxxxxx
Karen1972
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Hello honey
Sorry to hear all is not well, i hope it get sorted out soon whatever it is!!
Well done on the SS;ing - you are looking amazing babes!!! Just remember how good you look and how well you've done when times are tough, that should lift the darkest of moods!!!!
Lots of luv,
Sorry to hear all is not well, i hope it get sorted out soon whatever it is!!
Well done on the SS;ing - you are looking amazing babes!!! Just remember how good you look and how well you've done when times are tough, that should lift the darkest of moods!!!!
Lots of luv,
Oi missy get yer self outta hiding and back on here..... go on you know you want to.....lol
Thinking of ya today and still trying to sort the date with Bruce for ya.....
he's just not answering my texts.....how rude....!!!!!
Just off school shoe shopping with the little ones and it's persisting it down here.... wish me luck I'm gonna need it.
Chat soon hunny bun......
Love
Thinking of ya today and still trying to sort the date with Bruce for ya.....
he's just not answering my texts.....how rude....!!!!!Just off school shoe shopping with the little ones and it's persisting it down here.... wish me luck I'm gonna need it.
Chat soon hunny bun......
Love
FatFairNForty(ish)
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Hiya
I'm fine, busy, still reflecting on some things but ok.
Will update tomorrow as preparing to go to a 40th birthday do now - fancy dress "Naughty Forties" theme. Was going to go as a Land Army Woman but Zoe's dungarees look rank on me, so... going on the 'naughty' lines... am going as a dominatrix (sp?)... kinda thing.. boots (you know the ones Cheryl), skirt (just on the knee), one of Zoe's tops (black, 3/4 length sleeves, lace ups, off the shoulder type thing.. and a chain belt. Went to a fancy dress shop and got a whip, handcuffs and a pair of studded fingerless gloves. Cheapo shop had bright red nail varnish and I've ponced some bright red lippy off my mates daughter, oh, and I went to Asda and got some fishnet seamed tights! I'm going to look a right trollop, but as I only know the hostess and am going alone, I reckon it doesn't matter. Bit nervous as won't know a soul there and it's a 'house' party and they are usually pants.. not in the mood to go (as you might have guessed) but hey ho... she's a nice person and I accepted her invitation and quite often the things you dread most turn out (occasionally) to be the things you enjoy.
So, fingers crossed... and if I hate it at least it's only 6 miles away and I'm driving so in control of timings. It starts at 8 so I aim to get there around 8.30pm as don't fancy being the first.
Zoe's upstairs throwing up (too much alcohol last night at her boyfriends birthday celebrations). Hoping she'll be sober enough to take a pic of me for the album. Not quite sure what she'll make of me going out looking like a real scrubber but hey ho.
Thanks for the messages, just feeling a bit 'blah'. x
I'm fine, busy, still reflecting on some things but ok.
Will update tomorrow as preparing to go to a 40th birthday do now - fancy dress "Naughty Forties" theme. Was going to go as a Land Army Woman but Zoe's dungarees look rank on me, so... going on the 'naughty' lines... am going as a dominatrix (sp?)... kinda thing.. boots (you know the ones Cheryl), skirt (just on the knee), one of Zoe's tops (black, 3/4 length sleeves, lace ups, off the shoulder type thing.. and a chain belt. Went to a fancy dress shop and got a whip, handcuffs and a pair of studded fingerless gloves. Cheapo shop had bright red nail varnish and I've ponced some bright red lippy off my mates daughter, oh, and I went to Asda and got some fishnet seamed tights! I'm going to look a right trollop, but as I only know the hostess and am going alone, I reckon it doesn't matter. Bit nervous as won't know a soul there and it's a 'house' party and they are usually pants.. not in the mood to go (as you might have guessed) but hey ho... she's a nice person and I accepted her invitation and quite often the things you dread most turn out (occasionally) to be the things you enjoy.
So, fingers crossed... and if I hate it at least it's only 6 miles away and I'm driving so in control of timings. It starts at 8 so I aim to get there around 8.30pm as don't fancy being the first.
Zoe's upstairs throwing up (too much alcohol last night at her boyfriends birthday celebrations). Hoping she'll be sober enough to take a pic of me for the album. Not quite sure what she'll make of me going out looking like a real scrubber but hey ho.
Thanks for the messages, just feeling a bit 'blah'. x
FatFairNForty(ish)
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Happy Monday!
well, it's Monday anyhow.. not so happy if you are affected by the horrific levels of water! Fortunately my part of the world (or at least my immediate vicinity) is ok. I pity those poor souls without power and drinking water etc though.. and how traumatic to have your home chest high in filthy river water!
Right.. party was great fun, made some new friends (all couples) and it was really funny. Will write more another time as at work and struggling to do any! Been this way since I returned from hols.. can't shake this 'chilled out' attitude to work, money etc.. lol
Busy yet kinda relaxing day yesterday. Late night though as pub quiz. Didn't win but had fun and lots of nice banter. Chose to get a lift home with Lucy instead of having PQM walk me home. (There's a turn up for the books!)
Next weekend is going to be busy - Friday night out with my sis in Luton (VERY late night anticipated!).. and Sat night the pub are throwing a retirement bash for our town roadsweeper and 'character' Ted. He's a very interesting chap with many tales to tell.. I think I've mentioned him before.. anyway, the singer who makes me blush is performing and I've asked Lucy if she wants to come along with me. If not I shall find out who else from the quiz is going and meet them there.
For the first time, last night, I didn't feel inferior to Lucy, I felt ok. Had a laugh and a chat with everyone, drank water, have worked out that Diet Coke - in whatever guise - makes me hungry. So... NO MORE now!! Well... apart from the 4 cans still in the fridge maybe... lol... once they are gone that's it. I will miss it (again) but as I've been drinking caffeine free all week I clearly won't miss the caffeine, just the taste.
My appetite has been huge all weekend. I struggled through the week but Friday night I fell foul - not horrendously, but badly enough.. Saturday, good as gold until about 10pm at the party and then headed for the buffet table... again, not on the scale of my former eating habits, but bad enough. Did enjoy it though, lol.
Sunday was a 99%er though. Despite craving for something sweet so much that I did search the cupboard for the 'jelly diamonds' that adorn buns I make for church sales! I guess there were about the same number in the tub as would be in a half bag of jelly tots. They satisfied the sweet craving but didn't do much for the old mental material!
Seeing Ailsa today and going to discuss the best way forward.. have been in touch daily with her so she knows the score. I reckon AAM will do it. Knowing I can have a salad in the evenings will stop me feeling 'deprived' I think.. dunno.
SSing today (of course) and out and about playing taxi to Hatfield for Zoe this evening so there will be no food in the house at all from this afternoon... that will be good. I like having a food-free environment. lol Although simply removing temptation is not the same as resisting temptation.
Having said that, there was nothing to stop me these last 9 months, from nipping to a takeaway on the sly or popping into my local newsagents for a choc bar or bag of crisps... so, maybe I can resist temptation a bit better than I thought.. we shall see
The problem really, I think, is that I wanted to start maintenance when I got back off hols, but the thing with the hospital means I can't, and I know that's a hell of an incentive.. etc etc.. but it makes me feel like I'm not the one calling the shots anymore with this and so.. I am reacting as I have always reacted when being 'told' to lose weight!
Silly cow!
More later - between weigh in and taxi run! Might pack my water wings in case the A1 is on flood alert too! (and a sleeping bag and bottles of water and a jug to wee in)... girl guide in me see... 'Be Prepared' and all that! Not sure my pocket full of string, safety pins, pencil, paper and pocket knife would be much use though.... (does anyone remember the list of stuff you had to have in your pocket as a guide????)
well, it's Monday anyhow.. not so happy if you are affected by the horrific levels of water! Fortunately my part of the world (or at least my immediate vicinity) is ok. I pity those poor souls without power and drinking water etc though.. and how traumatic to have your home chest high in filthy river water!
Right.. party was great fun, made some new friends (all couples) and it was really funny. Will write more another time as at work and struggling to do any! Been this way since I returned from hols.. can't shake this 'chilled out' attitude to work, money etc.. lol
Busy yet kinda relaxing day yesterday. Late night though as pub quiz. Didn't win but had fun and lots of nice banter. Chose to get a lift home with Lucy instead of having PQM walk me home. (There's a turn up for the books!)
Next weekend is going to be busy - Friday night out with my sis in Luton (VERY late night anticipated!).. and Sat night the pub are throwing a retirement bash for our town roadsweeper and 'character' Ted. He's a very interesting chap with many tales to tell.. I think I've mentioned him before.. anyway, the singer who makes me blush is performing and I've asked Lucy if she wants to come along with me. If not I shall find out who else from the quiz is going and meet them there.
For the first time, last night, I didn't feel inferior to Lucy, I felt ok. Had a laugh and a chat with everyone, drank water, have worked out that Diet Coke - in whatever guise - makes me hungry. So... NO MORE now!! Well... apart from the 4 cans still in the fridge maybe... lol... once they are gone that's it. I will miss it (again) but as I've been drinking caffeine free all week I clearly won't miss the caffeine, just the taste.
My appetite has been huge all weekend. I struggled through the week but Friday night I fell foul - not horrendously, but badly enough.. Saturday, good as gold until about 10pm at the party and then headed for the buffet table... again, not on the scale of my former eating habits, but bad enough. Did enjoy it though, lol.
Sunday was a 99%er though. Despite craving for something sweet so much that I did search the cupboard for the 'jelly diamonds' that adorn buns I make for church sales! I guess there were about the same number in the tub as would be in a half bag of jelly tots. They satisfied the sweet craving but didn't do much for the old mental material!
Seeing Ailsa today and going to discuss the best way forward.. have been in touch daily with her so she knows the score. I reckon AAM will do it. Knowing I can have a salad in the evenings will stop me feeling 'deprived' I think.. dunno.
SSing today (of course) and out and about playing taxi to Hatfield for Zoe this evening so there will be no food in the house at all from this afternoon... that will be good. I like having a food-free environment. lol Although simply removing temptation is not the same as resisting temptation.
Having said that, there was nothing to stop me these last 9 months, from nipping to a takeaway on the sly or popping into my local newsagents for a choc bar or bag of crisps... so, maybe I can resist temptation a bit better than I thought.. we shall see
The problem really, I think, is that I wanted to start maintenance when I got back off hols, but the thing with the hospital means I can't, and I know that's a hell of an incentive.. etc etc.. but it makes me feel like I'm not the one calling the shots anymore with this and so.. I am reacting as I have always reacted when being 'told' to lose weight!
Silly cow!
More later - between weigh in and taxi run! Might pack my water wings in case the A1 is on flood alert too! (and a sleeping bag and bottles of water and a jug to wee in)... girl guide in me see... 'Be Prepared' and all that! Not sure my pocket full of string, safety pins, pencil, paper and pocket knife would be much use though.... (does anyone remember the list of stuff you had to have in your pocket as a guide????)
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
A miniscule loss of 0.1lbs BUT it does take me a grand total of
150lbs lost!!
So, although pi$$ poor really, am trying to see the positive
AAM this week in the hope that it curbs my desperate urge to eat anything and everything in sight.. lol.. although I have to say, I think it will work as I will have a meal to look forward to each day
Tomorrow (Tuesday) is the start of a whole new dieting week Once more into the breach dear friends......
150lbs lost!!
So, although pi$$ poor really, am trying to see the positive
AAM this week in the hope that it curbs my desperate urge to eat anything and everything in sight.. lol.. although I have to say, I think it will work as I will have a meal to look forward to each day
Tomorrow (Tuesday) is the start of a whole new dieting week
Once more into the breach dear friends......
canireallydothis!!
Gold Member
super duper, 150lbs, what a massive stupendous achievment!!!!!!!!!!
You have lost a person!!!
You have lost a person!!!
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
Thank you
Taken me the same amount of time as a pregnancy would - so that's weird! lol
Taken me the same amount of time as a pregnancy would - so that's weird! lol
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
Oh I DO hope so!! Thanks for your wonderful support and incredibly wise words. xxxx
