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hey jennie
well done for not bundling you shopping basket full of goodies
you have done so well on your journey
the tiniest of blips has happened but you are strong enough to carry on

you are so close to the goals you will succeed
well done jen and stay strong

kaz:D
 
Good morning ! Bright new day..

Good morning!

What a difference sleep makes! lol Plugged ears and put headphones on and stereo on very loud so I could hear through the plugs my Paul McKenna cd.. lol.. so dog had NO chance! hee hee

Slept like a log! Woke up before alarm went off and have done the bins (bin day today) and put away all the clean washing. So already a good day as that's all done! lol

Sorting through holiday photos to get some more printed out and to choose the ones I am going to enlarge and frame and put up in my bedroom... below are the ones I'm considering... not decided yet. Definitely the one of me and my sister as I love it!
 

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Oh my... for a nano second looking at the pic of you and your sis I thought you were the one on the right....:eek: doesn't your sister look like you 'used to look'....OMG:eek:

The pic of the wood sticking up out the sea is a definate pic you should have enlarged for your room... very stunning and calming pic....

See you tomorrow..... don't forget you need to go to the bank around 12.30pm......dont you....;);):D

Love
 
Storm is over

Good morning back at you.

Brainstorms come and they go and its great to see this one seems to have passed on.

being so close can cause so many conflicting emotions and subconscious screwy thoughts (trying to empathise here, bear with me LOL).

I have had my brainstorms and being a weaker bloke, had them far earlier in my 'journey' (you got 50% further - there you are formal acknowledgement that women are the stronger sex LOL) - but I do know that as long as you look at the goal. You will get there.

You have never felt sorry for yourself and that is the most amazingly unbelievable thing.

Glad the sun is shining for you today - its great isn't it and sometimes brighter post storm (I know - there you go empathy again from a bloke - aaarrgggghhhh, they're changing girls, they're getting incite :eek:)

We will all help in storm mop up duties - no government assistance needed.

X
 
Hiya Jennie

Love those photos - as Mich said the one with the wood sticking out of the sea is beautiful, very professional too, but they're all lovely.

Well done on resisting those goodies yesterday and getting back on track, you're so close now I know you're not going to ruin it all at this stage, look how far you've come, you've done amazingly well & will continue to do so I'm sure :)

Have a great day

xx

p.s. have you got a free day coming up in the near future?
 
Well, I did it... I managed 100% SS today despite having some pretty distressing news this afternoon, but have dealt with that and won't allow it to hinder my journey.

Have been thinking lots about S and decided not to text him today to see if he actually bothers to text me.. I didn't... he didn't... I just sent him one now asking when we are doing the lunch/dinner thing but honestly there's no point anyway as I'm not eating so IF he replies I'll just tell him I can't now. Somehow I don't think he will bother. His loss (although feels like mine at the moment).. but it's cool :) I don't text any other 'friends' every day so why would I do it with him? I found that although I was thinking about him I didn't feel the urge to make contact with him, and that's quite a change!

So... beginning to think that I'm really changing my thinking... at least about blokes! lol

After work I nipped to Asda and had a stand up row with the assistant there as I wanted a refund for the dress I bought last week (tags still on, in bag, spanking new)... but as I didn't have my receipt and they had reduced them THIS MORNING she was only prepared to give me HALF the price I paid! I basically told her that sucked and I just stroppily bought some joggers for the gym (£3) and a top (£6) which took my eye! I MUST stop clothes shopping! lol

I NEEDED the joggers though and was amazed as they are a size 14 and dead comfy - that said, I also tried on the most gorgeous white denim cropped jeans in a 14 and although they went on and did up.. the fleshy apron of skin made it impossible to wear them - I was dead tempted to buy them anyway but no... sense prevailed and I put them back.. BUT ... I take heart that I shall, one day, wear such things!

I came home - music blaring (oh I love my in-car cd player! I play ALL sorts of music loud!) lol... and into the house to root around for the receipt.. I wasn't prepared to hand over the dress for anything less than I had paid for it! I found it!! For some reason (perhaps because this has happened before!) I had stuck the receipt on the fridge door! Yay me! lol

So, job for tomorrow! (After meeting with the lovely Mich for a pint of water in Naseby :D)

After Asda it was a quick dash to a motorcycle shop to blag a prize for the club's charity day on August Bank Holiday Monday. Got a 5litre thing of oil worth £16 so pleased with that! Will take it next week to the meeting. Dropped off a load of fliers to them too. Then it was home for a muffin and get ready for the gym.

Then I got the message with some pretty naff news, but as I say, it's ok now and I don't want to discuss it here. Just mentioning it so you know I'm not 110% this evening.

Anyway... off to the gym and did a really good session there.. then back home via the co-op to get more caffeine free diet coke... the cashier looked at me and suddenly said.. "you've lost a lot of weight haven't you?" LOL I said yes and she told me how every time I have been in recently she wasn't sure if it was me or not and didn't like to ask, but as I was only buying 24 cans of caffeine free diet coke she felt it worth risking it . LMAO.

I will admit, I felt really good about her commenting and it helped keep me focused. Went and picked up more holiday photos from the newsagents... and then came home. No sooner had I sat down then the phone rang - it was Dancing man from Tobago!!

He had rung at 1.30am today and I had missed the call as I was asleep with me ear plugs in! lol It was a really nice surprise and we chatted amiably for a few minutes.

The Babysitter rang me today too - but I missed his call! lol I think it's funny that he calls me....am sure it's only coz he wants to stay here if he comes over for Notting Hill... lol.. well have I got news for him! It ain't gonna happen! LMAO

Whatever, he tried the house and my mobile but as he didn't leave a message I don't feel any compunction to return his calls. lol (get me!!)

After the call from Dancing Man I had a text from my sis... so I rang her.. via mum... told mum about the op news and plan.. she was very pleased about it all but said she didn't think I should lose any more... *sigh

In any case.. I am going to and I will do this last stretch if it damn well kills me!! (which it won't)... wasn't even off the phone when Lucy arrived early to go to Aquafit!

Quick rush around to get into cozzy and put bag together and off we went! It was HARD work! I'm cream crackered.. but... when I got home at 9 I made a huge mug of bouillion and have now eaten a muffin (my third pack of the day).. and feel full and pleased.

So.. a step closer to the golden BMI!!!

Tomorrow I'm going straight from work to meet the lovely Mich - I can't wait! Be warned though Mich - I'm bringing me holiday snaps! lol MUST get the map out and have a look at a route... :giggle: :giggle:

Early night tomorrow night I think.. VERY busy day Thursday... with work, gym assessment, nurse appointment and possibly out in the evening with Trudy... and then it'll be the weekend all over again!

So... night night (am off to lurk on other's diaries..) and then to bed... if asleep before 11 will be dead chuffed and, as Zoe is home, the ear plugs are going in again tonight!

She (Zoe) is eating a flaming chippy at the moment but will be doing my photos for me as soon as she's finished! WON'T be posting them here.. but I will post a couple from todays photo exploring that I did ... I have been sorting out pics for various things.. and found one of me from March 2005... (blue top) and from our family holiday to Turkey (flowery top) in 2003...and one taken of me on hols with sis... swimming in the 'Nylon Pool' - which is a huge area in the sea that has a sea bed of crushed coral and the water is so clear and Princess Margaret said it reminded her of Nylon.. so it got called the nylon pool.. supposedly takes 10 years of you if you swim in it.. so ... that makes me 13 (as I went in 3 times!).. lol... oh an done of me scuba diving!!!!! hope you like the pics...
 

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Well, I did it... I managed 100% SS today despite having some pretty distressing news this afternoon, but have dealt with that and won't allow it to hinder my journey.

Well done on SSing...... water all round tomorrow then...lol!

Have been thinking lots about S and decided not to text him today to see if he actually bothers to text me.. I didn't... he didn't... I just sent him one now asking when we are doing the lunch/dinner thing but honestly there's no point anyway as I'm not eating so IF he replies I'll just tell him I can't now. Somehow I don't think he will bother. His loss (although feels like mine at the moment).. but it's cool :) I don't text any other 'friends' every day so why would I do it with him? I found that although I was thinking about him I didn't feel the urge to make contact with him, and that's quite a change!

How very spooky I was going to speak to you about this tomorrow and suggest that you didn't text him every day to see if he responds..... was also going to say you've lots of friends and don't text them every evening.... spooky....!!!

So, job for tomorrow! (After meeting with the lovely Mich for a pint of water in Naseby :D)

Might push it to a diet coke... maybe....lol!!

Tomorrow I'm going straight from work to meet the lovely Mich - I can't wait! Be warned though Mich - I'm bringing me holiday snaps! lol MUST get the map out and have a look at a route... :giggle: :giggle:

Erm.... not sure I can make it tomorrow ....lol;)... Don't forget I've only got hour and half......;)

..

See you tomorrow at 1pm..... if you can get off any earlier text me - I can be there for around 12.30ish......

Now I too must go print off the map.....!!!

Love
 
hope you both have a good time & don't spend too much or buy too many clothes ;) ;)
xx
LOL We're meeting at a pub in the middle of nowhere.. lol.. no shoppping! Just pints of water! lol

But we WILL have a good time too :D thanks honey xxxxx right, I MUST go to bed as my mood is changing and I want to sleep tonight, not be cross about things I have no control over.. lol

Sorry - know that sounds odd., just trust me.. lol... things are ok and I just need to chill a bit for a few days. Night x
 
you sound much more settled now Jennie.
apart fromthe possible diet coke factor,have you worked out in your mind what set last w/E's eating off? predominately internal or external factors?
 
Good morning!

Slept ok(ish) and up early this morning and done some washing, things ready for my lunch date with Mich (well, water and possibly a soup pack!) lol

Zoe took the dreaded photos for me last night and I am trying to edit them at the moment so I can take them to work and print them out (printer here not working). They upset me though and it isn't a nice job, but, worth it if they achieve my goal.

It's Zoe's driving test this morning (2nd time) and I am really hoping and praying she passes.. I'm not sure how she'll cope with the disappointment if she doesn't, so, all positive vibes and prayers most gratefully received!

Planning an early night tonight as feeling weary this morning - mind you, my mind was so wound up last night the last time I looked at the clock it said 1.30am so not altogether surprising. :)

Jane - probably a combination of both internal and external factors... not sure... will have to give it more thought in the hope that I can avoid a repeat!

Feeling very focussed today, hopped on the scales and they show a 4lb loss since Monday BUT , that is just my scales.. will wait for Ailsa's on Monday for the true picture. lol

I know I shouldn't scale hop and I'm going to lock them back in Sarah's old bedroom now that I know things are moving in the right direction.

I have to say (and look away if of a sensitive disposition)... whilst in my 'weekend blip' mode.. my poo stank! I mean REALLY stank... it was absolutely rancid. Anyway - you get the picture. So.. back on the packs and things are a lot more 'fragrant', not that it smells of roses or 'owt... anyway... enough of this... not my kind thing 'poo' talk. lol (Although there are plenty as might say 'tis ALL I talk! ) :giggle:

Must get on with these photos... if I get up the courage I may post some of them, but I don't know. That would be a major thing to do so will wait awhile.
 
Well thanks for sharing your "poo" news :p now don't go getting all Gillian McKeith on us, you'll be printing out a chart next :D;)

Everything crossed for Zoe's test this morning, I hope she passes, sending vibes your way :D

Have a lovely lunch with Mich & really looking forward to seeing you soon

Take care honey & have a good day

xxxx
 
Well thanks for sharing your "poo" news :p now don't go getting all Gillian McKeith on us,

HEAVEN FORBID!!!! She's a scrawny rude nightmare of a woman who just thrives on bullying people into feeling so terrible they comply! BAH! :rotflmao:

you'll be printing out a chart next :D;)

Everything crossed for Zoe's test this morning, I hope she passes, sending vibes your way :D


thanks - am nervous for her... she should be texting me soon!


Have a lovely lunch with Mich & really looking forward to seeing you soon

Will do - definitely water for lunch though as HAVE to stay strong! Going to have a soup here in a minute so not hungry when I get there!

Take care honey & have a good day

xxxx

Thank you :D
 
Lovely to see you today hun... glad you got back OK... I did too... see you soon...... in BHam..... get your dancing shoes on.....:D

Lots of love
 
Right, just a quick update then I really HAVE to finish editing these NASTY pics!

Work this morning - having done some washing, cleared up the kitchen and started on my room (again)... I seem to be really messy up there at the moment - in fact, when I go to bed I shall have to spend about 20 minutes sorting out the stuff I transferred up there earlier!

Zoe, sadly, failed her driving test - not good news, for either of us.. it means I continue to be taxi to Hatfield and get the honour of spending 3 hours in traffic each time she needs picking up / returning. Oh well... it's good thinking time anyway :D

After work I went to the bank and then headed off to Naseby to meet Mich... it was pouring down and the A14 in the rain is NOT nice... lots of lorries blinding everyone with spray and huge puddles which affect the direction the car goes in! It cleared a bit and, with my tw*tnav on boadr (ie... me and my post it note scribbled directions stuck to dashboard).. it was nothing short of miraculous that I found my way there without any problems! The thing is, Naseby isn't actually signposted... so I kinda guessed where to get off the A14... :giggle: and blow me it worked! I then 'guessed' which way to go at the next T junction and was right! Well impressed! lol Got there bang on time... but... PUB CLOSED! lmao Text from Mich to say she missed turning (not surprising really - it is a bugger to find!) and she'd be there soon. I drove up the road and found another pub.. The Fitzgerald Arms (I think that's what it was called)...what a smashing place... new owners doing it up and really friendly and chatty. They didn't mind my odd request for some cold water and a pot of boiling as I mixed my soup ... I had run out of time at work! PLUS.. as they didn't have caffeine free diet coke they said I could drink me own! lol So, 2 rounds of water and a diet coke for Mich, and we were away! lololol

Mich, bless her, was very patient and flicked through my holiday snaps... then we had a right old natter :D I loved it. Wish we lived a bit closer as could do that loads more! lol Before we knew it, it was time to head off... by now the sun had put in an appearance and so, cardi off, Clannad cd on the player (bargain at the Co-Op).. lol.. and off I set.

Came home via the post office - had to send letter and some pics off to Dancing Man in Tobago as had promised to write,and, as you all know by now, I mean it when I make a promise! lol

Quick nip into newsagents for a paper I have yet to read - hopeless see! lol Then home to see Zoe... but she was out! lol Well,as the sun was out I did the only thing I could... on with some shorts and sat out in it til it went away! lol Read the local papers and sorted through some festival paperwork... (meeting on Friday)... and then got a real 'sorting out' head on me! So... grabbed a stack of papers from the study and set to it (in the sunshine!)... only problem was , it was really breezy and so I ended up rushing around the garden rescuing things... lol...

I bought a shredder the other day and so am being really good and careful (not that anyone would want to nick MY identity!! FFS... I have no money, only one job etc etc... lol) So... sorted rubbish/shred/keep piles! It's only scratched the surface of what needs to be done in here (the study) but felt oddly satisfying! lol

I had a mega mug of bouillon and a muffin... YUMMY!!! Been 100% today and dead pleased!

Ailsa is keeping in touch and helping me stay focused... (gotta love having her as my CDC!)... and Mich stuck to it too... it ALL helped!

Did loads more 'sorting' then rang sis - lots going on in her life at the moment - told her to get a job up my way and come live with me!! lol T'ain't as simple as that though.. but the offer and idea is still there!

Had another mug of bouillon and have drunk gallons of water, appleade and caffeine free diet coke... so been running to the loo every few minutes... lol... at about 8pm I had another muffin... Lordy I LOVE my choc mint muffins... they fill me up and are so delicious!

Anyway, that's gone now... found a website that does music like I heard constantly in Tobago so going to see how I go about downloading some onto cds... as I have to admit, looking at the pics and listening to the music transports me back dead quick! lol

Been trying to catch up on here but failing miserably... so may threads and so little time! lol

All in all though a very good day (not productive at work, but tomorrow will redress the balance as may well go in a tad early - depends on sleep!)

So.. with that in mind.. it's down with another pint of water and one of appleade, sort these photies out for the Doc for tomorrow.. and bed time! Aiming to be in bed by 11 at the latest snuggled up with Paul McKenna and my darling earplugs! lol Probably shove everything willy-nilly onto the floor instead of sorting anything out tonight now!

Can always think about it tomorrow... note 'think' lol

Night night xxxxx
 
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