Another novel....well, at least I'm consistent!
Wednesday August 15th
Damned dog woke me at 5!!! Grrrrr (that’s me not the dog!).. so, let him out and went back to Paul… lol… thought it wouldn’t hurt to hear him again as I never actually hear all of him anyway.. and still didn’t – was asleep in moments!
Blueeyes rang me to wake me up at 7 and I asked him to call again in an hour.. lol.. couldn’t bring myself to open me eyes! Lol Bless him, he just chuckled and did… lol So, another hour of kip was had! (By this time he had been at work an hour)… Got up and headed off to work.. list in hand of what to do today! This really is turning into a marathon week – I stopped in my town because, for some bizarre reason, I thought it was Friday and therefore Market day!! DOH!! Got to work and sat there wanting a kip, lol… did some work – not a lot and have actually brought some home to do in my ‘spare’ time!
not entirely sure when that will be though! Lol Did a few things and got some difficult stuff sorted out.
Texted Blueeyes to ask him to call me when he had chance.. he did and I was very honest with him, told him I loved the clothes (but one pair of crops was too small (a fricking 12 fer petes sake! Lol).. but again, not to give me any more at the moment! (like the ‘at the moment bit’ ??) but the most important thing I had to say was about seeing each other. I told him I was exhausted and that I didn’t want to go bowling tomorrow evening and if he didn’t mind, we would just have an early meal, watch a dvd then he would have to go around 10.30pm as I really need to sleep before my weekend arrives! We agreed that it was too much to see one another in the week (especially if so late as last night) and that he had overslept too this morning, so that was agreed. IF we do see each other on a weekday it is an early one!
I also told him that it was imperative that he didn’t think we would be seeing each other when I wasn’t doing other stuff as I need evenings/days to myself and so does he. He agreed and said he hadn’t thought we would anyway and it wasn’t a problem at all. So, although our diaries were synchronized it doesn’t mean that every spare second we will be in one another’s pockets – otherwise one of us might just call it a day! I felt heaps better after our chat, I also said how uncomfortable I felt at his place and that if I go there again I expect to be treated as anyone else he may have visit and sit in the damn living room! Lol (stroppy cow eh! Lol) He agreed and apologized for last night and promised next time (if there is one) it would be different. S’all good to me! Lol
Agreed a time for him to arrive tomorrow and that he’s going to bring a couple of dvds for us to choose from, I think that will be really nice but am so sure I’ll nod off! Lol
Hey ho! Lol Finished work and trawled off to the bank – on the way back to the car I spotted a fabby top in the window of the Help The Aged shop!!! Well – a while back I almost got into trouble for stripping their window dummy of her sarong (wanted it for me hols) and last week had a top from the window too… lol.. and so.. it was with some trepidation that I approached the suitably mature sales assistant! She gave me one of those ‘oh for goodness sake why can’t you choose something on a rail ‘ looks and said she wasn’t sure she could sell from the window so I told her I did it regularly and would help her get it off the dummy.. lol In the end she got it off for me and it is GORGEOUS!!! I love it! All feminine and floaty and simply NOT the old me at all! Lol I adore it – PLUS – bargain at only £3.99!!!! I know exactly what to wear it with too… my white skirt! OOoh, just a case of WHEN to wear it… lol.. am sure I think of something.. lol Was well chuffed at bagging yet another bargain (and mega bonus – it covers me saggy arms!)
Then it was off to Asda to completely strip their supplies of SugarFree Appleade.. which I did, well, almost… I had to climb up on their racking to reach it all and managed to get 24 bottles… hee hee.. (3 for a quid!!)… on my way round the store I spotted a very sweet nightshirt… and… as I now only have one pair of PJ’s that come near to fitting me.. well… it WAS a bargain… so I popped that into my trolley too… along with 6 pairs of knickers… lol.. well, I needed them!! I’ve only got me Bridget Jones white pants now and they are too big to wear under me linen trousers and white skirt… so.. well, at 3 pairs for a quid, you can’t go wrong! I swear, won’t buy any more until these are threadbare (or I go down another size – which is doubtful as they’re a 12-14 and a lovely fit)… I recall the days when I would wear me knickers ‘til they literally fell off!! Hated buying knickers in Evans – they were gargantuan, but then, look what they had to cover!! Even so, there were some that I felt sexy in even at a size 30… go figure! Lol
Also – there was a bit of an offer on paper wallets (stationary) so I popped them in too, in the remote hope that I can sort out the study this weekend (my mate is determined to do this! Lol) and have some sort of order to things! Lol
Spotted some ready cooked chicken things… really low calories and freezable… and on offer … so… bunged them in the trolley and headed for the till. A slightly incredulous cashier counted out the 24 bottles… lol… and asked if I needed a hand packing. LOL I love it, I have the weirdest combinations in my trolley – I also had a mixing bowl and a circular sealed plastic bowl (perfect for marinading)… more bargains… flipping heck… think I might bar meself from shopping at all on days with M,T and F in ‘em… that way I might just get a handle on things.. lo
I just can’t seem to help it when I see a ‘bargain’… lol
Time for home… singing along to a cd as I went I spotted a motorcycle shop in Higham and thought I might just have a peek at their leathers… lol… that’s all I did though! They are lush but I don’t need ‘em and in time, when my finances are all sorted (which I aim to get to within the next 6 months)… then I may have a wish list to save up for… they won’t be high on it… but they will make an appearance!
Blueeyes rang and I found myself asking if he’d like to call in on his way home from work!! (FFS Jennie!!!) lol He finished at 3… lol.. He was very clearly shocked (especially given our chat this morning) lol… but said he would love to, thanks. I said it would only be a brief visit as I’m out tonight and have lots to do… lol… (see – set the boundaries!) so it was agreed… lol
I got home during a horrendous rain storm to find the tent looking a tad misshapen…. It has been very windy and wet today – so… waited for a break in the nastiness and re-sited the guy ropes.. hope my mate will be ok in it! Fingers crossed the weather improves!
Had about an hour to do some bits and bobs in, so, new nightshirt and other pink things in the washing machine, I got stuck into salad prep for tomorrow – I LOVE preparing food! It’s all done, in bowls etc.. veggies marinating nicely in the new tub… all the other bits done so no need to worry about doing anything tomorrow when home from work - ah how cool will that be! Everything tidy and music playing, had a soup and muffin and the best part of a malt toffee bar – I am REALLY hungry today! Also had some chicken – about 200cals worth, not good but today for some reason I feel like I could eat a horse!!!
Hope it doesn’t do damage to weight loss so will have to SS Fri, Sat, Sun 100% again! ARGH! Still, will be worth it
(Although I have this BBQ Sunday to go to… hmm… think I’ll have a soup and muffin JUST before leaving the house so less inclined to eat.)
My scales were kind this morning (11.9) but by this evening reading a gain of 5lbs since this am (12.0) – major reason NOT to scale hop eh! Lol MUST put them back under Sarah’s old bed and lock the door again! Have a feeling Zoe might confiscate them if I tell her …. Lol
Very pleased to be so organized for tomorrow and my mates arrival Friday too…… rang the lady who is in charge at the bike club to see if the run was on tonight – she said it depended on weather.. so I told her I’ll go and be prepared . (Any excuse to wear me leathers! Lol)
Blueeyes showed up around 4ish and we spent a very pleasant hour and a half together talking and showing him holiday pics and photies on the computer (he wanted to see the pics of me on my weight loss journey)… then I turfed him out, lol. Kissed goodbye and both agreed we were looking forward to tomorrow evening and that we were rubbish at this ‘let’s not live in each other’s pockets’ thing.. but I said it
would improve., lol especially as I am so tired still and that it was just a spur of the moment thing when he was on the phone this afternoon….
Once he’d gone I got changed into my bike gear and sat waiting for the rain to stop… it didn’t, and, as I am so tired, I thought it would be wise to stop in tonight and just chill out…so texted the bike club lady and told her I’ll def be there next week, and have been chilling out… music channel on telly loud enough to hear in the study – VH1,
I’ve been writing me diary, reading emails, rang me sister and had a great natter with her., done a little bit of planning for work, another load of washing and all of it hanging on the airer, air bed about to be inflated and cleaned for J’s stay… and sitting in me leathers the entire time… lol Blueeyes texted to say thanks for asking him over today and he’s looking forward to tomorrow… awww, sweet innit! Lol Texted him back that I’m off to bed by 9.30pm tonight and didn’t go to club after all… so he rang and asked if its ok to ring me later – so I said I’ll text him later when I’m ready as I want to do some things and chill out.
Going to go upstairs and have a shower then off to bed with my new book – The Hindi Bindi Club – and a pint or two of water. Still want to eat my way through the universe and not entirely sure why – IS it the diet coke/coke Zero???? Hmmm…. Note to self – STOP drinking the damn stuff!! Lol I even contemplated having even MORE chicken tonight! Bah!!! Didn’t though – instead had a strawberry – yep, just the one… I think I am just going to have to really grit teeth again… tomorrow is a really important day (weigh in at Drs and hoping for magic figures!) so WTF am I doing eating!! Grrrr…
I love this diet and hate it too…although it isn’t the diet’s fault at all.. it flaming well works… it’s me!!! Lol I get really cross with myself too! I just SO want to eat again… today has been particularly bad though..
and I’ve lost track of TOTM so no idea if due soon or not… you’d think by now I would have got in the habit of writing it down! But no… each month the intention is there… lol Oh well… just done the vac’ing upstairs, lit my lovely relaxing candle in my bedroom and am sat here looking very fetching in my mega huge blue bathrobe… lol.. Got some lovely Dove ‘Pro-Age’ shower gel – smells good and feels great – don’t think it makes me any younger but it was 3 for 2 or something.. lol, and I do love Dove products… so off to make use of that in a mo… think I’ll visit the arcade for a while first...
So… there you have it.. at last my boring bletherings for the last 48 hours are done! Hee hee.. .and… if you managed to get through it all, then flaming well done you!!
More of the same inane diatribe tomorrow no doubt!! Off to wash in a mo and then go to sleep listening to my mater Paul again
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Pics are my posh frock for the wedding and the top I got today... each a bargain at only £3.99 a piece in my local charity shops!! Love it!!!
