Good morning... well as you can probably tell by the time of this post, I can't sleep - again!
I am having a real problem getting comfortable but in the end I found a position which worked!
I didn't go to the pub last night, instead, PQM rang me in the morning and asked if I was going round to his place to watch the bike racing... I told him I can't walk that far and he told me off for not ringing him and asking him to pick me up (he literally lives 2 roads away). So he did just that!! He drove 'round, picked me up and so I sat in his living room for the rest of the day and evening until at 8pm I told him I needed to come home to sleep. His son (he's 11) told me I could stay as they have a spare room, bless him, but no, I wanted my own bed. PQM had previously offered to have me stay after my op so that 'me and the kids will look after you'. Nice gesture eh?
Anyway, I spent the day drifting in and out of sleep whilst catching some of the Moto Gp (motorcycle racing) and then had a yummy roast dinner and another snooze and watched Gladiator then he drove me home and I went to bed.
During my visit my mother rang and basically lectured me for not being at home when she rang!! For petes sake... I'm going nuts stuck in on my own all the time... it was the first time I'd been anywhere and it was literally round the corner! Argh! Mum's planning on coming to see me on Friday and I suggested we might like to go out for lunch (I will need a change of scenery!!) and she said no, she didn't think I should be going anywhere!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR..... I can tell I'm NOT going to be a good patient! lol
I'm glad we didn't do the wheelchair to the pub thing because I hurt myself getting out of PQM's car when he brought me home.. I twisted too quickly and it made me cry ... big baby!
WPML has rarely been in touch since I came out of hospital... gosh there is oodles to tell you about that!! Suffice it to say, we had a brief and very curt exchange of texts last night and I am still in the dark as to whether or not I shall clap eyes on him again... we shall see. To be honest, right now, I couldn't care less about blokes... I know, I know,... not like me... but I am sick to the back teeth of them letting me down, making empty promises and generally not giving a toss... know what I mean? I was incredibly tough with one who has a tendency to flit in and out of my life at will and make me miserable.. lol... told him I don't want a visit and am not interested in 'catching up'...lol yay me!! (Mich you would be SO proud!!!)
God, I've woken up a real grouch this morning... bah humbug... lol... I think I'll listen to some chill out music, try and get comfy (once washed and dressed) and look forward to my mate Penny coming to take me to the hospital... I'm going to have my dressings done (again) and have my 1 week post op check... I think that's all they do until 6 weeks... I had a really good look at it all in the mirror again this morning and apart from the scanky blisters, I am really delighted. No 'dog ears' to be sorted out at the ends of the incisions... and all looks to me like it's healing well... it's certainly very tight. I hope that as soon as the blisters heal I can wear a pair of cycling shorts or big belly sucky in up to the boobs pants as that will help reduce the swelling and make my belly not so sensitive to movement as, at the moment, every single movement induces a wince and at times the odd expletive to be uttered in pain. BUT, it's worth it... I can see that already!
Looks like another lovely day outside although probably cold... this'll be the third day I've worn my dress (glad I bought it!) but I do look pregnant in it... still... not for long eh!
I'll 'give birth' before 9 months is up.... lol
My right elbow is now moaning at me as is my knee... I have a feeling that the crash injuries are having their whinge... lol well... it's ok... I have lots of musicals to watch / fall asleep to and I can always ring PQM and ask to go there if I get too bored... but I doubt it as I am so tired by 8pm I'm not fit for anything.
Tonight my lush mate whose birthday I catered for, is coming round with a bottle of wine and her holiday pics... I'm looking forward to that but will need to kip beforehand as she's not getting here until after 7.30pm
**MOANING MINNIE ALERT**
I'm disappointed in my mates from oop north in the bike club... they made all sorts of promises about coming to see me in hospital and then coming to see me yesterday and neither happened but then, I am being selfish... it has been bitterly cold and they too have busy lives to lead... it's just that I think if you say you will do these things then you should do them, not give people false hopes... **END OF MOANING MINNIE** (fer now)
Right... I've lost a lb so am pleased with that... the low-cal - high-protein trick seems to be beginning to work so that's cool... at this rate should hopefully be back to pre-op weight within a fortnight easily.
Zoe has her tests for epilepsy today in Northampton whilst I am in Leicester... I'm hoping for great news on both counts and am positive there will be!
Roll on next weekend - it's the Brum meet and I had toyed with the idea of getting a lift there to see everyone but at the moment, the thought of another hour long journey in a car fills me with abject horror... and I am so exhausted that I don't think I could cope with it...(I can't believe I am saying this!!!) in a way I really wish I could come, stay in the hotel and do a bit of recouperation there... I know their beds are very comfy... lol Ah well... not gonna happen but I am still looking forward to the weekend as I have some visitors coming who I can't wait to see!
Right... I've had my shredded wheat so it's time to weigh out me food for today and decide what to take to the ladies I left behind in my 6 bed bay... 3 of them are still there.... I'm hoping my friend might take me to the co-op before we set off to the hospital so I can get a few little bits as gifts to cheer up my fellow inmates!
Thanks for all the good wishes .... will catch up later probably!
