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Lovely to see you my darling. Hope the giggling didn't hurt too much. Cake and choc was lovely - too lovely. You can tell by looking at my photo that I've eaten too much recently (but at least my hair looks good!).
 
nice photo!!!!

So sorry to hear about your freind!!!

Thinking of you

Nas x
 
You all look fantastic :) - What was Mindless doing to make you all giggle in the second one? lol :D

K xxx
Cat was doing "bunny ears" behind Jennies head & i was trying to stop her, hence the rather contorted face i am pulling hehe!

Was wonderful to see you Jen, take it easy though sweetheart.
Let me know if you want me to go to Primark ;)
xx
 
Cat was doing "bunny ears" behind Jennies head & i was trying to stop her, hence the rather contorted face i am pulling hehe!

Was wonderful to see you Jen, take it easy though sweetheart.
Let me know if you want me to go to Primark ;)
xx


Naughty Cat!!! LOL :)
You all look so happy and lovely together :)

K xx
 
Lovely photos darling, they really captured the moment (especially the second one!) We all had a great time with you, and didn't want to leave. I know I could have stayed for at least another................fortnight x x x Love you loads, and my invitation still stands, and will always stand x x x
 
Fab photos!!! Looks like the visit was a real tonic for you young jennifer!!!! How are you feeling today? I bet it half killed you not coming to the meet this weekend didn't it? It defo would have hindered your healing process though so although we missed you like mad, it was the right decision. And i'm sure i'll be seeing you all too soon!! Liverpool????

Hurry up and post we need to make sure you're ok, ok? lol.
 
Hi,

Hope all is well, I noticed you haven't posted for a few days, which is understandable.... you are in my prayers, and thinking of you at this sad time!

Nas x
 
Sorry not posted for a couple of days but haven't really been in the right frame of mind. I'm doing well, my stomach is healing really well and I will admit, I have over done things the last couple of days so am having a very lazy one today - well... sort of... um..

I've been sitting in the back garden in the sunshine and snoozing.

I have a visitor from work coming at 3.30 but am so tired... I'm off outside for some more sleep in the sunshine. Hoping that the sun will brighten everything up.

I'll update properly later in the week... just not all that chatty right now really....
 
as long as you're resting & ok hun.
we understand you are tired, post when you're ready
xx
 
Enjoy your afternoon in the garden hunnybunny. So glad to hear you're healing well and resting up - even though you may not particularly want to right now.

Sending you lots of good :vibes:and a monster :hug99:

Take good care of yourself OK? xxx
 
Enjoy your afters doll.. the sun makes things seem just a wee bit better.. tried to ring you back.. but kept getting answer phone.. but ill speak to you later my gawjus wee thing..

x x
 
to be honest i wouldnt waste a single breath on your ex! at the end of the day loose weight for yourself! and then ul prob bump into him in tescos one day , and hel see u and druel! and u can leave him there panting, at least then it dosnt like u needed to proove anything to him! Hope u find true happiness soon sunshine xx
 
How are you feeling now?
did you get some rest?
 
It's another Sunday already - can't believe its only been 20 days since the op.

I did rest but then slipped back into old habits - see something needs doing, do it... overdid things and really should've known better.

I'm feeling all sorts of things at the moment... tired and stressed mainly and not least, sad too.

It's my friend Richard's funeral on Wednesday and I am so glad I went to church this morning because I had a lovely chat with his daughter and granddaughters...It's going to be a celebration of his life and I'm so glad about that. I think the place will be packed out and I hope for his families sake that it's not too much to bear.

Other things this week... as I think I said... I knocked things on the head with WPML man and also have given up on PQM - had a very emotional exchange with PQM (NOT good... lol) but he was lovely and told me I am his bestest mate ever and that he's just not ready and it really is him and not me (oh for a £1 for every time I have heard that said to me... lol...) I went to collect a saucepan back from him and intended to be 'distant' but as soon as I see him and his incredible blue eyes I just melt and become a flippin jibbering numpty! Ridiculous!

In a vain attempt to exorcise my feelings for him I rejoined my fave dating site... but to be honest... I'm not really interested and only joined out of boredom. Not very fair to those who contact me really I know... but as long as I don't hurt anyone I'll sit back and see what happens.

WPML came and picked me up last night and took me to his place for dinner... it was nice but reminded me why I knocked it on the head with him on a 'romantic' level... lol... it was much better being in his company as a friend. Far more relaxing and no pressure.

As far as my CDC work goes things aren't good at the moment - just about all my clients have given up! A few haven't but the rest have, still.. onwards and upwards and I have got some new business cards printed and will spend some time this week creating posters to put up in the local shops again. Will wait and see how it goes before making any decisions about the future and whether its viable to continue or not. I think just now it's a combination of all sorts of thoughts and emotions milling around.

Zoe crashed her car on Wednesday night - so - another catastrophe to sort out. I've managed to get lifts for her all this week but in doing so have pretty much used up all favours that friends might have done for me whilst I'm housebound. Am hoping that I can get the car fixed by this time next week but if she does it again or anything else happens we will have to face the fact that she will lose her job.

I can't keep on like this - it's so stressful. Financially.

So, Zoe and I talked and have agreed that as soon as I am physically fit enough, we will start preparing the house for sale. I don't know what will become of us nor where we will end up. I may decide to just sell everything and leave and take my chances running solo around the globe until the money runs out... (not a huge amount).

More likely I shall find a badly paid full time job and get a small flat or tiny house that we (Zoe and me) can live in for the time being. Not sure I want a mortgage again but hate the thought of paying someone else's in the form of rent.

Sarah came to visit - she is unemployed having been kicked out of uni. I have no idea what she will do with her life but she has said she doesn't want to live back home again and I understand that - I wouldn't want to live with my mother again... lol

Still and all... my op incisions are healing really well... think I may have a minor prob with an odema (sp) but will get that checked out.

We're realitively fit and well and have food in the freezer and a warm home to live in at the moment. So we are very very fortunate.

I'm off to sit and read for a bit and hopefully snooze - not getting much sleep still as too painful, and now have pressure sore from all this sitting!

Think my mum may be coming to call on Friday... not sure though.

Right... will catch up again sometime soon.
 
Hi hun,
gosh life really doesn't let up for you does it.
Hope Zoe is ok following her crash.
Have been to Primarche (to the posh amongst us hehe) & will post to u on Monday
xx
 
Glad to hear that things are healing nicely Jenny.

Dont worry about the Cambridge thingy. I am sure if all CDCs were honest they all have quiet times, I know I certainly have. My DH always laughs at me when I say I have not got many clients at the moment, because the next thing I am busy again. Tomorrow is my last day as a CDC. These last two weeks have been very emotional saying goodbye to my lovely Clients who have become good friends. Still in 2 weeks time we will be driving out to Portugal with the dogs. My lovely Mum is following out by air the week after with my sister in law. I am taking some boxes of Cambridge with me but not the broccoli and cheese ones lol.

Take care and keep up with plenty of rest. Difficult for you I know.

love Pam x
 
Well, almost Tuesday again..cn scarcely believe its only been 3 weeks sincce the op. I've been waking up at stupid times...but a great mate came over Sunday and has set me up with wireless internet and a laptop so have been able to be on pc all day wherever I am and it's been great.

I woke up at 3am , logged on, checked emails, fell back to sleep, woke up at 6 and got up... usually I would wake at 3 and get up. Have been able to sit with telly on and type in the living room too... I love it!

generally things remain the same... still struggling to get Zoe to work etc... dating site is ok, some very interesting comments coming my way... went to the pub last night.

Strange really as PQm had said he wasn't going and then as soon as he knew one of the crowd (a single bloke) had offered to take me in his van, he offered to drive me too!! I turned down the offer of a lift as I'm fed up of sitting down.. so we walked... on the way he said he'd offered to drive as he felt it was too far for me to walk so soon after my op... bless... I was really surprised...

How is it that one minute men can seem totally uncaring and insensitive and the next the total opposite??

Anyway... we walked and called for the other chap on the way... had a lovely evening in the pub (although it was painful and exhausting) and tottered gingerly home at 11pm. I was worn out and so swollen but it was worth it. As he said goodnight PQM told me he has Weds off work and said if I wanted to get out for a short walk to pop round and see him!!! WTF!!!

Sadly, Weds is Richards funeral and I don't want to see anyone. So, as much as I like PQM I shall give it a miss. When I told him it was the funeral he immediately asked if I needed a lift anywhere.. again... bless! I just don't understand men at all... perhaps it's a blessing not a curse...

I have done loads of work for the bike club on the pc today and even got into a spat with a supplier about delivery deadlines. I am, however, absolutely shattered and think if I can, I will try and rest better tomorrow. Mind you, I've got a new client in the morning who I think will be very interesting indeed and another regular one coming who I reckon will jack it in soon as they've been struggling for weeks and we can't find a way forward for them, which is a shame but I think this diet just isn't her solution.

Out for a meal with a friend tomorrow evening so will be exceptionally careful with calories all day in preparation as I hate the fact that I'm burning no calories so having to be ultra careful as do not want to put on more weight whilst stuck on me ar$e!

Right... bed I think. Na night all xx
 
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