Sunday morning came quickly and I ummed and ahhed over whether to go to church or not. (Another internal turmoil going on!!)... and then something happened that decided it! Now, it was only 7am and no, the dog hadn't barked! Oh forgot to say... when we returned from Asda we found that the dog had eaten an entire pot of Kalms that Zoe had bought to help her with her driving test nerves (against my wishes!!). well, I did consider rushing him to the vet for a stomach pumping, but, as we had been out over 3 hours already there was no telling when he had got them!! So, we left him to sleep it off and hope he would be ok. (This is a dog who has demolished tubs of moisturiser, books, shoes, glass, drinks cans, stones, wood, anything remotely food, ibuprofen, contraceptive pills etc etc etc in the past with no ill effects).. it's not as if she had left them anywhere silly either, they were on the sideboard by the stereo, so, either the cat knocked them off there and that's how he got them, or he would have had to reach up and stretch to get them! Who knows - but anyway, he was pretty placid for the weekend .. lol No doggy alarm calls - yay!!
Anyway, got up, showered, got dressed and decided to sort the rest of the sacks of clothes that Alison gave me and did just that. Put some in the bags for charity and the rest I washed, and the suits I hung on hangers and out on the washing line to air them. I did a whole routine throughout the day of washing and hanging out and bringing in. I have a lovely load of clothes now!! Hopefully they will last a few weeks, and I've vowed to buy no more until I am a size 14 (which will probably be in July/August) so that's a good thing! lol
Oh yes, the thing that made me decide I was going to church ! lol I was looking for something on my bureau in the bedroom and I found my missing rings!!!! My immediate reaction was a 'thank you Lord' and I realised that I had to get my sorry butt to church. Can't explain why, just felt it so.. got loads more done in my room (I so want my bedroom to look like a bedroom again instead of the dumping ground it has become since I have it all to myself). Walked to church (I know!! walked!!!!) and I needed to get some more clothes pegs. So, carried the banner down to town, (I take it down in the eves and put it up again in the morns over the weekends).. and nipped into Spar, no pegs! Eek!! Into newsagents on high street, no pegs.. that meant a hike to t'other end of town to get them from co-op!
Went to church. Mixed feelings about it all. There was a couple there and I hated the way they were to her little girl. It really upset me. I couldn't bring myself to speak to them about it but am going to talk to the minister about it. Really really did disturb me. It was lovely to see everyone again, but I left feeling a bit, well, dunno really.. couldn't seem to focus on the service at all really. Think maybe I need to do some reading and quiet time at home again... do it on a personal basis during the week.. then try again at Church next Sunday. Maybe.
anyway, you don't want to hear about my spiritual blah.. lol
Stomped to Co-op and got pegs (lovely bright colourful ones ! )
and home again , more washing etc. Then sat with Zoe and chatted and watched some rubbish on telly about American models... scrawny sad young ladies I thought... beautiful outside, but not so inside... shame really.. all that pressure. Umm, anyhow.. cut all the tickets and sorted them out and filled in the spreadsheet and put them all in correct envelopes ready to post, and, just as I finished and was going upstairs to get ready to go out .. Zoe knocked a pint glass over, it went everywhere - she had bare feet so I had to clear it all up- towels and glass and vacuum cleaners and dustpan and brush and now a tetchy moi!! I hurried to get ready and wore that top that was 'too snug' a while ago... with my new jewellry.. and black trousers.. I felt ok, Zoe said I looked ok so that was it, shot off to Hitchin.
I could feel my pulse racing as it got to 7.30pm and I was still miles away!!! I tried following the directions I'd been given but still got lost and ended up on the wrong side of a road in the town centre!!! Finally found the place and it was packed... still.. I know the organisers and they found me a seat and I settled down for a smashing evening! (now gone 8pm!) lol
Isambarde were the support - what a talented trio. Wonderful! Then it was time for Phil Beer - you know, there's something about the man!!! (A bit like the aura Jack Nicholson has).. I like that! lol Loads of eye contact with him throughout the whole set.. and the second set too... lurvly! lololol
Fabulous musician and entertainer - can never get too much of him! Second part of set was with Miranda Sykes - if you ever get chance to see her, she is incredible!!! She plays double bass and has such a stunning voice too! Totally brilliant night. Drive home was a bit scary though. All country lanes I don't know and came close to nodding off a couple of times. Was really tired and got home around 12.45am, shattered! And so.. to bed... sleep came swiftly and so too did the morning! lol
So.. it's Monday morning and I have a busy day ahead, BUT, I've made a big decision. Bed by 10pm tonight, 10.30pm tomorrow, 10pm Weds, not sure Thurs as going out and 11pm Friday. MUST catch up on some sleep or am going to fizzle out. Yesterday made me realise that, I can't recall the last time I was so tired. Also - driving late at night when so tired - I was tempted to stop and nap but it was pitch black and countryside and to be honest, I don't think I would have felt safe.
So, after job 2 today, it's home, sit down and see if I can nap for half hour, then off to weigh in. It's come round quickly!! Not sure how it will be tonight, but a loss is a loss, and I can't have gained so it will be good news. lol
Right, have caught up now (at least with my diary - not had time to look at anywhere else yet!!!) ... glad tickets are all up to date, and work is ok (ish). Don't like being so tired on a Monday morning though. Not a good way to start the week, so think I will decide that the week starts tomorrow (after a full night's kip tonight!)
Seeing the Dr tomorrow too so don't want to look like death warmed up when asking him to sign me to do the skydive!
Will hop on and update after weigh in tonight!
to buy the most lovely red top ever. It's not a style I would ever have looked at and thought 'oh yeah' to.. and it was a 16 and she told me to try it on, so I did. I was shocked when I looked in the mirror. I didn't recognise the reflection. I seemed to be looking at a total stranger (Lordy, my head is a mess right now!!). There was this woman in a red top staring back at me. The top was gorgeous on, I would say I still need to lose a fair bit of belly before wearing it in public, so am going to dig out my old exercise vids and look for belly-toning exercises.. probably sit ups or summut will do it... but whatever, she (Zoe) was in the changing room with me (there's another mega difference in me - before, no way a soul would be allowed in there!!!)... and she was just raving about it! So, I bought it. Hoping to wear it to the festival one evening.. will ask Zoe to take pic of me in it so I can show you what I mean, it will need smooth black trousers under it (not jeans). Which, I do have a pair of (Size 18 - £5 from Asda a few weeks ago and now able to fit into). 
