Hi ladies, what a beautiful day. Official weigh in today 10, 13lbs abd my counsellor said she'd like to put me forward for an inspiration award which was rather nice!
I'm pretty sure I'll put at least half a stone back on over hols but I'm trying to not let this bother me. I know most 'slim' people also put on over holidays and the difference is they cut back when home. So I'm hoping to get my head down and focus for the last but after my hols.
Broxi I've always felt from the very start that I will get to goal. From the very beginning I knew this was it, now or never, no more f*****g about. I've wasted my 20s and I have no intention of wasting my 30s. Not over something like weight and food. No more. So very, very determined. I have however had days where I feel I will never, ever get there and weeks where every sodding minute of the day has felt like a battle.
The hardest time for me will be when I come back seeing my weight go up, those last pounds to the ideal weight and the hardest of all, going up the plans and maintaining. But I want this so bad. I feel like my life has been on hold for so long and with every pound I lose I get a glimpse of all the things on offer now I am becoming happy with myself. The difference is marvellous.
And it is impacting on so many different areas of my life. Before I lost my man and gained 5 stone I was quite a kick ass person. I didn't realise that this element of me was slowly eroding away with every cheese sandwich I ate. Its coming back now and wow I had forgotten how good it feels. I feel strong and content and the world seems like it has suddenly opened up for me.So by hook or crook, blood , sweat and tears or even happily and easily I'm getting to goal and I'm going to spend the rest of my days living, not eating instead. Sorry to babble on so.... but I've been trying on bikinis today and I am so bloody cross with myself...this will be the first time I wear a bikini on holiday. That means a lot to me! But highlights how many summers I have spent being too hot living in jeans and a vest top!
Good luck to you brave SS girlies! xxx