Cerulean's Maintenance Diary - 20 wks of SSing - Maintaining since 25/07/11

[Tall fat and greedy]

Hi, if you are thinking of selling your 50's dresses, let me know sizes etc as I have the Goodwood Revival to go to !

 

[Cerulean]

Oooh - TFG - All my Viv dresses are size 20...which is more like a high street 16 (they have a size chart on their webiste - but basically they fit me from about 13.5st - 15.5st)

I have a red with small white polkadot full circle halterneck dress which I will probably pass on as I have a smaller one of those.

 

[Cerulean]

Told ya so

So that extra 0.8lbs dissolved overnight and I'm back in the 11s. Whoop! Am working from home today (I did A LOT of work yesterday so today I can just answer emails and do filing and kick back a bit!)

I don't really need an 810 meal today as I can have my packs whenever up until 6pm...so I may just do straight SS today. Tomorrow definitely requites 2 bars and a meal though as I'll be partying until the very wee hours. Well - by party, I mean having some Coke Zero and maybe a sneaky posh diet ginger beer.

 

[Tall fat and greedy]

Sounds like the right size for me and you are not going back to that size again! Pm me if you would like to sell it!

 

[Cerulean]

Phew! Got a letter off my landlord - rent increase deferred for 2 months...ready to sign contract. Can afford to pay for Mum's 60th birthday and stay living here!

I had a prawn and cottage cheese salad for lunch. I'm working from home which makes a gym visit a tad tricky as my home gym is 20 mins walk away - I could peg it out of the door at 5pm and do a quick run from 5.30 - 6 and thereby just miss one run this week (and really not even that as I will do a full run on Sunday whcih is optional anyway)

But anyway - yay! Life is sort of okay! Don't have to stress about the flat for another year and if I end up going to drama school, I'd have to leave this time next year anyway

 

[Cerulean]

Just spoke to mum - my parents own a pub in the West Country - they have a computer behind the bar and they put up my facebook pictures the other night - people didn't recognise me and asked who it was!

Mum said 'I don't care what you do, just don't put the weight back on!' I do not intend to!' Oh - last night one of my castmates from Clockwork Orange came to see me and was totally gobsmacked about my weightloss (I lost 3 stone whilst I was in Clockwork with him, but clearly this last 2 stone has made the difference!)

Yesterday I popped round to see my lovely colleague to show off my size 12 trousers. I suddenly realised that she's not a size 12...yikes! Foot in mouth disease! Awww - she's so lovely that she was happy for me anyway. Must stop showing off or people will haaaaaaaate me

Had a big chat with my mum - have decided to go to drama school if I can get a place. It means years of risk and potential finincial disaster, but screw it...I love acting. Why not do what I should have been doing all along! I've proved to myself that I have the discipline!

And I have tons of support. Time to start writing cheques my tiny arse can cash!

 

[Illa]

keep going, C. keep going !

 

[Cerulean]

Finished the play - did well - had a rehearsal for the other plays early in the morning, lots of running around so my breakfast was a bar, a shake, 2 eggs - so many calories all at once - not sure it took me out of ketosis as people often say it does, I did feel a bit 'munchy' afterwards though - problem is I was too busy to do it any other way. When I got to rehearsal I had a pot of low fat cottage cheese which is obviously over my protein allowance, but I never have my 810 milk allowance so, swings and roundabouts - and my total calories for the day would have been 850 and that's just because I had two bars (didn't get home til gone midnight).

And now that play's over, on with the rest of my life!

I had a bar at 5ish after the matinee. And that was it really - I was far too tired to go to the cast party and be surrounded by 18 drunk people.

I have missed out a bit on socialising this year, but people seem to like me without the need to get drunk with them, just show up, listen and be attentive and funny and people will generally think well of you. Wish I'd known that aged 20!

 

[Cerulean]

The decision to 810

So I think I'm officially doing 810 now. I think it's because now (one of) the play(s) is over I want to up my exercise and I think August is going to be a good month for The Shred.

If I Shred through August and stay 810 for the next 3 weeks and then 1000 from that point (I've gone through the kind of stabilisation process on 810 as I've been doing it for the last week so I shouldn't see any gains now) I should lose about 8lbs by September - and regardless of weight loss, I should lose 2 inches off my waist and hips taking me to a perfect 10.

Then September will be about stepping up from 1000-1200 and getting to a healthy BMI whilst stabilising.

Yesterday made me impossibly grumpy - we were in a dressing room that had got increasingly uncomfortable throughout the day, due to the fact we had 9 women in a space about 6ft by 10ft wide with no real ventilation and people were using aerosols - I was almost choking and all I could taste was hairspray and I had nothing to take the taste away - everyone was chowing down on juicy sweets like winegums - it would have helped alleviate my foul temper, but I just couldn't do it even though I was offered the bag a hundred times. Everyone was 'You can have a glass of wine now, surely?' And the host of the party said 'I'll order in chinese when we get to mine - their noodles are fantastic) afterwards. So I left quietly before I had to evade the awkward questions and offers of any more food.

I can't see any good reason to SS - I get on fine with 810ing - with a few small exceptions, I can't find meat that I would find acceptable to eat that is also allowed...ready packed chicken and turkey in the right sort of quanities is rarely organic or even remotely humane - and when you do find a humane source of white protein, most of them have dextrose and sugar or honey in the preparation. I may just have to go and get some organic chicken breasts and poach them and freeze them. Luckily I love love love cottage cheese, eh?

I don't have time to be mucking about with chick peas at the moment and I do not eat quorn or tofu.

 

[Cerulean]

Well - there we go - I upped my exercise! I walked 4.6 miles to the gym and the heath and back through Archway to my home. At the gym I did a 4.2k run (2.6 miles) so next week I'll be definitely up for trying a long slow 5k for my Sunday run. I was all red and sweaty so I walked up to the Ladies Pond and did 3 laps - which I believe is about 750m - and certainly based on the time I was in the pond and the speed I was swimming (bl**dy fast to warm up!) that's about the distance I'd expect to have done.

Then just wandered home gently...about 800 cals in exercise. I had a bit of extra protein so it was probably more like 1000 cals today but without carbs and a third pack instead. I rather like this way of eating. It's obviously not permanent...carbs will need to come back soon.

Still - a nice day off from everything after the stress of the play.

 

[puddy95]

Hi Cerulean

Hi, just wanted to say I think you have done fabulously well, I started 3 days ago, and tonight have read all your diary posts, thank you for being such an inspiration, Im so determined to do this and you have helped me look at the amazing progress to be made x

Laura

 

[Tall fat and greedy]

Really struggled with the metabolic typing questionnaire, did you find it hard to answer the questions or were they straight forward for you? I seem to end up as a mixed type which just comes over as very vague, as it means a mixture of the protein and carb diets, so I can't see how's that's going to help me! I might have to redo the questionnaire when I finish cd and see if the result is different...

 

[Cerulean]

TFG - you may need to talk to someone trained in it because this may mean that you have borked your type over the years (my friend had by eating low fat high carb for too long) It was very easy for me to answer and I came out 20 points ahead in protein. I thnk being mixed is cool - it just means you eat one way one day and the other the next whilst you're trying it out! Best of both worlds but not all the time!

 

[Cerulean]

I've lost 30% of me! The scales finally shifted by 2lbs overnight despite having about 4 times as much salad as I am supposed to have (still only 100 cals of salad, but still)

Body fat is finally creeping down towards the 20s, I am now a safe distance away from the 12s and I am less than 11st 12.

It's my official WI tonight for the first time in 3 weeks, so not a moment too soon!! My CWPC consultant is on holiday for the next 2 weeks so I will be buying 2 weeks of 810 packs and 1 week of 1000 packs (I do have 7 emergency packs in my home stocks anyway so if I want to 810 for any longer, that remains an option. But here we go...the beginning of the end!)

Also if you look at my BMI it is creeping now towards being under 27. Under 27 is where "I" feel healthy...never mind what the doctor says.

What a way to start a Monday - makes me determined to make this a blimmin' good week and a fantastic month!

Have a brilliant day/week/months everybody!

 

[Surfhunny]

Yay well done Sarah what a fab start to the week!! Are you finding the prospect of it all coming to an end daunting? It's why I never really made it past 810 the first time, I felt like I had to cut the apron strings with my CWPC and go on my own -fatal mistake!!! This time round I'm in it until the end no matter how scared I am! Well done again Hun!! Xx

 

[Tall fat and greedy]

Thanks, i am goin to have another read and thunk about what I am going to do..

30% wow! Amazing, well done, I hope you feel very proud of yourself not only for the weight loss but also for your personal journey which has been very humbling to read about.

 

[Cerulean]

Woah! It's August!

So yeah - Surfhunny asked me if I was scared about the beginning of the end. You know what, I am not scared, elated, excited, overjoyed to be eating and hey - even snacking a bit (albeit on radishes!) I have absolutely no feelings about food other than yeah, it's nice and yeah - there's a little bit around these days. This is a big change! It's WI day today and I will not be having anything other than my usual morning bar between now and 6pm (weigh in time). Like I usually do. I can take it or leave it and as it's been 3 weeks since my last proper WI, I choose to leave it. I could not be less bothered about the food. It's there. This time round I'm so busy, I have a life full of things that please me. A gret job with no residual stress, a busy creative life, less and less debt with each month that passes and I'm fighting fit and strong for the first time in my adult life. I look like a warrior on that treadmill (seriously, the tops of my shoulders have amazing muscle definition, I look like a pro from the waist up - shame about my wobbly thunderthighs and tummy )

This is in high contrast to the chocolate and icecream binge disasters that occurred in blind panic at the end of Lighter Life. What's the difference? Exercise. I really think it's been the slow but steady approach to exercise - long slow swimming, light jogging, long walks - and yeah, The Shred. I would have ditched the Shred if I had felt any ill effects. I did not (other than the actual pain of doing it!) I won't give advice on exercise to anyone on the forums any more as it is a personal choice, but I am tired of people quoting bad science at newbies. No you are not eating your body alive (well you are, but that's the whole bloody point of being on the diet!) once you are fully in ketosis and have had a couple of weeks to adjust, your body is perfectly capable of eating fat, it knows damn well to leave your muscle mass alone. On Lighter Life I LOST muscle mass from NOT exercising consistently (although there is also a school of thought that says if you lose half your body weight you will lose muscle as you aren't carrying a 100lb weight around with you all day every day any more) - on Cambridge doing a good 30-40 mins every other day I have BUILT muscle mass. Get moving. Do what feels good for you. Try a class (have a quiet word with the instructor and ask if you can just step it through if you're nervous about overworking - if the instructor is uncooperative, leave the class and have a word with the gym who hires them in) - go for a little walk. Anything other than sitting around waiting until the diet is over. I'm going to finish this diet able to run 5ks and do 40 full press-ups…yeah, I've totally been eating my body alive. I've just wasted away, clearly...

But that's all irrelevant now as I am 810/1000(no simple carbs) so EXERCISE AHOY!!!

I swam 10 miles in July! I ran more than a marathon! This month will be the same for swimming and running with the added joy of Shredding. Tonight will be my first night back on The Shred (it'll be easier this time as I have 2 more free nights a week!)

I shall be Shredding up to the 30th August. I have taken my start measurements, by 30th August I plan to be a 36-27-37 (M&S 12 on top and 10 on the bottom) I'd also like to lose 12lbs by the end of the month so that I am in the 10s - but hey - I know I'll lose those inches under Jillian's guidance.

 

[CheeseGirl]

At the risk of having my body eat itself alive I started the shred this morning (moved up a fraction to ss+ as well)... a question for you Sarah, if you don't mind: did you do the shred wearing trainers? I was barefoot this morning and it doesn't really seem to make a difference at least at level 1, I just don't want to get my lovely mat (not to mention expensive carpet) all grunged up...

 

[Cerulean]

At the risk of having my body eat itself alive I started the shred this morning (moved up a fraction to ss+ as well)... a question for you Sarah, if you don't mind: did you do the shred wearing trainers? I was barefoot this morning and it doesn't really seem to make a difference at least at level 1, I just don't want to get my lovely mat (not to mention expensive carpet) all grunged up...

I do wear trainers (you will see that sometimes they fall off) I have laminate floors and i only wear my running trainers inside at the moment so i don't have gunge issues!!!

 

[CheeseGirl]

Thanks Sarah! I think I do have some trainers somewhere that haven't seen the outdoors, may try to find later...