Hi all,
I just want to say a big big sorry to everyone for being away. I really am sorry for letting you all down. Never intended to be away so long. Just started with being ridiculously busy over the festive period, and only managed to get on minis once or twice since.
Needless to say, my diet went down the pan. I gave myself the holidays off completely….no plan……no counting. I knew I’d just pick it up again after xmas and was prepared to just face the consequences. But, holidays went on way longer than they should have, it turned into that whole ‘one last meal/pudding/night out’ etc…..Then I was just too mortally embarrassed to come back. I did jot on my diary once to try to kick self up the bum, but that failed. So I am back, tail between legs….and a good few pounds heavier. I was 10st2lb before xmas, had gained a bit when trying to work up plans, and at last weeks WI on Wed. I was a very shameful 10st 11lb. I’m not a happy bunny, and still struggling to curb my nibbles. But really want to. I had begun to really enjoy eating healthy, and felt so much better for it. Just need to get over that first few days, and get my head back in the right place again.
I am cheating a bit because I am trying (and failing) to SS, I can’t be bothered to go round the long route, I just want to shift the excess, then get back to learning to maintain, which is way harder than this, in its own way, and what I need to be focused on.
Another sorry coming up, because I have decided I do not wish to be team leader anymore. Please don’t take offence guys, but realistically, I was struggling to keep up with it anyway before this. I had started a diary on maintenance, and being honest… it had just come to the time where that was where my focus needed to lie, to help me understand the process, learn from others, and try my hardest to keep this weight off. That is not to say I wish to abandon the team altogether. There is no way I would have got so far without your support, all you butterfly chasers have been my lifeline! So, I would still like to catch up with you guys, if that’s ok with you. So if a new person, just at the start of CD needs support of a team, they can ‘take’ my place if we are still sticking to the 6 members rule, as I have little to add to any losses at the moment..! But if you don’t mind, could I still lurk as an unofficial member, I’d love to see you all get closer to your goals. Which I am just sure will happen soon. One of the reasons I think our team has lasted so long is that we are a stubborn minded lot when we want to be!! (no offence intended!)
I am waffling now, so will disappear for a bit. I hope you are all well and doing ok in the New Year, and had a good Xmas too! Haven’t had chance to read all the posts yet…I will endeavour to catch up.
Heres trying for an SS 100% day tomorrow. Its so much harder it seems to get back to it, once you’ve had a taste of food! I have recently discovered the ‘FOOD DOCTOR’ range of foods. The grain/cereal mix they do is actually quite nice, very low GI and low fat. Looking foreward to getting to the point where I can learn about ‘new’ food combinations again. Did anyone else blowout? Incidentally, don’t you just feel like poo when you eat rubbish food, shocking that it was the ‘norm’ for so long.
Bye for today, will pop on tomorrow night. xx