Hey guys! Thanks so much for the messages. It's lovely knowing you care
I'm ok. So very very tired, but ok. Think I managed about 5hrs sleep last night. Didn't fall asleep for ages, worrying about various things. I remember explaining to a counsellor what happens when I try to get to sleep and all the horrible thoughts run through my head. Apparently it's called catastrophising! My latest train of thought is Ellie. I'm worried about this lump under her eye now. I wasn't, but I am now. It probably really is just a fatty lump. But it's right under her eye, like where your eye bags are lol. And it seems to be getting bigger! So of course last night my brain ran through all kinds of scenarios and obv lead to her dying
Anyway, I spoke to my vet friend today who, luckily enough, is working this weekend with me. she's asked me to bring her in and we're going to do a test where you take a teeny sample through a needle and spray it on to a microscope slide. And she's also going to try and ultrasound it. Ellie's SUCH a good dog, you could literally do anything to her. But there's the choice of sedation too if it's needed. I just
I know she's old and she has this really serious condition (Cushings), but she's MY dog! I adopted her when I turned 18. I wanted a dog I could train and stuff and our old dog was too old and stubborn
So my Mum said when I turned 18 and had a job I could get a dog. So after we got back from Lanzarote for my 18th I got a job in Pet World and adopted Ellie from Dogs Trust. Hrmph! it's SO hard when it's your own dog.
But, realistically, she'll be fine and it prob is just a fatty lump and even if it does need taking out it'll be a quick 20min anaesthetic. But, well, you know... Argh!
Work was really stupid today. it was a preventive day, so we had the whole ops diary booked out for neutering. Quite a few people didn't show or cancelled, but we had emergency after emergency just piling in! I did get just over an hour to finish an assignment though, which was lucky! I think the pain one is finally done. I just want to add a picture of a hospital sheet then I'm done. I have to study for an exam and make a first aid leaflet. Bloody leaflet!!!!!!!
It looks like Mum might have a chest infection too. She was coughing a bit yday, but is really ill today. My Sister's going to take her to see her Dr in the morning. I bet it's from the anaesthesia! But yeah, she's not good today. And her hand is SO painful, esp now the nerve blockers have worn off
I did have a nice evening though. I picked my friends up and we went to see Mama. God I love Guillermo Del Toro's stuff. He's one of my favourite directors! His horror stuff is so beautiful and haunting. And they're really clever too! Where he finds these creepy kids I've no idea! One of my friends, my adventure buddy, is as much of a horror fan as I am, but she was petrified! You know when something just freaks you out for whatever reason? She got lower and lower in her seat, her jacket got further up to her face, and at one point she was almost crouched on the seat with her hands over her mouth!! Me and Caz were looking at each other like "wtf?!" lol! I found it creepy, but it does take a lot to genuinely scare me.
I dropped Michelle home and stopped at Sainsbury's on the way home to check for stuff I need for the holiday being on offer. I got 2 boxes of Nature Valley bars, 5 packs of Bear fruit Yoyo's, 2 bars of Green and Blacks (a coffee one and a fruit & nut one, both dark chocolate!), a new toothbrush, and some surf boards (sanitary towels/undies liners lol) We have all our food provided, but it does recommend you bring some snacky stuff for the tours. Think I'm sorted
I used to LOVE Nature Valley's before SW made me give them up. See, I bet I will be the only person ever to come back from arctic having put weight on