Cheekychinchilla's food and stuff
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OddSock
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Longleat sounds amazing! Really glad you had such a good time there, especially after the nightmare journey. I know it was really stressful, but it's ace that you did it, definitely something to be proud of! Always wanted to go to Bath, I love ancient Roman history. Hope you have a great time in Anglesey! Xx
Barbette
Gold Member
Sounds like you had a wonderful time apart from the nightmare driving. You wouldn't like the outskirts of leeds then they're all country roads, they are scary at first but I'm used to them now. And it sounds like the rest of your week is going to be amazing too, Anglesey is one of my favourites places ever.
You'll need a week's rest to recover but will be so worth it
x x x
You'll need a week's rest to recover but will be so worth it
x x x
Tetris
Gold Member
Longleat sounds amazing! Totally want to go there now I love when you can stroke stingrays and I LOVE drive through safaris!! Must make a trip there some time...
Sorry that the driving was so stressful told you already I think you're mad to agree to that when ill crazy bugger! But glad you had a good time apart from the driving.
Hehe- I nearly wet myself laughing at the Honda Civic bit of that video, SO random but happens to be G's car and it's SO him to have bought 'a car you can trust!' as they sing LOL... Just SUCH a random video
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I love when you can stroke stingrays and I LOVE drive through safaris!! Must make a trip there some time...Sorry that the driving was so stressful
told you already I think you're mad to agree to that when ill crazy bugger! But glad you had a good time apart from the driving.Hehe- I nearly wet myself laughing at the Honda Civic bit of that video, SO random but happens to be G's car and it's SO him to have bought 'a car you can trust!' as they sing LOL... Just SUCH a random video
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cheekychinchilla
Gold Member
Hey guys!
How's everyone doing?
My travels are done - for now! We had a nice day in Chester on Saturday (I only drove to Liverpool city centre and we got the train from there!) Although we didn't get anything any of us went for, lunch was terrible, and we ended up drowning our sorrows in coffee and cake at Patisserie Valerie Was nice to have a kinda girly day out tho
The drive to Anglesey wasn't bad at all. Wiltshire taught me well! I honestly think I have picked up some excellent driving skills and that it's made me a better driver - I really do. And I'm so not a show off, but I can honestly say I've been driving even better. I think it was so bad, nit just because I'm ill, but because I've only had my licence just a year this month and only had my car since January. The furthest I'd been was Manchester! So not bad going when you think of it like that
But yeah, the drive to Anglesey was super easy compared to last week! We didn't even bother stopping.
We left ours about 10:30/11 and got to Beaumaris around 1:30 I think. We checked in at the hotel and went for a nose round the town and some lunch - Welsh rarebit
My God it was FREEZING and so windy! BBC weather lied We had a walk along the front/beach and my ears were ringing and really painful inside - that didn't even happen in the f*cking Arctic!! LOL. But it's such a pretty village and they have a castle
Obviously being so cold meant that we had to go to the award winning ice cream parlour. I love hot coffee with my ice cream I got mint chocolate chip (an old favourite) and Devon toffee. OMG it was amazing! Such a nice place and the ice cream really was incredible
We went back to the hotel for a bit to relax and read. Hotel was a bit of a let down! So glad we got it cheap! If we'd had to pay the normal £100 per room per night there I would have actually cried!! But it was just about ok for what we paid for it - just!
We had another walk round the town and then went for tea in this little old man's pub. The food was SO nice!! And my veggie lasagne was home made - not a ready meal I did, however, burn my lip on the hottest cheese in the galaxy! It's so bad that it's actually split my lip! I look like I've been punched in the mouth Some f*cking hot cheese that lol! It came with the most bizarre, elaborate side salad too. It was lettuce, cucumber, tomatoes, celery (bluerg!), peppers, sweetcorn, and slices of melon and grapefruit! And it came with a nice bowl of chips too! i expected it to be rubbish, so ordered some garlic bread too - even this was home made! A nice, soft, crusty baguette with a light garlic butter. Om nom!! No dessert today Well considering the cheese and ice cream I'd eaten....
I did have one of the snacks from my Graze box back at the hotel later on - giant chocolate buttons, raisins, and orange soaked raisins.
Didn't sleep very well though and woke up a billion times. The room was looking out over the high street and the windows were old and might as well have not been there. By 6am it was SO noisy I might as well have been sleeping in the middle of the bloody road! Was SO tired!
I was that tired and my head so bad I had to take one of the new meds, then some pain killers, and couldn't finish my breakfast coz I felt so nauseous The scrambled eggs were nice tho
We packed up the car, but they let us leave it at the hotel/pub, and went to explore the castle. We were there probably over 2hrs! You could climb all over the thing and walk through the corridors on various levels, and up on the top of the walls. A bit scary considering how stupidly windy it was lol. But it was loads of fun and there was a small exhibition on the history of the castle and the king who built it. And a little hut where you could watch some animations about the stories and myths of the area It was really cool and well worth the £4. Mum managed quite well as well!
We tried to go to the famous tea rooms, but they were fully booked and we couldn't really wait. So went to a few shops then got the car.
We went to an animal place called Pili Palas (totally a kids place!) that's a bit like Tropical World in Leeds. Ok, it wasn't as good as Tropical World, which I LOVE But it was fun and we got a few hours out of it. Butterfly house, birds, snakes, lizards, meerkats, bugs, reptiles, bunnies, guinea's, pigs, a goat, and some alpaca's We even went along the freezing cold nature walk and found the bird watching hut - loads of small birds like finches, sparrows, tits (haha), etc...
And the cafe was nice too!
Then we went to Bangor. And I'm sorry if this offends anyone, but what a sh*t hole that place is. I mean, seriously!! It was so grotty and scummy and just generally horrible. The nicest bits were the cathedral and the bible gardens - they were lovely. But everywhere else was just, well, scabby! We paid for 3hrs of parking and got back in the car after 1! We stuck the pier in the satnav tho and went to find that, which was actually really nice. None of the shops or cafe were open, but it's a nice pier and a nice long walk. It is the windiest place on earth tho and how we didn't get blown off and drown I dunno There was even a crazy fisherman lol. It was great tho coz it went almost to the other side of the Menai Straights and you could see the headland that Beaumaris (where we stayed) sits behind and Puffin island. And the other way you could see the Menai bridge
We drove most of the way back before we decided to miss the traffic and go have a coffee instead. Stopped at Asda too and got a few bits and some chips and bbq beans to go with the pasty's we'd bought from the local baker that morning
I've done pretty much bugger all today! Cleaned and fed the bunnies and I did de-poo half the garden. But that's about it Have been catching up on my emails and writing some Trip Advisor reviews. Have gotten a bit review-happy
Hope you're all doing ok xx
How's everyone doing?
My travels are done - for now! We had a nice day in Chester on Saturday (I only drove to Liverpool city centre and we got the train from there!) Although we didn't get anything any of us went for, lunch was terrible, and we ended up drowning our sorrows in coffee and cake at Patisserie Valerie
Was nice to have a kinda girly day out tho The drive to Anglesey wasn't bad at all. Wiltshire taught me well! I honestly think I have picked up some excellent driving skills and that it's made me a better driver - I really do. And I'm so not a show off, but I can honestly say I've been driving even better. I think it was so bad, nit just because I'm ill, but because I've only had my licence just a year this month and only had my car since January. The furthest I'd been was Manchester! So not bad going when you think of it like that
But yeah, the drive to Anglesey was super easy compared to last week! We didn't even bother stopping.
We left ours about 10:30/11 and got to Beaumaris around 1:30 I think. We checked in at the hotel and went for a nose round the town and some lunch - Welsh rarebit
My God it was FREEZING and so windy! BBC weather lied
We had a walk along the front/beach and my ears were ringing and really painful inside - that didn't even happen in the f*cking Arctic!! LOL. But it's such a pretty village and they have a castle Obviously being so cold meant that we had to go to the award winning ice cream parlour. I love hot coffee with my ice cream
I got mint chocolate chip (an old favourite) and Devon toffee. OMG it was amazing! Such a nice place and the ice cream really was incredible We went back to the hotel for a bit to relax and read. Hotel was a bit of a let down! So glad we got it cheap! If we'd had to pay the normal £100 per room per night there I would have actually cried!! But it was just about ok for what we paid for it - just!
We had another walk round the town and then went for tea in this little old man's pub. The food was SO nice!! And my veggie lasagne was home made - not a ready meal
I did, however, burn my lip on the hottest cheese in the galaxy! It's so bad that it's actually split my lip! I look like I've been punched in the mouth Some f*cking hot cheese that lol! It came with the most bizarre, elaborate side salad too. It was lettuce, cucumber, tomatoes, celery (bluerg!), peppers, sweetcorn, and slices of melon and grapefruit! And it came with a nice bowl of chips too! i expected it to be rubbish, so ordered some garlic bread too - even this was home made! A nice, soft, crusty baguette with a light garlic butter. Om nom!! No dessert today Well considering the cheese and ice cream I'd eaten....I did have one of the snacks from my Graze box back at the hotel later on - giant chocolate buttons, raisins, and orange soaked raisins.
Didn't sleep very well though and woke up a billion times. The room was looking out over the high street and the windows were old and might as well have not been there. By 6am it was SO noisy I might as well have been sleeping in the middle of the bloody road! Was SO tired!
I was that tired and my head so bad I had to take one of the new meds, then some pain killers, and couldn't finish my breakfast coz I felt so nauseous
The scrambled eggs were nice tho We packed up the car, but they let us leave it at the hotel/pub, and went to explore the castle. We were there probably over 2hrs! You could climb all over the thing and walk through the corridors on various levels, and up on the top of the walls. A bit scary considering how stupidly windy it was lol. But it was loads of fun and there was a small exhibition on the history of the castle and the king who built it. And a little hut where you could watch some animations about the stories and myths of the area
It was really cool and well worth the £4. Mum managed quite well as well!We tried to go to the famous tea rooms, but they were fully booked and we couldn't really wait. So went to a few shops then got the car.
We went to an animal place called Pili Palas (totally a kids place!) that's a bit like Tropical World in Leeds. Ok, it wasn't as good as Tropical World, which I LOVE
But it was fun and we got a few hours out of it. Butterfly house, birds, snakes, lizards, meerkats, bugs, reptiles, bunnies, guinea's, pigs, a goat, and some alpaca's We even went along the freezing cold nature walk and found the bird watching hut - loads of small birds like finches, sparrows, tits (haha), etc...And the cafe was nice too!
Then we went to Bangor. And I'm sorry if this offends anyone, but what a sh*t hole that place is. I mean, seriously!! It was so grotty and scummy and just generally horrible. The nicest bits were the cathedral and the bible gardens - they were lovely. But everywhere else was just, well, scabby! We paid for 3hrs of parking and got back in the car after 1! We stuck the pier in the satnav tho and went to find that, which was actually really nice. None of the shops or cafe were open, but it's a nice pier and a nice long walk. It is the windiest place on earth tho and how we didn't get blown off and drown I dunno
There was even a crazy fisherman lol. It was great tho coz it went almost to the other side of the Menai Straights and you could see the headland that Beaumaris (where we stayed) sits behind and Puffin island. And the other way you could see the Menai bridge We drove most of the way back before we decided to miss the traffic and go have a coffee instead. Stopped at Asda too and got a few bits and some chips and bbq beans to go with the pasty's we'd bought from the local baker that morning
I've done pretty much bugger all today! Cleaned and fed the bunnies and I did de-poo half the garden. But that's about it
Have been catching up on my emails and writing some Trip Advisor reviews. Have gotten a bit review-happy Hope you're all doing ok
xx
cheekychinchilla
Gold Member
A non-holiday update...
I think the meds are having a bit of an affect now! I've noticed that I feel much clearer and less fuzzy/foggy when I take them. They take the edge off the pain a little and seem to "open the way" for regular painkillers to get through. The pain still never, ever goes away, but on some days it's been a little better. I'll take a little better right now!
They've also helped with the light sensitivity and blurry eyes. It was so bad last week I was wearing my glasses so much - I'm only supposed to wear them when I really need them, when I'm tired and reading/using the laptop a lot. But last week was ridiculous and I even had to wear them at the cinema! I hadn't realised until last week just how bad my vision had gotten - assuming because of the pain and pressure and general 'fog'. It's a relief that the meds have helped with that, but I am still going to book an eye test just to double check. I've had some basic eye exams done right from the start of mystery illness tho and all been fine.
But yeah, they're helping a bit Like yesterday in Asda the lights only started getting to me until we were at the checkouts. Usually as soon as I step in to somewhere like that my eyes go blurry, my ears roar, the pain in my head is insane, and there's a HUGE pressure pushing on my head. I can't explain just how much of a miracle it felt to not have that until we'd been in there a while.
They seem to stay in my system a little bit too, especially if I've taken them for 2 or 3 days in a row. I took one Tuesday and Wednesday, but didn't feel the need for one on Thursday even though that was the day I drove to Wales!
so that's hopeful and I have an appointment with my GP on Monday. Hoping he will up me to the 5mg dose (he said he might) as I need 2 days/doses before they have an effect. So if I take the 5mg instead, it should mean I'll get some relief that day. Right?!
Right, its really hit me how much weight I've been putting on I tried some of my favourite clothes on from last winter and they don't fit!!! So yeah, this has got to stop. I need to be back on SW much, much more than I have been. Some days I know I'm not going to be able to control my appetite, but I need to try much harder on the days that I can. I can't grow out of my clothes because I have no bloody money. And I worked too hard to get this far with SW and I don't want to ruin it all.
So, less making excuses and blaming mystery illness. I've wallowed long enough and have rested as much as humanely possible.
This weekend I will be eating SW meals, but 'using up' some of the naughty things I have lying around. I do have a lot of low syn treats too tho, so they'll help. But from Monday I will be starting my "F*ck you Mystery Illness! I want my life back" month. I'm going to eat much better and stick to SW as much as I possibly can. I'm going to try and walk the dogs more often - even if it is just 10mins each at a time! And I'm going to try and do things when I can and build up my confidence and stamina again. Just little things at a time.
I really want to go back to work soon and these new meds might be a good way of helping me do that. But I need to do some stuff to get me ready mentally too.
So yeah, lets get "me" back eh? xx
I think the meds are having a bit of an affect now! I've noticed that I feel much clearer and less fuzzy/foggy when I take them. They take the edge off the pain a little and seem to "open the way" for regular painkillers to get through. The pain still never, ever goes away, but on some days it's been a little better. I'll take a little better right now!
They've also helped with the light sensitivity and blurry eyes. It was so bad last week I was wearing my glasses so much - I'm only supposed to wear them when I really need them, when I'm tired and reading/using the laptop a lot. But last week was ridiculous and I even had to wear them at the cinema! I hadn't realised until last week just how bad my vision had gotten - assuming because of the pain and pressure and general 'fog'. It's a relief that the meds have helped with that, but I am still going to book an eye test just to double check. I've had some basic eye exams done right from the start of mystery illness tho and all been fine.
But yeah, they're helping a bit
Like yesterday in Asda the lights only started getting to me until we were at the checkouts. Usually as soon as I step in to somewhere like that my eyes go blurry, my ears roar, the pain in my head is insane, and there's a HUGE pressure pushing on my head. I can't explain just how much of a miracle it felt to not have that until we'd been in there a while.They seem to stay in my system a little bit too, especially if I've taken them for 2 or 3 days in a row. I took one Tuesday and Wednesday, but didn't feel the need for one on Thursday even though that was the day I drove to Wales!
so that's hopeful and I have an appointment with my GP on Monday. Hoping he will up me to the 5mg dose (he said he might) as I need 2 days/doses before they have an effect. So if I take the 5mg instead, it should mean I'll get some relief that day. Right?!
Right, its really hit me how much weight I've been putting on
I tried some of my favourite clothes on from last winter and they don't fit!!! So yeah, this has got to stop. I need to be back on SW much, much more than I have been. Some days I know I'm not going to be able to control my appetite, but I need to try much harder on the days that I can. I can't grow out of my clothes because I have no bloody money. And I worked too hard to get this far with SW and I don't want to ruin it all.So, less making excuses and blaming mystery illness. I've wallowed long enough and have rested as much as humanely possible.
This weekend I will be eating SW meals, but 'using up' some of the naughty things I have lying around. I do have a lot of low syn treats too tho, so they'll help. But from Monday I will be starting my "F*ck you Mystery Illness! I want my life back" month. I'm going to eat much better and stick to SW as much as I possibly can. I'm going to try and walk the dogs more often - even if it is just 10mins each at a time! And I'm going to try and do things when I can and build up my confidence and stamina again. Just little things at a time.
I really want to go back to work soon and these new meds might be a good way of helping me do that. But I need to do some stuff to get me ready mentally too.
So yeah, lets get "me" back eh?
xx
Barbette
Gold Member
I'm so glad you've had a good week, I love Beaumaris and Chester both beautiful places. Glad the ride there was better this week too. You sound as though you've recharged your batteries and had time to relax a little
Also good to hear the meds are having some positive effects, I would ask your doctor to up the dose if it's going to make your life a little easier.
And lastly, go Girl!! I love the positive attitude, I'm sure it will get you through the tough times and see you through to the good ones x x x
Also good to hear the meds are having some positive effects, I would ask your doctor to up the dose if it's going to make your life a little easier.
And lastly, go Girl!! I love the positive attitude, I'm sure it will get you through the tough times and see you through to the good ones x x x
cheekychinchilla
Gold Member
I think I've finally reached the "I've had enough" and "stubborn moose" phase. This can't carry on, I need my life back, and I need to be earning money again! So will give it a go and see where it leads
I'm glad we went to Beaumaris. Such a lovely place! Just wouldn't stay at that hotel again. The one we almost stayed at looked stunning! Never mind. Did you go to the ice cream shop when you were there? Don't know how long ago you went vegan
I think I will ask to up the dose of the migraine meds. It should mean I get a quicker affect and a longer lasting one too. makes sense coz then I wouldn't have to take them so much. But, really I only want them for days I really need them - like if I was back in work (I work 19hrs a week if I'm not doing a weekend) or if I have a day out or something fun planned. So not all the time. some days I will just put up with it and rest xx
I'm glad we went to Beaumaris. Such a lovely place! Just wouldn't stay at that hotel again. The one we almost stayed at looked stunning! Never mind. Did you go to the ice cream shop when you were there? Don't know how long ago you went vegan
I think I will ask to up the dose of the migraine meds. It should mean I get a quicker affect and a longer lasting one too. makes sense coz then I wouldn't have to take them so much. But, really I only want them for days I really need them - like if I was back in work (I work 19hrs a week if I'm not doing a weekend) or if I have a day out or something fun planned. So not all the time. some days I will just put up with it and rest
xx
cheekychinchilla
Gold Member
Hey guys!
I had a proper, complete 100% SW day today 8 Syns and all my Hex's. Can't even explain how good that feels
The friend me and Michelle met in Sweden is coming to visit tomorrow and we're doing lunch, coffee, cake, etc... But I'm not going to let it be a binge or let it carry on over to Wednesday. The excuses and stuff have to stop! I'm feeling pretty positive about it though and I think apart from tomorrow it should hopefully be a good week.
I made a picnic for Michelle today as I was meeting her at the house she's dog sitting at after having a really horrible hospital procedure (well, sort of, they couldn't do it in full so she has to do it all over again) But, anyway, I knew she wouldn't have any food and she had to starve for over 24hrs too. So I nipped to Morrison's and bought stuff to make her ham (real ham, coz I'm THAT nice!) and cheese submarine rolls, a big bag of cheesy balls crisps, a pack of Gooey cookies, a Maltesers Reindeer, and a caramel hot chocolate sachet. Seriously, how good am I?!
BUT, the most important bit, I had my own low syn lunch - egg mayo and free Quorn sausage butties - and absolutely NONE of the junk I'd bought Michelle :innocent0002:
I had to leave her for a few hours coz I had my flu jab and GP appointment. Flu jab went fine and I honestly didn't feel a thing! Best nurse ever! I mean, injections don't bother me at all, but you can usually feel it. But nope, nothing! Saw my GP and he's given me the larger dose and put them on repeat. He said they shouldn't be having an affect or working, but seen as they are then I can have them lol. The whole thing's a mystery, it really is! He checked the last letter from the hospital and they did say they were trying to bump the endocrine appointment. I asked him about the letter I got from work asking me to sign consent for them to get a medical report, he said to go ahead with it and request to see it before my work get it. But it's just stuff I've been telling them anyway and might help them to see official reports of all the absolute sh*t I've been through over this!! So I'll sign that and send it this week.
He also said if I give the new meds time and I do start feeling like I can go to work he will ok it. But only if I'm really sure, have a phased return, and that I'm as certain as I can be that I'm ok to go back. I know I wont know till I try, but I understand what he was saying about it being worse if I go back too soon and end up off sick again in a few weeks. It's tough to know when is right tho! Will give these new meds a good try and send this form off and then go from there.
I REALLY want to be back before the end of this year tho.
Had tea and took Mum and Michelle to the cinema to see Prisoners - which I absolutely loved!! It is quite slow, but I found it pretty gripping and tense and a similar pace/plot style as a lot of foreign horror/thrillers I watch, so I guess I'm used to that.
NO snacks at the cinema!!!
Anyway, I'd better get my ass to bed seen as I have to be up early. Noooooo Should be a good day tho!
Thank you for the supportive posts guys.xx
I had a proper, complete 100% SW day today
8 Syns and all my Hex's. Can't even explain how good that feels The friend me and Michelle met in Sweden is coming to visit tomorrow and we're doing lunch, coffee, cake, etc... But I'm not going to let it be a binge or let it carry on over to Wednesday. The excuses and stuff have to stop! I'm feeling pretty positive about it though and I think apart from tomorrow it should hopefully be a good week.
I made a picnic for Michelle today as I was meeting her at the house she's dog sitting at after having a really horrible hospital procedure (well, sort of, they couldn't do it in full so she has to do it all over again
) But, anyway, I knew she wouldn't have any food and she had to starve for over 24hrs too. So I nipped to Morrison's and bought stuff to make her ham (real ham, coz I'm THAT nice!) and cheese submarine rolls, a big bag of cheesy balls crisps, a pack of Gooey cookies, a Maltesers Reindeer, and a caramel hot chocolate sachet. Seriously, how good am I?!BUT, the most important bit, I had my own low syn lunch - egg mayo and free Quorn sausage butties - and absolutely NONE of the junk I'd bought Michelle
:innocent0002:I had to leave her for a few hours coz I had my flu jab and GP appointment. Flu jab went fine and I honestly didn't feel a thing! Best nurse ever! I mean, injections don't bother me at all, but you can usually feel it. But nope, nothing! Saw my GP and he's given me the larger dose and put them on repeat. He said they shouldn't be having an affect or working, but seen as they are then I can have them lol. The whole thing's a mystery, it really is! He checked the last letter from the hospital and they did say they were trying to bump the endocrine appointment. I asked him about the letter I got from work asking me to sign consent for them to get a medical report, he said to go ahead with it and request to see it before my work get it. But it's just stuff I've been telling them anyway and might help them to see official reports of all the absolute sh*t I've been through over this!! So I'll sign that and send it this week.
He also said if I give the new meds time and I do start feeling like I can go to work he will ok it. But only if I'm really sure, have a phased return, and that I'm as certain as I can be that I'm ok to go back. I know I wont know till I try, but I understand what he was saying about it being worse if I go back too soon and end up off sick again in a few weeks. It's tough to know when is right tho! Will give these new meds a good try and send this form off and then go from there.
I REALLY want to be back before the end of this year tho.
Had tea and took Mum and Michelle to the cinema to see Prisoners - which I absolutely loved!! It is quite slow, but I found it pretty gripping and tense and a similar pace/plot style as a lot of foreign horror/thrillers I watch, so I guess I'm used to that.
NO snacks at the cinema!!!
Anyway, I'd better get my ass to bed seen as I have to be up early. Noooooo
Should be a good day tho!Thank you for the supportive posts guys.xx
Tetris
Gold Member
No cinema snacks? OMG! You are my idol! The cinema is my one vice, I have to constantly stuff myself (with grapes or whatever) so well done!! I couldnt go snack free if I was tied down!
And amazing that you brought your friend gooey cookies etc and stuck to healthy stuff- wow! Ballsy!
Are you aiming for a full 100% week? I think you can do it sounds like you are super motivated at the moment!
I really really wish you luck with the meds, I can feel your hurt through the interwebz, must be horrific to have had to pause your life for so long. Why did he not think these meds wouls work then? Such a mystery
And amazing that you brought your friend gooey cookies etc and stuck to healthy stuff- wow! Ballsy!
Are you aiming for a full 100% week? I think you can do it
sounds like you are super motivated at the moment!I really really wish you luck with the meds, I can feel your hurt through the interwebz, must be horrific to have had to pause your life for so long. Why did he not think these meds wouls work then? Such a mystery
cheekychinchilla
Gold Member
Will do a proper update tomorrow. But I just emailed John to basically say that I really can't cope with a relationship right now and that, if he'd like, we should just be friends. I just can't do it. I'm making myself more ill with stress and anxiety and it's not fair on either of us! Feel absolutely awful about it tho
Had a good day with visiting adventure buddy tho. Not good food wise, but I knew it wouldn't be. But it's done and back to it tomorrow She made us brownies And we ate out and had coffee's and stuff. A shame it was at the start of me being good again, but it's been planned for over a month and it doesn't really matter. One day at a time and all that
Talk to you all tomorrow. Thanks for the messages guys.xx
Had a good day with visiting adventure buddy tho. Not good food wise, but I knew it wouldn't be. But it's done and back to it tomorrow
She made us brownies And we ate out and had coffee's and stuff. A shame it was at the start of me being good again, but it's been planned for over a month and it doesn't really matter. One day at a time and all that Talk to you all tomorrow. Thanks for the messages guys.xx
gossamersquare
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You enjoyed yourselves that's all that counts xx
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Barbette
Gold Member
So sorry to hear you're calling it a day with John, but it isn't fair to either of you if it's causing you stress and you're calling off dates. I'm sure he will understand, he's seen what you've been through. You've got to do what is best for you x x x
And don't worry about the naughty food you had, like you said you had it planned for ages and you can't put your life on hold for a diet, one day won't do you any harm x x x
And don't worry about the naughty food you had, like you said you had it planned for ages and you can't put your life on hold for a diet, one day won't do you any harm x x x
cheekychinchilla
Gold Member
Hey guys!
Thanks for the messages The emails we're sending to each other are looking hopeful at becoming friends, at least for now. It might even be easier to be friends for a while and things might happen a bit more naturally, rather than me thinking "I should be doing this" or "I should be feeling like this". I just can't do a relationship right now. I think there could be a chance in the future and my friends seem to think so. I just can't be certain and I have way too much going on to be worrying about all this crap. I'm always nervous and anxious when I meet someone, but this has gotten so bad that I feel sick and dread seeing him and rejecting him. Some days that's the reason I can't eat And that's not right and in now way good for me!!
So yeah, it looks like we may try. But I'll leave it up to him. I know his feelings are really clear and he really likes me, whereas I'm unsure. So I guess it's whether he can cope with just friends or not.
Anyway, stressy crap aside I have had a 100% SW day! And that included another cinema trip I did take a Danio with me this time, so don't worry too much Tetris Btw, Danio's, are they smaller than they were say a month ago?!!
But yeah, I've had half a HexA (but I did have the yogurt too) and will have both HexB's. And 5.5 syns
Actually, might re-start my food diary now. Hoping to make it 100% for the rest of the week and might help me focus Just watching some David Attenborough - my absolute hero! And the only time I've been truly star struck
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Thanks for the messages
The emails we're sending to each other are looking hopeful at becoming friends, at least for now. It might even be easier to be friends for a while and things might happen a bit more naturally, rather than me thinking "I should be doing this" or "I should be feeling like this". I just can't do a relationship right now. I think there could be a chance in the future and my friends seem to think so. I just can't be certain and I have way too much going on to be worrying about all this crap. I'm always nervous and anxious when I meet someone, but this has gotten so bad that I feel sick and dread seeing him and rejecting him. Some days that's the reason I can't eat And that's not right and in now way good for me!!So yeah, it looks like we may try. But I'll leave it up to him. I know his feelings are really clear and he really likes me, whereas I'm unsure. So I guess it's whether he can cope with just friends or not.
Anyway, stressy crap aside I have had a 100% SW day! And that included another cinema trip
I did take a Danio with me this time, so don't worry too much Tetris Btw, Danio's, are they smaller than they were say a month ago?!!But yeah, I've had half a HexA (but I did have the yogurt too) and will have both HexB's. And 5.5 syns
Actually, might re-start my food diary now. Hoping to make it 100% for the rest of the week and might help me focus
Just watching some David Attenborough - my absolute hero! And the only time I've been truly star struck x
cheekychinchilla
Gold Member
Wednesday:
Lunch: 2 free Quorn sausages
Cheesy scrambled eggs (half HexA1)
Crispy potatoes
Half a tin of spaghetti
Wholemeal toast (HexB1)
And tomato sauce (1)
Cinema: A passion fruit Danio (1.5)
Tea: Low fat Supernoodles.
Quron pieces cooked with onion, peppers, mushrooms, green beans, spices, and hot sauce.
Salad and super low cal dressing.
Snack: Chewy Delight (HexB2)
1 Hotel Chocolat (3)
Drinks: Coffee. Diet Coke. Squash.
Syns used: 5.5
Syns saved: 9.5
Exercise: Around 40mins dog walking - 20mins per dog Not bad that for me at the moment!!
Lunch: 2 free Quorn sausages
Cheesy scrambled eggs (half HexA1)
Crispy potatoes
Half a tin of spaghetti
Wholemeal toast (HexB1)
And tomato sauce (1)
Cinema: A passion fruit Danio (1.5)
Tea: Low fat Supernoodles.
Quron pieces cooked with onion, peppers, mushrooms, green beans, spices, and hot sauce.
Salad and super low cal dressing.
Snack: Chewy Delight (HexB2)
1 Hotel Chocolat (3)
Drinks: Coffee. Diet Coke. Squash.
Syns used: 5.5
Syns saved: 9.5
Exercise: Around 40mins dog walking - 20mins per dog
Not bad that for me at the moment!!
cheekychinchilla
Gold Member
Hrmph! Got a really long (even for him!), confusing, and in some places hurtful email from John. Definitely going to give him time to think things through. He has every right to be upset and angry, but he's also being childish, still not listening to me, and quite hurtful. So f*ck it! I'm not going to reply while I'm angry because I don't want him to get a reaction like that from me. But I will not be made to feel guilty for how and who I spend my time with and I'm sick of explaining things over and over again and him still not listening.
Not entirely sure he can cope with us being friends after that email today. I really don't
I have had a good day tho. Had an epic 10hr sleep - didn't even get up to pee! Caught up on Neighbours Sorted the bunnies. Then went round to my friend Michelle's for a bit to talk about the crappy situation (that's when I got the email!) and we went to the cinema.
Was supposed to see Rush because it was the last day and showing tonight. It had been moved!! So annoyed! So we camped out in MacDonalds and waited for The Heat to start. Michelle missed it first time round and I thought it was just as funny seeing it again.
I was SO good again today. I just had a diet Coke at Maccie's and I forgot to eat my Graze tub of pretzels and chocolate. So had 2 low syn meals and just got a snack of yogurt and a cereal bar for while I watch The Walking Dead. We even stayed in Michelle's instead of going to Costa for drinks.
Where on earth has this will power and stubbornness come from?! Tis good though
Not entirely sure he can cope with us being friends after that email today. I really don't
I have had a good day tho. Had an epic 10hr sleep - didn't even get up to pee! Caught up on Neighbours
Sorted the bunnies. Then went round to my friend Michelle's for a bit to talk about the crappy situation (that's when I got the email!) and we went to the cinema.Was supposed to see Rush because it was the last day and showing tonight. It had been moved!! So annoyed! So we camped out in MacDonalds and waited for The Heat to start. Michelle missed it first time round and I thought it was just as funny seeing it again.
I was SO good again today. I just had a diet Coke at Maccie's and I forgot to eat my Graze tub of pretzels and chocolate. So had 2 low syn meals and just got a snack of yogurt and a cereal bar for while I watch The Walking Dead. We even stayed in Michelle's instead of going to Costa for drinks.
Where on earth has this will power and stubbornness come from?! Tis good though
