Cheekychinchilla's food and stuff

Dammit! Just typed a nice long reply and it vanished. *sigh*

Insomnia and exhaustion do not go well together do they?! I know you've both had issues with this. Absolute nightmare isn't it?! I think when I know I have to get some sleep I get very anxious about it and end up stressing myself out and staying awake. Although fighting through 1.5 prescription sleeping pills was pretty special. Had a health of sleeping pill hangover after that!

Dunno how I stuck to the fast day after that. But I honestly enjoy them!! In an odd way. Yeah I feel hungry, but I know it's doing me good and I like the challenge. I feel really good about myself after doing them :) And also, it's making me look at food a little differently too! Good stuff! The weight loss is a very nice added bonus I reckon. Still in shock that I am actually losing!! It's been a very long time!

I did manage to sleep ok-ish last night. Not for long enough and I had some bizarre dreams, but better than 4hrs!

Mum's thing was very odd. I mean this happens fairly frequently and has done for a very long time. We're dead good at dealing with it now ;)
But there was some new stuff and it was much much more prolonged than normal. Some of it was pretty scary - muscle twitches/spasms, complete paralyses when she woke up she could only move her eyes and we had to communicate with blinks!!! Her pupils were MASSIVE as well (prob from muscle relaxation). And when she did begin to move only half her face "woke up". We were >this< close to calling an ambulance, thinking she'd had a stroke. We're both pretty savvy with medical sh*t, so if it was needed we wouldn't hesitate!
It was just awful to see it happen so badly. And when she couldn't move she looked genuinely terrified! :( Stupid f*cking illnesses!!!
She has an appointment at the Dr's in a bit, just a locum but she needs to tell someone, and my Sister's taking her. usually it would be me, but my car is at t'garage.

Work was ok-ish. Had an interesting catch-up session with my mentor. The pressure is most certainly on!! It looks like I will not get any special consideration or help or extensions! My official re-start date is the 17th Feb and I don't have a start date yet, but my boss has a feeling that they will give me something like 3 months. Which is an absolute joke!! Have explained to my mentor that I can't do prolonged use of a laptop because I can't look at the screen for very long. Never mind the millions of other symptoms!! So yeah, it's not looking good! I mean I will give it what I can, but I'm so over wanting merits and distinctions, just passes will do. Just don't know if I have the physical or mental capabilities to do this level of work in such a short time!
Will have to though because it's in my contract that if I don't pass they will fire me :( Sh*t! Looks like no social life for me for a few months then. At least it'll be cheap!! I guess 3 months and keeping my job, getting a pay rise, and getting it out of the way forever is worth it though. I just need to remind myself of that when I'm weeping from frustration and pain! :rolleyes:

Dropped the car of at the garage after work but had to leave it with them coz they were swamped. Everything crossed it's not expensive!! I don't have expensive car things money :p I trust these guys completely and they treated me so well last year. But you do hope and pray that it's not something scary wrong with it!! Stupid bloody thing....

I'm kinda lucky Katie that I'm not overly painful like all the time. I do get joint pain and sometimes just random pain in places. I do have a headache which varies in intensity, but doesn't go away - have had that for a year now!! Doesn't respond to pain relief!! But yeah, I don't get very painful very often, at least not at the moment. I did after my weekend at work and I'm slowly getting a bit better. But yeah, I don't have the super horrible pain that seems to be a significant factor of ME. Which is a bit odd but *shrug*

Hope you two are having good days anyway :) xx
 
Friday food: SW Green Day

Morning break: A banana

Lunch: 2 egg omelette with red onion, mushrooms, red pepper, spinach, and LOTS of cheese (HexA1). Seasoned with salt, pepper, garlic salt, oregano, and a few splashes of original Tabasco!
2 free Quorn sausages
Half a tin of beans with a few cherry tomatoes in
Wholemeal toast (HexB1)
Fruity brown sauce (1)

At the cafe: Carrot cake muffin/cupcake with a small portion of vanilla ice cream (going to say about 20)

Tea: Tin of Sainsbury's veggie ravioli (2 I think?) with fresh spinach mixed in
1 McCain jacket spud (1)
Cheese (HexB2)
Butterhead and baby leaf salad
Sweetfire beetroot
Very low cal dressing

Snack: Yeo Valley Orange, Carrot, and Mango yogurt (1)

Drinks: Coffee. Diet Irn Bru. Teapigs Peppermint tea.

Syns used: 25
Syns saved: 2 left but will wipe these out just incase and have a low syn day tomorrow :)
 
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Don't feel guilty - these things have happened in the past so how were you to know this was so different - don't beat yourself up about it. xxxxx
 
But it was different and we did know. A few seconds more and we would have done :(

I picked up the car. Nothing wrong with it!! They stripped and cleaned my brakes and checked all the steering stuff and there's nowt wrong with it. So just charged me the hour of labour :) Took Mum with me so she wasn't on her own and took her for coffee and cake at the posh cafe by the garage.
This one: Neighbourhood Café Liverpool It's beautiful in there!
I did have cake :whistle: I went for this carrot cake muffin/cupcake with a couple of spoonfuls of vanilla ice cream. So that's my saved syns gone ;) But at least I had syns saved eh?
Stopped at the chippy on the way back and got NOTHING! Pinched one of Mum's chips like, coz you have to ;) But didn't get me anything. Feel a bit sickly from the cake (and stress!) but will have my curry in a bit. Free tho!!!

We're not going out tomorrow now, I want Mum to have a rest day and time at home. So if she feels up to it we'll be going out for brunch on Sunday and a wander round the shops. Might even book our holiday. Which I WILL BE SKINNY for....

Right, watching tv and trying not to get upset or throw up or cry...x
 
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The cafe looks lovely I feel a visit is on the cards ! I live in west derby :D Where do you live?
Did the dr refer mum to the Royal?
 
Omg! Are you a Scouser?!! I live like a 5min drive from there lol. I'm in Gateacre :D

I'm not sure where she's been referred to. She doesn't remember :rolleyes: I know they have a HUGE neuro centre at Fazakerly though. My Dad was there for a while on their cancer wards and the hospital is fantastic! Would prefer there tbh, but we'll see.x
 
Oh wow really! I'm a heart patient at Broadgreen lol!! And Mum's been there for an osteo specialist/operation and physio a billion times. Even I've been for physio there :)

I've never been to class, just go it alone. Started with some books someone donated me and good old Minimins and Google for syns ;) xx
 
Well hello *waves* it's a small world :)
there used to be a team scouse in the teams section but its seemed to have died off:( maybe we should resurrect it :confused:
 
So sorry to hear about your mum, you shouldn't feel bad it's so hard to make calls at the time and all to easy to get it right when looking back. You look after your mum brilliantly.
Glad you got a little more sleep last night, I have a bed time routine that helps me relax and not think about sleep so I don't stress out about not sleeping this usually works unless I've got loads on and then nothing does it.
Glad there was nothing wrong with your car you don't need any more problems at the moment, it's good you've found somewhere you trust. Does your mum have a mobility car?
It's a bit rough with the course work, you'd think they'd give you a little lee-way?? how much have you got left to do?
I hope the rest of the night is relaxing, sending hugs x x x
 
So sorry to hear about your mum. It's very difficult to actually phone for an ambulance when you don't really know what's happening. You did the right thing in getting her to a doctor today. I hope you're both feeling better tomorrow and you get a good night's sleep tonight.
 
Thanks for your lovely posts everyone. You are all truly brilliant :)

I have a 'going to bed routine too' Barbette. But yeah, sometimes your just not going to get any sleep are you?! Silly brains!! Think I just had a lot on my mind with work, the stupid car, and other random crap.
Nah Mum only gets lower-rate disability :rolleyes: We think that it's because she still works and that goes against her! I know people with far less health problems who get more help! Frustrating that her needing and wanting to still work is going against her. Wondering if this new stuff would help her to get more financial support. I would LOVE for her to be able to work part time, I really would. She always says she needs to work or she'd go insane and become more ill, but it'd be great if she could go part time. Maybe when the mortgage is paid - a couple of years hopefully.
I keep saying she needs to hurry up and be allowed a mobility car. You know, for me ;)

Have actually been looking at and pricing up the Skoda Citigo, again. I super want one of them!!

The course work thing really p*ssed me off. Esp as before I went off sick and we thought I was dealing with a depression crisis (I probably was as well as other stuff tbh!) I was assured I would get an extension later on. But now I have more illnesses as well as the mental health stuff I probably wont?!
I'll just have to batter it as best I can and hope I pass. I didn't know till I was ranting to a work friend, but I could actually contact my tutor at the college directly if I needed too. Might be worth doing if work fobb me off! But it might not be the college putting the pressure on, could be management/head office from work's side - then I don't have a chance.
Wondering if an occupational health assessment could help with this as well as the other stuff.

My planned tea went out the window because I really didn't feel like it. And I'm really looking forward to the curry so will save it for tomorrow when I will hopefully enjoy it more :)

Went for a McCain jacket spud (got them for a ******** campaign), ravioli, and salad. I have a feeling I might turn in to Popeye if I eat any more spinach this week....

Thank you all again for being so lovely and kind.xx
 
That's ridiculous your mum is on he lower band, like you said I know people with less problems get mobility cars??? I was thinking about you, the car would benefit both you and your mum. I can understand her wanting to work but like you said it would be nice if she could go part time.
I would talk to your tutor about it, it's unrealistic you've been off work quite a long time they can't expect you to come back and carry on with some time to catch up.
I have those jacket spuds in the freezer for when I need something real quick x x
 
I know Barbette, would love for her to be able to get a disability car! She gets the lowest rate disability possible. She has cervical (vertebrae) spondylosis, Fibromyalgia, arthritis, osteoarthritis, a bone tumour in her hand, restless leg syndrome, plantar fasciitis, and quite a large intestinal hernia. And now at least one mini stroke. Lower rate disability?! Absolutely ridiculous!!! :rolleyes: :mad:

I wasn't sure about the jacket spud. May have overcooked it though because we have a stupidly powerful microwave (900w!!) But have another 3 to try lol! I do love getting free stuff, esp food ;)


Thank you B :) xx
 
Despite what happened today and having unplanned cake I'm really glad I didn't let my eating go out of control or let it become a binge. I had the syns, I chose wisely for my tea even though I went to the chippy for Mum, and I even have a Hex spare. Pretty pleased with myself. So easily could have gone badly wrong food-wise!

We're not going out tomorrow now. I said we should have a quiet day at home and see if either of us feel up to brunch and town on Sunday. So will have a totally on plan and hopefully low syn day tomorrow. I know I had the syns saved to cover for today, but wont hurt to save a few more for Sunday.
I'm on lates all next week, Mon-Fri, and they're REALLY good for keeping me on plan. And especially good for fast days. So should be a good week. I'll be having some sort of off-plan meal/night pet sitting with my friend Michelle on Friday or Saturday. It's likely to be pizza and chips if I'm honest ;) But If I'm good all week and save syns and get 2 fast days in it shouldn't be an issue :) Looking forward to it actually! She pet sits for quite a lot of people, but these ones are my favourite. They have an awesome house and 2 beautiful Border Terriers who I LOVE! So it's become a bit of a thing that when she's there I go for tea and we watch something funny and eat junk and play with the tiny hounds :D I adore Border Terriers!!

Anyway, gonna stop rambling and head to bed. Suddenly exhausted and just feel bluerg!

G'night you lovely bunch of ladies.xx
 
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