I know mate, but like you, it's my life and what I have to do. There's nothing I can "get out" of or not do. It's rubbish and I knew I would crash, but I have to just carry on the best I can don't I?
I stayed in bed till past 2:30 and have text my boss to say I will be off tomorrow too. I don't trust myself to be able to go in and do my job properly. Seems pointless to go in to be sent home again. Hopefully a decent night and a day at home tomorrow will help. I'm determined to go in on Friday tho!
I don't even know if I get sick pay now. When I was on my phased return I had to use holiday for my hospital stay or I wouldn't get paid. Don't know if that is just because it was during the phased return tho.
I haven't eaten yet today either. I know I had a fast day planned, but I really haven't felt like eating. Really nauseous and feel horrible
I am going to make something to eat soon but still stick to a fast day meal. I might as well take advantage of it really!
Hahahaha I don't like the use of "we" either! Really annoys me!! My mentor wont do work outside of working hours and will only really do stuff on a Tuesday. Yet I'm expected to do work in every spare waking moment?!
Had an amazing chat with my tutor today. She called me and I missed it - my phone is always silent! And I got passed my phone call anxiety and called her back. It was supposed to be 5mins but we chatted for about 25mins! She's really nice and she gave me some hints and tips for coursework - it really doesn't need to be all out detail! Esp the first aid ones, she said they can be very basic and not to worry about them
She also said I can even use the same case to do different case studies - say we have an animal that needs surgery, but also needs to be on fluids, and even bleeds from the wound after. That's surgical, IVFT (fluids), and first aid! So we don't need separate things for everything
I could even use a medical case that also needs fluids. FFS! It's like my work have been trying to make things difficult on bloody purpose!
I also can have more than one mentor
She's concerned that I wont get much time or attention from my mentor as she has another student and is now pregnant. But apparently we can have several mentors and these can be qualified VCA's or nurses. Well FFS! It would help to have my friend Marie as a mentor as we work together every weekend. And it would be nice to have a VCA mentor to do our level stuff with and not have the know-it-all nurse making me do more than I need!
So yeah, she seems nice and supportive. She said see how it goes for a month and she'll call me again the beginning of April. But she said to call or email any time I need help or advice or anything. She also said I CAN access the exams without my mentor or anyone giving me them. SO I can study for maybe one of them a week and get them out of the way quite quickly. Think there's 4 or 5 in the 2nd section (clinical) and a good few in section 3 (boooooooring reception/cerical/Health&Safety)
Think
I am most definitely on a roll!!
And I know I'm off work tomorrow sick but I will attempt to do some work. Some more of this written assignment and then maybe study towards an exam and get my boss to let me do it on Monday
Feel so much better having spoken to the tutor and much more in control too.
Right, food coz I actually do feel a bit hungry now.xx