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weigh day tomorrow. hoping for something ok. need to loose 21lbs for my first target.
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i think dude might have an infection in his mouth. it's looking a cream colour on the inside where i saw the 'hole'.
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i hope it is the healing process and not an infection. i'm just the worried mum.
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i'm having a hard time of it, emotionally, at the min.
after what's gone on this week i feel like i have gone back to work too early. i'm just so worried about my dude! he's so small. he's so little and vulnerable.
all i can say is that it makes the day pass very quickly. i just want to be with my dude. so frightened after my 'snatching' dream that on friday that i was going to loose him under the anaesthetic.
i quite like what i'm doing but i hate leaving my boy. emily.... i'm used to her not being with me during the day.
i just don't know what to do..... i think i'd feel better if i was only doing 2 days a week. the wednesday and the thursday. :cry:
my parents are pushing me to get me back on anti-depressant pills again. they say they think that i need them. i'm just feeling very emotional and also very angry. i feel angry that my hubby has pushed me back to work early. i wanted to wait until dude was 5 and in full time school first and settled. i'm angry that he wasn't watching dude enough on thursday night. it could have happened during my zumba class and he wouldn't have been able to get in touch with me as i have my phone on airplane mode to stop texts and phone calls. i'm angry that he put dude in the bath on friday night and didn't look after him properly so that his mouth got wet and then his inside opened out more. i'm angry that i went alone to the hospital on saturday with dude as hubby was on call and couldn't justify passing the cover on for a couple of hours. he did say to phone if there was a problem and matthew needed another op.
i'm finding my diet hard and this is making me angry. i feel unjustifiably mi$$ed off that i'm fat - as if it isn't my own fault for being greedy.
emotional and angry!
after what's gone on this week i feel like i have gone back to work too early. i'm just so worried about my dude! he's so small. he's so little and vulnerable.
all i can say is that it makes the day pass very quickly. i just want to be with my dude. so frightened after my 'snatching' dream that on friday that i was going to loose him under the anaesthetic.
i quite like what i'm doing but i hate leaving my boy. emily.... i'm used to her not being with me during the day.
i just don't know what to do..... i think i'd feel better if i was only doing 2 days a week. the wednesday and the thursday. :cry:
my parents are pushing me to get me back on anti-depressant pills again. they say they think that i need them. i'm just feeling very emotional and also very angry. i feel angry that my hubby has pushed me back to work early. i wanted to wait until dude was 5 and in full time school first and settled. i'm angry that he wasn't watching dude enough on thursday night. it could have happened during my zumba class and he wouldn't have been able to get in touch with me as i have my phone on airplane mode to stop texts and phone calls. i'm angry that he put dude in the bath on friday night and didn't look after him properly so that his mouth got wet and then his inside opened out more. i'm angry that i went alone to the hospital on saturday with dude as hubby was on call and couldn't justify passing the cover on for a couple of hours. he did say to phone if there was a problem and matthew needed another op.
i'm finding my diet hard and this is making me angry. i feel unjustifiably mi$$ed off that i'm fat - as if it isn't my own fault for being greedy.
emotional and angry!
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Aww hun!
Anger is horrible, its not nice for you, or for anyone else, least of all dude!
What else have you tried? You sound so stressed out? Have you thought about getting some other type of help? All anti depressants do is numb you, you need to offload!
Change is difficult but it can also be liberating! And kids will be kids, our husbands may not always do things the way we would but I am sure they don't mean any harm. Give yourself a break x
Anger is horrible, its not nice for you, or for anyone else, least of all dude!
What else have you tried? You sound so stressed out? Have you thought about getting some other type of help? All anti depressants do is numb you, you need to offload!
Change is difficult but it can also be liberating! And kids will be kids, our husbands may not always do things the way we would but I am sure they don't mean any harm. Give yourself a break x
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4lbs off at weigh in. it should have been 7lbs! went pants since friday. i get emotional and either i don't eat and starve or i eat too much.
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not sure what to think. i still feel that 2 days would be perfect but 3 is pushing it a bit!
MinnieMel
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Morning Nikki! Sending good thought and many hugs you and both LOs.
So, typical. LOL
Hummm... time to convert. Happy Chanukah!
Glad to read this -- I am sure it will be fine.
Good luck with the weigh in and you know if not now, then soon. You always do so well.
I think Nat is on to something... maybe you could ask your doctor about a referral for some counelling rather than being "drugged up".
Mel
So, typical. LOL
Hummm... time to convert. Happy Chanukah!
Glad to read this -- I am sure it will be fine.
Good luck with the weigh in and you know if not now, then soon. You always do so well.
I think Nat is on to something... maybe you could ask your doctor about a referral for some counelling rather than being "drugged up".
Mel
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and tuesday's here again! how on earth did that happen?
i think my friday went quick as we spent most of it in the children's surgical ward.
sat went quickly as i started off in the assessment plastics ward in hospital again. bathed my mum. went to take things back to teesside park. had hair done. played games with kids etc etc
sun went quickly as i planned for an hour, got ems to swimming, visited my parents, sorted their loft and mine. cleaned my house.
i think monday went quickly as i had ems to hol club. weigh in. sorted cupboards out. went to chiropractors. took things back to the shops again. picked up ems. visited my parents. tidied and hoovered my house. did some zumba posters. played with the kids. cooked tea.
then here we are..... tuesday. still haven't 'been' to the gym. i really must get there. at least i'm teaching 2 ZAs today and a zumba tonight.
alarm went at 6.30am this morning and i didn't want to get out of bed. i hate it when i need to set my alarm as i feel like i'm waking up every hour at night trying to see if it's time to get up.
i think my friday went quick as we spent most of it in the children's surgical ward.
sat went quickly as i started off in the assessment plastics ward in hospital again. bathed my mum. went to take things back to teesside park. had hair done. played games with kids etc etc
sun went quickly as i planned for an hour, got ems to swimming, visited my parents, sorted their loft and mine. cleaned my house.
i think monday went quickly as i had ems to hol club. weigh in. sorted cupboards out. went to chiropractors. took things back to the shops again. picked up ems. visited my parents. tidied and hoovered my house. did some zumba posters. played with the kids. cooked tea.
then here we are..... tuesday. still haven't 'been' to the gym. i really must get there. at least i'm teaching 2 ZAs today and a zumba tonight.
alarm went at 6.30am this morning and i didn't want to get out of bed. i hate it when i need to set my alarm as i feel like i'm waking up every hour at night trying to see if it's time to get up.
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school was better than last week. dude's lip is beautiful. back friday for an app at 9.30am
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i am shattered. i left home at 8am this morning. taught all day including a zumba session. took after school zumba. had hair done. collected kids from my parents. was at home for 15 mins then i changed and went and taught adult zumba. popped to get my ironing from my parents house (someone's doing it for me). got home for 8pm. put things away so last shake was 8.45pm.
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I'm shattered because I didn't get in from work last night until after 11pm, then the show down with management this morning, has drained me. I'm behind with my water still got a good litre to go. And I only had my last shake half an hour ago.
I'm off tomorrow, but got opticians appointment at 11, need some glasses. I have a fair idea what I want but taking mum for advice because my last ones I chose on my own and they're awful
I'm off tomorrow, but got opticians appointment at 11, need some glasses. I have a fair idea what I want but taking mum for advice because my last ones I chose on my own and they're awful
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i'm fussy with my glasses. they must grip my face. i love the ones i've got but the frames are now discontinued and i will need some new ones sooner rather than later as my lenses are scratched and my frames are falling apart, the covering is coming off them and my legs are breaking apart/split.
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p.s i think i've drank 2 litres of water today and that is it. i'm on playground duty tomorrow.... joy of joys! i think my water will be down again tomorrow! so i'll be drinking at night.
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1 more day of work then it's just me and my babies! missing dudey so so very much. Stood stroking his hair in his cot today! My ems is all grown up (@5 lol) but still needs me and is missing me loads'. Loved it tonight when I picked her up! She was so tired and fell asleep in the car! Hoping for a peaceful weekend this time and some serious lie ins.
missing dudey so so very much. Stood stroking his hair in his cot today! My ems is all grown up (@5 lol) but still needs me and is missing me loads'. Loved it tonight when I picked her up! She was so tired and fell asleep in the car! Hoping for a peaceful weekend this time and some serious lie ins.
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....and the official working week is over....... and breath! that's 3 ZumbAtomic (kids zumbas) taught and 2 adult classes. as well as teaching and doing things around the house. i left this morning at 8am. i got home just after 5pm and went out again just after 6.15pm and came home at 8pm. i then put out all the rubbish (it's recycling day so there's 5 bags, 1 box and my bin). i then cooked tea whilst doing the dishwasher and the washing machine. now i'm on here!
emily is having issues! several issues. the first is that she either wets or stutters. over christmas, after it, her wetting stopped and her stuttering became really bad. it was like "ddddddddddddd da da da da da daddy!" i was told this might come back at christmas time due to the excitement for santa but it came afterwards. very strange. she's struggling at the minute too with being very tired. we get her up at 6.30am most week days (especially those that we work). she's so so tired and the problem is that she messing about at night and not going to sleep, going into the bathroom, messing about in her room etc. then when i pick her up she's falling asleep on the way to getting dude from nursery! argh! we are all tired really.
well, at least i get to take her to school tomorrow and pick her up at a reasonable time. i also get time to spend with my little guy after our hospital app. so plan of action tomorrow!
1) take ems to school
2) take dude to hospital (we'll be early but.... better that than not finding a parking spot)!
3) go buy emily another bottle with emily written on it as we've lost hers.
4) do the shopping - we do not need much at all. i'm tempted to just buy milk, salad and cheese.
5) visit my mum for a coffee
6) take matthew to tumble tots
7) relax at home for a while
8) go get emily
9) take her to tumble tots
10) get home (probably after 5pm) and cook tea
relax!
i left this morning at 8am. i got home just after 5pm and went out again just after 6.15pm and came home at 8pm. i then put out all the rubbish (it's recycling day so there's 5 bags, 1 box and my bin). i then cooked tea whilst doing the dishwasher and the washing machine. now i'm on here!emily is having issues! several issues. the first is that she either wets or stutters. over christmas, after it, her wetting stopped and her stuttering became really bad. it was like "ddddddddddddd da da da da da daddy!" i was told this might come back at christmas time due to the excitement for santa but it came afterwards. very strange. she's struggling at the minute too with being very tired. we get her up at 6.30am most week days (especially those that we work). she's so so tired and the problem is that she messing about at night and not going to sleep, going into the bathroom, messing about in her room etc. then when i pick her up she's falling asleep on the way to getting dude from nursery! argh! we are all tired really.
well, at least i get to take her to school tomorrow and pick her up at a reasonable time. i also get time to spend with my little guy after our hospital app. so plan of action tomorrow!
1) take ems to school
2) take dude to hospital (we'll be early but.... better that than not finding a parking spot)!
3) go buy emily another bottle with emily written on it as we've lost hers.
4) do the shopping - we do not need much at all. i'm tempted to just buy milk, salad and cheese.
5) visit my mum for a coffee
6) take matthew to tumble tots
7) relax at home for a while
8) go get emily
9) take her to tumble tots
10) get home (probably after 5pm) and cook tea
relax!
