Diary of Ally Bally - the final chapter - it's now!

[Alycyn1980]

21.03.2013

Extra Easy

Syns for day
Syns for week 143.5

Healthy extra A –
Healthy extra B –

B - 2 x eggs, 2 x blue cheese laughing cow triangles (3); 5 x baby plum tomatoes, 3 x Black coffee (sweetener)
S - pineapple fingers, 2 lge mug hot juice
L – leftover dinner, beetroot, after dinner pukka tea
D –

Not sure what the dinner plans are, will see what there is in the fridge but I do remember buying ingredients for a Romano Pepper dish from the Jan mag (I think)!! Update later x

 

[Rosielea]

Hey Aly. How are you doing. Did I read somewhere that you are depressed. I think it is time of the year. It is so miserable and it spring does not want to come to us. I understand that your OH works away and you feel lonely. Just come on here and we cheer you up - I am a fine fine to talk as I am worse. Well anyway we can cheer each other.

I am planning to catch up on sleep an dthen if it does not rain walk to town an dlook around or go to teh big shopping centre.

Have aovely weekend if I do not speak to you.

 

[Alycyn1980]

Hey Aly. How are you doing. Did I read somewhere that you are depressed. I think it is time of the year. It is so miserable and it spring does not want to come to us. I understand that your OH works away and you feel lonely. Just come on here and we cheer you up - I am a fine fine to talk as I am worse. Well anyway we can cheer each other.

I am planning to catch up on sleep an dthen if it does not rain walk to town an dlook around or go to teh big shopping centre.

Have aovely weekend if I do not speak to you.

Thnaks Rosie. I don't think it is the weather that gets me down, i quite like it when it rains maybe I am not depressed & just feeling sorry for myself. Where to start and keep it short! I am lonely, I have no friends and apart from being at work I see no one. People only come out to my house if I invite them & then it is only family usually parents or aunts/uncles. My 'friends' have children and live at least 30miles away. I spend every night I the house & on.y go out to do some shopping. I love my OH and our house but sometimes it gets too much. I can spend nights just crying & at 1 point nearly drove myself off a cliff. This is the reason I eat. If I do get out it is to my M.I.L's. when I do get out with my 'friends' I feel so left out & out of sync. Just something I have to deal with. I am good at putting a front on so people think all is ok.

Sorry for going on, nice sometimes to just get it out tho you probably be the only one to read it.

Have a nice weekend, hope you manage to get some clothes shopping done xxx

 

[Rosielea]

I totally undrrstand where you are coming from as I am in the same situation and there is no OH. It is not easy but life must go on. You can't blame yourself as it is your personality and how you are. Is there any chance of you living nearer to OH so you can see each other more or does he work offshore. Can you not socialise with your colleagues - I know you live some distant away or any chance of renting out your house and rent something nearer work. You are young and so much to look forward to and must get silly thoughts out of your head. Please PM me any time you feel lonely. I will be here and help you as much as I can. When OH is home try to make the most of it, doing thing together and socialise so it becomes easier for you to do the same on your own. Big hug

 

[Alycyn1980]

Thanks Rosie. My work colleagues r a lot younger than me & not ppl I would choose to b social with. The 1s that r decent r on mat leave or going on mat leave or live 60miles from me. OH works offshore, he will b back 2moro. His friends also have children or all smoke (not cigs) & I won't sit like in that, they won't come to us as no smoking in our house. Just something I will need to deal with & get on with. I wouldn't move as I am a 5min walk from beach in a lovely wee village.

Had bad couple days and completely off diet but back on it today as I have just packed loads stuff into a suitcase that do not fit me!!

 

[Alycyn1980]

So am I going to manage a full week this time - bets r on!!

Not to bad a day, some down moments but all in all not too bad. Was meant to be visiting a friend in hospital but she never got back to me to say whether she was getting home or not. I'm fed up being the one making all the effort so didn't bother texting her again, her husband was also meant to be letting me know but no contact from him either.

Went a food shop and hope that I am all set for the week. Bot some boned chicken thighs to try & make a curry, well OH will be making it popped in 2c OH's gran & dad as his mum away on hol. Had nice wee chat then went to Tesco (bigger store) & managed to find the koko chocolate milk. Heard meant 2b nice & I will try anything once!

EXTRA EASY

Syns for day 5
Syns for wk 5

Healthy Extra A - ss milk
Healthy Extra B - porridge

B/L - porridge, banana, ss milk, black coffee (sweetener)
S - mango fingers, black coffee (sweetener)
D - beef stir fry - stir fry pack, mange tout, garlic, egg, soy sauce, chilli, dried egg noodles, pukka green chai tea
S - slimatee, night time tea, walkers baked sour cream & onion (5)

I am not sure what I will be having for my snack tonight, will see when I go through to make bedtime cuppa & c if cats have sneaked back in!!!!!

Hope you all had a wonderful day xxx

 

[Rosielea]

Aly when you are driving to/from work have a little think and see why you sabotage your plan and also who is suffering for it. I used to be like that but had to start respecting my body and now days every time I want to go wild with food, I stop and think why and refrain from doing it. My downfall is when I am very tired. It think it took me about 8 months to come to terms with the fact that food was not my saviour and no. 1 priority. Just give it a go for a couple of weeks and see how you get on.

 

[Alycyn1980]

Aly when you are driving to/from work have a little think and see why you sabotage your plan and also who is suffering for it. I used to be like that but had to start respecting my body and now days every time I want to go wild with food, I stop and think why and refrain from doing it. My downfall is when I am very tired. It think it took me about 8 months to come to terms with the fact that food was not my saviour and no. 1 priority. Just give it a go for a couple of weeks and see how you get on.

Hi Rosie

You are so full of wisdom and common sense. I honestly think it is just a greed thing and no willpower, I tell myself no but find myself going into the shop and picking up chocolate & crisps and I constantly say I should not be eating this as I stuff my face BUT this weekend inthe house (well yesterday) I refrained from eating the following which is all in the house!!! 100g Milky Bar, 100g Mint Aero, 2 x fresh custard slices. Morrisons Giant Strawberry chews and a large bag of Walkers Prawn Cocktail crisps. All this was bought with the intention of eating over the weekend as I was having yet another one last blowout!! I am pleased that it is all still there and will be gone soon as OH home today!! Although he is gaining a belly with being away as there is always a constant supply of food on Rigs and Boats due to shift changes. I am going to try the just say no and that it will still be there when I want to go and get some on treat night (within reason). As you say it will take a few weeks once I get me head into in completely again!! Fingers crossed the time is now!!!

Hope you are having a good day xx

 

[Rosielea]

Aly glad you avoided all those stuff. Keep them as treats and you can gradually get through them one at a time. I used to be the same if I opened a pack of biscuits had to finish or would large bags of crisps, sandwiches and any other rubbish that came in front of me. My excuse was it was going to be my last blow out before I start eating properly. Would you believe it I have a cupboard full of treats and from time to time open the cupboard door, look and think NO syns are too high - from tim eto time I have something.

Proud of myself today. Had a couple of BT engineers over to install my new internet. Opened a pack of French biscuits (my fav) for them but did not touch any myself. When they were going I gave them the rest of the pack to take with them.

AS I said before when you have resisted for a couple of weeks and lost a bit of weight then every time you look at a treat, you turn your nose at it and say pah "I do not want you".

Hope you have a lovely evening with OH. It is nice to eat with someone else isn't it.

 

[Alycyn1980]

EXTRA EASY

Healthy Extra A – SS Milk
Healthy Extra B – porridge

Syns for Day 15
Syns for Week – 20

B – Porridge, SS Milk, Pukka Green Chai Tea
S – Mango, Apple, 3 x Lge mugs hot juice
L – Salad Pack, beetroot, carrots, Green Chai Tea
S – Satsuma
D – Leftover beef stir fry, noodles, sweet chilli sauce (1.5), cinnamon/liquorice tea
S – chewy strawberries (3.5), Walkers Baked x 2 (10), slimatee, pukka night time tea

I am feeling a bit better today in my mindset but head is killing me. Eyes cant seem to focus right which is why this is being typed into word then transferred later! Day 2 and diet going well. So far so good but it is only 1430 on Monday and I am at work BUT I resisted Krispy Kreme donuts that were sitting in the canteen to help ourselves to and even though everyone is talking about them I said no, you don’t need it!!! Ate my carrot sticks instead!!! And I just remembered that I refused a KFC, on a roll today

Update more from home xx

Head still sore & that is with taking tablets & going to bed when got home from work. Got up & had dinner. Head still sore but just getting on with it. OH wanted KFC & once again I refused. Did have couple sweets & bags crisps but all within syns, btr than chocolate I think!!!

Watching Criminal Minds then bed xx

 

[Alycyn1980]

EXTRA EASY

Healthy Extra A – 2 x blue cheese triangles, splash ss milk
Healthy Extra B – 1/2 tbs olive oil

Syns for Day 11.5
Syns for Week – 31.5

B – 2 x eggs, 2 x blue cheese triangles, 5 x baby plum tomatoes, Pukka Green Chai Tea, lge mug hot juice
S – Mango, Lge mugs hot juice
L – Salad Pack, beetroot, carrots, salad cream (1), Pukka revitalise tea
D – Chicken thighs, tamatar murghi curry (olive oil), rice, slimatee
S – Walkers Baked (5), 3 x squares milky bar (5.5), pukka night time tea

This may change for the night time snack as I am fancying a wee bit of chocolate, will get OH to break it up & give a small calculated section!!!

 

[Rosielea]

Hey Aly, your food for today. Well done for sticking to plan. A few more days and you'll stick to plan. When is OH going back to work. Have a great evening.

 

[Rosielea]

Aly what is your job. It sounds interesting and all that travel to Houston. Good luck with your promotion.

 

[Alycyn1980]

My title is Toolpool & workshop admin co-ord. I work for a company called Oceaneering and I track and control the maintenance of our rental tools. The tools we deal with in our dept are if you have seen titanic and you see the underwater robots going in about the ship? Our ROV dept makes them and we hire out the tools that control them. It is an interesting environment to work with and i work in the workshop with the techs (20-30 of them depending if they are offshore. Not too sure what the promotion or change or role will be but a new move is always good

 

[Alycyn1980]

Joined the squat challenge tonight & 1st day was 50 squats so ia have done these & I am also doing varying stomach crunches to the same amount - day 1 complete

 

[Alycyn1980]

EXTRA EASY

Healthy Extra A - 200ml Koko choc milk
Healthy Extra B - porridge

Syns for Day 64.5
Syns for Week - 96

B - porridge, choc milk, banana, tecso light choices cranberry juice, lge mug hot juice
S - Mango, Lge mugs hot juice
L - leftover dinner, steam veg, Pukka revitalise tea
D - KFC (32.5), slimatee
S - rest of milky bar (22), crisps (10)


Did not got str8 home aft work & OH got KFC so ended up with one. Friend in host with cancer and I was jst thinking here i am worrying about weight when she is struggling with something so much more. I no this is not the way to think (in hindsight I no this is not the way to think) but I calculated everything and I am still within syns so just need to be good today & tomorrow for weigh in on sat.

Fresh day today x

 

[Rosielea]

Aly sorry to hear about your friend - hope she can recover quickly.

Hope you've had a good Easter and ready to go back on the plan straight away. I have been on the plan and just had choccies that I normally have as part of my syns.

Have a great day.

 

[Alycyn1980]

Aly sorry to hear about your friend - hope she can recover quickly.

Hope you've had a good Easter and ready to go back on the plan straight away. I have been on the plan and just had choccies that I normally have as part of my syns.

Have a great day.

Hey Rosie. Just getting back on here. Not been in the frame of mind. Back on it today & got new running shoes & some gear so hoping to get out with OH as he putting on the weight too. He doesn't like the treadmill so I am going out with him and do walking n the treadmill inbetween days (well that's the plan!!!).

Wknd was good as I was home for the weekend and met up with some friends I have not seen in years. Making a start on getting out again. Drove down with one of my friends and had a good catch up and hoping that they can get over to mine at some point this month Fingers crossed this may be me getting better xx

 

[Alycyn1980]

WI 187.5lbs

GREEN DAY

Syns for day 24
Syns for week 24

HEx A - 2 x dairylea triangles, 15g mozzarella
HEx A - 3 x babybel
HEx B - 2 x 70g cooked chicken

L - 3 x eggs, HEx A, splash milk (0.5) - scrambled egg, 2 x black coffee, sweetener
D - pasta, superfree soup, jalapeños, HEx A & B, slimatee
S - caramel egg & half egg (23.5)

I think that that is it for today.

My body magic was some good old housework, had it not been for the sleet/snow I would have been out a wee walk. OH away offshore for work today, should be back Thursday. I am so hoping it can be a 100% week for 1st wk back on it!! Day at a time !

Knew the egg was there, so it's now gone & out my mind. Beginning of the week so can limit damage control thru rest of the week!

 

[Rosielea]

Housework is a good body magic. Food looks for today.

All of a sudden I feel tired and sleepy, but too early to go to bed - don't want to wake up in the middle of night.

Hope it gets warmer soon.