Diary: Shroomfest - episode 2 - Experiencing the evil maintenance. :-)

[Lostris]

I call them my 'bloaty' days, had one myself today but still managed comfortably do up my size 10 trousers so it appears it's my mind playing tricks!!! as usual.

xx

Hi!

Yea, clothes still fit fine it's just in my head. Weight in lbs and weight in your head are very different things I guess!

xxx

What is that all about? I get the same fat feelings I used to get 100lbs heavier. It is so weird, but I get the same sensations/feelings and I don't like it. Luckily it has only happened a few times lately but I hate the feeling.

Well done on working on figuring out everything in terms of maintenance to know just what will keep you losing. Keep up the good work chick!

It is weird isn't it!! Our heads work in mysterious ways I'd say. Fat, not fat, less fat... seems everyone has their fat days whether it's actually true or not is a biiig difference though. A lot of the times people just feel fat when they've recently lost a lot or were never fat to begin with. Feeling fat stinks I tell you!!!!!!!

You're doing sooooooo well! You shouldn't feel fat... but then again, neither should I so I'm not sure I should be allowed to give this speech....

Thanks so much for you compliments, means a lot hun xxx

 

[Serena A]

A lot of the times people just feel fat when they've recently lost a lot or were never fat to begin with. Feeling fat stinks I tell you!!!!!!!

My gosh how true is this??!!!

No need for you to worry though - check you out with your shiny new BMI!!

xxx

 

[Lostris]

My gosh how true is this??!!!

No need for you to worry though - check you out with your shiny new BMI!!

xxx

It;s very true as I am Prof L. O. Stris of The Fungas Studies department. I am all knowing

Thanks hon xx

 

[Lostris]

Back at studentplace today which is a bit of a troublesome thing for me. I was superworried about eating food they made but in total it was only 466kcal.

(Baked potatoes, lowest fat mayo I have for myself, steak and eh.. haricots verts I think)

It was a lovely meal and well within my kcal limits.

So, today I've had

Through the morning/afternoon
2 raisin buns with chickenfilet
2x crackers with cheese
chocolate thingy my sis told me to have coz it was soooo good :')
total - 600 kcal (break, lunch, small snack)

Grapes 128kcal

Dinner 466kcal

60 grams of dried fruit 134,4 (according to bag)
1 small digestive biccie with choc layer - 78kcal (and there's 2! in a pack, I had 1 and put the other back in my ''cookiejar'')

Total 1410,4kcal and I'm feeling full and okay. Tomorrow I'm cooking here so I will know my dinner kcal beforehand and I will be able to have some more things / fruit / more filled sandwiches during the day ;-) Yay me!

I asked roomies to check with me what they're making and stuff and that I'd eat along with them if it wasn't something very greasy, cheesy or something like that. I feel like such a big nag! The guy cooking came to ask me is this veggie okay, is this okay I felt so terrible!!!!!!!!!! He said he reall didn;t mind and everything but the more he asked, genuinely worried about if what he was making was okay, the worse I felt!!!!

Ah well! Me cooking tomorrow. Baked rice with homemade mushroom / onion sauce, stirfried veggies and chicken I think! Not sure yet but looove making things like this!

x

 

[Serena A]

You?....Cooking?.....

xxx

 

[Lostris]

You?....Cooking?.....

xxx

Im not a bad cook really, you'd be proud of me mum!

Not cooking today. Had to go home to get my 'Slimmer of the year' ... papers, I have to send them in today and forgot them. :copon: Stoopid. Might cook wednesday. May also go to the doctor tomorrow to get an inhaler for my stupid lung bug

Food today!

Breakfast
2 slices of bread with tomato and ham - 240kcal

Snack
1 cookie 78kcal

Lunch
4 crackerswith low fat cheese 164,4 kcal
Was still hungry. >_< So got chicken salad which was, without the sauce and all, around 200kcal

Snack
200grams of white seedless grapes <3 128kcal

Dinner
Some potato thing my mum is making god knows how many calories. :X Have 700kcal left for it though, roughly, to reach 1500 so I should be fine. Will be potatoes, a lot, and veg.. don't think she's making any proteinlike stuff? Ah well. I looked at websites.. I think it's about 200kcal for the stuff (very generous portion!!!) in it and 200kcal worth of potatoes (again very generous portion)... and then some veggies... 570kcalish if I add 150kcal desert. (cornflakes, I know, sad. But I really like them :S)

Somehow at parents it's easier for me to have deserts and such. I shouldn't be here again in 1,5 weeks when I go to studentplace again tomorrow... will be staying at a friend this weekend.

I changed my ticker so it shows my Cambridge diet goal as my ''goal weight'' and everything I lose or gain from now on will be less than (well let's hope so! XD) my Cambridge diet goal weight.

Thought of the day (HAHAH, stolen!) ''Yay kcal left for almonds <3'' (way less pro than yours are Serena my dear)

xx

 

[Serena A]

Thought of the day (HAHAH, stolen!) ''Yay kcal left for almonds <3'' (way less pro than yours are Serena my dear)

xx

Bah!!!

Your food sounds nice...must have been because you didn't make it :Na_Na_Na_Na:

 

[Lostris]

Bah!!!

Your food sounds nice...must have been because you didn't make it :Na_Na_Na_Na:

TSSSSSSSSS!

I'm really not a bad cook! My expertise is just more at the cookies, quiches, ovendishes department :') The unhealthy things, generally. I can make lovely fried rice though, with mushroom sauce. Everyone likes it. I bake the raw rice till its brown, then add hot chicken bouillon and let it cook in it! It makes them absolutely lovely.

Ah well.

 

[Lostris]

Not a very interesting day, food wise. Had a lot of fruit and some dried fruit during day.

Had wraps for dinner, had plenty of kcal left. And just had a cookie with my tea. Came to about 1500.

Got massive TOTM and gained on scales, I'm assuming it's coz of TOTM coz can't be anything else tbh! :')

Planned all my food for tomorrow, have sandwiches in fridge waiting to be eaten LOL. I'll have to get up early tomorrow (well.. 7:45 or so) so I like having my food ready. I can just take it out of the fridge, throw in my bag and go to bus to get to school. (Chicken filet + cucumber + small layer of extra low fat mayo on wholewheat bread <3)

I've decided to take the bus as long as I'm still not well.. I have an inhaler now... Big major suckyness... Hope it'll help though... It's a pretty strong inhaler...........................................

Other than that I've had a good day so that's good... Ah well

xx

 

[Lostris]

I calced my calories for today including omelette for dinner.. 1198. Which leaves 300 for....... Gosh. I'm so damn tempted to say chocolate. I want chocolate soooo bad. It's TOTM and I'm seriously craving it, I have no idea why else I would want it so badly. It's quite sad really. Considering getting a bar of choc :x Problem is I can't buy an ordinary bar because I fear I'd eat it all. :x

Maybe I'll buy some of those chocolate cornflake... cup...things. We have them at home sometimes, 115kcal per 30grams or so.. not too shabby and a lovely snack.

Thinking about chocolate all day now, trying to talk myself into buying some. :')

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I had some dried fruit and bread with peanutbutter and am now at 1506kcal (give or take a few).

Thinking of going to bed early before I start ripping cookie 2x-pack things open.

Stupid stupid chocolate!!! :copon:

 

[Lostris]

Hi all

Just a quick post to let you all know I'm still alive and still doing good. Rejected lots of goodies today and stayed around 1500 calories so yay me.

I'm at a friend for the weekend and the yummies are all around......

Well, gtg. Getting up early tomorrow

xx

 

[KD]

Well done Lostris :clap: Enjoy your time with your friend :clap: Ignore the goodies. Goodies tend to be baddies LOL.

Glad to hear you're going for SOTY :clap:

 

[Lostris]

Hiya!

I blocked out most of the yummys! (My friend did nag me 'oh but the ice cream is sooooooooooo yuuuuuuuuuuuum, I had water!! +10 points for me!!!) (Springrolls 'but I know you loooooooove them!!!!' +3745687658points for me)

Some unexpected food things happened today though; they didn't have any food in the house and all darn stores are closed except take out stores. So we got sandwiches and such but they're probably loaded with calories, I calculated it very strict and it's about 1550... (includng my breakkie) which would be okay but what if they put other stuff in?? I didn't exactly see what they put in. I did pick wholewheat... instead of white... and no butter etc.. sigh. :X

The other option would've been fast food / snack bar so sandwich is way way better. I chose chickenfilet and tomato/cucumber for on it but........

We also found 100kcal choco balls from Milka (I THINK!!!!!) so I had some of those at cinema <3 So lovely and portion pack. I can have chocolate now :cry:

Ah well.

Doing ok otherwise. Inhaler is okay, helps me sleep.

Forgot to take SOTY form with me, so will send it on tuesday... Will need to type out my story then too hheh omg!! :x Creepy stuff!!!!!!

xxx

 

[nessie]

Hey there!

Hey Porgeous You look absolutely FANTASTIC well done you! Been a while since I was on here, was silly enough to reach goal then put over a stone back on but I'm back on track now Also have set myself a new goal of 9st 7lb.

Good to see you're doing well hun

Sounds yummy, may have to experiment, especially with the porridge idea! Is it totally tragic that my favourite meal of the day is a bowl of Allbran???

Sorry we have turned your diary into something quite random!

 

[Lostris]

Hi all!

Me again!

Just weighed myself at 70.3 (at end of day with food etc in me) so don't think weekends done much damage, usually up 1,5-2,5kg at evening, so that is great.

I had 1 wholewheat slice of bread with tuna salad and 1 with lowfat cheese. Lunch was pistlet with ham and dinner was ... again bread (dont ask!) with egg/tuna/tomato/small spoon lowfat mayo. Total 1019.. Will be having something nice at the tv with my tea in a bit but I won't pass 1200kcal today. Just a bit of a 'keep myself in check after foodish weekend'-thing.

I took some pics of myslf with my phone yesterday. I don't recognise that person on there, it really creeps me out tbh. Everyone who sees it says 'oh you look lovely etc'... but that person isn't me.... :cry: BAH!

x

 

[Serena A]

Hi all!

Me again!

Just weighed myself at 70.3 (at end of day with food etc in me) so don't think weekends done much damage, usually up 1,5-2,5kg at evening, so that is great.

I had 1 wholewheat slice of bread with tuna salad and 1 with lowfat cheese. Lunch was pistlet with ham and dinner was ... again bread (dont ask!) with egg/tuna/tomato/small spoon lowfat mayo. Total 1019.. Will be having something nice at the tv with my tea in a bit but I won't pass 1200kcal today. Just a bit of a 'keep myself in check after foodish weekend'-thing.

I took some pics of myslf with my phone yesterday. I don't recognise that person on there, it really creeps me out tbh. Everyone who sees it says 'oh you look lovely etc'... but that person isn't me.... :cry: BAH!

x

Well done you for staying on track :happy096:

The scales aren't being kind for some random reason - you've earned it my darling!

As for that beautiful person in those pictures...that is you - it's the previously overweight and unhappy girl that isn't.

And if you think that the overweight and unhappy girl should be you then you need a :copon:

xxx

 

[Lostris]

Well done you for staying on track :happy096:

The scales aren't being kind for some random reason - you've earned it my darling!

As for that beautiful person in those pictures...that is you - it's the previously overweight and unhappy girl that isn't.

And if you think that the overweight and unhappy girl should be you then you need a :copon:

xxx

Thanks hon xxx

I always find you're the nice voice in my head when I'm the evil mean voice.. I know I've said it so much but I really don't recognise myself, I really don't. People tell me it's me, people I know in real life tell me that's really how I look but it creeeeeeeps me out. I don't see that. I do not see that person!

I don't think I should be the unhappy overweight girl ... I just don't know this slim, ... still relatively unsure girl. Which is weird because.. well, it's me..........

xxx

 

[CeeKay]

awww hun.....
your head will catch up soon and recognise that the lovely slim person IS you... it always was, just had some padding around it lol
x

 

[Lostris]

awww hun.....
your head will catch up soon and recognise that the lovely slim person IS you... it always was, just had some padding around it lol
x

Hey!

Thanks so much.. Guess it's true haha.

I just finished writing Slimmer of the Year Holland thingy. If I make it to top 15 I get to go to UK to see the factory and if I make top 1 (highly unlikely) I get to participate in European SOTY...

Was quite a difficult story to write for me...... Has more issues in it than just weight ones so..

Ah well!

x

 

[Lostris]

So!

I had about 1500kcal yesterday + a walk burning 250kcals and today I'm down 0,5kg. I was up 1,1 when I started my period so dropping is nice. I was feeling very veeeeeery worried about having to maintain on 1500 kcal.

I need to walk more but I usually only have time in evening and I really don't feel comfy going out alone when it's dark out. Went with roomie yesterday which was lovely, we will probably do it more

I may walk to the station this afternoon though I'm not really sure I want to hahaha. It's about 6km which is err? 4?? miles. Which seems short but yo have to wait at traffic light every 4 steps

Who knows. If I'm up for and it doesn't rain it I might.

Feel pretty good about losing hoping that if I walk some today I'll lose again HAHAH.

Walking is okay as I don't really exert myself too much to end up in a coughattack :')

We shall see.

Food for the day... err, not sure.

Had a lotof cracottes yesterday which are a type of crackers we have here. 25kcal each, lovely with no sugar etc jam on them or cheese and you can eat sooooooooo many of em.