hi all....
god i feel totally bloody rotten
the fluey thing has gone but i had a total nightmare yesterday
the plan....
go to toys r us in the morning, get chrimbo pressies for the boys...
tesco at lunch time, get something for lunch there and get the shopping done...
home to cook up lots of meals and relax watching the x factor.
didnt take my scooter as i knew we would have lots of things in the boot of the car, and i was feeling ok to stroll round the 2 shops....
sounds like a great saturday!!
what really happened....
got to toys r us which is on a massive interchange in ipswich...one whole side of the dual carriageway was shut as there had been a fuel spill in an accident...
this meant the interchange was bumper to bumper and cars were being diverted...
got to toys r us as we wouldnt have got home then anyway...so carried on and got to the car park which was in gridlock...took about 40 mins to be able to park!
though ok gonna be here for a little while so make the most of it and stroll slowwwwwwwwly to take the extra time....
knackered.com when we got out...and the car was still chocca, with ppl we had seen when we went in still sat there...sleeping in their cars lol....some had been tehre 2 1/2 hours!
toys r us is near mothercare, and burger king....but you have to climb up some really steep and not very safe looking stairs to get to that level....had to do it cos we woulda been sat in the car with a 2 yr old and a baby if not...
ended up getting someone to help dil carry baby in the buggy up the stairs and i walked up with lil man *helping* me lol...
we ended up getting out of the car park after eating crap and getting more and more stressy and hurty....at 4.15 ffs!!!
didnt go food shopping, came home and raided whatever we had left in the cupboards....
apart from getting loads of goodies for the boys...the day was a disaster
they have gone shopping this morning and im stuck here cos it took me 25 bloody minutes just to get down the stairs
im in agony and feel like ive been hit by a train ARGH!!!!
so...after all that...wi today was a sts again...i guess im maintaining LMFAO!
Ive lost my mojo and just cant be arsed with anything. stick to points alllll day at nursery then hurt and stress and feeling like crap makes me just pick...not loads like i used to but still picking at crap when i aint hungry or dont NEED to ....just keep doing it.
im really struggling at the mo and not sure what im gonna do about it. I need the plan to keep me focussed and i KNOW it works...its just ME that keeps messing up. Im getting far too complacent and life takes over...im not used to having a life so its all a bit strange. Ill try again this week...not gonna have a treat today so back to giving it my best again.....hopefully a little loss will come of it by next weekend.
anyway....ramble over for now.....if you've managed to stay awake long enough to read this then thanks