Donnajt's 2012 Diary...yes I'm back!

[Loopeylou]

Oh hunny, hope your days going ok. It's awful feelin that way (((hugs))) xx

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[xsugarfairyx]

Hi Donna, sorry to hear you are feeling like that, I suffer with aniexty and really finding it hard to go to placement atm, i just feel that the children arent respecting me and I cant seem to please the class teacher I know she is only trying to improve me but just feel im useless. Hope you feel better soon Donna x

 

[Charleybarley]

Hey Donna,

How are you feeling today? x

 

[Loopeylou]

Donnaaaaa ... Hope you ok hunni xx

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[Charleybarley]

Donna! Don't make me come to Laindon to find you! I hope you are ok love. X

 

[valerie11]

hi donna hope ur ok x don't want u disappearing on us again :bighug:have a good weekend love val xx

 

[donnajt]

Weigh day!!!

I lost 2.5lbs
...and Paul lost 12lbs

 

[donnajt]

Week 2:
Tuesday 24 April 2012
Breakfast: Yogurt and banana
Lunch: Cous Cous, Crab Sticks, chopped salad, carrot sticks, grapes
Dinner: Green thai curry (5 syns)
HEA: Milk
HEB: Hi Fi Bar
Syns: Thai Green Paste (3), Philly Ex Light (3), Honey (1) = 7/15

Wednesday 25 April 2012
Breakfast: Yogurt and banana, honey
Lunch: Pasta (leftover green thai sauce) 4, carrot sticks, grapes
Dinner: Chilli con carne, rice, salad, cheese, yogurt
HEA: 30g cheddar
HEB: Hi Fi Bar
Syns: Thai Sauce (3), Chilli Mix (3), Honey (1), Freddo (6), Milk = 15/15

Thursday 26 April 2012
Breakfast: Yogurt and banana, honey
Lunch: 1x Toast, 200g Baked beans, carrot sticks, grapes
Dinner: Steak, mountain of mushrooms, noodles, mixed salad, yogurt
HEA: Milk
HEB: Toast
Syns: Maggi Mix (3), Honey (1), Choc Mousse (5) = 9/15

 

[donnajt]

Forgot to take picture of green thai curry, we mixed baby sweetcorn, mange tout and baby brocolli cooked and chopped up really small and mixed into the curry before serving delish!

Steak, Mushrooms (in Maggi Sizzling Beef Mix), Steak, Noodles

Paul's Best Ever Chilli, Rice, Cheese

Cous Cous Crab Salad

Jacket Spud, Leftover Chilli, Cheese

 

[donnajt]

I am sorry you feel that way about going to work. Its horrible dreading going into work - is there any way you can look elsewhere for a job? If it is getting you down that much, surely its best for your sanity and health to move on? Is anything in your current job likely to change to make things better? If the answer is no, then you always going to dread work. I worked in a place once where someone, just one person really picked on me, she was a bully - I used to dread getting up in the morning for work, in then end I told her what I thought of her and I walked out. It was the scariest, but most liberating thing I had done then. I found another job, it wasn't a good job but it got me by until I found a better job. But that was many moons ago and I was still at home, so I was safe. I don't think now, having a mortgage and debts I could say that I would walk out of a job. I note you have children too. Maybe you should at least think about looking for a job elsewhere - you know what they say, a change is as good as a rest!

What do you do for a living? If you don't mind me asking.

Chin up Donna.

C x
ps. Is Paul's Thai Curry SW friendly? I do love a Thai!

Hi CharleyBarleyBalls, thanks for your support, I manage Sheltered Housing for Basildon Council, I love the job its the politics and charming mad: not!) colleagues. Basically I do the estate management side (running the scheme day to day) and then I coordinate care for the elderly - and that can anything from arranging meals on wheels, domestic violence, drug abuse, paedophiles, drunks, terminal illness, carers, adaptations, social services, you name it I've done it over the last seven years.

My Manager made me ring our Workplace support company, I made my referral, you have to complete this huge online application and the counsellors were on the phone within 20 minutes lol! So I am having some counselling to help build my confidence up - starting week on Monday

Lots of little stunts have been pulled this week - had one colleague texting me at 5:50 am on Weds and her partner in crime referred to me as "someone" three times in an email - its belittling but I have decided to not let them show its affecting me - just be extra sugary sweet to piss them off lol!

Oh hunny, hope your days going ok. It's awful feelin that way (((hugs))) xx
Claire - thank you - have been rushed on my feet - my colleague was on annual leave and I have had to pick up her Surgeries on sheltered schemes that don't have a manager (don't ask what the other 4 members of the team were doing cos it was bugger all as far as I can tell, haven't even had a lunchbreak all week!)
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Hi Donna, sorry to hear you are feeling like that, I suffer with aniexty and really finding it hard to go to placement atm, i just feel that the children arent respecting me and I cant seem to please the class teacher I know she is only trying to improve me but just feel im useless. Hope you feel better soon Donna x

Hi Sugar, do you have children of your own? they are a tough audience - you need to get them on side, try and make friends with the ringleaders that always helps! I spent many hours helping with projects and reading when Megan was little, I had one girl cutting my hair - I didn't flinch, she got bored after a few snips (thank god the scissors were blunt!) when she realised I wasn't going to acknowledge her

Hey Donna,
How are you feeling today? x

Charlie - sorry as above - been so busy...been asleep by 9 but been awake by 3:30!!!

Donnaaaaa ... Hope you ok hunni xx
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Claire - its Friday night, Paul and the kids are at the caravan for the night - Paul due home tomorrow tea time and the kids are due back Sunday ...YIPPEEE!!!

Donna! Don't make me come to Laindon to find you! I hope you are ok love. X

LOL! I;ve been expecting you x

hi donna hope ur ok x don't want u disappearing on us again :bighug:have a good weekend love val xx

No Val - I am here and going strong I promise, how did the weigh in go this week?

 

[donnajt]

morning all...isnt it grim today...so fed up of this rain.

started the day with an extra healthy breakfast:
banana nat yogurt honey and a side of apples and grapes

 

[valerie11]

Hi donna glad ur still here lost 3lb but not looking good for next week :-( pigged out big time last night can't face food today yuk!!!

Well done on ur brilliant losses, have a good weekend despite the weather xx

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[donnajt]

Oh forgive me Ladies cos I have really synned, I never drink but last night I had a few too many vimtos, ate loads and then went back to my old habits...crisps and chocolate....hardly slept a week I feel so rough...am hoping I have learnt my lesson, am drawing a line and getting back on track .... Enjoy yet another wet, grey miserable day!

 

[valerie11]

Oh forgive me Ladies cos I have really synned, I never drink but last night I had a few too many vimtos, ate loads and then went back to my old habits...crisps and chocolate....hardly slept a week I feel so rough...am hoping I have learnt my lesson, am drawing a line and getting back on track .... Enjoy yet another wet, grey miserable day!
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Hi donna we all do it it's good that Uve drawn the line and are getting back on track think that's the hardest bit so well done xx

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[valerie11]

Ps where did u get the pig and red crayon drawing the line ??? Or should I say how ??? Xx

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[donnajt]

Searched images in google, saved to pc, pasted in on the picture icon

Got banging headache today - its all paul's fault - I fell into his trap - he had chinese on Friday at his mum's, I was home alone with jacket spud and chilli, so he came home with cans of stella and to sabotage me he made me drink a couple of vodka cranberry (only need 1 and i'm legless that's how often i drink) and then he started giving me chocolate and crisps...oh i hate men and why am i so flippin weak?

Anway, got cous cous loaf cooking, gonna serve with scrambled egg, bacon, roasted tomatoes and mushrooms...hangover food, kids back at lunchtime

 

[donnajt]

Hangover Cure Breakfast: (just what I needed)

Cous Cous Bread (ok but won't bother again!)
Mushrooms
Roasted cherry tomatoes
Scrambled egg (milk from allowance, salt and pepper)
Back bacon (no fat)

...going back to bed now for an hour before I have to collect kids

 

[Red Riding Hood]

Oooh good breakfast Donna, I hope you enjoyed your little treat. I'm intrigued by the cous cous bread - but you don't rate it?

Don't worry about your blip, you are back on track again now.

You and me both back on the wagon after big falls - we'll have to support each other x

 

[Red Riding Hood]

lol!!!

what a miserable morning

can u believe i feel scared to go to work today...how stupid us that i keep telling myself to stop being so bloody childish but i have a knot if anxiety that u just wouldnt believe

Just wanted to give you a hug for this - anxiety is horrible, are you feeling better now? x

 

[donnajt]

Red Riding Hood

Oooh good breakfast Donna, I hope you enjoyed your little treat. I'm intrigued by the cous cous bread - but you don't rate it?

Don't worry about your blip, you are back on track again now.

You and me both back on the wagon after big falls - we'll have to support each other x

The cous cous bread tasted like cous cous - but it was really filling and was good with the scrambled eggs and bacon. Got half of it left - thinking a couple of slices with baked beans and black pepper for lunch?

Really easy 1 cup cous cous, 1 cup boiling water, half tub creme fraiche, yog etc, mustard powder, salt and pepper (you could add cheese, sun dried tomatoes, chilli flakes etc) and one egg. Make cous cous, add all other ingredients together, blend well, pour into a loaf tin and cook for about 30-40 mins on 180

Absolutely RRH, you have my full support

Just wanted to give you a hug for this - anxiety is horrible, are you feeling better now? x

I'm feeling ok now - I start counselling next Monday but am beginning to think I am coping again, got to see my GP this week, if he decides to cut my tablets I am gonna need more than counselling lol!