dawnybabes
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Alex_1978 said:
That's fantastic - well done both of you
Enjoy !!
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That's fantastic - well done both of you
Enjoy !!
KittyBling
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Well done Alex! And himself too, hope you enjoyed the party,
KB x
KB x
jacqueline
Silver Member
well done to you both hope you enjjoy your week away from work x
tubbynomore
Gold Member
Woohoo well done. Well in the 11's
Enjoy Anglesey xxx
Enjoy Anglesey xxx
Just wanted to say I am a newbie, starting tomorrow (done LL before) and I am inspired by you having read through all your diary tonight, you are doing FANTASTICALLY! You are an inspiration to me.
However, just read you were in Aberystwyth - hope you're okay and didn't get caught up in the floods?
However, just read you were in Aberystwyth - hope you're okay and didn't get caught up in the floods?
Alex_1978
Gold Member
Aw bless you....it must read like a bit of a rollercoaster ride. I've gone from being an Exante robot to a lapsed dieter in the space of 9 months!
I must admit, I don't feel very inspirational at the moment, but that's very kind of you to say. And if my story has inspired you to start your journed then I'm proud of that at least
We were in Anglesey actually, so we weren't involved in any of the floods. They looked terrible though, didn't they? It was VERY rainy on the Thursday as we were coming home, but I think we got off lightly by the looks of things!
x
tubbynomore
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Heyyyy Alex, did you have a good time??
Alex_1978
Gold Member
Thanks everybody for your posts and for checking up on me…and sorry for neglecting my diary so much. I really do need to start updating more regularly – I think it really helps me to stay on track and stay accountable…even if I do tend to ramble!
Needless to say, last week was a bit of a dieting write-off. We had a great time at the party – ate and drank lots, and waved goodbye to Exante/S&S for the rest of the week! My only two ‘good’ days were Monday and Tuesday, when I decided to limit my calories as much as possible (in some vague hope of making up for the weekend). I managed to stick to roughly 600 calories, but without using my products – I didn’t really see the point in wasting them when I knew I wouldn’t get anywhere near ketosis in two days.
Wednesday and Thursday we spent in Anglesey, so that involved yet more eating and drinking, but also a 5-6 mile coastal walk, so we didn’t feel too guilty about that.
It was while we were in Anglesey though that I realised that despite having lost loads of weight and feeling better in myself, weight-loss does not equate to fitness. The Man’s brother and his girlfriend are super-fit – he does coast-to-coast bike rides and that kind of thing, so a 5 mile coastal walk was nothing to them. It was partly because I’d chosen the wrong thing to wear (a hoody, jeans and knee high boots) and partly because they walk about twice as fast as my natural pace, but I was totally out of my depth and very uncomfortable, especially on the big inclines when they were skipping ahead like spring lambs and I was at the back nearly dying!
I said to The Man that it reminded me of doing cross-county at school – I’d always be the one at the back, totally out of breath, bright red in the face, with the sports teacher yelling at me to get a move on. Not that anyone was yelling at me in Anglesey but I felt embarrassed and humiliated in the same way.
We’re all going on holiday again in September, and I know it’ll involve walking again, so I know I need to get fitter in time for that. Otherwise I’ll end up feeling just as frustrated and down on myself as I did in Anglesey.
All this makes it sound like I didn’t enjoy the trip, I did – in fact, we had a great time. We had a meal and drinks in the evening, which was lovely, and it was good to spend some time with everyone. The walk was just a small 2-3 hour part of it, but I don’t want to forget how it made me feel, in the hope that I’ll be inspired to get fitter (and slimmer) in time for the next holiday.
Anyway, onto the rest of the week - Friday was a kind of intermediate day for me, I didn’t diet as such, but I stuck to around 1700 calories that day, which was my aim, and I enjoyed the food I ate, which was a positive thing (no junk food, but with a few treats here and there).
I weighed in on Saturday partly because I’d weighed in the previous Saturday, and partly because I knew I was going to carry on eating that day and Sunday and didn’t want to record any added weight loss (yeah I know it’s avoidance/cheating!). The result was a 4.5lb gain, which took me back up to 12st 1.5. I was okay with that actually, as I normally gain 3lbs when I re-carb without over-eating.
I don’ know what came over me after that though – I think I was relieved about such a relatively small gain, and also just didn’t want to think about food and calories for a day or two, but I massively overate over the weekend. I won’t go into it too much, but pub meals, take-aways and cake/chocolate were all involved.
I really don’t know what’s got into me just lately (other than pizza haha!) – when I looked back on my diary to March/April, I’d got to the point where I was almost scared of food – I saw any social invitation as a negative thing – something that would take me further away from where I wanted to be.
But not now – I seem to be taking any opportunity for extended breaks, and I’m back in the habit of bingeing during my breaks.
I know it’s not as bad as it used to be, because I’m still conscious of the result/consequences, and I’m still trying to rein myself in on certain days (like Mon/Tues/Fri last week) but I don’t want to get back into that habit of burying my head in the sand about the food I’m eating, and making every ‘break’ an opportunity to binge.
I think really I need to find a happy medium somewhere – something in between fear of food, and disregard for food if you see what I mean.
And sometimes The Man and I can be a bad influence on each other – we can easily justify take-aways, treats and big portions to each other, and in some ways that makes it seem more ‘normal’ when in fact, it’s not a normal eating pattern at all.
On a more positive note, I’m back to the grindstone now and hoping to undo the damage pretty quickly. If I’m 12st or thereabouts by Sunday I’ll be thrilled, anything else I’d be ecstatic about.
My next aim is to get into the mid 11s and stay there or thereabouts throughout the summer. I’ve got so many things coming up over the next couple of months, and I think I’d be putting too much pressure on myself to lose a lot. Instead, I want to get to the point where having a ‘bad’ weekend doesn’t take me back into the 12s….and I think 11st 7/8 should secure that.
I don’t have anything coming up, except a spa day until 30[SUP]th[/SUP] June, so lets hope I can at least get back to 11 11 by then, if not a bit lighter.
x
Needless to say, last week was a bit of a dieting write-off. We had a great time at the party – ate and drank lots, and waved goodbye to Exante/S&S for the rest of the week! My only two ‘good’ days were Monday and Tuesday, when I decided to limit my calories as much as possible (in some vague hope of making up for the weekend). I managed to stick to roughly 600 calories, but without using my products – I didn’t really see the point in wasting them when I knew I wouldn’t get anywhere near ketosis in two days.
Wednesday and Thursday we spent in Anglesey, so that involved yet more eating and drinking, but also a 5-6 mile coastal walk, so we didn’t feel too guilty about that.
It was while we were in Anglesey though that I realised that despite having lost loads of weight and feeling better in myself, weight-loss does not equate to fitness. The Man’s brother and his girlfriend are super-fit – he does coast-to-coast bike rides and that kind of thing, so a 5 mile coastal walk was nothing to them. It was partly because I’d chosen the wrong thing to wear (a hoody, jeans and knee high boots) and partly because they walk about twice as fast as my natural pace, but I was totally out of my depth and very uncomfortable, especially on the big inclines when they were skipping ahead like spring lambs and I was at the back nearly dying!
I said to The Man that it reminded me of doing cross-county at school – I’d always be the one at the back, totally out of breath, bright red in the face, with the sports teacher yelling at me to get a move on. Not that anyone was yelling at me in Anglesey but I felt embarrassed and humiliated in the same way.
We’re all going on holiday again in September, and I know it’ll involve walking again, so I know I need to get fitter in time for that. Otherwise I’ll end up feeling just as frustrated and down on myself as I did in Anglesey.
All this makes it sound like I didn’t enjoy the trip, I did – in fact, we had a great time. We had a meal and drinks in the evening, which was lovely, and it was good to spend some time with everyone. The walk was just a small 2-3 hour part of it, but I don’t want to forget how it made me feel, in the hope that I’ll be inspired to get fitter (and slimmer) in time for the next holiday.
Anyway, onto the rest of the week - Friday was a kind of intermediate day for me, I didn’t diet as such, but I stuck to around 1700 calories that day, which was my aim, and I enjoyed the food I ate, which was a positive thing (no junk food, but with a few treats here and there).
I weighed in on Saturday partly because I’d weighed in the previous Saturday, and partly because I knew I was going to carry on eating that day and Sunday and didn’t want to record any added weight loss (yeah I know it’s avoidance/cheating!). The result was a 4.5lb gain, which took me back up to 12st 1.5. I was okay with that actually, as I normally gain 3lbs when I re-carb without over-eating.
I don’ know what came over me after that though – I think I was relieved about such a relatively small gain, and also just didn’t want to think about food and calories for a day or two, but I massively overate over the weekend. I won’t go into it too much, but pub meals, take-aways and cake/chocolate were all involved.
I really don’t know what’s got into me just lately (other than pizza haha!) – when I looked back on my diary to March/April, I’d got to the point where I was almost scared of food – I saw any social invitation as a negative thing – something that would take me further away from where I wanted to be.
But not now – I seem to be taking any opportunity for extended breaks, and I’m back in the habit of bingeing during my breaks.
I know it’s not as bad as it used to be, because I’m still conscious of the result/consequences, and I’m still trying to rein myself in on certain days (like Mon/Tues/Fri last week) but I don’t want to get back into that habit of burying my head in the sand about the food I’m eating, and making every ‘break’ an opportunity to binge.
I think really I need to find a happy medium somewhere – something in between fear of food, and disregard for food if you see what I mean.
And sometimes The Man and I can be a bad influence on each other – we can easily justify take-aways, treats and big portions to each other, and in some ways that makes it seem more ‘normal’ when in fact, it’s not a normal eating pattern at all.
On a more positive note, I’m back to the grindstone now and hoping to undo the damage pretty quickly. If I’m 12st or thereabouts by Sunday I’ll be thrilled, anything else I’d be ecstatic about.
My next aim is to get into the mid 11s and stay there or thereabouts throughout the summer. I’ve got so many things coming up over the next couple of months, and I think I’d be putting too much pressure on myself to lose a lot. Instead, I want to get to the point where having a ‘bad’ weekend doesn’t take me back into the 12s….and I think 11st 7/8 should secure that.
I don’t have anything coming up, except a spa day until 30[SUP]th[/SUP] June, so lets hope I can at least get back to 11 11 by then, if not a bit lighter.
x
tubbynomore
Gold Member
:wow: I managed to read all your ramblings
Well done hun you have got your focused head on again and you are being realistic with where you are and where you want to be.
I can relate to what you have written cos I have sort of done the same in my diary. I am going to try to maintain where I am for now to let my head catch up with my body. I love the new me and I'm scared of putting it back on but this time I know I won't
It has been a hard slog and I certainly don't want to go through all that again.
Well done, no mention of 'The Man' tho, how did he do?
Well done hun you have got your focused head on again and you are being realistic with where you are and where you want to be.
I can relate to what you have written cos I have sort of done the same in my diary. I am going to try to maintain where I am for now to let my head catch up with my body. I love the new me and I'm scared of putting it back on but this time I know I won't
It has been a hard slog and I certainly don't want to go through all that again.
Well done, no mention of 'The Man' tho, how did he do?
Alex_1978
Gold Member
He he! You did well to read all that lot. I think half my problem is that I don't update often enough, so you end up with two weeks worth in one go! And as you know, I've become very reflective while I've been on a VCLD, and my diary must come across as very self-indulgent and overly deep and meaningful at times! So well done to those of you who persevere with me!
I think self-reflection is probably going to be the key to my continued success though - At the beginning I needed to take food out of the picture and to shift some weight pretty rapidly, but now I've done that and I'm reintroducing food every so often, I'm surpising myself at how differently I behave towards food on each occasion. I know I'm yet to find that happy medium between fear of food, and disreagard for it, but I'm hoping that what I'm learning now will help me never put the weight on again aftwerwards.
Anyway, onto The Man - he was off-plan from the party until this Monday, just like me - but he didn't have any restricted calorie days like I did. He doesn't really see the point when the week is already a write-off. I weighed him on Monday morning, so his gain is a truer one than my Saturday weigh-in, but he did gain quite a lot (I won't say how much, because he didn't want to know and he can't see the scales without his glasses). He's back on plan again now though, and seems determined to give it a good shot over the next few weeks.
I think we're both doing the right thing Ali, with regard to taking a little 'pause' from determined weight loss. It does take a long time for your head to catch up with your body, so maybe it time to stake stock and think about where we are now, and where we want to be. I'm going to continue doing my little mix of S&S/Exante for the majority of the time, but I know it won't result in any sustainable losses as my social things will write that off. I do plan to have another good crack at getting to goal in the autumn though, if not before.
Onto other news, I have two job interviews lined up over the next couple of weeks, so the anxiety should burn off a few more calories!!
x
I think self-reflection is probably going to be the key to my continued success though - At the beginning I needed to take food out of the picture and to shift some weight pretty rapidly, but now I've done that and I'm reintroducing food every so often, I'm surpising myself at how differently I behave towards food on each occasion. I know I'm yet to find that happy medium between fear of food, and disreagard for it, but I'm hoping that what I'm learning now will help me never put the weight on again aftwerwards.
Anyway, onto The Man - he was off-plan from the party until this Monday, just like me - but he didn't have any restricted calorie days like I did. He doesn't really see the point when the week is already a write-off. I weighed him on Monday morning, so his gain is a truer one than my Saturday weigh-in, but he did gain quite a lot (I won't say how much, because he didn't want to know and he can't see the scales without his glasses). He's back on plan again now though, and seems determined to give it a good shot over the next few weeks.
I think we're both doing the right thing Ali, with regard to taking a little 'pause' from determined weight loss. It does take a long time for your head to catch up with your body, so maybe it time to stake stock and think about where we are now, and where we want to be. I'm going to continue doing my little mix of S&S/Exante for the majority of the time, but I know it won't result in any sustainable losses as my social things will write that off. I do plan to have another good crack at getting to goal in the autumn though, if not before.
Onto other news, I have two job interviews lined up over the next couple of weeks, so the anxiety should burn off a few more calories!!
x
*bridezilla*
New Year, New Me
Hi alex, glad you had a great time away...sounds like fun! Minus the walking!
Definitely think you're doing use right thing in letting your head catch up. I thinks thats why so many people put it back on as we think that we can carry on eating the same as before.
Your posts are always soo positive and make me feel motivated! Good luck x
Definitely think you're doing use right thing in letting your head catch up. I thinks thats why so many people put it back on as we think that we can carry on eating the same as before.
Your posts are always soo positive and make me feel motivated! Good luck x
Alex_1978
Gold Member
Aw thanks Shelly - I thought my posts would have the opposite effect on people! I'm constantly jumping off and on the wagon at the moment, so I presumed that people would be thinking "come on girl, just get on with it!"
I'm massively hungry today, and it's only 10:20, so I have a feeling it's going to be a long day! My friend & colleague has invited me for a costa coffee after work, so I might just treat myself to a cappuccino It'll be my only treat between weigh-ins though, so I don't think I'll worry too much about it.
I've already checked out their website, and the coffee I'll have will be aroung 100 calories and about 16g of carbs. I know that's quite a lot, but the way I'm doing things at the moment (low calorie protein meal in the evening) does leave me with some leeway on carbs.
Must avoid the cake....must avoid the biscuits....must avoid the chocolate!
I'm massively hungry today, and it's only 10:20, so I have a feeling it's going to be a long day! My friend & colleague has invited me for a costa coffee after work, so I might just treat myself to a cappuccino
It'll be my only treat between weigh-ins though, so I don't think I'll worry too much about it.I've already checked out their website, and the coffee I'll have will be aroung 100 calories and about 16g of carbs. I know that's quite a lot, but the way I'm doing things at the moment (low calorie protein meal in the evening) does leave me with some leeway on carbs.
Must avoid the cake....must avoid the biscuits....must avoid the chocolate!
Alex_1978
Gold Member
Weigh in day today, and I'm pleased to report a loss of 2.5lbs, despite my little bingeathon after weigh in last weekend I'm so glad to be back in the 11s, and hopefully next week I should be back to my lowest weight of 11 11 or even below (that would be brilliant!).
I can finally report on The Man's gain's/losses, as he knows the results now. He gained 13.5lbs after our week off (roughly what he guessed when I asked him last night), but he managed to lose 10lbs this week, despite having lunch out on Thursday with his family He's really pleased with that, and seems glad that he doesn't have anything planned over the next few weeks, so should be able to make some headway.
I, on the other hand seem to have soooo much stuff coming up, it's unbelievable! Last night I had a text from my Virgin air hostess friend asking if I wanted to go with her on an 8 night trip to Hong Kong and Sydney! Of course, I said yes, but I know that my colleague is on holiday at the same time so I'm going to have to beg my manager to let me have the time off! It's 50/50 really, depending on what mood she's in, but keep your fingers crossed for me!
And if I do get to go, I know I won't be worried about seatbelts and lap trays and all that stuff, which will feel brilliant. Last time I was desperate for an upgrade, but not because I wanted luxury, just because I knew the seats were bigger! This time, I don't care if I'm in economy, or even on a jump seat (it could happen if the flight is full), because I know I won't be too big for either
I'll have to be careful with what I eat though - the wedding at which I'm bridesmaid will be about two weeks after I get back, so there won't be any leeway for big gains!
Anyway, better get some interview preparation done...I need to focus on that for the time being!
x
I'm so glad to be back in the 11s, and hopefully next week I should be back to my lowest weight of 11 11 or even below (that would be brilliant!).I can finally report on The Man's gain's/losses, as he knows the results now. He gained 13.5lbs after our week off (roughly what he guessed when I asked him last night), but he managed to lose 10lbs this week, despite having lunch out on Thursday with his family
He's really pleased with that, and seems glad that he doesn't have anything planned over the next few weeks, so should be able to make some headway. I, on the other hand seem to have soooo much stuff coming up, it's unbelievable! Last night I had a text from my Virgin air hostess friend asking if I wanted to go with her on an 8 night trip to Hong Kong and Sydney! Of course, I said yes, but I know that my colleague is on holiday at the same time so I'm going to have to beg my manager to let me have the time off! It's 50/50 really, depending on what mood she's in, but keep your fingers crossed for me!
And if I do get to go, I know I won't be worried about seatbelts and lap trays and all that stuff, which will feel brilliant. Last time I was desperate for an upgrade, but not because I wanted luxury, just because I knew the seats were bigger! This time, I don't care if I'm in economy, or even on a jump seat (it could happen if the flight is full), because I know I won't be too big for either
I'll have to be careful with what I eat though - the wedding at which I'm bridesmaid will be about two weeks after I get back, so there won't be any leeway for big gains!
Anyway, better get some interview preparation done...I need to focus on that for the time being!
x
dawnybabes
Full Member
Alex_1978 said:Weigh in day today, and I'm pleased to report a loss of 2.5lbs, despite my little bingeathon after weigh in last weekend
I can finally report on The Man's gain's/losses, as he knows the results now. He gained 13.5lbs after our week off (roughly what he guessed when I asked him last night), but he managed to lose 10lbs this week, despite having lunch out on Thursday with his family
I, on the other hand seem to have soooo much stuff coming up, it's unbelievable! Last night I had a text from my Virgin air hostess friend asking if I wanted to go with her on an 8 night trip to Hong Kong and Sydney! Of course, I said yes, but I know that my colleague is on holiday at the same time so I'm going to have to beg my manager to let me have the time off! It's 50/50 really, depending on what mood she's in, but keep your fingers crossed for me!
And if I do get to go, I know I won't be worried about seatbelts and lap trays and all that stuff, which will feel brilliant. Last time I was desperate for an upgrade, but not because I wanted luxury, just because I knew the seats were bigger! This time, I don't care if I'm in economy, or even on a jump seat (it could happen if the flight is full), because I know I won't be too big for either
I'll have to be careful with what I eat though - the wedding at which I'm bridesmaid will be about two weeks after I get back, so there won't be any leeway for big gains!
Anyway, better get some interview preparation done...I need to focus on that for the time being!
x
Oooh what a fab offer ! Hope your boss is in a good mood...
Yay to weight xxxx
*bridezilla*
New Year, New Me
Well done on the loss and....wowee....what an offer for a holiday! I wish I had friends like that!
Be on your best behaviour for your boss! Or see if you can help arrange some cover that might help! X
I'm soo jealous x
Be on your best behaviour for your boss! Or see if you can help arrange some cover that might help! X
I'm soo jealous x
jacqueline
Silver Member
Well done on your loss, and what a fab offer from your friend! i do hope your manager has had a good weekend and in a good mood when you ask her, it would be very mean for her to say no! good luck xx
tubbynomore
Gold Member
woohoo well done on your loss and :wow: what a fab friend you have, really hope your boss says yes xx
