Hello!
Well it's been another spell with no update from me - but I've been plodding on as normal.
Last week's result was a STS for me and a 0.5lb gain for The Man. Neither of us minded that, as we'd both been off plan for two days the previous week.
I've weighed in early today, as I'm on a hen do tonight, and was really pleased to see that in five days I'd lost another 2lbs, taking me to 11st 4.5lbs! Those 10s almost feel within my reach now, which is something I really can't get my head around!
But back to the here-and-now...I went shopping yesterday with The Man's mum - mostly looking for bits and bobs (shoes/tops etc) for my new job, but also just a general mooch around the shops. Anyway, for some reason I've had my heart set on a new maxi dress (god knows why in this weather), but none were really floating my boat. It got towards the end of the day and we were about to head back to the car, when one caught my eye in Dorothy Perkins - It was from their Billie and Blossom range, bandeau style, longer at the back than the front, and the pattern was really pretty. The only problem was that it was only a 16 :-/ - now, I know I'm a comfortable 16 on the bottom (nearly ready for 14s) but I always go up a size in dresses so they don't cling on my belly and hips
But I thought I'd try it anyway...and to my amazement it fitted!!! I didn't get the full impression at the time because I kept my jeans on, and I didn't have a strapless bra, but I could tell I liked it, and The Man's mum liked it too, so I got it
So this morning I decided to try it on, without jeans and with some more suitable underwear, and to be perfectly honest....I was beaming from ear to ear. Yes, I'm still a bit chubby, and I have masses of loose skin so I'll need a shrug to cover the bingo wings....but I looked at myself in the mirror and thought, you know what? You look like a normal 34 year old woman
Not perfect, not slim, not toned, but more normal than I've ever felt. And that felt great! I don't think of myself as a vain person, but I think today I saw myself as I really am, and realised how much my body is changing. I've been so fixated on my problem areas (bingo wings, belly, hips) that I'd completely missed the emerging shape of the rest of my body...in fact, it was like looking at someone else's legs because I hadn't noticed the shape of my calves at all!
I know this has been a bit of a self-indulgent ramble, and I'm not really big headed about my appearance or weight loss, or any of that stuff (I'm living proof that pride comes before a fall, given that I'll fallen on this dieting path so many times), but I really wanted to tell people who understand how it feels not to blend in with the crowd. Because that's all I want really - I don't want to be the skinniest, lightest, or have the best figure. Average will do for me...and I'm getting there!
By the way, this is the dress (without me in it) if anyone is interested
