eee look another food diary!

[charl_young]

Well I didn't swim! We went to marksies as bf got some vouchers for his bday and we bought loads of nice fish which is usually too expensive. I definitely couldn't be vegan I was brought up on a farm and love meat, I love animals too, but I like eating them. I love frittatas! So good and also versatile as breakie ones are lush. I like tofu, you could make some really good Asian noodle soups with it. (I'm a little obsessed with noodle bowl soup at the mo!) xx

 

[Keldelacoe]

boo to the swiming (tut tut yes was thinking about a ramen ... need to add noodles to my next delivery . going im to have a go at sushi this weekend. Hoping to produce some good veggie sushi as im not giving that up lol

 

[charl_young]

Ah I used to make sushi loads! It's actually really easy, I had fish and my kids used to have blanched asparagus and cucumber. X

 

[Keldelacoe]

Ah I used to make sushi loads! It's actually really easy, I had fish and my kids used to have blanched asparagus and cucumber. X

Cool! I have had the stuff ages but never got round to making it! Did you fan the rice? X

 

[charl_young]

Fan it? I've never read that on the packets I've bought before. All mine says is cook for 15 mins then turn off and leave lid on for 20 mins more, then add mirin and rice vinegar, sugar and salt and it's always been good. Once it's cooled, takes quite a long time though x

 

[Keldelacoe]

Fan it? I've never read that on the packets I've bought before. All mine says is cook for 15 mins then turn off and leave lid on for 20 mins more, then add mirin and rice vinegar, sugar and salt and it's always been good. Once it's cooled, takes quite a long time though x

Lol yeah was hoping I did not have to stand there with a bambo fan ! Books I read and on you tube shows them faning it! Happy to leave it out though
Now x

 

[charl_young]

Well After a really good day I think I might have gone over syns. Had 2 onion bajees (tesco ones) with my curry so probably did. Was really good curry tho! Oh well! X

 

[Keldelacoe]

you made the sweet potato and red onion bajais ...have chickpeas in too. really tasty

 

[charl_young]

Oo no! They sound lush! X

 

[Keldelacoe]

Purplebint on here blog - heres the recipe Sweet Potato and Red Onion Bhaji – Syn Free » Om Nom 365 she does some great food....and eats meat lol

 

[charl_young]

Ooo they sound great! I'll do them next time

Today I'm having a fishy day. Loads of fish!! Loving it at the mo, and also lower in fat so hoping for a loss on Friday despite being awful fri-sun. Drinking loads of green as well. had a really really bad stomach yesterday which after being blocked up for about 2 weeks actually felt good to get rid of loads, less bloated today, which I've been feeling so badly for weeks. (sorry that's a bit rank I know!)

EE DAY : Wednesday

Breakfast : smoked salmon, 2 poached eggs, toast (hexB) tomato sauce (1syn) strawberries

Snack : alpen bar (3syns)

Lunch : grilled fish (pangasius? A new one for me!) new potatoes with mint, watercress, cherry tomato, cucumber, spring onion.

Snack : southern fried chicken mini fillet (baked) (3syns)

Dinner : marinaded tuna steaks, noodles, (beansprouts, water chestnuts, peppers, carrot) 6 bean salad (spring onion, lemon)

Drinks : tea w/milk (hexA) water, green tea with lemon.

Syns : twix ice cream (6syns)

TOTAL SYNS : 13

 

[charl_young]

Had yet more arguements last night, I'm beginning to wonder if this is worth it. One of my twins has been acting up really badly lately and he said last night he doesn't ever listen to the words I say as he just wants to live with his dad and doesn't like being here. Which was pretty horrible to hear, I obviously had a cry about it, the worst thing is is their dad doesn't really make any effort with them, never asks to have them more than he has to, and didn't give me any child support for 6 months! He doesn't read with them, or help with their educational development at all. So to hear that hurt loads especially from a 5 year old that you would think would love me. Bf said I need to grow up when I was crying. Seriously worst response ever, so I just went to bed and had some time on my own, as I can't really be bothered to fight with him as well as my boy. bad day im feeling pretty unappreciated all round since i do everything for all of them which goes unthanked as usual. Bf has lived with me a year now and im wondering if its just that kinda time where its make or break. Like honeymoon periods over and time to readjust and decide what kind of future we want (if there is even one to have) anyway food wise I've been really good since Sunday, so hoping I've at least balanced out the bad with STS or a little loss would be good.

EE DAY - Thursday

Breakfast : 'fried' potato, grilled beefsteak tomAto, lean bacon, mushrooms.

Snack : alpen light (hexB)

Lunch : riso gallo risotto, add quorn, peas, mushrooms, basil i grew watercress, parmesan (hexA-half)

Dinner : gammon, pineapple, homemade chips, peas and salad. tomato sauce (2syns) mayo (0.5syns) spray oil (1syn)

Snack : WW cheese puffs (3.5syns)

Drinks : tea w/milk (little hexA) green tea, water

TOTAL SYNS : 7

 

[Keldelacoe]

its true to say kids are really affected by this sort of thing long term even when you think they arnt. I think that's all I would need to get the relationship by the balls and do something even if that means a break/ spilting up whatever. Nothing is ever worth loosing or damaging your kids and it can happen when its too late ...x

 

[Keldelacoe]

yesterdays food looked goooood btw x

 

[charl_young]

Yeah that's why I split up with the boys dad, the problem is is unfortunately their dad is really just a glorified babysitter rather than a caregiver, so all he does is see them every other weekend and take them to soft play so it's always fun. Therefore jack just thinks if he's there full time that's what it'll be. Which obviously it won't. Adam the other twin is the opposite and wants to be here all the time, he doesn't really like it at his dads.

My and bf don't ever argue in front of the boys they were already asleep when this happened, and he was asleep when we got up for school so they don't know anythings wrong. Ive tried explaining to jack why it's hurtful to say these things and it's made me feel very upset, but he just can't express himself at all, he just says he doesn't understand what I'm saying, and that if he lived with his dad he wouldn't really see him as he would be at work all the time so he'd really be with his girlfriend and not really with his dad much at all. He still said he'd prefer it. I'd be gutted if he wasn't here, it'd be awful taking Adam to and seeing jack there but knowing he wasn't with me.

 

[charl_young]

Sorry that sent a bit early. I knew I didn't love the boys dad anymore and the living situation was awful which is why I left, but this is different and kinda harder as I do love my bf very much, it's just hard as he doesn't quite get why i respond to my kids how I do as they aren't his, he always thinks I'm too soft and take it to heart but he doesn't get how much it affects you when they say these things when all I try to do is make their lives happy as its hard enough on them going between the 2 houses anyway. This morn is awful, he just got up and hasn't even bothered really talking to me apart from to ask how much money he owes me. Sound! God men and women are so different. X

 

[charl_young]

Yay! At last a loss after STS and bouncing around the same 2lbs for 4 weeks I've lost 2lbs! Yesssss! Phew was losing faith there! X

 

[icklerockchick]

Nice one on the loss! Sorry to hear you are having a tough time, of course it's going to be hurtful when the little one says that but as you say he thinks going to dads is just all fun as they get to play its you doing all the parenting and discipline and necessary evils. He doesn't mean it and loves you very much. It's only now I am grown up that I realise how hurtful all the things I said in arguments with my mum would be. They mean the world to you and everything you do is for them so of course it's not silly to be upset by it but try not to take it to heart they don't really mean it and you still have the teenage years to endure lmao!! ;-) xx

 

[charl_young]

I know I'm being oversensitive and it's going to get a lot worse than that I would imagine in years to come. It just hurts a bit, and all I really wanted was a hug. Theyre at their dads this weekend so hopefully he'll come home in a better mood. Feeling v hungry this morning so had a pretty big breakfast. I love what you can eat on SW without actually using any syns still amazes me this far in!

EE day - Friday

Breakfast : syn free sausage, turkey bacon, 'fried' potato and egg, mushrooms and grilled tomato. Pineapple lolly

Lunch : noodles with veg (carrot, water chestnut, mushroom, pepper, red onion, soy beans) quorn pieces

Snack : cocopops cereal bar, ww cheese curls, sugar free marshmallows, options, squirt cream(14)

Dinner : mussels, homemade sauce (cherry Tom, button mushrooms, red onion, fresh herbs, white wine (1syn) ff fromage frais) sweet potato chips, salad, wholemeal roll (hexB)

Drinks : green tea, tea w/milk (little bit hexA) water

TOTAL SYNS : 15

 

[charl_young]

Oh dear had a very bad food day today. Not with what I've eaten meal wise that's been good but major sweet treats attack! Rarrr! If I have v low syns tomorrow and monday though I should be ok. Done absolutely nothing today as I'm super skint, and didn't even wake up properly until 12!! Lazy cow!

EE DAY - Saturday

Breakfast : Smoked salmon, 2 poached eggs, toast (hexB) (1syn flora) (1syn tomato sauce)

Lunch : roast salmon fillets, noodles and veg (pepper, mushroom, carrot, waterchestnut), 4 bean salad

Dinner : pork, new potatoes, lots of veg(carrot, cabbage, brocolli). (1syn flora light) (2syns gravy)

Syns : options w/squirt cream and marshmallow (4syns) WW choc dessert (5syns) chocolate cake (21syns) bad bad baaaad me!!!! Oh well! At least it's all controlled syns I can claw back and not a ridiculous uncountable amount of boozyness!

Drinks : tea w/milk (hexA) water, coke zero

Total syns : 35