Ella Belle's SF Diary

[Ella Belle]

My stomach is being very strange and weird...it's like it's talking..I must be full of wind but I dont feel like I am..it's keeping OH and me entertained anyway

 

[Atomic pink]

Food looks really good. I love gherkins in wraps. When on SW someone found a recipe for a pancake-type wrap made just from soaked mung beans (it really was delicious and nutty tasting) and I used to have it with extra light mayo with wasabi, chopped gherkins and spring onions and smoked mackerel. If only smoked mackerel was free on SF I would start making them again.

I really enjoy exercise ache too. Was quite disappointed that kettlebells the other morning never ended up aching that much at all Feel like I need to go in search of something new which will hurt now!

 

[Ella Belle]

I love gherkins too but I've never tried Ming beans..I'll have to investigate! A lot more achey today, putting off getting up as the first thing i have to do is a 9mile jog I'll love it when I'm finished

 

[bulldogdaisy]

I love gherkins too but I've never tried Ming beans..I'll have to investigate! A lot more achey today, putting off getting up as the first thing i have to do is a 9mile jog I'll love it when I'm finished

9 miles? Impressive as always! Yum to gherkins,used to love a gherkin sarnie ;0)

 

[Atomic pink]

9 mile job?? Eek. 9 mile walk would be fine but can't imagine jogging that far. I can't imagine jogging more than a few hundred metres to be honest!

Somewhat amused at the typo of "ming beans" sounds like you aren't expecting to like them much!

Hope your job goes well and sets you up well for the rest of the weekend. Saturday morning exercise is good for that.

 

[Ella Belle]

Ha, ha Ming beans...subconscious typing error perhaps...

It's not so much Saturday morning as the afternoon now but here goes...

 

[sarah88]

Ur doing really well on the 0 weeklies thing! What yoghurt did u have for ur snack thismorning? Ur day looks good foodwise and exercise is looking good too! 1 more day of shred!!! Did u enjoy ur jog?

Atomic I would try kettlebells again, maybe do 2 days in a row! I didn't hurt much the day after, it was more day 2/3, I'm on day 5 now and the ache is almost all gone!

 

[Atomic pink]

I tried to book into the Tuesday morning class again but it was full so doing the wednesday evening one instead. That one is meant to be more around bigger moves with higher weights rather than lots of repititions. We shall see. I think its probably the fact that I am doing lots of different types of exercise at the moment which means things don't ache. And its the doing lots of different things thats keeping me motivating.

 

[sarah88]

I tried to book into the Tuesday morning class again but it was full so doing the wednesday evening one instead. That one is meant to be more around bigger moves with higher weights rather than lots of repititions. We shall see. I think its probably the fact that I am doing lots of different types of exercise at the moment which means things don't ache. And its the doing lots of different things thats keeping me motivating.

It's prob best to vary it, u won't get board with it then!

 

[Ella Belle]

The jog was good I was expecting to find it a lot harder at the end as when I did 7miles last week the last mile felt like torture but I felt okay today. Again, it was a very slow jog but as it was the first 9miles I've done in about 4 years I'm happy!! I've also done my 2hr Mountain walk but in between I had an enormous portion of Moussaka. I didn't feel full after it but about half way on the walk I started to feel it..bleurgh..anyway, about to roast a chicken now and I think because of the mountainous lunch I'm going to have a chicken salad for dinner..though I might add a crumpet to it for yumminess!

I didn't have any yogurt today Sarah but usually I just have natural yogurt on it's own during the day. I read something once that yogurt and dairy in general have some effect on the lungs so I try not to have any before exercise. Will be having some later though with some melon I've also decided to treat myself with some coke zero this evening ..mmm

Once the chicken is roasting I shall be doing my 30th Shred..Whoop whoop!! I'm glad to be at the end of it, I know I'll do the work outs again but I'll still be glad the pressure to do them is gone from my brain. Ripped in 30 next week...we'll see how it goes. I have to say I tried on a few bits of clothes today that even though I'm bigger than I have been at other times I think I'm more defined, certainly my waist and under boob region seems a lot smaller for the size I am. I tried on a dress that I bought before Christmas, I was smaller then than now but the dress fits much more comfortably under my chest than then. I've decided I'm going to wear it to the wedding I have in a few weeks..relief to not have to go shopping..I'm one of those girls that really doesn't like shopping very much except for the very odd occasion when I spend a fortune!

Anyway, I'm going to make a rub for the chicken to make it kind of spicier and also instead of a lemon, which I usually use, I'm going to put a lime in it today..as I have far too many and they need to be used !!

 

[Ella Belle]

I should actually say that having no weeklies is challenging. Not so much from the meal aspect but that part of my brain that feels it deserves a treat is screaming at me right now..hence the coke zero later. I was just in the shop on the way back from the mountain and I was looking at all the Special K snack things and inside my head I was screaming for them...I don't even really like them...that's the part of me that I need to sort out. I was reading somewhere on here I think about how this dieting thing is not temporary, we have to learn a new way to live and be..it has really affected me. I guess I'm always saying to myself that this is only 'for now' but really I need to understand that I'm never going to be able to sit down at night with 4 packets of crisps and 2 bars of chocolate and wash it down with a bottle of wine. I have to get it out of my head that it's okay to do that. Like OH can sit and eat a few biscuits and then put the packet away, I don't think I've ever in my life had a couple of biscuits (except when other people are around), I always finish the packet, even to the point where I might feel sick. I need to learn that it's okay and normal to not have trash every day. Anyway, these are all things I'll need to really concentrate on and think about when I get nearer to goal as I honestly do not want to have to be in this position again. I want us all to work hard now and then eventually get to our goals and be cheering eachother on from the 'Maintainers' section for evermore without having to spend much time worrying about putting on weight again.

Okay, really must do the bloody chicken now..

 

[Ella Belle]

Week 6 Day 4

B - shredded wheat
S - 1/2 banana
L - moussaka - large portion
D - roast chicken, veg, cous cous & salad
S - melon & yogurt

Can of coke zero, 7-up free

Exercise - 9mile jog (1hr 43mins), 2hr mountain walk, Shred D30 (whoop whoop..30 Day Shred officially completed!!!)

Okay...so I am totally fighting cravings for something..anything..I just want to eat something that's a treat but I can't..and I will not give in..I'm watching 'Legally Blonde'..God it's stupid but it's mindless switch off type fun. I plan to go to bed very soon to stave off the temptation!!

 

[sarah88]

Come on u can fight those cravings! If I can u can!

I totally agree on u with the whole for life thing I too keep feeling like I will b able to go back to previous eating when I hit goal but I know deep down I will never b able to do that again! That's something I also need to work on!

Great work with the exercise! Was ur salad tasty? I think the yoghurt was from yesterdays diary! Food still sounds tasty! Keep up the hard work, ur doing great!

 

[Ella Belle]

Thanks Sarah, I am fighting them at the moment and planning to go to bed in a minute. The chicken salad was delicious, I did add a bit of cous cous though, just a very small amount to thicken it up a little. I also added some fat free vinaigrette.

I'm hoping the key to learning new eating patterns will be keeping with ww. So long as I'm points aware I think it'll be harder to fall off the wagon. Anyway, it's a long way away yet..hopefully by 2013 I'll be facing into maintenance It's such a long time away still but actually only 23 more weeks..that's scary isn't it?!!

 

[sarah88]

Thanks Sarah, I am fighting them at the moment and planning to go to bed in a minute. The chicken salad was delicious, I did add a bit of cous cous though, just a very small amount to thicken it up a little. I also added some fat free vinaigrette.

I'm hoping the key to learning new eating patterns will be keeping with ww. So long as I'm points aware I think it'll be harder to fall off the wagon. Anyway, it's a long way away yet..hopefully by 2013 I'll be facing into maintenance It's such a long time away still but actually only 23 more weeks..that's scary isn't it?!!

Wow better start saving for Xmas! I said when I started Ww that I hoped if I stuck at it long enough that it would stick in my head and totally change my eating habits, but 6/7 months on I'm still eat like I used to when I have a day off, I begin to wonder how long it's gonna take?

 

[Ella Belle]

I know, it's very hard Sarah, but we're trying to change habits of a lifetime, it won't happen for us in just a few months. The thing I'm hoping to do is question myself, if I can ask myself the question of whether I need the food or whatever, or whether I should have it then maybe some of the time I won't have it.

 

[Purpled]

Hi Hun!

Fooooks great! I was just reading the goals on your sig! How tall are you? Just curious!

An 9mile run is incredible! Your so fit! I could do 9k haha! If you can run 9 miles your pretty much at half a marathon

 

[Atomic pink]

Food, as always, sounding fab. Really fancy mousaka next week at some point now, although I expect I will wait til next weekend when OH is at work as he would strongly object to aubergines.

I think what you wrote about changing habits for life and not feeling that your thinking is there yet is really interesting. I have been doing this losing weight thing for nearly 3 years now and I am clearly not the finished product by a long long way but I do think 90 % of the time I do find myself able to have a bit of a treat and stop without losing the plot. That really isn't where I started out. I used to eat stuff in secret alot, there would always be a stash of chocolate or something hidden somewhere so my OH didn't know if I ate it and when we went on holiday I would have to make sure I had packed secret food like a packet of crisps or some biscuits or something as I was terrified of being hungry and not being able to eat something. I would sometimes stop at macdonalds or the supermarket hot counters and get a burger or a sausage roll when I was at work and then come back to the office and eat my usual lunch as well, even if I wasn't technically hungry at that point. Its been a slow change but I do generally feel in control around food and drink these days. I can have one biscuits or one pint of beer without it inevitably leading to another. I don't eat in secret, everything I eat is eaten in front of people or written down on here. I have the occassional day or hour when I want large quantities of bad food but generally a little bit of it turns out to be enough.

I guess I am just trying to reassure you both that your thinking will change. I had some very disordered behaviours and thoughts around food and if that has changed for me it will definitely change for you. I may suck at actually losing weight but I am pretty confident that I am not likely to put weight back on if I take my eye away from ball these days either because I genuinely can't imagine changing my current eating habits even if I wasn't following a specific eating plan.

 

[Ella Belle]

Thank you both, Purpled, I'm 5ft4in. I know 9miles sounds like a lot and it is great to have find it but I guarantee you'd do it too. I'm delighted to be able but not yet happy with my pace and my breathing isn't right at all yet. Hopefully by half marathon time in Sept I'll be doing 10min miles, this is really my running goal. For me it's all about endurance and sprint fitness, I have zero sprint fitness at all do this is something I really have to work on. I'm out of breath and sweating after four minutes...not so good!! But still ecstatic to have done it..I'm slowly going to build it up week on week and after September I might see if I can do the full marathon but this is only a pipe dream right now

Atomic, thank you so much for sharing that. I was the same as you, I hid food all over the place, I used to have a lot in the car to and from work and I'd feel hard done by if I couldn't. It gives me hope that you have overcome it a bit, thank you..x

 

[bulldogdaisy]

I should actually say that having no weeklies is challenging. Not so much from the meal aspect but that part of my brain that feels it deserves a treat is screaming at me right now..hence the coke zero later. I was just in the shop on the way back from the mountain and I was looking at all the Special K snack things and inside my head I was screaming for them...I don't even really like them...that's the part of me that I need to sort out. I was reading somewhere on here I think about how this dieting thing is not temporary, we have to learn a new way to live and be..it has really affected me. I guess I'm always saying to myself that this is only 'for now' but really I need to understand that I'm never going to be able to sit down at night with 4 packets of crisps and 2 bars of chocolate and wash it down with a bottle of wine. I have to get it out of my head that it's okay to do that. Like OH can sit and eat a few biscuits and then put the packet away, I don't think I've ever in my life had a couple of biscuits (except when other people are around), I always finish the packet, even to the point where I might feel sick. I need to learn that it's okay and normal to not have trash every day. Anyway, these are all things I'll need to really concentrate on and think about when I get nearer to goal as I honestly do not want to have to be in this position again. I want us all to work hard now and then eventually get to our goals and be cheering eachother on from the 'Maintainers' section for evermore without having to spend much time worrying about putting on weight again.

Okay, really must do the bloody chicken now..

Love the support that comes across in this message :0)