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Hey love, so sorry you're feeling at a loss with your work, it's hard isn't it. I had that when I worked at a bank, was there 6 years and pretty much hated it after 2, but got stuck there, felt like I was worth so much more and there were so many people with so few chances to move up. I think I'm the only person thankful for the banking crisis as it meant I could take redundancy and afford to go back to school!
No idea if my plans will pan out and it's terrifying to think I'm doing all this and it might not even happen, I have no idea if I can even do the post grad never mind phd!
But I def know that feeling of hating going every day and looking for excuses to not being there. It will get better, and temping jobs won't look bad on your cv once you can explain it was part of moving to a new city, it's hard times to find a job, even more so a career so employers will understand and temping is better than doing nothing as it shows you're motivated, ESP if there's no actual financial need for you to be doing so at the mo..
I'm exactly the same as you about talking to my friends about problems, I share a lot more of my personal life in my diary than I would actually discuss it with people I'm close to.
It will get better, it always does
Oh also, love that Aztec dress! Amazing, fits you so well also.
Hope the wine does the trick and some nice hugs from your fella (he sounds ace by the way!)
I'm scared as dan just applied for an awesome job at the berekley in London, which means a long distance thing for us if he gets it, at least until we move down there too in like 3 years. He has to look there for jobs with any future as there just aren't any in Newcastle, kinda sucks but exciting for him, careers are scary and hard things to get... Especially when you don't know exactly what you want, if jack can support you maybe look at some internships or work shadowing of careers that interest you? Then you'll know if it's a real fit rather than just an appealing sounding idea.
Hope you feel much better after the weekend, Friday tomorrow so some time off at least
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I'm with Charl regarding tomorrow being Friday. At least tomorrow you can preoccupy yourself with the beautiful thought of two days off. Any nice plans for the weekend? If you do hand your notice in then how long do you still have to work? I think you know what you need to do hun, and sometimes you just have to trust yourself. When I left the Montessori school I was so terrified because we had rent to pay etc and I was technically unemployed for the first time in 7 years. I ended up being unemployed for four days. I know that's because my old boss took me back, but I was also offered an interview for a good job! At that point I was back in the college but it made me feel good. I spent each day really focusing on making good job applications, researching etc and as you said you really need the time to do that. Not in the evening when you are shattered and just want bed and chill out time.
I know you will come out of this and feel a million times better! xxx
P.S I feel you should do something lovely this weekend. You deserve it
Thanks Charl.
The job isn't even that bad tbh it's more the bigger picture of doing jobs that aren't interesting or challenging and not seeing a light at the end of the tunnel, i.e. getting a permanent job doing something I'm good at and enjoy. I've also relied on temping for such a long time that I feel like I need to break the cycle. It's such an easy thing to go back to and I'm most temping agencies dream as I have a lot of experience, fit in well in every workplace I've been in and I pick things up quickly. Hence why I feel that I should be putting these skills into something more!
Well done on having the courage to go for what you want. I think it's fab that you've gone back to school and are working towards something you have a genuine passion for. My sister-in-law-to-be has done a very similar thing and gone back to do her a-level/degree/masters in psychology and she's in the process of applying for a PHD to do educational psychology which is similar to what you're doing isn't it? I've been tempted to go back and study but for me it's just another means of escapism as I'm not even sure what I'd study or what job I'd be aiming for at the end of it.
I hope everything goes well for you both if Dan gets the job - what does he do? It can be tough having a long distance relationship but you make it work. Jack travels away for his job too and is home at the weekends so it does suck but it's strange how quickly it becomes normal. We're hoping that his next project will be more local but we're lucky at the moment as he's working from home a lot at the moment.
Yeah I should look into internships again. I've done one or two in the past and found them frustrating at the time as it was really basic stuff like flyering or putting together press packs and it didn't feel like it was really adding anything to my CV. I suppose it depends on the company and the level of responsibility I would be given, but it's definitely worth investigating.
Thanks for your advice hun it's really appreciated! I hope you're well and everythings back to normal (as much as it can be) for you xxx
(Oh and he is amazing by the way thanks hun - I really very lucky
was the pork and choritzo burger from a recipe? Sounds lovely!
Sounds like the kind of weekend you really needed. Also sounds like a dinner like burger and chips was just what your body wanted after all that alcohol
Well done on being strong and making a decision regarding your job. It will all work out for you and next week should be a lot easier considering after 5 days you don't have to come back
