Cute dresses!
Thanks! Thought I was putting them on my diary but put them on Lisa's by mistake!!
Would you mind sharing your meatloaf recipe? Looks like it might be ideal for red days
THURSDAY! Feel a bit yucky...was okay until mid afternoon. Flushed cheeks, feeling hot, even though T said I was cold. Sickly headache etc. so a quick diary update then telly in bed tonight with my choc and a few cups of tea I think. A) 350ml skimmed B) 35g porridge oats Breakfast: Pineapple and satsuma with fat free yoghurt. <img src="http://www.minimins.com/attachment.php?attachmentid=136027"/> Lunch: Porridge with a sprinkle of cinnamon. Couldn't be bothered with anything else. Tea: Meat loaf, SW chips and salad with balsamic. <img src="http://www.minimins.com/attachment.php?attachmentid=136028"/> Syns: 17g ripple - 4.5 15g white buttons - 4 Raspberry Ruffle - 2.5 SF jelly - 0.5 Meatloaf - 2 = 13.5 Lisa xxx
The in laws visited from Wiltshire and only left about 3 hours ago.
I've not seen my mother in law for 5 years.
First thing she says when she walks in the house.. ..."you need to go on a diet, this is the biggest I've ever seen you".
I've never felt so awkward and self conscious in my life and I'm totally f@cked off with her.
We went to the Chinese buffet and I could feel her watching me eat. I just wanted to get up and walk out. Needless to say I hardly had anything, she made me feel like a freak!.
I've overcome the death of my mum plus my uncle and 2 Aunties in the last 2 years plus I'm on some pretty mean medication that stimulates my appetite. I've also quit smoking within the last 18 months and started detox for drinking, and I get judged on my size still.
I'm under no illusions that I'm very, very overweight, does she think that she needs to point it out because for some reason I'm not bluddy aware of it?!!!..
I'm boiling mad! SW for today is cancelled and probably for tomorrow and the next day too. Damn probably crash and burn and come back in a few weeks like I usually do. P!ssed off and really hurt....how dare she!.
I hope your ok hun, ive not been around in a week so not seen this How bloody rude of her! no bloody need at all for it. please dont let her put you off hunny. You can do this. xxx
Good morning chick. I'm so sorry to read that your MIL decided to just put the boot in - honestly what a completely unnecessarily b1tchy thing to say. . In future you need to say something like "That was rude!" and then just stand there...people speak without thinking sometimes and even if they're being calculating it really puts them on the spot without making you look like a crazy woman. I've been AWOL too - looks like we're synced up in our highs and lows. Don't stop doing your diary here, I enjoy reading it and I do think it's helpful to you. I think making the decision to go a class is a great one, it's very difficult sticking to plan without that added pressure if you know what I mean? As to your fears about diabetes - I think you should make an appointment TODAY to go and get it checked out...whatever the results you will have your mind put at rest and you'll be able to make some plans going forward. Sugar is SUPER ADDICTIVE, so I don't think that you're craving sweet things is especially something to worry about, honestly. It just takes hard work to give up the sweet devil.
I shouldn't of let her get to me but her comment knocked me side-ways and they have caused arguments. My son was fuming and wanted to say something but I stopped him but then in turn I resented hubbs who was standing next to me for not saying anything in my defence. Anyway I suppose I needed this last week or so to get my head around the fact that me and the plan just don't get on if I don't go to group and get support. I'm dreading going again but luckily my two nieces go to the same group and do do a few of my friends off FB so I know it won't take long before I'm comfortable again. It's only been this past year that I've craved sugar like I do and I remember it being one of the initial symptoms of mums pre-diabetic condition that and fatigue - which I have. The thirst and peeing have only been recent really. I was looking at my old SW books from when I joined last year and I weigh exactly 5lbs heavier now than what I was when I joined last April. So I'm actually quite surprised with that considering I'm not has active as I was last year and on 2 different medications that have side effects that stimulate my appetite. But last year I don't remember feeling as massive as I do today or quite so physically fatigued and unwell. What the fluck do I expect though at 5ft 5 and over 18 stone ?!!!! Times they are a changing. Lisa xxx