I'm back!!!!
Got home from work yesterday afternoon... five mins after receiving a phone call from BT telling me that my activation would be delayed until 22 March.. walked in the spare room/study to drop my briefcase etc and noticed that all the lovely little green lights on my broadband hub were winking at me!!!!! So wasted no time at all and got online! However I came onto Minimins and couldn't get onto mine or anyone elses threads, just completely blank pages opened .. which was v odd! But then this morning, everything is fine - all v strange!!!!!
Anyway thanks Lottie and Jennie for letting people know that I am actually alive!!! I have been v bad food wise and been eating on and off for the last 5 weeks!!! I was still losing weight though up to the week after I moved (when i got into the 11's)... I haven't dared weigh myself since then!!!!! I tried to SS yesterday.. and only got as far as last night, when I polished off a fray bentos pie that was in the cupboard - i am now back to having nothing edible in the house so I'm hoping to SS from today. I will weigh myself on Monday. I couldn't make up my mind whether to weigh myself now and shock myself into sticking to SS or to ignore the damage until Monday when hopefully a bit of an improvement would have occured. Personally I think the weighting (excuse the pun) till Monday is the favourable option... as I may be so downhearted and stuff my face if I weigh myself now!
On the good side though I have been having loads of exercise.. both the normal kind (ie my running is great at the mo) and the horizontal kind... although that may end v soon!
SO after that paragraph I guess I better update my lovelife for u all. On my second weekend down here I met a guy in Coventry (met him through the mysinglefriend.com site), we met on the Friday night and had a really good night. We arranged to see each other again the following night and to cut a long story short, got on great. He lives in a v gorgeous huge flat in Warwickshire and is an engineer.. will call him D. It was Valentines day the week after we met and I had stayed at his the night before (Broke my 6 date rule and turned it into a 3 date rule!!!), in the morning I woke to find a card on the bed and he had arranged to take me to see Hot Fuzz Val day night. After my appointments that day I got home to find a dozen red roses had been delivered from Next (I nearly cried - not had anything on valentines day since I was about 18!!!) Felt v loved up..!
The second week of the whirlwind relationship was really good too, and he stayed at mine every night (he turned up on the MOnday night with a signed film still from Brokeback Mountain of Jake Gyllenhaal - the sexiest man alive, complete with authenticity cert)... this was all good, but I have to admit I don't like getting too many gifts, so after that I told him to stop the buying of pressies things (strange aren't i!)... he accepted this. Anyway we had a brilliant laugh that week and I felt really happy.... HOWEVER
I love my own space and seemingly on Friday morning I was a bit snappy, as he faffs around like an old woman and it got on my nerves! But honestly I think I got a few warning signals earlier in the week, the first and main one being that he was going to Sweden on business for two weeks mid march, I had thought I would miss him, but I also thought I would enjoy the time to myself.... but he texted me to say he had shortened the trip to 5 working days. The second signal was I said my tattoo design for my final cover up session was complete and I needed to go and view it, he said when I go for the work he would like to come with me to get something done himself, I said couldn't he find someone a bit more local and he said he'd rather use mine so we could go together. Final signal was I had told him I had pre-registered for the Robin Hood Marathon but due to not having any internet had not received any emails from them even though I knew they were opening the site to enter mid Feb. Last Thursday I got a text from him to say he had entered the marathon (he said last few places available - which was a blatant lie coz i rang them up stressing thinking I wasn't going to get a place!), he said now we would be able to train together - I felt like he was taking over my life! ON the Thursday night he turned up with a training plan he had compiled which basically meant we would be running together solidly for the next 6 months!!!!!!
So Friday morning was the final straw, he knew he had peed me off... which meant he needed constant reassurance things were okay, making him clingy and needy.. this made me back off worse (oh I forgot to tell you, last wednesday he told me he loved me). He had bought me surprise tickets (although I had guessed by the night) to go see Mika in Birmingham on that night, so we met up and went .. but it was strained. I told him I wasn't going to stay on Sunday night as arranged as I had things to do and needed some time to myself. He sulked at this, saying thats just great, I will have to change my plans, I asked what plans and he said he would have to freeze the joint of lamb he had bought - I didn't believe him, as he had been v busy on the Friday afternoon so didnt' think he would have had time to buy one. I told him to cook it Saturday instead and he said no he would freeze it... On the Saturday a little slip of the tongue and he said he had frozen the chicken that he had bought, I said I thought it was lamb and he said no that was fatty so he bought chicken.... this turned into not even a full chicken but chicken breasts - I think he had to change it into something he actually had in the freezer incase I called his bluff!! I hate lying and I hate pathetic feeling sorry for yourself so try to make the other person feel guilty lying even more!!!!!!
So we went out with Lottie and her other half in Cov on Sat night, it was v strained on mine and D's part.. he looked all sad and sorry for himself and I looked like I wanted to be anywhere else but with him! We left early and had a chat when we got back to his (Oh forgot to say I was supposed to go to Austria with him today for 4nights/5 days), he asked if it was over and I said i thought it was for the best, but in the morning I said we'd have a break and see how it goes. Well Sunday morning, he mentioned that he had heard that I was going up to Huddersfield in a couple of weeks, and he said that he would like to come to so he could meet my mates, he said we would get a hotel.... blah blah blah.. so much for cooling off!!!!!
I told him by text on tuesday morning that I didnt' think Austria was a good idea, I said we needed to talk. Last night we talked, over the phone (i was supposed to go over but couldn't face it really!!).. we resolved alot... well it appears we resolved a lot and by the end of the conversation we were getting on, he suggested we just go back to dating and take it from there, he says i am the sexiest girl he has ever met, that he thinks the world of me, that i make him laugh and i make him cry and he can't bear for it to be over. He thinks we have something great.. which I would have to agree in the first 1 1/2 weeks it did feel like that.. but now TBH I really don't think so. I'm seeing him tonight for a cinema "date".. thought it unfair to both of us to finish it without actually even meeting up with him again... the idea of tonight though is fun rather than talking.. so not sure what I will do if I see him and its all wrong.. but I'm fairly transparent, so I think he may notice!!!
Phew... sorry for war and peace! But i've been away for four weeks!!!!!!! I'm supposed to be out running now!!!!||!
(woohoo I can do the other smilies 
